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:: 2005 6 October :: 8.46am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: The Allman Brothers Band

So Mica's been on me to update my journal when it's only been a few days. If everyone I knew update their journal every day I don't think things would work so well.

Anyway, I've been having a lot of very bad dreams lately. Dreams where either people are out to get my friends (as in the white Mazda at work dream), or there out to get me (in the field trip turned into interrogation session, in which I am labeled a communist spy). Other variants include me losing my identity. I'm not sure what they mean. The two that I had this morning I woke up and it felt like I hadn't moved at all. That's kind of scary too. It might be the fact that I'm a little stressed out right now. Well, at least compared to what I was the last few months when I had absolutley nothing demanding anything of me.

I really wish that I could capture that feeling I had the night after I gave my presentation this summer. It was just that good feeling where you know that you nailed it. You did everything right when no one was expecting you to. That night was pure bliss, unlike Tuesday when I got out of class. I thought I had a fairly good plan coming in, but I asked some questions, and I don't think anyone was really into answering them. I wanted to have a good presentation, instead it was just as stupid as the rest of them.

danibean

:: 2005 3 October :: 7.59pm
:: Mood: sad

do you love me?????

i had fun this weekend....thanks for everyone who was a part of it. i love you all.

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munkysaurus

:: 2005 1 October :: 4.26pm

puck...
Working at Star now. Is that any better?

sugarpeep

:: 2005 30 September :: 2.23pm

pic of the day Working again? Maybe. I mostly use my livejournal account now since this one is so unstable. Username Sugarpeep for anyone who's interested. Living off campus this year. Have an awesome boyfriend. Love my kitty. Love my critters.

Mreep!

Main Art Page. Email me:
sugarypeep@hotmail.com>

This immage made by Nova Wolfy! And hosted by Ciatol!!

I see you.

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upchuck

:: 2005 30 September :: 9.55am

I think the gay thing is nice. It really exposes the problems in the argument against gay marriage. But what you don't understand is that in this country, no matter how stupid you make people feel, they'll keep voting the way they want to. In addition, you can't get laws overturned by poking holes in how the law got passed. It's already passed and you have to give solid reasons to overturn it.
I will also say this. No matter how stupid it may make me feel, I don't support gay marriage. I don't have a reason. It's not that I don't like gay people. Yes, of course I feel uncomfortable around gay guys. To me, that's almost natural. Until I remind myself that I'm not wholy attractive to very many girls out there, so why would I be attractive to a gay guy. I know a lot of gay people, and in general I like the people themselves. What I don't like is the movement, the rhetoric behind it. It really bothers me that they are attacking the fundamental unit of society. Really it all comes back to a religious perspective. But the stereotype is that homosexuals are promiscuious. That stereotype could be further from the truth because there are many homosexuals who are 100% committed to their relationships, more so than even heterosexual couples. BUt if you follow the logic (or illogic) of the stereotype. If Homosexuals are already breaking the societal expectation of normal sexual behavior (which for the anti-gay marriage vote runs something along the line of celibacy) then what is stopping them then from breaking all the norms. Which is why homosexuals are portrayed as being promiscuous.
But I think I've drifted from my point. Which is to say that I do not feel comfortable endorsing gay marriage. I voted No on prop. 2 last year for only one reason. And I wished more people would have looked at it carefully and considered the consequences before they made it law. That reason was that it also closed the door on civil unions. I don't believe that the title of marriage should be given to gay couples, but they most certainly deserve the same rights as other people. To me, one is a legal quesiton (visitation, adoption, and inheritance rights) and the other is a socio-moral question (the title of marriage). So there. Despite having tried to think this one out, that is the conclusion that I have come to, so go ahead and blast away.

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JediBumblebee

:: 2005 30 September :: 6.06am

go sarah! :)
1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, liposuction and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn't changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can't marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears' 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn't be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren't full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously, gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That's why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without both a male and a female role model at home. That's why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms. Just like we haven't adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans...

*Re-post this if you believe that laws against gay marriage are just plain stupid

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upchuck

:: 2005 29 September :: 5.44pm

So, yeah.

I finally got a response email from Kim. Yeah, from the one that I sent like three weeks ago. Apparently our freak coincidence of running into each other on the road on Tuesday got her thinking again. No, not that she wants me again (which wouldn't even be close to being on the table, it'd be in the backyard, or on Mars or something), but that her life actually sucks enough for her to realize that there are actually people who care about her.

On a side note: I'm really excited about tonight and this weekend in general. But also I was so freakin' tired today. I don't know why. My shoulders are sagging, my legs hurt and it has been very difficult to keep my eyes open. I've also been having extremely strange dreams lately. I have the feeling that if I had stayed up when I woke up at 4:30 I wouldn't feel like this. But it all doesn't matter because I am going to fully partake in all the Red Flannel debauchery that's goin' on this week. WOOOOOOOOOHHHHUUUU!!!!!!!!!!

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JediBumblebee

:: 2005 29 September :: 3.48pm

bah...

i'm cooler than all them cats anyways.

upchuck

:: 2005 28 September :: 8.55pm
:: Mood: buzzed
:: Music: "Night Moves" - Bob Seger and the Silver Bullet Band

Y'all got a little confused on my entry about needing guidance. I think it's funny that you did. You see, right now I think I need the least guidance I've needed in awhile. I know what I'm doing and where I'm going. I know who I am and what I want. And that's a good thing.
The thing I was looking for guidance on was whether I should stay on campus, or come home. But no one was responding to me, so I just said screw it and I came home. So I guess the only one who got that one right was Mica (good job honey). Okay, I'm so looking forward to tomorrow, not because I"m doing anything incredibly great, but because it's Mica's birthday. It was also nice to find out that I get accepted just on the basis of my birth date.

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upchuck

:: 2005 27 September :: 5.57pm

Okay, so i was looking for a little guidance. But I guess I'm not going to get any. I think I'm going to head home and do some shopping on the way.

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Upchuck

:: 2005 27 September :: 3.44pm

So i'm sitting here waiting for my last class to start and I'm seriously debating my plans for tonight. I know I entered the semester with a commitment to get more involved in the things going on on campus. Especially with Campus Ministry. But now that I'm on the verge of going and attending a small group meeting I feel kind of reluctant. I don't know, it was fun to do it when I was freshman. It felt right and I felt like I could learn a lot from Dan, my leader that year. I mean after all it was my first year in college and I was learning about who I was and how my faith fit into my life. But now I know all that and I just feel like I'm going to be looked down upon because of my feelings on certain issues. Anyway, I might be home earlier than 9 or 10, so be ready.

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upchuck

:: 2005 27 September :: 12.53pm

Wow, hotmail server is extremely slow. It really sucks.

On another note, I need to start listening to my Spanish CD's again. My accent it terrible.

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upchuck

:: 2005 22 September :: 9.44pm
:: Music: "If 6 was 9" - Jimi Hendrix

What is this, like the 6th time today
I've really got to stop this. I really do.
I was thinking a lot about tonight. I don't what it is about those night classes at Grand Valley that get you going. Well, especially in MAK. There's a special quality over there.
Professor Aragon was so completely right that I haven't seemed like myself in his class. I feel really guilty because I have not done the readings. So that is one of my goals for this weekend.
Another one of my goals, for at least tomorrow is to encourage Denise. She's had a pretty rough go of it for the past year and I see it as my role to help her. Now, I just need to make sure that I don't get sucked into it myself and get dragged down if the ship starts going down. That wouldn't be good for anyone. Like Nita said, I am an asset to the company. I don't see myself that way, but they do. I have no desire for them to start viewing me like a liability.
Another goal for tomorrow is to clean my room. It's bad. I need to clean it. It should be easy since there won't be anyone home tomorrow night. I also have to get up early enough tomorrow to run some errands before I go to work.
And then my goal for Saturday is just to enjoy myself. It's going to be interesting, but it should be fun. Josh's parties are always fun. Good times with good people.

upchuck

:: 2005 22 September :: 5.24pm

She described her mood as giddy. That's good.
I feel I no longer have the need to trouble myself with deep, soul-searching questions like I did in the past.
Talking last night made me realize that my approach to life has taken a very different track in the last year. I'm not sure what has caused that, and I'm not sure many people would agree with my assessment. But I feel as if I approach things as being more laid back about life. Such as, if something happens that I want to happen, great, it happened, but if it doesn't, then no big loss. I guess that's part of growing up. It's like if I get a good grade, great, but if I didn't, well, I'm not blaming the professor anymore because I really don't care. And that could be where I'm getting it from. I don't care if I passed the test. I never have. I never understood people with test anxiety. Either you know it or you don't. If I learned something from it then good for me. If I didn't, it's my fault and I just wasted a great opportunity.

On a side note. All though I haven't been single all that long, this not being single is still going to take an adjustment. Meaning I shouldn't probably talk about all the cute girls that I meet or anything like that anymore. Note: I didn't really do that before and I'm just joking.

I know I said I'd talk to you somehow tonight. I'm not sure how I'm going to accomplish that beyond this right here. But perhaps later.

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upchuck

:: 2005 22 September :: 3.13pm

So, three entries in like three hours. I thought I didn't have a lot to say.

So, Professor Aragon asked me if I was okay today. Well, I guess he can see that his class isn't going to way I hoped. Actually, it has been one of the biggest disappointments of my semester so far. I mean, my Russian Thought class totally sucked, but I kind of expected that. I just told him that I had been sick for the last week and that was why it seemed like something wasn't right. In reality, the class just isn't doing for me what I hoped it would. I guess when I had him before there was a tenuous balance. I really enjoyed the class and felt like I had mastery of the material. This year I don't feel that way. In fact I feel I know less about it than I should, which isn't a good thing for me. But alas, I'll stop complaining and get ready to go to my favorite class so far.

Oh, and I've felt terribly complacent because I hadn't been keeping up on my reading, but after reading for four hours last night, I felt a lot better. Honestly, I thought I was never going to get done. BUt I had to because I had someplace I had to go. It's really amazing how time flies when you are with someone you enjoy spending time with.