fifteen there's still time for you, time to buy and time to lose...

:: 2004 10 April :: 1.43pm
:: Mood: pretty good
:: Music: Lion King! haha

Alison's spiffy quiz!
1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says: �Sir John was loud in his admiration at the end of every song, and as loud in his conversation with the others while every song lasted.� Jane Austen The Complete Novels.

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?: Magazines.

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?: Fairly Odd Parents! haha

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is: 10:35 AM.

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:50 AM. Go me!

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?: My iPod!

7: When did you last step outside?: Yesterday, going to dinner with Louise and Nicole! Yummy!

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?: Alison's journal :)

9: What are you wearing?: Pink PJ shorts with purple elephants and hearts! And a big sharks t-shirt.

10: Did you dream last night?: Yes, I had a dream that my family and I took a trip on a plane to a place totally made out of food.... But then something bad happened... But I forget!

11: When did you last laugh?: Yesterday at my good buddies Louise and Nicole.

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?: Posters, pictures, etc.

13: Seen anything weird lately?: I don't think so...

14: What do you think of this quiz?: SPIFFY!

15: What is the last film you saw?: Hidalgo! YAY VIGGO!

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?: The state of Alaska, haha. I do not really know actually!

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know: hmmm... I don't know what you don't know... in fact you probably know MORE than I know...

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?: End the fighting and the hate.

19: Do you like to dance?: yes

20: George Bush: He is a bad man. And I will cry if he is re-elected.

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?: Abbey

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?: SLARPY, haha!

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?: YES!

:: 2004 9 April :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: yeehaw
:: Music: freaky lady singing

CIRRRRRRQE!
RANDOM THOUGHT OF LAST NIGHT: I CAN BE EGOTISTICAL BECAUSE I'M CUTE!

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE AFTERNOON #1: YOU LOSE!

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE AFTERNOON #2: COME HITHER!

:: 2004 8 April :: 5.40pm
:: Mood: damn the homework
:: Music: L'Chaim

what to do?
YOU NOW HAVE TO PAY IF YOU WANT TO HAVE A WOOHU!
grrrr.
i finally get one and what happens? now you hafta pay for 'em. oh well. i guess there is always live journal or xanga... but i don't think my journal is that interesting anyway... should i even bother getting another?

1 smile | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 7 April :: 12.35am
:: Mood: lost it

Better watch out
Forewarning, do not get on my bad side tomorrow. I'm going on a rampage. Love ya, Dee

:: 2004 6 April :: 1.47pm
:: Mood: So-so
:: Music: Speak of Peace

How 'bout we not...
So yeah, we just had our singy thingy... yawn... we sharped 1st assembly... hehehehehe... Michelle said I had a perfect face for Daniel.

I have an appointment with my shrink lady... heheh I skipped the DBT meetings for the first two sessions... she's going to kill me... hehehehehe.... yeah...

Dare's back in the hospital so I'm pretty stressed and depressed and yeah.... ... .. .

Dee.....

:: 2004 4 April :: 2.32pm
:: Mood: dirty
:: Music: Avenue Q-You Can Be As Loud As The Hell You Want (When You're Makin' Love)

take her home! she's wasted! YAYY!!
(those are lyrics. no, my dirty mind doesn't support mentally inhibited sex!)

ohhhhhhhhhhhh. baby. yesterday was goooooood. spent my morning talking to guys. i realized in the shower that i had flirted with one guy from each grade level within the period of about an hour. (fresh-senior) NICE!

well, ya know how i have my priorities? they've changed! and OH MAN am i happy. :0D i had an especially wild time with *insert name of man from HEAVEN here*. oh my God. it was beautiful. and i needed it SOOO badly.

cybering must have been heaven sent. thank you, Lord. *looks up and smiles*

safe, erotic, and shameless! IT'S PERFECT!

now for some action in person...hehehe...;-)

omg huge grr. we didn't get to sing in church today!! WE EVEN APPEALED AND WORE OUR CHOIR ROBES OUT IN THE SANCTUARY!! but nooo. it's palm sunday! we want to sing! we neeeeed to sing! DAMN YOU, JERRY AND SPRING BREAK! *pouts* that was dissapointing.

i got to hang out with andrew, though! yay! we were part of the passion narrative. fun stuffers! oh, and OUR TEAM WON JEAPORDY!! *PHFTHHHHT!* and it WASN'T simon of cyrano. haha. great times.

what were the color of the robes jesus was said to wear during the ascention?

a.purple
b.yellow
c.white
d.unknown

me: WHERE THE HELL DID THEY GET PURPLE AND YELLOW?!?!
andrew and annie: shhh!! it's not our question!!
me: oops...

don't worry, there were some harder questions. ;-)

anthropologie splurge, (yay for gift certificates) cast list posted, choir, and youth group tonight. yay!

the fast begins friday at 6:00. we will serve communion to each other to being the fast, and then live on nothing but fruit juice and water (yeah...why fruit juice? that seems like cheating to me!) for 24 hours. our time will be spent having fun and having group discussions about world hunger. oh, and i'm sure there'll be some silent prayer, seeing as it's GOOD FRIDAY. *tear* anyone want to come to the maundy thursday service with me? *hint hint new boytoy in my life who's a METHODIST hint hint* they turn out the LIGHTS *hint hint* :0D

HAHA I LOVE YOU LOUISE!
Horseeyoregal: ORGASMIC
Wheezy6125: so then their all at dinner eating it and tita's sister Gertrudis starts getting 'hot and passionate' as some would say. i would say 'twitchy and horny and definately stoned on something inorganic'
Wheezy6125: so Gertrudis is getting all sweaty and rose scents starts coming out of her pores and she RUNS to the outdoor shower
Horseeyoregal: HAHAH!
Wheezy6125: and meanwhile, her smell has drifted down to the battlefield of the mexican revolution and this sexy hunky general who saw her the other day (and gertrudis was fantasizing about him when she was eating her cosmic horn inducing chicken) he goes riding towards the aromatic rose cloud
Horseeyoregal: HAHAHA
Wheezy6125: and she's naked in the outdoor shower and she's so hot it the water evaporates before it touches her and the shower explodes
Horseeyoregal: now that's unreasonable

(explaining some steamy spanish literature to me...LOL!)

:: 2004 3 April :: 5.44pm
:: Mood: Pretty Alright
:: Music: Me Against The Music- BS

Sadies (of course, seeing as it was last night an' all)
So, I'm sure just about everyone else has posted what happened at Sadies from their point of view, but I haven't becuz I was tired :) So I went to dinner at Chili's with Yee (Jeremey, Yee's date, had swim practice) and Brandon. We chatted, pretty boring honestly. So we pick up Jeremy and go to the dance. Brandon and Jeremy refuse to dance. Did I mention Brandon actually flirted with other girls? Oh well, we said screw the men and acted liek we were stag. :) I got totally wild in my own opinion, ask Nat I'm very sure he'd agree :) As Britney would say "I was whippin' my hair and pullin' my wy waist." I had some fun. Mainly I just danced with my gal pals, at one point we all got a little out of control... hahaha... that was funny and good fun. Danced with Aaron (will get back to that later) and slow danced for like a minute with another girl, who's date also abandoned her. Oh, I also not really "freaked" with this one girl, SHE STARTED IT! This was when Nat came in with the comment that I was really wild. BTW I must learn more of this... Sebastian guy.... ;)

So back to Aaron, if you went on the Washington D.C. trip in 8th grade you may or may not recall the whole "War card game" I had with Aaron where I can now safely say, I was shamelessly flirting. He was a sweetie and I keep thinking about it lately. So that gives him point 1. Point 2 comes from when I walked in he told me I looked great (I may have made that up) and said I had to dance with him once that night. I found that flattering. Point 3 came from when I went outside to drag Brandon in, it was really cold and yeah. So Aaron took off his really warm, leather jacket and put it on me and said "If I had my letterman I'd give it to you. Make that point 3 & 4! Damn, does it get more cheesily romantic than that?! Point 5 came from out dance, we freaked but not really... or maybe... I dunno. Anyway, he said he came with Kat but Kat didn't like being close so I danced with him. Man were we close! I could have melted... My head... his shoulder... the urge to just make out with him 'cuz of the erotic hip swinging movements ;) and the fact I was so close to him.... *sigh* I melt... damn my teenage hormones... hehehehe

On a scale of 1-10, I would say I had 11 on the fun factor! The company was great and I let loose on the dance floor!

much love,
KirbyDee

~*~ Added~*~ ((sparks inner child test, so true... sooooo true...))

Little Filthy Old Pervert
(Perverse Spoiled Dysfunctional Adult)

Your inner child is the Little Filthy Old Pervert (PSDA). He's not so bad, though, as far as inner children are concerned. Just give him a park bench and a trenchcoat and he's ready to go.

What's more, you could practically hang meat on all of your hang-ups. Phobias, fetishes, anxieties, neurosese... there are so many things happening inside you at once that your inner child is lost in the woods and hunted by wierd psycological animals. He stays hidden so much it's like he's not even there.

It's not so much that he's insane, it's just that you're crazy.

It's up to you to lure him out with bits of cheese and sugar and get him some rehabilitation. Or stay hunted.

4 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 3 April :: 9.53am
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: Avenue Q-What Do You Do With A BA In English/It Sucks To Be Me

FUCK! it sucks to be me!
in sadies related sentiments, two words come to mind: passionate and exciting.

oh wait. no. nevermind! ;-D

the two words are: denial and boy scouting. well, i suppose i've been doing both for a very long time. well, 'doing' one, 'experiencing' the other. well, now that one of the two is realized, i think i can fully devote myself to the other. or can i?

i know what i want. and i know quite a bit about my options. i can think of 5 guys right now who would easily fulfill the desire that is currently lacking in my life. (aka, a little romance, more physical contact, and a fun date who's actually willing to dance with me and touch me a little.) yes, 5. all of them close enough friends (well, make that 4) that i wouldn't feel uncomfortable with them, and trust them enough to let myself go a little.

but gosh. i'm already such a bitch in the sense that i lead guys on...wouldn't that be the same thing? i wrote a poem last night, but it's not like i needed that to tell me that i'm not willing to let go. i say it almost every day: i have my priorities! and i know where they lie. but i think i'm ready to break through the security of knowing that i'll never be touched unless i start it.

i honestly desire a little physical affection. NOT MUCH, mind you, and we all know what happens when guys take it too far with me, but DAMN, i need SOMETHING! i've always been kind of a physical person. i've had my limitations, of course, but i like hugs. i don't have a hard time showing my affection in physical manners. i like being close in the mental sense as well as in the physical. i find great comfort in snuggling into someone's arms. i don't mean to be needy, but doesn't everyone need some physical affection sometimes?

well, onto my poem. i wrote this after i got home last night.

Purity

A cup of water, filled to the brim
Full of life, experiences
Openly proclaiming choices of old
A dash of dirt for taking a chance
A bit of sand for losing himself in her eyes
Though unmistakably pure.

Another glass,
So full it spills over with life and fulfillment
Cloudy with decisions yet to be made
A thin line of silt rests at the bottom
For risking her family's trust
Going on a whim, passion replacing reason.
Less bland to the taste, willing to share her flavor
But deep inside, she wants to be pure.

She wants her life to mix, new ideas,
different water to replace some of the weakness within her own cup
She's seen the effects of mixing with a cup full of mud,
of decisions negative and a troubled past
She'll only mix with the purist she can find,
The who she secretly wishes to be,
At least to live up to the high standers of his accomplishments

As she tries to get closer, her impurities begin to spill out
She regrets her 'spur of the moment' nature
And longs to be reminded of how it is one ought to be
His clear, crystalline water slowly pours into her soul
She's renewed with puritanical visions she can't quite grasp
And curses inwardly as the water slowly trickles away,
knowing that she is unable to wash away the dirt from her past.

A thin film resides on her water, cautious of failure and bad influence
But easily broken with the slightest touch
A heavy filter surrounds the second
Allowing no one to see in, pushing away the ones who want to enter,
Changing them before their world blends with his
A hopeful stream against a dam of boulders.

Forever hopeful, she tries again
To break past the sheild
She wonders what he'd think if he saw her every move
Allowing him to analyze her life
In hopes of one day being able to pass through the filter with ease

Sweaty hands push them together, one film breaks,
one grows stronger.
As one pushes for more, the other avoids its touch
Though breaking a while, in between attempts to love,
The ever hopeful impurity struggles onward.

Finally it becomes too much.
Too many hands, dirty and curious
Trying in vain to mix the two
Who should "obviously be together"
The filters close, and push the other glass away
Telling her that he's not worth her time,
Let him be! Go on without him.

She wants him still
Admiring him from a distance.
Longing for just one more sip of his crystaline purity
More dust collects at the bottom of her glass
She tires again, draws him closer, but her thirst is not quenched
She can't stop trying. She wants it too much.
The desire to be pure. All she wants is to be pure.

interesting, no?

well, with advice from my wonderful friends greg and francesco, i've made a very unstable decision. i think i'm going to pursue other friendships with the potentential of becoming closer. i'm going to make it clear that these relationships are friends-only, in hope that they won't think of me as something more.

well, want to hear about the party? of course you do!

so we all had a little get-together at they hayman's at 6:30. the turnout included, me, jeff, ross, dmitry, dmitry's date, (who is SUPER COOL!) sarah, charlie, shannon, henry, eleanor, alex, ali, lisa, lisa's date, (funny guy!) christiana, and terrance. did i forget anybody? *thinks* i'm not sure.

we had a fun time playing the piano, me thinking that piano players are sexy (wait, i do that EVERY time i'm at jeff's house!) played some pool, talked a lot, flirted with christiana and lisa (yes, you read it correctly) was possessive of jeff, smelled terrance, slapped some asses, and had a merry little time! oh, and we ate yummy food, thanks to brenda and becky!! <3 you! oh! mackenzie was there too!

inside jokes: do you have gel? i'm being WATCHED! NO! THAT'S TOO SEXUAL! omg! they're not attached! lots of singing. you're my bitch! what kind of animal is this? SHUT UP AND EAT! i just wanted to see how long it'd take you to be quiet. fair enough. perhaps.

and uhh...yeah!! that's sadies!

:: 2004 1 April :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: sexy
:: Music: Avenue Q-The More You Ruv Someone

conversations
Horseeyoregal: go have fun being hot and steamy!
PyroFran203: but talking to u about being hot and steamy is sooo much fun
PyroFran203: :-P
PyroFran203: hahahahahaha
Horseeyoregal: *pants*
PyroFran203: haahhahahahaha
PyroFran203: isnt this getting amusing?
Horseeyoregal: of course!
PyroFran203: duh
PyroFran203: its always amusing talking to melissa
PyroFran203: :-P
Horseeyoregal: aww thanks

SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: god im like obsessed with you
Horseeyoregal: hahaha
Horseeyoregal: was that meant for me?
Horseeyoregal: HAHAHAH
Horseeyoregal: ROTFLMAO
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: OMG I LOE YOU MORE
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: like somtimes when im around you i get this weird feelling
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: and sometime i just wont be
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: able to control it
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: and im just gonna JUMP on you
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: like a WILD
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: animal'
SwEeTrOxYcHiCk42: and im gonnna ruff sexxx you to the BREAK of DAWN..
Horseeyoregal: HAHAH
Horseeyoregal: i'm soo fucking excited!
Horseeyoregal: let's do it!

i'll add one more when i feel like it about me in french class today. funny stuff.

**finally added 4/3/04**

dans la classe de francias, mercredi dernier:

(pour un exercise)
melissa: J'aime les gens qui sont tres gentilles et qui aiment la musique classique. (actually, it was a different sentence, but i can't find it in my cahier. sorry!)
class (especially charlie, sarah, and ali): *laughs*
mme youatt: pourquoi est-ce que vous risez? vous soyez le garcon qu'elle dit?
class: oui.
charlie: il est ancien.
mme youatt: *confused expression* quoi?
charlie: il est comment dit on 'junior'.
mme youatt: oh, oui, pas ancien. *laughs*
charlie: oui, il a seize ans.
mme youatt: a quelle prof est-ce qu'il apprend le francais?
charlie: a vous!
mme youatt: oh! c'est jeff?
classe: oui!
mme youatt: oui, il est tres gentil et musical!
melissa: *dreamily* oui!
sarah: comment dit-on 'obsessed'?

:: 2004 31 March :: 9.58pm
:: Mood: creative
:: Music: Oklahoma-Oh, What A Beautiful Morning

notes
my good friend melissa (that's me!) just found this note between us from last year. ha. read on, read on.

melissa: could this BE more boring. Really, I don't think I could care less.
me: o i know...if he can act so well why doesnt he make it more interesting? jeez.
melissa: I know. I'm not convinced of his skills...ugh. this sucks. we have like over an hour of this class left...:-(
me: ugh...i think i'll keel over in a cornfield now
melissa: cornfield, huh? interesting...
me: more interesting than this, anyway
melissa: yeah. we should take a fieldtrip to a cornfield... fun.
me: haha...then we could all keel over. wahoo.

*melissa is melissa and ME is nicole

ahhh i don't want to swim for 2 hours tomorrow! but i DO want to look at hot swimmer bodies!

my horseback riding lesson (the tuesday lesson) is going to throw a kickass party 2 weeks from now. yes, kickass. you don't know these people. it shall be kickass.

SADIES IS FRIDAY!!! it needs to be friday NOW! AHHHHH!!! i need to get the bids. harhar. whoops.

I FOUND MY FRENCH SKIT FROM 8TH GRADE!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! BEAUTIOUS!

je dois pisser. again. assez pour maintenent. wow, that was FAR from gramatically correct. je dois baigner. a bientot!

:: 2004 30 March :: 11.05pm
:: Mood: ill but alright
:: Music: El Beso Del Final- Chrissy Aguilera

Hey
Sorry for the long time no post! just my internet is down but now it's back up... oddly still on Dare's comp... Anyway, yeah.

What's new? Well, I'm participating in the poetry slam! I'm going to try and preform it for Mr. Smith see if he can give me any commmentary on how to fiz it up. It's called Mime as you already know, I'm gonna try to get dressed up for the part but no white face make-up, I just don't want to deal with it.

I can't believe Sadies is finally here! It seems an eternity ago that I asked Brandon to go with me... I feel bad 'cuz on my way out of the assembly I saw him and Aaron so I went over. The convo went something like this:
Me: hey guys!
Aaron: So Deanna, I hear you are going to sadies with Brandin.
Me: Yeah....
Aaron: So are you two friends or is this a date.
*Brandon and I exchange uneasy glances*
Me: um... welll *decides to avoid the question.* Brandon's my escort.
Aaron: That's all?
*Brandon makes a sad face, not sure if he was kidding or serious and suddenly didn't want to walk near me...* THEN TORY GLOMPED MY MAN!!!

You know what is sad? Today, Vova's friend was like " I know you love Vova." (which I don't, he just gives kick ass hugs and I can't control my urge to flirt with guys.) So my response was going to be "no, I like _____ (insert name here." Then I realized I couldn't pick just one single name...

After school today I was supposed to work with Mr. Shaull but he ended up not being able to get back from his doctor's appointment on time so it will just have to wait until tom. So, I got to hang with Elspeth and Jeff for a bit. Jeff kept playing Kyrie on the piano and then he started singing. he is really loud. kinda spooooky. What I thought was hilarious was the door was locked and I waved to Elspeth and Jeff. They wave back rof course. I point to the door and they smile, nod and wave some more. Then Corbin walks in the other door, looks at them and then to me. Crosses the room and opens the door for me. ha, yes that made my day. I love Corbin but not in that way.

Alright, much love from me to you!
KirbyDee

:: 2004 30 March :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: happy!
:: Music: ESPN theme song, shut up I'm watching Stanford women

I SHOOK HIS HAND!
So as many of you already know, I went to see *drum roll please* JOHN KERRY speak last night in San Francisco! For those of you who don't know who he is (like so many other teens! grrrrr), shame on you. He is the extraordinary democratic presidential candidate for our United States of America. I went last night with my mother, father, sister, cousin, cousin's girlfriend, cousin's friend, and cousin's friend's girlfriend. HAHA! Yes. We got there and after being bombarded with JOHN KERRY FOR PRESIDENT pins, bumper stickers, etc. and getting through security, we made our way into the room in which he was to give his speech. We stood there for about half an hour or so (there were no chairs!) until a representative came out and introduced... a really crappy band. They sang for much too long. But after that was finally over and we thought Mr. Kerry would finally come out, a different representative introduces a different (thankfully better!) band. Some of the members were in The Greatful Dead. They were good but ended up playing for nearly an hour and a half in efforts to stall because apparently Kerry was somewhat late (Yes, only two hours I was standing in between a bunch of old fat people in uncomfortable shoes. But hey, who�s complaining?) Finally, a man came out to introduce John Kerry, but only after a women actually fainted. Yes, excitement! And then, FINALLY, he comes out. I am just about twenty-five feet away from the possible president of the USA! He his there with his wife, who is supposedly amazing as well.
His speech is nothing short of incredible.
So after I have nearly clapped my hands off, it is over and he proceeds to meet and greet the guests. I attempt for nearly thirty minutes before I SHOOK HIS HAND!!! Yes, I, MOLLY DOW SHOOK JOHN KERRY, FUTURE PRESIDENT�S HAND (Shut up, he WILL win!) And then, to top it all off, my sister got his signature on a spiffy St. Francis (the hotel we were in) napkin. AAAAAAAAH!
Oh, and we made a secret service friend! We saw him on one side of the room while we were waiting for Kerry and then on the other side of the room later and he says, �Deja vu. We meet again.� HAHAHA! AND, I talked to an Assemblyman, Joe Nation!
SOOOOOOOOO EXCITING!!!!
So I am all signed up for Kids for Kerry and everything; Mr. Bush is going down!

:: 2004 30 March :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: sing-songey
:: Music: A Chorus Line-I Can Do That!

survey time!
1. What time is it? 4:07PM
2. Name: Melissa
3. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Melissa Charlene Rose
4. Nickname: Mel (as started by my church family and later adopted by close friends, MelRose, as Mr. Freeman so LOVINGLY (EEK!) calls me, Squishy, from a certain encounter between my ass and Nat, and Chewy, as apparently Nat thinks my arms must be.
5. Number of candles on your last birthday cake: 15
6. Pets: 3 cats (i'm not strange!) 2 about 4 years old, brother and sister, Skittles and Mr. Mistoffolees, and a kitten, Amber (who we lovingly call 'kitty', 'kitten', or 'NO! get away from there!' and a tortoise named Tracy (gender unknown.) no seriously, the vet can't tell!
7. Natural hair color: blonde. it's soooo beautiful. or that's what i'm told.
8. What friend will have the most entertaining
answers?: who knows? i haven't even sent this yet!
9. How much do you love your job on a scale of 1 to
10: uhhh...depends on the day. 8, on average, i guess. we don't have to pay bills, but then again, we don't get paid. we get to learn some funky stuff, but then again, we have homework to do and some boring classes. we get to see our friends, but not often enough, though there's enough drama to keep us occupied all day.
10. Birth Place: Stanford Hospital in BEAUTIFUL california!
11. Current Residence: ma maison individuelle dans la rue south springer. c'est une bonne place d'habitude.
12. Favorite food: wow. i LIKE food. i'd have to say steak and garlic mashed potatoes. i also love anything pasta, and FISH. WOW I LIKE FISH. especially in maui, but any fish will do. yay for tuna sandwiches, cookie dough, taco bell, and anything fast!
13. Been to Africa? nope. it would be a nice place to visit, though. i'd have to go around singing 'we shall overcome' and random gospel melodies, though. ohhh and see all the pretty animals!
14. Been toilet papering: hahaha...no. i'm not that daring. seriously! it might be a fun thing to do at a party, though!
15. Love someone so much it made you cry?: SOOO MANY TIMES!!! i cried over dear jeffy (except that i didn't actually cry, but i was upset) just the other week!
16. Been in a car accident? nope. but mrs. olson has! and she's PREGNANT!
17. Croutons or bacon bits?: PLEASE! i love croutons and bacon bits!
18. Favorite day of the week: depends on what's going on! fridays and saturdays are generally good. sundays are the pleasant day in general.
19. Favorite word or phrase: "MON DIEU!" or..."squishy?!?!" or..."maybe i'm just hot!" or..."*drools at a hot guy*" or "really? *whatever was just said* relates to jeff! jeff jeff jeff, jeff this, jeff that, jeff jeff jeff etc etc"
20. Favorite Restaurant: for comfort food: taco bell. for nummy food: la fondue, or anything steak-ish
21. What you wanted to be when you grew up as a
child: as a child....well...i wanted to be a MAIN STREET SINGER, OF COURSE! FOREVER! hahaha. ummm, but really. some sort of musician, or maybe something relating to horses.
23. Favorite TV show: Survivor, American Idol, The O.C., anything good
24. What do you want to be when you grow up now?
now i think i'll be 1) a famous and respected broadway conductor 2) a well known theatre critic 3) a psychologist 4) a high school or junior high music teacher/school councilor/music therapist (all of the above, in that order)
25. What computer are you using now? my semi-flat screen dell pc
26. What color is your bedroom carpet? blue
27. Who sent you your last e-mail?: Alison!
28. Best place to max out ur credit card:
everywhere! ummm Charlotte Russe, PacSun, Nordstroms, Macys, Aeropostale, Gap, all of the above!
29. What do you do most often when you are bored?
go online and read livejournals of LAHS upperclassman who don't even know me. mwahaha! or sit in my room and listen to avenue Q, my oboe cd, or wicked
30. Most annoying thing people tell you: "he doesn't like you." FUCK YOU! i mean...i'd rather not hear that, thank you very much. or 'pull your pants up' that one gets me too, especially when said by mrs. satterwhite during mrs. williams' class.
31. Bedtime: it fluctuates. between 9 and 10 usually. if i'm having a good aim conversation, it can be as late as 2 or 3 on a weekend.
32. Pet Peeve: when people underestimate me. GAHHH does that piss me off!
32. Who will respond to this email the quickest?:
Melissa maybe? ;-) ummm...je ne sais pas.
33. Who is the person you sent this to that is least
likely to respond? je ne sais pas. jeff, peut-etre.
34. Weirdest thing you've ever seen: well...i really dunno.
35. Last person you went out to dinner with: nicole and louise and molly!
36. Ford or Chevy: who cares?
37. Time you finished this email: 4:24
40. Who is the slowest aka takes the longest time to
figure somethings out: m*******, because she's DUMB.
41. Who is the funniest out of your friends: ALL OF YOU ARE FUNNY!
42. Who is the quietest of all of your friends: n/a, maybe emily?
43. Who is the loudest of your friends: MEEE!!! or umm....idk.
43. who is the most perverted of all of your friends:
again, MEEE!! second would be...sarah, maybe? no, NICOLE.
44. who is the most wanna be pimp of your friends:
uhrm....n/a
45. What's your favorite color? baby blue
46. Best Actors: Johnny Depp!
46. Best movie: anything musical!
46. Best friends: many, many people. alison and nicole make the top two.
47. Favorite thing to do with each: kiss. JUST KIDDING!! shopping? theatre going? all of the above?
48. Say something about the Lion king: I WAS IN IT!! GOOOO SIMBA! ummm...it's better on broadway.
49. When do you get your biggest rush? when i'm in your arms. ;-)
50. If we were playing 'Ten Fingers', what would you lose a finger for?: the inevitable 'have you made out?' question, and then the 'have you ever been felt up' question. joy.

:: 2004 29 March :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: That Italian Art Song Book-Vittoria, Vittoria

real entry later, for now, TAKE THAT! NOW I HAVE 2 PPL THAT SAY I HAVE A CUTE BUTT!! ONE FRESHMAN IN HS AND ONE FRESHMAN IN COLLEGE!;-p
Cookie4Nat: heeeeyy
Horseeyoregal: i just drank alcohol
Horseeyoregal: and it was ICKY
Cookie4Nat: o man....sitting on me...trying to strip me..i thought u were drunk already
Cookie4Nat: haha
Horseeyoregal: HAHA
Cookie4Nat: ;-)
Cookie4Nat: i wonder wut u would to do me when ur drunk:-*
Horseeyoregal: oohhh boy
Horseeyoregal: wouldn't you like to know
Cookie4Nat: o yess;-)...

Auto response from Horseeyoregal: lalala brb

btw, i just had a few sips of HARD liquor. and BOY WAS IT GROSS!! EWWW!

Horseeyoregal: omg
Horseeyoregal: good
Cookie4Nat: SIGH...!!!
Horseeyoregal: *whew*
Cookie4Nat: haha
Cookie4Nat: hehe
Cookie4Nat: strip me!! haha JK
Horseeyoregal: yeah u better be
Horseeyoregal: but i woudn't mind
Cookie4Nat: o really,....:-*
Horseeyoregal: so wait, i forget *innocent look* how does my ass feel again?
Cookie4Nat: hehe gooood
Horseeyoregal: and what was the adjective you used earlier today to describe it?
Cookie4Nat: sexy...
Horseeyoregal: nonono
Horseeyoregal: but it started with an 's'...
Cookie4Nat: squishy!
Cookie4Nat: haha
Horseeyoregal: yup
Horseeyoregal: haha
Cookie4Nat: haha well uve got a cute butt

3 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 27 March :: 11.04pm
:: Mood: everywhere (yes, as a mood. SHUT UP!)
:: Music: Wicked-The Wizard and I

In light of recent events...
well...as we've all seen, i've been very melodramatic recently. why? oh, i don't know, I ENJOY A LITTLE DRAMA IN MY LIFE! *shrug* but hey, as much as i would just LOOOVVEEE to write a melodramatic entry, fully expressing the deepest anguish in my soul...

i won't. i'll spare you that one for a REAL crisis.

in light of recent events, i've been a real...well...bitch. i suppose i could be worse *coughSOMEPEOPLEWHOSEINITIALSAREMMcough* but hey, i pride myself in my even temper and manners.

yes, i overreacted. could you blame me? sure! i could have handled the news a number of ways far more mature than my choice of melodramatic hysteria and anger. i DO think, though, that it's unfair if you believe that my reaction should have been minimal. DAHLINGS, i don't HAVE minimalistic reactions. i'm an ACTRESS by...well, since 4 years of my birth.

before i copy verbatum my COMEDIC, and i repeat, COMEDIC song, (that i wrote in entirety in world studies this afternoon) i'd like to clearify a few things. i am not mad at elspeth. if anything, i respect her even MORE because we now have another thing in common: (besides our BEAUTIFUL, blonde hair and a passion for singing) we realize that jeff is an incredibly talented and caring person. so, just in case anyone was wondering, i'm not mad at her. honestly, what have i got to be angry about in regards to her?

the only thing that bothers me is that i wasn't notified, and i'm even getting over that. it's not (such) a huge deal. i've gotten all sorts of nonsense like "give him the silent treatment!" and "heck no! don't go to sadies with him!" but those are all coming from people who know nothing about the situation. (don't you just love how people want to give you advice on things they know ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about? yeah. those people piss me off too.)

what am i going to do? forgive and try to forget! what else can i do? i'm very good at the former...the latter tends to take longer than i generally plan, but in due time...

so ANYWAY...here's my song!

PLEASE keep in mind that this is PURELY COMEDIC!! if i get nasty comments, you're just wasting your breath, honestly. i'm trying to make JOKE out of all of it!!

He Should Die
(a beautiful seranade to _____ by Melissa Rose)

Oooooh, he makes me angry
He even made me cry
Now Melissa's a drama queen,
BUT DONTCHA JUST WANNA KNOW WHY?!?!

He sort of failed to tell me
A TINY, insignificant thing,
And for that I find him guilty,
So I've decided to do nothing but...SIIINGG!

He...should...die!
(He should die!)
He should really, really, really, really die!
But I know that for a fact that if he died,

I'd kill myself for wishing
such a catastrophe!

But as my anger's rising,
My eyes begin to tear,
And it seems as if I'd be happier,
If he was just not here!

He...should...die!
(He should die!)
He should really, really, really, really die
But I know that if he really were to die,

I'd kill myself for wishing
such a catastrophe!

SOOO. though my life's taken a turn for the rather melodramatic, suprising, and depressing moments, i apologize for any...upset i may have caused. (or for just trying to be a good friend, as the case may have been.)

saw Little Shop of Horrors at MVHS tonight! AHHHHH SEX ME NOW. the singing as a whole was crappy, but the person who was the voice for audrey II...OH MY GOD SEX ME NOW. HE....WAS....HOTTTTTT!!!!! OHHHHH LORD. beautiful, BEAUTIFUL voice, and he was such a gentleman afterwards, hugging his parents and friends. soo admirable. but ANYWAY.

i'm going to go shopping tomorrow for some jungley goodness. haha. should be...fun. camo pants! woo! and a new halter top! whee! ya know, i feel like the experience is kind of tainted now. but hey, i'm being melodramatic again. don't mind me...

(don't you just love how i brought it full circle? yes, that's a common writer's tool. i tend to use these a lot without really knowing it. aren't i special? i know, i know. adorable too, you say? yes, well, the entire CHURCH will know that by sunday! :-D)

:: 2004 26 March :: 6.26pm
:: Music: Speak of Peace

just setting ppl straight!
ROTFLMFAOPIMP=

Roast olives to flaming linguinees make flamingoes accelerate or pillows incarnate merideth's palm.

o ya sara, go us!

:: 2004 25 March :: 1.19pm
:: Mood: pissed/ depressed
:: Music: Anything that expresses a strong desire to die.

My life is as good as over...
My score for the DWs... not good.... The one subject I suypposedly kick ass in, Bill saying "She wrote essays in middle school at a college level.", my hopes of going to Davis and majoring in Literature... gone... I guess I might as well give up on life... my dreams won't come true....

I've missed the poetry club meeting twice now cuz I wasn't here but Mr. Rosenburg doesn't know that... I hope they don't take me off the slam list....

Sigh.... if this wasn't so an emotional time for my mom and if I didn't fear death... I would kill myself in all seriousness...

KirbyDee

3 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 24 March :: 4.44am
:: Mood: did you know that drunk is one of the moods? haha
:: Music: Duetto

LALALA
Well, I suppose I will update for real now! Number the Stars made my schedule super busy! The show was great! Thanks to all you who came to see it! To all of you who didn't, shame on you! I had a really fun time with the part, it was good to finally have a substantial role. Not the lead, but hey! It gave me a chance for my dramatic side to shine out. But somehow, I am content that it is all over now. Of course it was fun, but it was stressful and emotionally draining. And I'm very excited to have less complication in my life... But to all the # the *s people, love ya lots! Awesome job!
As for school, I'll update by period:

0- We�ve been doing fitness testing. I did about the same in everything so far as I always do. Yay for me. I REALLY did not enjoy the fat thing though! But I wasn�t as scared as Julie. Haha, Julie we love you. I don�t want to run the mile! Oh well there are worse things in life...

1- English has been kind of boring lately and often Miss Robertson isn�t even there. I am REALLY not looking forward to writing an essay about this book. But, I have to admit I am enjoying it. I�m a major English nerd I guess.

2- Boring as usual. But I have been getting all my homework done and therefore not having to do it at home. Woohoo! Announcement: I am going to take Honors Algebra next year. YAY!

3- Yucky... this, I believe, is the most mature update of all time.

4- Frustrating as usual. Mr. Shaull gave me a little hope today, though. That was new. Going to Egan a while ago was fun. Yay for us Mel! Remember those girls? They were so rude!

5- We�re doing that CWHP thing. It was fun talking to the Simcon thing because he thought our group was really smart. World History has been amusing but there has been a lot of stupid homework. Oh well. Go us, Shri and Lauren!

6- Ugh... almost as mature as my bio update! Stupid dialogue!

I haven�t been to CC in a while. And I have probably told you about the fiasco with the attendance office. Annoying, but I have to admit it was pretty funny.
Random Announcement: Yay for Louise and her successes in track! I�m proud of you babe!
Nicole and Louise, we have to see Hidalgo this weekend!
That is about it from here! Over and out!