fifteen there's still time for you, time to buy and time to lose...

:: 2004 21 February :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: DCI Finals 2000-Phantom Regiment

AHHHHHH!!!!!

i want marching band. and you. WAHHHHHHHHH!!!

i'd also like to get my math homework done...but really, i'd rather fantasize about marching band and touring in europe.

:: 2004 21 February :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: sympathetic

�	�	�	�	�	�
Marriage is love.

*i really don't know if i could take the emotional strain of being a psychologist. i don't know how to become unattached to the situation i'm trying to "solve" (well, council and talk to the person involved or whatever.)

*one of my greatest pet peeves: people assuming things about your relationships (or, as brian would say, "close friendships" because i've never experienced a "relationship") GRRRRRR!!

*national honor band. OMG I WANT TO DO IT NEXT SUMMER!! omgomgomg it looks like so much fun! next summer, i am applying. definitely.

*woah there. got the city of los altos rec. dept. activity guide today. they spelled monologue m-o-n-o-l-o-g. and umm...ahhhh!! that's all i have to say about that.

4 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 21 February :: 9.26am
:: Mood: awake

romance movie marathon madness!! (and being single.)
so last night nicole and i had a girl's night out. (which is funny, because the only time we were actually out, it was for flamingo flocking. but whatever.)

i highly reccomend that you read my friend's page and look at the deeply profound philosophical thoughts written in nicole's latest entry. (okay, just thought of something. doesn't philo mean love? well it does. WAAAHHH!!)

our little romance extravaganza began with pizza and 'who's line?' very sexy. wayne brady...YUM. singing...EVEN YUMMIER.

then...hiding out in the stuff room and moaning for a bit. now THAT was fun. the internet and moaning...oh baby. (no, we weren't masturbatnig to porn, and you know that!! i can't believe you'd think we'd do such a thing... no, but really, we were moaning because of away messages and profiles and stuff. not porn. although the internet IS for porn. lalala...okay, being sidetracked. stopping.)

then hershey's kisses and 'breakfast at tiffany's'. not such a great movie. sorta boring, really. but we had chocolate!! and 6 different messages in the little kiss wrappers!! amusement.

then more hiding out in the stuff room, more moaning, and changing into our undercover clothes. and looking oh so sexy.

then flocking. it was almost too easy. no one walked by outside windows, nothing. a car drove past (eek!) and some couple walking their dog walked by, but it was okay. oh, and they had motion sensor lights, but yeah. minor crisis when we didn't have enough legs. (lol) had to go to sherry's house to pick up some extras. but yeah. a very uneventful flocking.

came back, watched the end of ocean's eleven, when i uttered my famous quote of the evening about it NOT being george clooney, but the burger looking yummy. lol.

(breif break for nicole calling me during her interact 'save the library' thing. THE MTN VIEW DRUM MAJOR (the one with the HOT HOT HOT BROWN CURLY HAIR!! AHHHH!) is there!! and he knew where springer was!! AHHHH!! incredible hotness. oh baby. MAN, THAT GUY IS HOT. )

right, so anyway, we finish ocean's eleven and then...probably more moaning, and then...

...ice cream and sex and the city!! yay!! and privacy!! yay!! 60 grams of fat in one container of ice cream and eating it ALL! and really crappy plotlines of an R rated sitcom!! (or is it a sitcom? i really don't know the technicalities of tv shows.) but yeah. basically it's about 4 friends who live in the city and their sex lives. they have new boyfriends and have sex with different people in like EVERY episode. it's kind of funny. we watched 3 or 4 episodes. it kind of gets repetitive after a while. they just sort of hook up with guys that are wrong for them, end up having sex, and then dumping the guy (or being dumped.)

then night-night time (except not) and talking for 3 hours. let me tell you, talking for 3 hours does a body good. especially between 12 and 3 in someone else's house. good conversation. and it wasn't entirely guy-centered!! (well, mostly...) we also dealt with personal issues with morale and physical relationships. and stupid guys who think that maturity is when a girl isn't afraid of doing stuff with guys. (which, we concluded, is FAR from the truth.) okay, so that has to do with boys. but we DID discuss television affecting the upbringing of kids and what is suitable for people at what age. good conversation. oh, and we talked about how you can get so close to a group of people (for her, drama, for me, marching band) and feel so comfortable around them, and then, when you don't have that forced interaction (her play ended, and drama doesn't start up again until the musical, and for me, marching band season ending) all of that closeness just dissapears. and how much that SUCKS. i cannot tell you how many times i find myself thinking about all the fun times we had in marching band, and all the cool people i got really close to, and how now we're just...back to almost-strangers again. it's pretty sad. :0(

then sleep.

and then morning. nicole had the 'save the library' thing for interact, so we had to get up at like 7:30. (hey, that means i got about 4 and a half hours of sleep!) then cheerios. mmm...ya know, it's been forever since i've had cheerios!

and NOT getting dressed. and going to hillview to find out that it started at 8:30, not 8. but have no fear, STARBUCKS IS NEAR!! so we went to starbucks. and i sat in the car with roswell. (seeing as i had my pink flannel eeyore pj's on and a sweatshirt and no bra. HA. i suppose you didn't need to hear that...)

but mmmm...hot chocolate. and then home. *tear* oh well, home's not so bad. *hugs computer* haha.

might be going to see the perfect score later today, and then dinner at that hawaiin place in milpitas. YUM. and then...(possibly before?) helping nicole figure out what to wear to the valentine's dance to night. (yes, pinewood has a valentine's day dance. we need a valentine's day dance!! *thinks to herself* wait...no we don't. that would be depressing.)

so when are you all coming back from disneyland/maui/skiing? you lucky people, you!

well, i'm off to...well...do math homework, i think. fun stuff.

2 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 20 February :: 3.18pm
:: Music: Blink 182-Adam's Song

Horseeyoregal: i love him i love him i love him i love him i love him
Horseeyoregal: i love him i love him i love him
Horseeyoregal: HE'S SOO PERFECT
LbBabe127: do you love him?
Horseeyoregal: AHHHHH
Horseeyoregal: YES
Horseeyoregal: he's SOOO SEXY
LbBabe127: nice
Horseeyoregal: AND COMPASSIONATE
Horseeyoregal: AND I LOVE HIM
LbBabe127: wait.. do we want romantic comedy or just romance?
LbBabe127: sorry to spoil the mood there
LbBabe127: lol

haha. yay for romance movie marathons!!

oh, and my ucla sweatshirt came today! yay!

and i have to go ride in the cold, wind, rain, and mud!! not yay! (but it probably will be yoyish anyway...considering it's horsebackriding...)

and i finished my bio notes!! AN ENTIRE CHAPTER!! huge yay!

and...everyone still has their problems. but, in the song of the second clumsy custard horror show's curtain call: 'ob la di ob la da life goes on!'

:: 2004 19 February :: 10.33pm
:: Mood: helpless
:: Music: Beethoven-Moonlight Sonata

why?
2 drug addicts
3 cutters
2 eating disorders
2 clinically depressed

2 suicides.

i never thought i'd know this many people with such serious problems in their lives. i'm so lucky to be as happy, safe, and healthy as i am. i just wish i could do something to influence the lives of all the others i know who aren't as happy as i am...

:: 2004 19 February :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: confused/depressed/shocked/scared

oh my god
the associate pastor of my church just called my mom. a boy from my church committed suicide.

i...don't know what to think. i can't believe it. i didn't know him very well at all, but i knew him well enough that i would say 'hi' to him at church and stuff. it just makes you think about why someone would do a thing like that. the suicide rate for this area is so unbelievably high...especially in teenagers. *sigh* for not knowing him very well, i am seriously affected by this. suicide is a very serious problem. i just can't believe someone i know...

word of the day: spleh. (as uttered by nicole as we were talking about rocky horror, hot guys, and sex. actually, it was about the need for a serious, compassionate relationship going out the window and just wanting sex. but yeah. it's a cool word.)

okay, still feeling depressed. not cool. shouldn't society be partly to blame for all of these high school suicides? too much pressure in school with academics, too many stupid, bitchy cliques out there, ruining people's social lives...distant school councilors and feeling uncomfortable getting help...friends (and here I am to blame) who feel like their friends with drug problems, eating disorders, anxiety, depression, cutting, and other serious problems would be mad at them if they told someone to make sure they got help...

what is teenage life coming to when so many people feel so overwhelmed that suicide is the only way out?

:: 2004 19 February :: 3.36pm
:: Mood: accomplished

oowwweee
my mouth hurts. a lot. i was really bored, so i decided to listen to some classical music. (i always feel like i'm actually doing something useful when i listen to classical music instead of doing homework...) i came across The Second Suite for Miliatry Band in F (the one that symphonic band is/was playing) and about 5 minutes into it...WOW. BEAUTIFUL OBOE SOLO!! so i just HAD to go practice.

and now i'm sore...very, VERY sore. it got to the point where my mouth muscles just like randomly gave out in the middle of high notes...very frustrating...made me feel like i was a beginner again. and the sad thing was...i got tired after like 15 minutes worth of playing. that's what i get for abandoning it for...*calculates* about 6 months. *tear* It's not fair!! i WOULD play the oboe, but i don't have a band to play it in!! i miss it...it's so much prettier than the clarinet...more classy, nicer sound...

I MISS YOU, OBOE!! namely, the one that charlie has right now. he deserves it, i mean, he's actually PLAYING the thing consistently, but...but...i miss it!

:: 2004 19 February :: 10.48am
:: Mood: dorky

LOOK! I'M PEANUT BUTTER!!

I taste like Peanut Butter.

I am one of the most blendable flavours; I go with sweet, I go with sour, I go with bland, I go with anything. I am practical and good company, but have something of a tendency to hang around when I'm not wanted, unaware that my presence is not welcome. What Flavour Are You?

if i wasn't peanut butter, i'd be alcohol. the only thing it said for alcohol was like 'mmm...beer'. eek! and...*sniff* am i really not wanted? I THOUGHT YOU LOVED ME!! *bursts into tears*

don't mind me. i'm strangely hyper and I NEED A MONOLOGUE!!

*go to my friends page and look at nicole's last entry (as well as my 2 replies...lol) it's pretty darn funny. especially that i was talking about peanutbuttertoast (i STILL don't get the buttertoast reference) and now i taste like peanut butter. mmmmm...peanut butter.

:: 2004 19 February :: 11.00pm
:: Music: You're A Good Man, Charlie Brown-The Kite

where is love?
where is love?
does it fall from skies above?
is it underneath that willow tree
that i've been dreaming of?

okay, so we all watched the OC right? (the masses: right!) were we all yelling at the tv (in my case SCREAMING and then hacking miserably becuase i'm still sick) when marissa's mom (wait, that was marissa's mom, right?) kissed her ex?!!? i mean, we all saw it coming from the episode 2 weeks back, but STILL!! OMG!!! my mom kept telling me to shut up but then i was like 'MOM, THAT'S LIKE YOU KISSING ****!!' then she rightfully freaked out. yeah. not cool. ick!! and what was with summer and marissa like whipping off their shirts and being like 'DO ME NOW!' ??? that was a little woah there. and yeah. marissa and ohcrapiforgethisnamenow NEED TO GET BACK TOGETHER NOW!! it IS cute that him and that other girl did musicals together, though...

but still!! ugh. valentine's day...oy.

:: 2004 18 February :: 5.19am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: w/e I was singing at Paige's

Stuff!!!
Yesterday Melissa, Nicole, and I hung out, had lunch and talked for a few hours! Very fun! You guys rock! Then Nicole and I went to see Miracle. In dear Nicole's words, YUMMY! It was really good... probably would have been better if Nicole and I had known there were only three periods in hockey... The game was over and they were all cheering and we're like "Geez, they still have a whole period more to play! Why are they so excited?!" Haha, we're great! We also saw Kelly. Very cool!
I had another voice lesson with Paige today and it was much better. I think I really made some progress... finally! Yay!
I am leaving for Disneyland tomorrow! Woohoo! I'll miss you all! Much love!

6 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 18 February :: 5.19pm
:: Mood: contemplative

ya know, i'm hardly ever NOT contemplative...
Cookie4Nat: hey

Auto response from Horseeyoregal: bored...and lonesome...pauvre moi. je voudrais un petit ami!! waahhhh!!!

Cookie4Nat: awww ur bored and loenly? poor u? u want a bf??????
Cookie4Nat: hehe how cute
Cookie4Nat: i hope im reding french corretly
Cookie4Nat: haha
Cookie4Nat signed off at 1:49:04 PM.

right...cute... just like when he told me about his dream last night where his girlfriend turned lesbian and was dating none other than ME. and then he went on to say how cute it was and how much it turned him on...and the he wouldn't really MIND if his girlfriend was bi and dating me at the same time. WOAH THERE.

(and that is how i get in trouble for posting things that i shouldn't in my journal. i find this really hilarious.)

so. i've been thinking. (as i always seem to be.) and i've realized...i miss it. i REALLY miss it. i miss EVERYTHING that had to do with it. and i want it back. NOW. but...that's not something that i alone can make happen. and it won't happen. so i'll just sigh now. *sigh* but ummmm...yeah. i just really, really miss it. i can't say anything like 'i never really realized how much i cared about it until it was gone' because that's not true. i DID realize how much i cared for it during it all. am i a dependent person? i didn't think i was. maybe i am...but for some reason i doubt that. i think i just VALUE dependence. i enjoy it more than i realize. and as much as i'm always bitching about not having enough independence, maybe if i got what i wanted...i wouldn't be so happy.

but enough of confusing ramblings.

now on to BIG NEWS. (well, in fact, it's not really all that NEW. because i thought about it yesterday. but yeah.)

so. here's my SUPER DUPER COOL PLAN!! are you excited? you should be. really, you should. so, i go to this camp every summer, right? camp unique. (and no, sara, it's not for mentally disabled people, it just has a funky name. lol!) this will be my second summer in a leadership role, as a CILT (Camper In Leadership Training.) once a teen is chosen to be a CILT, (the camp directors choose, it's not an application thing, you just are one or you aren't) s/he is given leadership...ummm...things to do. (besides a nice 10% discount from camp...hehe) among these are helping with the sports classes, running the snack bar, and generally getting to know the campers so that if there is a problem, it can be brought up with the staff at staff meetings. once one becomes older, (like, junior/senior) it is imperative to start to specialize in one of the activities (like, ali, for example, co-taught a dancce class last year, and nicole would probably teach a drama class) and eventually, (hopefully) become a councilor and take over the activity fully. my thought: what would i teach? dance, ehhh, i'm no alison. drama? ehhh, it's really more nicole's thing, and i hardly do shows anymore anyway. horseback riding? i would if i could, but it's all run at springdown. and i'm certainly content to be the best rider out there and get to ride in the jumping classes with the regular students. so....thinking of myself, what do i do? MUSIC!! that's what i do. and specifically what? singing and band. what kind of band? MARCHING BAND!! (i haven't really explored the singing idea yet...but a camp unique chorus?? could be painful.) so, with LOTS of parental support, i have decided to bring it up to the camp councilors/directors this year. what, exactly, am i proposing??

A MARCHING BAND CLASS, THAT'S WHAT!!! now, i have actually seriously considered this. the MAIN problem: no one will want to do it. but hey, little kids sign up for yoga every year, why not band?? besides, band is GREAT! another obvious problem: skill level on their instrument.

but wait...this is no concert band. this is MARCHING BAND. which is an activity that...when given one or two weeks and a group of 7-11 year olds, may take a while to learn in itself, even if i just taught basics. but think about it, how cute would that be? and i'm so completely obsessed with the idea that i'm sure the kids would just LOVE it. i mean, if i was 7-11, i would want to do it! i could find videos of really good bands, get them all excited....i mean, it's a cool thing, when you think about it! a lot of people working together to make pictures on a field while making music! if there was interest and i was seriously given permission, i'd put SO much work into it. i'd find really, REALLY simple songs to work on, give the better instrumentalists solos or something, and we'd play a little standstill show. then we could do a drilldown. the parents would get a kick out of it!! and they'd all be so excited and proud of themselves!!

it would be very cool. VERY cool.

:: 2004 18 February :: 10.27am
:: Mood: contemplative

GUSTY!!
let's all just take a moment to think about what i was doing approximately a year ago at this time... okay, done thinking about that. moving on.

went to the optometrist yesterday. got a new perscription. fun stuff. except i had to wake up at 9. yeah, that's EARLY. but now i can see better.

ummmmmmmmmmm. had a blast downtown at the coffee shop with nicole and molly. lots of gossiping about broken box. (since it's like the one thing, well one of the things, keeping nicole from transfering to lahs.) yummy food. then we walked to starbucks and nicole and i got hot chocolates. mmmmm... and then we publically embarassed ourselves. well, nicole did. and i watched. lol. she reinacted the time when she posed randomly as cars went by. we had to keep stopping though, because the GUSTY wind (gusty is my new word, btw) kept...well...gusting.

then i had to go cuz of my hbriding lesson...ugh. but yeah. good times!!

i still have SOOOOO much bio to do!! it's not fair!! and math...and french... ugh. not cool.

:: 2004 17 February :: 10.13pm

quiz!

Ballet shoes- beautiful, graceful, and creative,
you enjoy dancing, writing, and music. You are
often very poetic and sometimes dramatic. You
keep to yourself aside from a few close friends
that you can relate to. [please vote! thank
you! :)]

What Kind of Shoe Are You?
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1 smile | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 16 February :: 9.14pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: laalaalaa!

Quizzes!

Slippers- happy, sweet, and adorable, you are well
loved by everyone. People cannot help but like
you. You love to be surrounded by people that
love you, who- in your case- is anyone. [please
vote! thank you! :)]

What Kind of Shoe Are You?
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:: 2004 16 February :: 8.46pm
:: Mood: *yawn*
:: Music: Larry Carlton

shows etc.
I went to see Memphis last night and it was incredible!!! I'll start from the beginning. My family and I went to Amici's for dinner. There was this guy at the next table over and he was being pretty loud and obnoxious. Luckily, I thought, he got up to leave early. As he left all the rest of his family was like "Bye, seeya at the show!" So, we're thinking, wow! Maybe he is in Memphis... Ya ok he was the star of the show! HAHAHA! I thought the star of a theatreworks production was obnoxious!!! I'm such a dork! But anyway, like I said the show was fantastic! Everything was awesome!

On a random note:

gotmusic111 (5:43:38 PM): r u interested in seeing the movie miracle?
Horseeyoregal (5:43:46 PM): yess!
Horseeyoregal (5:43:48 PM): hot guys all the way!
Horseeyoregal (5:43:50 PM): plus a good moral
gotmusic111 (5:43:56 PM): hahaha!!!!

Anyway, saw Peter Pan like 20 minutes ago. ...wasn't that great. Oh well! Whatever.
If any of y'all want to do something in the next few days, call me!!!

3 smiles | make my day a little happier

:: 2004 16 February :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: surprised

OMG!!!
GUESS WHO I JUST SAW AT THE END OF MY VOICE LESSON??!?!? NONE OTHER THAN CARLY!! YEAH!! HOW COOL/RANDOM IS THAT?!?! (okay, so only concert choir people have the faintest idea who i'm talking about, but STILL!!) THE carly. the one who sang the soprano solo's with ms. hebel's son in the kyrie of the mass of the children at the memorial service!! SHE WAS LIKE RIGHT THERE!! LIKE RIGHT THERE!! it was so cool! so i'm finishing up my voice lesson with a lesson in the vacai book (a practical method of italian singing) when someone comes in. i'm all focused (italian is HARD!! well, this stuff is) so i didn't turn around or anything. paige is all like 'is it okay if we finish this up, carly? you're a little bit early, right?' and she's like 'sure.' but still, i didn't turn around. i DID think something like 'oh cool, a girl named carly,' though. haha.

so i turn around and IT'S CARLY! THE CARLY!! so here's the best part. i look at her and am like 'WOW!! HI!!' and leave. HAHAHHA. she must've been like 'okkayyy, who's the random girl who got strangely excited when she saw me?' well, carly, for your information, you DO know me. when i was in fourth grade, you drove me around after school and stuff.

right. well. anyway, that was weird. oh and molly, i TOTALLY was going to mention something about you being a SOPRANO, but i couldn't bring myself to do it. sorry!!

:: 2004 15 February :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: contemplative

"so really, nothing's going to change"
what i've learned: don't ever believe that. whenever someone says that, it's just becuase they don't want to flat out say that everything's going to change.

just watched freaky friday with my 'family.' very cute. why do like 75% of the films out there (and the percentage rises for 'family films') have something to do with divorce/remarriage? it DOES get kind of awkward when every single movie i watch either with my mom and brian or my dad has something to do with family problems. i mean seriously! the first thing i did with my dad after he moved into his new apartment was go to the movies and see 'catch me if you can'. and WHY does leonardo dicaprio run away from home and become a con person? becuase his parents were getting divorced! sheesh.

but yeah. relating the phrase mentioned above to other aspects of my life, the same is true. when someone (or even yourself) thinks that 'nothing is going to change', it's only becuase they (or you) are saving themselves (yourself) from the harsh reality that it all really will.

and those are melissa's words of wisdom for today.

in other news, i bought the coolest pants yesterday! they're from charlotte russe. awesome store! i'd never been in there before but nicole and i agree that it is SO CUTE! haha.

got my eyebrows waxed yesterday. (owwwweee!) why was i born with blonde hair and super sensitive skin, but dark brown eyebrows?!? it's not fair, i tell you!

still sick. *coughs* see? slept in through church today. didn't get out of bed until 12:30. *yawn*

had my clarinet lesson. and now i have to go *cough* sing with my church *cough* choir. with my *HUGECOUGH* alto minions. (my two 6th grade alto trainee's who neither sing nor CAN sing...it's just a TAD frustrating...)

right. so i'm...umm...definitely looking forward to that NOT. just like at the mall yesterday. lol. me: should i just pay with my fifty and act like some 15 year old rich kid and be like 'oh, there's MUCH more where that came from NOT'?

P.S. it's really sad when the last 2 e-mails you've gotten (aside from woohu notices that tell me that someone replied to my journal...which i haven't been getting much of these days EITHER *hinthint*) are from teachers/band trip coordinators. (which i shouldnt've gotten anyway becuase i'm not going on the london trip!)

well, i've got to go *cough* sing. hope you all had a nice valentine's day!

:: 2004 14 February :: 12.48pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Love Shack

Love xoxoxo
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: 2004 13 February :: 11.54pm

yeah
Horseeyoregal: nice journal entry lol
LbBabe127: haha thanks
LbBabe127: i think it's sexy
Horseeyoregal: oh definitely
LbBabe127: especially molly
Horseeyoregal: haha
LbBabe127: who told me to say that
LbBabe127: but don't tell her i told you
LbBabe127: even though she's staring at the computer as i write this
Horseeyoregal: okay
Horseeyoregal: i'll keep it a secret then
LbBabe127: thank you
LbBabe127: i wouldn't want her to find out
Horseeyoregal: yeah
Horseeyoregal: don't worry
Horseeyoregal: it's just between you and me
Horseeyoregal: you can trust me on that
LbBabe127: you're a real pal, mel
Horseeyoregal: she'll never know
Horseeyoregal: i know, aren't i?
LbBabe127: yeah
LbBabe127: gee whiz, you're swell
LbBabe127: hi melissa -molly
Horseeyoregal: hi!
Horseeyoregal: i have a secret that i can't tell you
Horseeyoregal: :-D
LbBabe127: she wants to know what it could possibly be
Horseeyoregal: i'm sorry, it's just between me and nicole
Horseeyoregal: i just can't tell you that
LbBabe127: she says she understands

LbBabe127: but i don't think she does
LbBabe127: because she's hitting me
Horseeyoregal: no, that's definitely a sign of misunderstanding
Horseeyoregal: it's still on the down low, nicole, don't worry ;-)
LbBabe127: i thought maybe
LbBabe127: oh good

and later

Horseeyoregal: thanks
LbBabe127: anytime
LbBabe127: I LOVE YOU MELISSA!
LbBabe127: molly says she loves you more
LbBabe127: but i don't believe her...
Horseeyoregal: i don't know who to believe
Horseeyoregal: but i love you both
LbBabe127: well thank you
LbBabe127: (she's not looking, just say you love me more)
Horseeyoregal: i love you more
LbBabe127: thanks
LbBabe127: she'll never know
Horseeyoregal: haha
Horseeyoregal: don't ever tell her
LbBabe127: awwwwwwww -molly
Horseeyoregal: it's between you and me, k?
LbBabe127: of course
Horseeyoregal: nooo!
LbBabe127: not that that aw was because of that or anything
Horseeyoregal: haha

haha. yeah, i'm not really sure why i'm staying online when i KNOW i'd be happier falling asleep. i think it's because i want this person to IM me, but i want them to do it without me hinting at it. but yeah, i guess i've decided that i don't care, i'm going to hint anyway cuz i just really miss talking to this person.