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2005 14 February :: 9.21pm
:: Music: Disturbed - Prayer
Living lifes not hard enough, take everything away
well, today was a good day i sopose, at least for a monday. i forgot to say i tryed to call dana yesterday and forgot the number. i could only remember the last 4 digets 'DANA' it was not cool! but yes, ima change the song on here soon, and get a new theme, this ones getting kinda old. i love you dana!
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2005 14 February :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: Depressed/Angry.
:: Music: HIM- You Are The One
Fuck it.
Fuck today. Fuck family. Fuck Valentine's Day.
Fuck all of it.
Today has sucked so fucking much. I'm about to cry. I hate it. I hate it so much.
Whenever it looks like anything's going to work for me, it all just screws up.
I hate feeling so alone. I hate feeling like I need to be surrounded by people all the time.
I hate being afraid of myself... I hate hating myself.
...I hate crying. It really makes me feel like a smaller person... It makes me feel... weak. I don't know why.
There are so many things I dislike about me...
I'm stupid, ugly and weak.
Self hatred really doesn't feel good... *sigh*
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[edit: 6:02 pm] I calmed down a bit...
PS- I still want your memories.
Post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened... Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you... [/edit]
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2005 14 February :: 1.10am
:: Mood: Meh.
:: Music: None... Sadly.
"Yeah... I did a girl once... Yes I would like some more bread."
Stef's party. It was fun. I love Kersten, she's so awesome. It consisted of just... randomness. I miss Cameron. He never hangs out with me anymore. It makes me sad. Carly introduced him to all her friends, and now he never hangs out with us anymore; Just them. Even though he lives right up the fucking road. Oh well.
Well tomorrow... Or moreso, today is Valentine's Day. I hope it's good for you all.
*sigh* A month. It's been a month. I miss him. =[
Happy Birthday to: Stef and Bob... Even though neither of them read this.
Heh...
Please, don't let anyone change you...
Please, don't change yourself.
I hope you never fade... As you drip through my veins...
Post a memory of me. It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad, just so long as it happened... Then post this to your journal. See what people remember about you...
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blackecho101
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2005 13 February :: 8.18pm
i got a new snowboard today, illl be goin snowboarding this next weekend! yay! 'why do they put those signs up, deer cant read?' ' no, but they can recognise pictures of themselfs' 'let me set the sien, ive got on camo pants, camo shirt, camo hat, i have camo on my face i have a 30 alt 6 with a lazer scope, she has on a yellow jogging suit and white shoes, she even brought her purse, im here to kill the deer, shes here to take them shoping' 'so we get in the stand and its perfect, off in the distance you can hear a turkey gobbleing and there is only one thing wrong, in the background i hear 'phew, when are the deer coming?' i dont know hunny they didnt retyrn my call. then finally a huge buck comes, its perfect, and i head 'aww isnt he cute? he looks like bambis dad' yes hunny i saw that movie as a kid, would u shut up? 'well ur not gona shoot him are you!?!?!?' no hunny i brought this gun for protection in case he desides to climb the tree and rob us 'RUN DEER, RUN! RUN!' i love blue color comedy.
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2005 12 February :: 1.17pm
:: Mood: QEHIOG
:: Music: Carly singing.
Mr. Flippinshit
I swear I didn't steal anything... ;D
Hah, I just got my haircut. It pretty much looks the same.
I'm doing something crazy with it again by the end of the school year.
I think I'm going to dye it red... Supposedly John is getting blonde highlights? o_o Hmm...
Hanyways... I'll update later or something.
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