Songs From the Ugly Organ

:: 2004 5 January :: 2.09am

I have to get up in four and a half hours, but surpringly I'm not stressing out. I got my english paper done, but I still have to read 70 pages of Great Expectations (doubt that's going to happen!). I called Katie tonight to find out how far they got in calc, and she reminded me that I forgot all about the review packet. So that's not going to get done tonight either. We have a test on Tuesday, but hopefully I won't have to take it since I've been gone so long. Do you see why we desperately need a snow day tomorrow...actually, today, since it's already monday morning........DANG! I just looked outside. The snow's pretty high on our deck, and it's still snowing! Hopefully, we will get hit with just enough snow and just right time whereas they cannot clear the roads, thus making it dangerous to go to school. Who wouldn't like an extra day of christmas break? I think that cappicino I drank at midnight is working. I hope I dont' have to drudge around the halls tomorrow morning.

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Fatman

:: 2004 4 January :: 7.45pm

I got a 24 on my ACT. That's good, right?

:: 2004 4 January :: 3.00am
:: Music: brand new

Here's a math problem for you. Mrs. Netcott gave me 24 problems to do while I was gone, six from the last 4 sections of the chapter. If justin takes 2.5 hours to answer the first six questions, how long will it take him to complete his homework? Also, if Justin has 29 hours until school starts and he still has to read 100 pages of Great Expectations, write a paper on a character, scan pictures from his trip, write thank you notes, and go to church, how much time does that leave for his sanity? Can't you tell that it's already starting to go? hahaha Tonight emily came over, which wasn't so bad because I could still do my homework. Then jami and jill came by and I was "forced" to take a rather long "break" from my homework. It was in the name of entertaining guests. That was actually pretty fun. They came over for about 4-5 hours and we just talked the entire time. Now I got to prioritize sleep and homework. And I just remembered... Whatever happened to the girl from chicago. I don't know her screen name, but I'm pretty sure she hasn't been online since I've been back.

:: 2004 2 January :: 10.57pm

Just got back from Melissa's not too long ago. It was kind of nice to see everyone I haven't seen in weeks. Katie went to Jamaica while I was gone! Last night a friend told me that she liked me. This is someone I've liked in the past, but now I'm not sure. I haven't liked anyone for a long time. I'm not even sure what kind of relationship I want with anyone right now. I don't even think I like relationships at all. My brain hurts.

:: 2004 1 January :: 6.07pm
:: Mood: contemplative

2004, Day 1, Perfect Day for Thinking
You know, I didn't make any new years resolutions. Oh well. Standing on the edge of something this big (the future) seems a little more important than any petty resolutions. One of the best things of being in China was the all the relief I got from having to deal with my college search. Now that I'm back, I'm back to worrying if I'm good enough for that college, or if I want to go to this college, or why I shouldn't just graduate and be done with education altogether. Okay, I exagerate, but all of this is still on my mind. I have a faint feeling that I may want to go to Loyola, however I don't know if I want to go there because it'll be easier now in terms of stopping my college search or if it's because I really want to go there. Yesterday I rushed to get my Northwestern application done, but then I realized I had to have the supplemental forms turned in Jan. 1st as well. Fortuneately, the admission officers are accepting my delayed forms. I like the school, and it's supposed to be good for business, but what would I major in? (no business major). Then there's NYU. That application is so fricken discouraging. Once again, I like the school but would it be overwhelming to go to college with the best of the best, all majoring in the same field? That's if I even got in. Mrs. Wiewora doesn't seem to think so (not that I care what she thinks). I registered to retake the ACT, but I'm not even sure that these schools will accept the February one. And then there's Fordham. I'm not trying to be egotistical, but I believe I'll have no trouble getting accepted there. But do I want to go to school in the Bronx? Lol. I can't even remember whether or not I applied there! (I think I did) And finally...there is good, old MSU. Nothing wrong with the school, just not my top choice. It's my dad's top choice, though, just because it's cheaper. I told him if I go there he has to buy me a jag! Or...I could go out of state and not need a car! Well, I still have homework to do, my head is spinning, and I feel like I either need to do something or I need to sleep. At least play starts soon and that should be fun.

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:: 2003 29 December :: 11.42pm
:: Music: No Doubt "It's my Life"

You know, I really don't mind a girl that's agressive/knows what she wants, but when she gets obsessive-compulsive stalker-like, it scares me. There's this one girl online who wanted me to see a movie with her. When she asked, however, I was in Detroit. She asked me again, and because I was tired and had just got home I told her I was still in Detroit. Now she just plain old IMs my away message and says "wanna see a movie?" So much for "hey" "how are you," etc. Other than that, which I'm not really stressing over, my day has been fine. I returned the printer, resolved to buy the same one at OfficeMax tomorrow, and went to the mall and bought a new coat (my green one I've had since 8th grade). I've been thinking about the near future today too. After graduation I think I might get some piercings and other stuff done. I also think I might go to Loyola. Well this is the latest I've been up all week, so I'm out.

Fatman

:: 2003 29 December :: 10.39pm

Iris ~ Goo Goo Dolls
And I'd give up forever to touch you,
cause I know that you feel me somehow.
You're the closest to heaven that i'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.
And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life.
When sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand,
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that aint comin',
All the moment of truth in your lies,
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah, ya bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand,
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

Grey Sky Morning ~ Vertical Horizon
So you sailed away
Into a grey sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're the just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a fony
remembering the girl
leaves me down and lonely

send it in a letter
make yourself feel better

but it's not so bad
you're only the best I ever had
you don't need me back
you're just the best I ever had

it may take some time to patch me up inside
I can't take it so I run away and hide
I may find in time that you were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away into a grey sky morning
now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted?
could it be I'm haunted

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
I don't want you back
You're just the best I ever had

The best I ever had
The best I ever had

Bad Case of a Broken Heart ~ The Ataris
Today I'm missing something
In this small new england town
Here's to you my best friend
Just wanted to say that I miss having you around

I'm staring at your picture
And dreaming that I could hold your hand
We'd walk down to the ocean
And I would write your name in the sand

They say sometimes you need some time apart
But I've got a bad case of broken heart.
And you're the only one who's got the cure
And I can't live another day without seeing you smile

2000 miles between us and I guess that I'm the one to blame
Relationships and heartaches
These two things are one and the same

The radio plays a love song
I smash my fist right through the dial
Here's to the broken hearted
A generation born in denial

:: 2003 28 December :: 10.26pm
:: Mood: tired

It feels like I got a lot accomplished today, but then I look at my homework and I still have none of that done. After going to church by myself this morning, I headed over to Target where I bought a new printer/copier/scanner. Guess who I saw there but the one and only erin sprague. It's kinda funny because then I saw her family at Best Buy where I bought the new Brand New CD (very good) and MTV Advance Warning. Later on I had to call Target about missing ink cartridges for the printer and guess who I got to talk to buy erin! lol. To top it off I go to Radio Shack and see katie Carlson working. I also went to American Eagle today and bought some new pants where I think I saw Jenna Jones. Well, I'm tired and tomorrow I have to let the cable guy in (yes, we're getting cable).
later

:: 2003 27 December :: 9.11pm
:: Mood: accomplished

finally home
After spending a few days in detroit, with all the modern convienences plus some, it feels depressing to be back in this trashy place. Namely, my family members are slobs. After I got home this evening I went through the stuff I bought from China and only some of the pictures we took. I gave my mom, dad, and sister the gifts I bought for them: avril lavigne CD, silk scarves, a china doll, and a gucci wallet for my dad (suits his character). The 25th didn't feel like christmas for me, and I wasn't expecting any christmas gifts, but nonetheless I got some. I know I sound ungreatful, but sometimes I think it would be better to get me nothing at all. My dad got me two things: a personal gromming set and a crappy-looking laundry bag which was probably cheaper than it's $14.99 sticker price (would it be bad for me to sell that on ebay?). My sister actually got me somethign I wanted, which was the GRD bootlegger CD, but that turned out to be a little bit of a disappointment. It's not even 9:30 and I am exhausted. Tomorrow I need to do stuff...and I still have all that homework to catch up on. I'll try to stay optimistic.

:: 2003 25 December :: 7.20pm
:: Mood: exhausted

Merry Christmas everyone. It's a white christmas in Detroit, and I presume it's also white in Muskegon? I'm not entirely sure that it is christmas, and perhaps that is due to the jet lag/exhaustion/extremely long christmas eve spent in an airplane. We just got back yesterday around 4:30 pm. With 17 hours in the air (accumulated from 3 flights), getting up at 4:45 am, crossing the international date line, yesterday was a loong day. It was funny because my aunt, my uncle, and I were all zoned last night. I'm tired today because I've been up since 6:30. Anyways, the flight coming back was much easier than going there. I watched all 5 of the inflight movies, so the time went by quicker. The only problem was that we lost 3 bags. Two we got back today and one is still in Hong Kong. Trying to remember what we did before we left all I can think of was my excursion to Beijing Road. My uncle and I rode the subway. We were the only westerners on that thing, lol. It was a little hard getting there, considering that we got on the wrong line, but we eventually made it. Beijing Road (referred to us by either an educated Chinese man or a Chinese American man) was compared to 5th Avenue in NY. Not that I knew what 5th ave. was like, but this place was packed with little stores. We didn't buy anything because it was mostly clothes, crap, and expensive watches. Oddly, we didn't see electronics, but I guess china isn't really known for that stuff. That's all I can think of for now. Oh yeah, I was told that my ying and yang are unbalanced. This chinese guy told me that my pimples mean I have too much yang, lol. Anyone want any of my yang? haha

:: 2003 21 December :: 9.58am

Well, I got to see Buddah today...actually, I got to see a lot of buddahs. You see, we went to one of the Temples in Guangzhou today for the "blessing of the babies." I guess Buddhism is the most followed religion in China with 4 million followers (even though China's population is 1 billion). Then comes Islam, Christianity, and some ancient Chinese religion. For dinner tonight we went to a place called Lucy's which was a nice american-type restuarant. Quite quaint. Well, tomorrow I get to sleep in because my aunt and uncle have to go early to get Racheal a medical exam. Random thought: I can't believe I go home in only a few days!

:: 2003 20 December :: 7.16am

This is more like it! Civilization at last! We made it to Guangzhou today and are staying at the White Swan hotel on the island, or as my uncle calls it, the 6-star hotel. I admit, it is very nice. They even have attendants on each floor and they go as far as to push the elevator button and hold the door for you! Not to mention, they actually have computers that work! (Having a problem singing into AOL...but that's not the computer's fault). They said that Guangzhou was the first commercial city in China, plus the weather is warm. It kind of reminds me of florida. Anyways, I hope everyone is having an enjoyable christmas break. Later.

:: 2003 19 December :: 8.22am

Being an American in China does come with some celebrity status. The natives stare at you. Some girls even asked some of the blond-haired ladies in our group to take a picture with them. So far in China I've had two encounters with the real celebrity world. The first was on the plane from Chicago to Tokyo when we sat next to the band Andrew W.K. and their managers (minus Andrew - he was sitting at another part of the plane). The second was yesterday on our way to the Ming Tomb. A movie was being filmed, and I think we pissed off the film crew by walking through their set with all those babies. They had to stop, let us through, film, stop, and let us back out. At least I got to see 30 seconds of some up-and-coming foreign film with some famous asian actor that I've never heard of before.

This morning I went to the Nanjing museum. Kinda boring stuff. I got to see a bunch of old jade, porcelin, and folk art from the Ming, Qing, and Song Dynasties. I also learned how to tell the difference between fake jade (lower pitch) and real jade (higher pitch). Not that I'll ever use those skills. As for lunch, I made my 4th stop to McDonald's in the 5 days I've been here, eaten from there at least 3 times. They're beginning to know me by name, lol. Actually, my diet in china has consisted mostly of: rice, sprite, various forms of sugar. Sound healthy? Only a few days left. Tomorrow we have to get up around 5-6:00 am because we leave early from Nanjing airport for Guanjo (spelled phonetically).