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:: 2004 1 March :: 6.10pm

Thanx mike for the song!

SYSTEM OF A DOWN
"The Metro"

I'm alone
Sitting with my broken glass
My four walls
Follow me through my past
I was on a Paris train
I emerged in London rain
And you were waiting there
Swimming through apologies

I remember searching for the perfect words
I was hoping you might change your mind
I remember a soldier standing next to me
Riding on The Metro

I was smiling as you took my hand
Saw the moon
We spoke in France
You passed with shallow words
Years have passed and still the hurt
You passed with shallow words
Years have passed and still the hurt
I can see you now
Smiling as I pulled away
Sorry

I remember the letter wrinkled in my hand
"I'll love you always" filled my eyes
I remember the night we walked along the sea
Riding on The Metro

I remember a feeling coming over me
Then the soldier turned and walked away
Fuck you for loving me
Riding on The Metro

ahhh

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cutie2187

:: 2004 28 February :: 4.11pm

new poem i wrote....

Untitled
Nothing can heal these scars
Scars that have been created physically and emotionally
I don't even know if they are intentional or on mistake anymore
It happens too often
My personal demons are coming out again
I can't think straight and emotions are taking over
I'm created from self destruction
The only thing I'm good at is creating mistakes
I'm here left wth my shame
I'm lost and I don't know where i am
I don't know who I am
I need to be found

hmm im really ammused right now....if i called a carrie a bitch i would say it to her face...i have enough balls to do it...so there...done....anywho it amuses me how nick and carrie went to the mall last night...its funny cause mike told me that they werent supposed to go out and then mikle told them we were and look who was at the mall...its funny how they love to push my buttons...and now they both ride my bus...hmm its nice me being the center of there world since all they can do is find ways to get me mad...hehe its great...amusses me how i dont give a fuck and that pisses them off...no one will ever see me break.....so it wont work....anywho tday was a blast so was last night...me and jen are cookie pies...i wish i could be as confortable as i am with cesar and alex...its weird...then today me marcos olivia jerrica went to the hcc sat workshop.......omg hotties and i was getting checked out but i couldnt do anything cause marcos was there...FUCK!...hehe anywho im sleepy...tomorrow im getting cloths...i think not sure...me and olivia will look cute at the induction....i got marcos to come and watch me and im like aww...i thikn i got jerrica too..who knows who is goiung to come see me...but i will trip and fall on my ass i tell you...im going to get black pants with pinstrips and wear a white collered shirt with a black tie and then black heels...i know heels on donna but i got to do it...hehe oh wellz...i got to go cause alex is here and my grandparents are coming0...so bye bye bye...

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cutie2187

:: 2004 26 February :: 8.24pm

anywho...today umm doesnt umm matter....OMG I GOT INTO FUCKING NJS!!!! wow go me.....im done...it surprises me how my work is finally paying off...whoopy...hehe...i was soo excited to tell some people....i screamed it out when i finally saw jerrica and everyone stared at me like i was nuts...hehe it was great...then i told thaimi and i felt bad cause she didnt get in..how the fuck do i get in and she doesnt....beats me...oh wellz....saturday i have the sat thing at hcc and i need to ask about the college placement test....tomorrow night im supposed to go out somewhere...cant remember where or what...hehe sux for me...ill figure it out...then sunday im going shopping for my outfit for the induction ceremony...i need black pants and a black shirt..im supposed to wear a black or white dress but i think some dress pants will look fine...oh wellz i dont care...screw them.....and im going to go see the passion with my mommy... im kinda scared...i dont know how ill respond to all that...oh wellz we will see sunday.....ill be crying like a baby at the theater...im counting down the days mike comes back...he has been in oss for 4 days tomorrow and then 6 days left....hehe....okay so what else happened today oh yea i didnt get jr class treasurer...oh wellz...hehe screw people...i hate them....anywho....im hungry and i want ice cream like coo coo...i want to paint my nails...cause i ruined the black...im itchy....damn it...my leg is itchy...i cant wait till this summer....excitement...ill tell everyone about it tomorrow...im too lazy to type that much....plus i know what i want to be when i grow up...hehe tomorrow....ahhh i got a lil crush on two guys in my class actually three but he is gone right now....he needs to get his ass back to school..oh wellz....well im going to go...people to talk to...bye bye

update::: now im now im not allowed to talk to certain people.....fuck im sick of her controlling me like im a damn puppet....crystal seriously needs to move on from her little jealousy shit...im tired of it all...she is exactly like my dad...she can just go shove it....man fuck it

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