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2004 13 February :: 11.15pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: into the woods-no more
omg how great is this?
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2004 13 February :: 10.37pm
:: Music: it doesn't matter, it has to do with love
valentine's day is tomorrow...
i started a really long entry about what love is, and how i've felt over past valentine's days about love. i then got into what it takes to say 'i love you' and how we use it so many different ways, almost misusing and diluting the meaning of it. well, it got delted somehow. the strange thing is, i don't care. it felt good just to write it all down. i'm not going to try to recreate it, becuase once an entry is deleted, i've already given up all hope of being able to recreate it.
i look around and see couples holding hands, girls walking around with roses and stuffed animals... i've always had somewhat of a vision of what the 'perfect' valentine's day event would be (always something completely unreasonable and impossible) and, well, none of them have actually happened yet. not even close. but really, that's okay with me. i've gotten on fine without any of it, and i know that that isn't going to change. i can't say that that fact prevents me from being jealous of all of the people with dates, though.
i was talking with molly today about stuff. she said something alone the lines of 'well, you've actually sort of had relationships. you've just experienced it before. she's never done anything like that.' hm. i guess i have done stuff. i'd say i've done pretty much nothing physical (considering all there is to do) but i've been through some emotional stuff that goes on during a relationship. i guess i'm not completely clueless as to what it's all about. but i really don't know...there's an infinite amount of unsolved mystery still out there...
i'm not really sure how much of it i want to solve. well, at least not right now. there's definitely always a part of me wanting desperately to explore more, though.
but the weird thing is, at least right now, (and this could very well change by valentine's day) i'm pretty content where i am. there's ALWAYS a nagging at the back of my mind that tempts me with the false assumption that if i figure more out about love, i'll be happier. i'm not sure if that's always true, but sometimes it certainly seems like it. i don't know, i kind of want a relationship, but i don't NEED it. it's not like i'll feel like less of a person without it, it'd just be nice, you know? to have that one extra friend. to have someone who gets you excited when they talk to you. to be in love.
well, happy valentine's day! (in 1 hr and 4 mins)
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2004 13 February :: 4.12pm
:: Mood: accomplished
a few random things
*valentine's day is tomorrow. i realized this as i put on a blue shirt, and then remembered that i had planned to wear my 'do me' shirt and my red sweater today. good thing i remembered...lol. it's crazy how many people compliment me on this shirt!! it's not THAT great, seriously... so, even without preparing to give/recieve anything valentine's related, i ended up getting 2 valentines, and candy from 5 different people. pretty good, huh? i AM loved! lol. but not by any guys at the moment. *melodramatic sigh* haha. well, none that i know of...i have a feeling this guy in my P.E. class might be too shy to ask me out, though...he stares at me a lot and has said 'hi' to me really cutely (shut up, NOW it's a word!) in the halls. he seems sweet. i dunno, just like REALLY shy. it's cute. and apparently it's 'very likely' that devin will eventually ask me out, seeing as i apparently 'madly flirt' with him all through math. now, you must know: there is a distinct difference between flirting and "making conversation". THERE IS! it's just that there's a very fine line between the two when it comes to me talking to boys. i tend to...errr...mix the two quite easily. hehe. poor guy, might need surgery for his knee. he's still out for like 4 weeks of baseball season anyway. :0(
* the RWW is OVER!! YESSS!! i'm sooo glad it's finally done. mr. smith freestyled for like 15 minutes at the end of class about different teachers...it got to be R/X rated VERRRRY quickly. yeah. not appropriate for our virgin ears. i mean, some of it was just disgusting! *shakes head* i dunno about mr. smith anymore...
*we had the posessed sub in math. i swear, he is the devil reincarnate. he's not like really mean or anything, but he has this satanic evil presense about him. and when he smiles and laughs...creeeeeepy. and his eyes... but anyway, we got to talk all period becuase ms. olsen was in a car accident. (quite possibly becuase she was 'trying to have a kid' while driving...LOL!!! we all think that her 'procedures' have been for artifical insemination because she's always talking about how she doesn't have children and wants one. funny stuff.) but anyway, we didn't have our quiz. HALLELUJAH!! seriously, 9.3 was hard. ugh. well, i have a week to figure it out!
*woohoo!! it's ski week!! :0p to all you paly/gunn/pinewood/MA people who only have monday and tuesday off. wednesday is the one year anniversary of something. sooo weird to think about that...but yeah. things have changed since last year (like brian living with us) so the event cannot possibly ever be repeated. interesting, though, how i remember what day of the week it was and all. whatever, moving on...
*m youatt really likes me for some reason. i've been getting A's (like not even A-'s, straight A's) on like every quiz and stuff this quarter, so she was like 'melissa, you'd better get an A this semester. i'm not sure how you ended up with a B+ last semester. your grammar and accent is great, keep it up.' hmm. cool. m youatt likes me. as do like, ALL of my other teachers. and this brings me to another thing.
*i am NEVER going to forgive the thing that ummm...happened. i REALLY value that i have a good rep with teachers and church and stuff, and it really bothers me that a certain school official now knows me as one to...idk, cause minor problems. that does not make me happy at all. i wish that could all be erased. or never have happened at all. becuase really, it wasn't MY fault that it ended up that way at all. grrrrrr....
*am i being totally rediculous, or does m youatt SORT of have style? i mean, she doesn't wear like..."cute" things, but i like a lot of her sweaters. and she's really good with putting together an ensemble. like, she looks like everything she puts on is part of that outfit. and it's not like dorky matching, like those velour matching sweats/sweater things. maybe it's becuase she's french...they value fashion more, don't they?
*OMG I MIGHT DO ALICE!! omg LOL that sounds like i'm a horny lesbian. i'm not. not that that really matters anyway. oh! and san francisco just started giving marriage lisenses to same sex couples!! that makes me sooo happy!! yay for people not being stupid and arguing that marriage is only sacred for a man and a woman!! seriously, if they can't understand the importance of love, their marriages are worthless. it's just SO stupid to deny two people in love the right to be legally married. i'm glad that people are finally able to, at least for now, in san francisco. yay for the mayor! but ANYWAY, that's not what i meant to say. i meant that i'm probably going to try out for LAYT's Alice. (like alice in wonderland, but a little different. sort of like the difference between the wizard of oz and the wiz, i guess.) but anyway, nicole and molly might do it, so that would be SOO fun!! gosh, i miss acting SOOOOO much!! i'm excited! yay! (but i'm not positive i'm going to do it yet. but just the possibility is exciting!)
*ummm...i think that's it for now. oh, i found sort of a valentine's-ish quote in our planner. made me think of stuff. haha louise, made me think of :0(
"Happiness in life isn't about you OR me. It's about you AND me."
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY (TOMORROW) EVERYONE!!
(hope all you couples have a good time!!)
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2004 13 February :: 3.26am
:: Mood: Relaxed
:: Music: Can you feel the love tonight?
It's vacation!!!!!!
I had a voice lesson today with Paige (with the same lady Mel is taking lessons from). She wants to train me as an alto...
I want to be a soprano!!!!!!
OK, that's out of my system. I think that if I continue I will really improve... but I don't know. Geez, i have so much to work on. Oh well, I want to improve and I will do whatever I can do. It is definately worth working for, I am just being a baby.
I love you Kelly!!!!! <--- from your Czechoslovakian lover!!!!!
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2004 12 February :: 7.02pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Lion King stuff
Lion King and other recent events
well, i know it's been a whole *gasp* 3 (or is it 4?) days since i've updated. i'm sorry for the delay. (because i KNOW you all just sit there refreshing the screen of my journal all day in hopes that i've written something new...lol)
went to San Francisco with the performing arts dept yesterday. the bus ride was great...well, i'd been waiting to be on a bus with school people for SOOOO long. (ever since marching band season ended.) sat next to marcella, and on the same bus as rachel, louise, molly, and alexandra. fun stuff. the only bad thing was that it made me think of...*sigh*. (;-) that's your cue to be like 'aww...poor mel.')
went to the cheescake factory (yeah baby!) for lunch with ali, marcella, louise, molly, rachel, and alexandra. it was very cool eating at the cheescake factory in san fran with friends. i LOVE that restaraunt! the only problem was that i was checking my watch involuntarily every 3 minutes and freaking out becuase our food took a while to be made. we were all so worked up (well, at least marcella and i) that we ate in about 10 minutes. we really didn't have much more than 15 once the food arrived, but oh well. it was still fun.
it turned out that even though we all got tickets from mr. shaull in order, there were like only 2-3 seats together and then it would go to a completely random spot of the theatre, far, far away, with another 2-3 seats together. so i ended up sitting next to louise, with ali and rachel and alexandra in front of us. molly and marcella were in row X WAY far away from us. :-( it was still a great show, even though i had already seen it, but i definitely think that the broadway cast in new york was A LOT better overall. i really didn't think much of young simba's voice (the little kid in ny was AMAZING) and adult simba and nala really weren't that great. :-/ still, it was really cool just to be there.
the ride back was spent talking in VERY LOUD voices between me, molly, louise, marcella, and rachel. everyone else was tired or something, so they were mostly quiet. we were like laughing and speaking in really loud voices. it was fun. it was during the car ride back, i believe, that mr. ferrucci made the 'louise, i never knew you had a voice' comment. ha. and this was AFTER we'd had the 'these are the classes i'm taking next year:' discussion and mr. ferrucci asked if louise was taking band next year and was 'very hurt' by her response. ha. it turns out that when she was walking home afterwards, mr. ferrucci drove by her in his car and yelled something about 'symphonic band' to her through the window. he's a weird, obsessive, musical, stressed man.
great week to have 3 concert choir rehersals, right when i get sick. fun stuff.
well, my RWW is due tomorrow, and i have a math quiz and a bio test. ugh. better go study/do hw/finish up the project.
oh, btw, WHO'S GIVING ME ALL THESE HUGS?? (i'm not angry, but seriously, i've only given myself like...5 hugs tops, and that was just so it wouldn't say '0'!)
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2004 12 February :: 9.59pm
:: Mood: same
:: Music: same
Really long survey (I'm bored)
First bow down to the goddess!
1) Using band(or singer names, spell out your first name: Um... yeah... dunno
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?- I would die from elation the day it happens... I'm still alive... Point being NO! I WISH! WAH!
3) What song makes you cry?
"Tough Little Boys"- Gary Allen and "American Soldier"- Toby Keith
4) What song makes you happy?
"I Got A Feeling" - Billy Currington and "Little Moments" -Brad Paisley
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
"The Bear: The Bay Area's New Home For Country" 95.7
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber:
Who is that?
7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger?
My dad, singer wise I was a huge fan of... um... I dunno :)
8) First album you ever bought?
I think it was... Spice Girls when I moved to Los Altos and they were the craze of the year. HAHA!
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why:
"There Goes My Life"-Kenny Chesney reminds me of my daddy 'cuz when he got my mom pregnant it kinda of halted their worlds but in the end they were glad to have such wonderful children.
HEIGHT: 5'3"
HAIR COLOR: blackish brown with blonde hightlites that need redoing
SKIN COLOR: coffee with two things of cream light mikly brown baby!
PIERCINGS: none
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: black
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: "I Got A Feeling"- Billy Currington (been listening to it for like 30 minutes, gotta get all the country in my head before torrow when I'll be country deprieved!)
WHAT IS THE TASTE IN YOUR MOUTH?: coke, meat lasagna, and yummy garlic made (all prepared by moi save for teh storebought coke...)
WHATS THE WEATHER LIKE?: night time, kinda cold not really. was really sunny.
HOW ARE YOU? Alright, today wasn't as bad as days that came before. SO overall, pretty good. Pissed at D and amused with Brandon's sick voice and lightheaded from Gal.
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: sorta, not really. i get headaches and nausia but nothing ever makes its way out
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yup, working on it. i like to pick at my nails...
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: welfor the most part, just this past month has been anything but the most part
LIKE TO DRIVE?: can't wait 'til i'm old enough, no need to get rides from my idiotic family who hates driving me...
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Degrassi Next Generation, Saddle Club (shut up!), and Smash Hits on CMT
CONDITIONER: um... i have this luster's pink thing (i change shampoo+condit. a ton) and it seems liek cocnut so that one
BOOK: Odyssey of Homer
MAGAZINE: YM all the way!
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: hm... staying with water
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: don't think i've ever consumed anything with alcohol in it...
BAND OR GROUP: if it's country, I love it! if it's japanese I love it too!
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: *sigh* nope
GIRLFRIEND: no...
SEXUALITY: straight.
CHILDREN: none, but i can't wait to be a mommy... i have a wierd maturnal instinct
CURRENT CRUSH: Gal *blush blush*
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: well... no seeing as how i've never gone out with anyone
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: six cds of randomness... some thai... some random...
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: hugs, preforming, writing, thinking of what good things life has in store, most of all my kitty kits cleo!
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST: memories of old, esp. the times i had with my dad
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: not big on buying cds... i'll burn a cd of my fav country songs when my internet is up and i'm ungrounded
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: well, all my ex-besties were kickass friends, mel, emi is semi good... that's bout it...
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: things that make ME, yes ME, happy
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: two days ago when i was telling my mom about how i wanted sharon to choke me to death and how i went semi-anerexic
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: um... dunno...
YOU GOT EMAIL? email from someone at the rodeoattitude message boards about my post
THING YOU PURCHASED: cat treats just today, just 3 hours ago
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Smash Hits on CMT
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: took my little bros to "Catch That Kid" the day it came out... I'm such a good sis.
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2004 11 February :: 8.01am
:: Mood: tired/overwhelmed/happy
:: Music: He lives in you, he lives in me
Lion King etc.
Lion King was phenomenal! I absolutely loved the music (but duh!), the incredible sets, the gorgeous costumes, and the great acting. Rafiki was so great! Rafikilicious! haha I sat with Marcella WAAAAAY back on the side, but honestly we were at a pretty good angle even though we COUGH weren't in COUGH rows H COUGH or J COUGH! Haha jk guys, I know you didn't have anything to do with it! However, we were sitting right next to SCOTT PATTERSON! heehee *SWOON* And in back of Tessa and some of her friends. Very funny. Quotes of the day: Marcella-"This part is a little weird... his butt is kinda hanging out." Louise- "Marcella, get on to it" (that is what you said, right?) Me- "Everything I say makes sense" Marcella-"HAHAHA" Everyone else- huh... All in all, SO much fun! *spiffy lion bow/wave/... thing*
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2004 9 February :: 8.13pm
HUG ME!!
come on guys, show the love! you can do it!
*HUGS* TOTAL!
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2004 9 February :: 6.09am
:: Mood: spiffy
:: Music: Hosana... still
Survey :)
reeeeeeeally long survey
1) Using band(or singer names, spell out your first name:
Can anyone honestly think of anything that starts with a Y???
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
no... ~sigh~
3) What song makes you cry?
"One Song Glory"
4) What song makes you happy?
"Big, Blonde, and Beautiful"
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
something relaxing or happy
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber:
not in this life...
7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger?
umm, i don't think I really understood the concept...
8) First album you ever bought?
I honestly do not remember.
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why:
"Roxanne"- Louise because she used to do interpretive dances to it ;)
HEIGHT: 5'8"
HAIR COLOR: brown and blonde
SKIN COLOR: tan, i guess
PIERCINGS: nada
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: blue
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: some jazz song
WHAT IS THE TASTE IN YOUR MOUTH?: bagel
WHATS THE WEATHER LIKE?: COLD!!!
HOW ARE YOU? tired but content
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: no, not really
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: no, i have like a bazillion
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: usually
LIKE TO DRIVE?: o ya, because i drive sooo much!
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Seventh Heaven, American Idol, etc.
CONDITIONER: there is conditioner in my shampoo
BOOK: I couldn't choose if I tried!
MAGAZINE: uhhhh...
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: depends on my mood...
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ewwww
BAND OR GROUP: see answer for BOOK
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: HA! dont i wish
GIRLFRIEND: well no
SEXUALITY: straight
CHILDREN: none
CURRENT CRUSH: Orlando Bloom... *swoon*
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: not really
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: that is implying i have ever been out, man am i a dork!
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: nope
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: pirates of the carribean
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: happiness, friends, laughter, hugs, music, family, love, my dog!
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST: hmm, family and friends because with them comes everything else i love
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: wicked
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: louise, nicole, melissa, marcella, rachel, alison, emily, cat, kelly, shri *goes on and on* (sorry if i didnt add u I LOVE U)
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: laugh, sing, act, sleep, TALK
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: a postcard a few months ago from mrs. darby
YOU GOT EMAIL? like 2 seconds ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: present for emily (happy b-day)
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Full House hehe
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: win a date with tad hamilton
"Soundtrack of My Life"
pretty music
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2004 9 February :: 5.59am
:: Mood: *yawn*
:: Music: Hosana
Grammys
It is a sad day when Justin Timberlake wins ANYTHING over George Harrison. A sad sad day indeed.
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2004 9 February :: 12.07am
:: Mood: bored/sleepy
survey
reeeeeeeally long survey
1) Using band(or singer names, spell out your first name:
gosh i don't know!!
2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
now THAT would be sexy...
3) What song makes you cry?
"Bring Him Home"
4) What song makes you happy?
"Schadenfreude"
5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
my oboe CD or josh groban
6) Name a song by Coal Chamber:
who?
7) Who was/were your idols when you were younger?
taylor white (okay, maybe i just thought he was hot...)
8) First album you ever bought?
spice girls...yeah i know...ick
9) Name a song that reminds you of someone and why:
"Sit Down You're Rockin' The Boat" and "Boy For Sale" -Kyle. becuause he sang them. and becuase WHEN he sang them, i was completely obsessed with him.
HEIGHT: 5'7"
HAIR COLOR: blonde
SKIN COLOR: too darn pale (white)
PIERCINGS: none
r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?: black (and black shoes..and a black shirt...and a black sweatshirt...) i'm not being goth though...i'm just reporting for top secret duty tonight...hehehe
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: "No More Sad Songs" Clay Aiken
WHAT IS THE TASTE IN YOUR MOUTH?: well, the last thing i ate was ice cream at youth group...
WHATS THE WEATHER LIKE?: it's dark. and cold.
HOW ARE YOU? sleepy. mad at valentine's day.
d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: haven't yet. i get A LITTLE carsick sometimes, and apparently i might get seasick, but my mom always has me take medecine that would counter the affect before i ever go on a boat
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: sure
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: well...usually i'm fine with my mom...don't really know my dad very well anymore...am frequently annoyed with brian
LIKE TO DRIVE?: i'm not really eager to learn...
f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: american idol...or the o.c.
CONDITIONER: garnier fructis
BOOK: i've read quite a few good books
MAGAZINE: alloy...okay, it's a catalogue...but whatever
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: water. yummmmy
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: fuzzy navels (orange flavored wine coolers)
BAND OR GROUP: ummm...i don't really keep track with bands and groups and such
l o v e
BOYFRIEND: *sigh* nope
GIRLFRIEND: no
SEXUALITY: straight.
CHILDREN: none.
CURRENT CRUSH: well if i told you that...
GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS: i've only 'been out' once in my entire life. so no. HA.
r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: no
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: either ragazzi or les mis
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: hugs, singing, marching band, boys (usually), good grades, being finished with homework, friends, hot guys...
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST: depends on the situation
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?: maybe rent...or wicked...or once upon a mattress
WHO DO YOU CONSIDER GOOD FRIENDS?: alison, nicole, molly, louise, sarah, sara, rachel, marcella etc.
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: sing, play clarinet, talk on the phone, get text messages, act, dance, horseback ride, listen to music, discuss interesting issues, read
w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: yesterday at the memorial service
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: for my birthday from my grandpa
YOU GOT EMAIL? just got the class council one...a whole 5 minutes ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: soap/bracelet/bath bomb for emily
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: survivor
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: win a date with tad hamilton
can't do the last part. i don't know enough songs! (well i do, but i'm indecisive)
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2004 8 February :: 9.13pm
:: Mood: tired/bored
Woooohoooo!
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2004 8 February :: 3.09pm
i don't want to take bio notes!
i like the gentle and best friend part, but 'i love your lips'?!?! that's a little too materialistic for my taste. ugh. besides, i'm not much of a kisser. (well, i mean, i haven't really kissed very many people...it's not like my lips are famous for anything....lol)
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2004 8 February :: 12.33pm
Good morning, Melissa, welcome to hell.
that was what i heard as i walked into sunday school this morning. we were having a discussion about hell. it was very interesting. andrew is one of the smartest guys i know, if not THE smartest. (he's a junior at gunn. the son of the really good tenor soloist who sang the pie jesu solo's at the memorial service.) it was a very, very good discussion.
ya know, i don't think i've spent enough time at church this weekend. 11-3:30 yesterday, 9-12 today, and then 6-8 tonight. sheesh.
as i share with my peers about the "more important" events of friday, i am being forced to explore a new side to the whole thing. freedom of expression. was my freedom of expression limited by the events? was it fair that i had to do what i did? was it right that i be punished for expressing myself? at the time, i didn't think of it that way. (but then again, i was also horrified that my close to perfect reputation with all of my teachers was being slowly diminished by what seems like an unimportant event.) besides, should it have been handled by the school? just as a general cry of rebellion: since when is it the SCHOOL'S duty to deal with the students' personal problems? i mean, if this is now the case, are people going to be sent to the office if a boy comes in, devastated, and says 'so-and-so doesn't like me! PLEASE, YOU'VE GOT TO MAKE HER LIKE ME!' this doesn't seem reasonable AT ALL.
i'm really sorry to hear that alison is going to basically discontinue her journal, as louise did last year, because of MY unfortunate events caused by the content of my entries. but really, are journalists punished for writing what they feel about politicians? newspapers are public, aren't they?
as a final note, i think it's funny how bias makes people really bitchy and ignorant.
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2004 8 February :: 12.26pm
:: Mood: procrastinating-ish
The Weekend
What a weekend this has been. Friday afternoon Nicole and I went to correct for Mr. Schneider. We talked to Mr. Hayman (and watched that freaky girl offer him a massage!!!! ewwwww) and Miss Beman :) We corrected lab reports including my sister’s who’s was REALLY nice! Mr. Schneider is so great :)
Then we went back to my house when we were done. We were couch potatoes until our yummy dinner of quesadillas and Louise came. We then walked to “The Visit.” Melissa, Marcella, Rachel, and Sara were there too. The show was really good!!! Very creepy! Julie was awesome! Oh, by the way, hugs Mel; remember you are a super-mega star.
Saturday, I went to Mel’s church at 11:00 AM to rehearse before the memorial service for Mrs. Hebel. Rehearsal went well, as did the service. It was really sad though, but of course that is to be expected. I enjoyed all the stories and how the whole family participated in the service. The grand kids were so adorable, they made me really sad though. But I think Mr. Shaull takes the cake for making me cry. Wow, his words of remembrance were so amazing. The service was extraoridnary and I was really glad I could be a part of it, honoring someone so, as Mr. Shaull put it, “remarkable.”
And finally HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all the February birthdays especially Emily, Rachel and Melissa! You guys rock :)
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2004 7 February :: 5.07pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: the Requiem
the memorial service for virginia hebel was so beautiful. i felt so priveleged to have been able to sing for her. she really was a special person. her grandchildren were the cutest things on earth. everyone who sang solos sounded really good. all of the speakers were amazing. i was on the verge of tears for most of the service, especially when mr. shaull was speaking. (i think we can all relate to that. it was so hard to listen to mr. shaull get all choked up and have to stand in silence and compose himself in the middle of his speech. she really meant a lot to him.)
well, i'm off to a party. i had to get a gift in downtown palo alto in my concert choir dress. i felt really funny. i was just A TAD overdressed.
i almost feel kind of bad going off to a party and being all happy now. i feel like it would be more respectful and right to just sit at home and think about what a wonderful woman virginia was...
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2004 7 February :: 10.10pm
:: Mood: freaked out
what a day
interesting day at school. read in english, ran the mile in P.E., learned out graphing calculators in geometry h (i'm not kidding you, all we did the entire period was fool around with our calculators.) learned about tonic, subdominant and dominant chords in girls ensemble...he gave us a little quiz of like 15 different questions. he asked me to read my answers aloud to the class and then asked how many people had one wrong, two wrong, etc. the funny thing was, he wasn't writing down what he was playing as he was going! it's pretty cool that he just assumed all my answers were correct...
concert choir with ms. hebel's son and grandchildren. they were so cute!! (that grandchildren, that is.) and the one playing trumpet had an AWESOME trumpet. it was red. seriously. i'd never seen a red trumpet before. it was tres spiff.
bio was fine, had a pronoun test in french, and a history test. fun fun fun.
had a great horseback riding lesson after school. rode my crazy appy. we jumped a one-stride gymnastics line the entire time. (i had the same lesson on tuesday, so it was cool to do it again.) cheryl raised the jumps for a few of us in the end. it was like a 2'9'' oxer!! woohoo! i haven't jumped high in SOO long. it was really nice.
then the visit. wow. that is an AWESOME show. seriously, don't miss it. there's a show at 7 tomorrow and one at 2 on sunday. it's REALLY good. very very creepy.
well, i've gotta get some sleep. i have to be at the church at 11 tomrrow to rehearse for ms. hebel's memorial service. i'm really REALLY starting to get worried about crying issues... well, it should be a good service. i'm supposed to turn pages for deb for a trio from the christmas oratorio, though. ha. figures. i don't really mind, though.
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2004 6 February :: 9.39am
:: Mood: Tired/Sore/Content
:: Music: Requiem
Tonight
In efforts of even further putting off my English homework, I am going to update about our spiffy rehearsal. We sounded beautiful if I do say so myself. For the most part tonight was really fun. The two lunch-bag quotes of the evening: Michelle~ I fell dirty... Where's the Holy Water? Rachel and me~ Oh my gosh! My dad~ Oh your gosh? Me~ Oh my gosh! Rachel~ Hey, don't be selfish, it's my gosh too. Me~ Oh our gosh! Oh and by the way I added the word smallen to the dictionary :) (The gap smallened!) But, although a good part of tonight was enjoyable, I was really sad a lot throughout our singing. Mr. Shaull teared up at the beginning... And there is this süber mega pretty movement that G21 sings and is seriously sad. Sigh, oh well. I just need to keep in mind that it is a celebration of life more than death. I am really glad I can be a part of honoring her life, because even though I didn't know her, she was obviously an incredible woman and meant a lot to those she left behind. And with that I must depart, because I REALLY need to finish my ENglish HW and get to bed. *Yawn* Goodnight everyone!
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2004 4 February :: 8.07am
:: Mood: Excited!
:: Music: Non posso disperar
¡Bienvenidos!
Hey everybody! As you can probably tell, (I hope) I got a blog!!!!! YAY! I am so excited!
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2004 2 February :: 8.13pm
:: Music: Happy Birthday
happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...
well, it's my birthday, yay! actually, some classes were kind of depressing today. i'm really tired and i really don't FEEL like doing homework, even though i need to, so i''ll be breif.
survey comp/lit: depressing. i HATE this reaading writing workshop unit. mr. smith is making it WAY too hard to succeed. grrrrr...my mom's going to send him an e-mail complaining about how he expects us to read upper-level books, but doesn't provide us with examples that fit his own definition of 'mature reading.'
P.E.: we didn't have to run the mile because it was pouring! yay!! actually, indoor soccer basically sucked, but it's better than running in the rain!
Brunch: couldn't find like ANYONE, so i ended up making small talk with laura. (seeing as it's both of our birthday's today...)
Geometry: WE HAD THE HOTTEST SUB EVER!! he was 24...asian...graduated from lahs in '97...we were supposed to have a test tomorrow, but it's been moved to thursday...*yes!* so we watched 'cool runnings'.
Girls Ensemble: depressing. mr. shaull gave us a new italian art song and was his usual pessimistic, unencouraging self. he DID go crazy singing 'happy birthday' to me, though, once molly raised her hand and told him it was my birthday. he was like making up his own tune and singing 'melissa rose' over and over. it was kind of cool.
Lunch: at pizza and gave sarah money cuz i'm just a nice person that way. :0) got kinda depressed thinking about being desperate and how sarah would disown me and never talk to me again if i dated *insert name of person i would never date here*. so yeah. fortunately, i am no longer feeling alone and desperate, so that is no longer an issue.
Bio: i got a 40/40 on my lab.
French: more pronoun practice with m youatt. pure joy, right there. (only it's closer to death by foreign language.)
World Studies: got 20/20 and 9/10 on the quizzes last week. mr. freeman wrote: 'Mel, you are just the best.' or something on the 20/20 quiz. yeah, and we could use notes on it... hey, i'm not complaining that a teacher thinks i'm some intellectual goddess, but it's not nuclear physics. it's a french reolution quiz on notes that we were supposed to take. i mean, come on! it's not that hard! but whatever, A's are good.
had a voice lesson after school. paige is just so incredibly optimistic and smart. it's such a change from me feeling all bad and stuff after mr. shaull's class.
then opened presents at home. then...*insert HUGE GRIN here* and then ate at sundance for dinner. mmm steak. and a nice restaurant. mmm....
and now i'm home, it's 8:30, and i haven't done ANY homework, nor do i want to. hmmm...should i?
but anyway, happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me...
(and i'll get around to organizing a party sometime within the next...errr...6 months? probably? lol sorry guys, i'll get around to it sometime!)
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