Don't forget the sandwhich!

:: 2003 30 October :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: Eels- Mr. E's Beautiful Blues

The elephant won't forget what its like inside his cage...
i feel inspired to write something a bit longer tonite, than my normal single-sentence quips. I read other people's journals and it makes me wonder if my babblings might actually make sense to those who read them. if anyone reads them...

I saw a play tonite...really it was no good but it made me think. it was a religious play, but thats not the part that got me thinking...
there was this girl who was in a class of mine last semester, and she was in it. i didnt think she really did all that great of a job, actually she didnt seem to fit her role one bit.... but even so, and considering the play as a whole was awful, i was sitting there thinking "god, i wish i were her right now". i wish my parents hadn't told me that being a theater major was ridiculous. everyone in their right mind knows that i'm miserable in the business college, and that's why i'm working my ass off for a second major that holds some merit for me. but i really couldnt see myself happy. not like this.

great sex isn't really a theater production. yes, i enjoy doing it. yes i am glad i decided to be in it. but its like having just a taste of what theater used to be for me, and knowing i'll never get the full flavor of it again.

facing last night took a lot of strength that i didnt know i had. i guess that's what friends do for you, right? its been a long, long time.

and i'm tearing my hair out again, thats depressing. maybe i should go see a doctor...someday.....

I had something in me...i can't get it back, or get rid of it either...

to end this post with something really deep...

I could really go for some pizza right now.

:: 2003 29 October :: 12.18pm

I feel rather boring and uninteresting as of late.

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:: 2003 27 October :: 11.14pm
:: Music: Same song

Everyone should go to watch clearly blind play at lazer skate on friday they will play around 11:30pm. I will see you there.

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:: 2003 27 October :: 11.06pm
:: Music: brand new-Okay I Believe You, but My Tommy Gun Don't

I made some strawberry cheese cake tonigh. Yummmy :-) (I am all you've ever wanted, what the other boys all promised) Man I love this song.

GOOD night all

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:: 2003 26 October :: 11.58am
:: Music: machbook romance- Shadows like statues

I have been driving in this car for hours and its 1:35
Last night ended up being hella fun. The day started out playing with my band which went good. Any doubts I had about George are now gone. He is an crazy mad good singer. I saw scary movie 3 last night. It was funny my friend joey was like "I am at taco bell right now but we are going to see scary movie 3 at 10pm you should come out, its me and a bunch of people you probley dont know but it could be fun." It turns out I knew all of the people he was with. It was a bunch of girls that I went to school with so that was crazy. From there we went to the dog pit got home around 1:30 2 ish. It was a good night

:: 2003 24 October :: 2.26pm

fav. feel good song: Ben Kweller- Sha Sha
fav. upbeat song: Dressy Bessy- BlinkTwice
fav. cruising song: The Ataris- Boys of Summer
fav. love song: Ben Folds- The Luckiest
fav. guilty pleasure song: DMX- X Gonna Give It To Ya
fav. tribute song: ???
fav. song to fall asleep to: Andrew Bird- Weather Systems
fav. song from a musical: Cell Block Tango- Chicago
fav. song from a movie: Nine Days- I Love You
fav. disney song: Little Mermaid- Kiss the Girl
fav. song to dance to: R. Kelly- Ignition
fav. song lyric-wise: Iron and Wine- The Night Decending

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:: 2003 23 October :: 11.48am

yay! kicked some serious ass on my marketing exam!

:: 2003 22 October :: 2.21pm

i am skipping class right now, because I decided that I dont like it.

I hope I can still pass this semester with my lack of motivation.

:: 2003 22 October :: 12.29am

::15 Random Favorites::
1: Music
2: Concert
3: Cordless phones
4: Skelletones
5: My Signed Motion City Soundtrack Poster
6: Popcorn
7: Apple Dumplins
8: Taking Back Sunday
9: Motion City Soundtrack
10: OCDRUMS
11: Fireworks
12: Spare Change
13: woohu.com
14: People
15: winking ;)
::14 Favorite Foods::
1:
2:
3:
4:
5:
6:
7:
8:
9:
10:
11:
12:
13:
14:
::13 Most Watched Shows::
1: Music Videos
2: Music Videos
3: Music Videos
4: Music Videos
5: Music Videos
6: Music Videos
7: Music Videos
8: ---------------
9: Music Videos
10: Music Videos
11: Music Videos
12: Music Videos
13: Music Videos
::12 Good Bands in your Opinion::
1: Taking Back Sunday
2: Motion City Soundtrack
3: The Used
4: Matchbook Romance
5: Senses Fail
6: Brand New
7: Moneen
8: Story of the Year
9: Clearly Blind
10: Northstar
11: Thursday
12: Sliverstein
::11 Memories::
1: Bruce Said Checkers
2: Late night walks
3: Looking at stars
4: Talking to Camoncho
5: Talking to Joe
6: The kent theater
7: Metting Taking Back Sunday
8: Hanging out with MxPx
9: The Relient K concert
10: Trip to D-Town with Kevin
11: Break dancing on stage with Motion City Soundtrack
::10 Close Friends::
1: Kevin
2: Dusty
3: Jessica
4: Nate K
5: Dick
6: Nate W
7: Amy
8: Hilary
9: Rebbeca
10: Brent
::09 Things you're looking forward to::
1: The Concert tomorrow
2: Making good food
3: Recording THe Forever December EP
4: Playing SHows
5: Finishing College
6: Becoming a Musician
7: Touring
8: Hanging out with my friends
9: The Matchbook Romance/Senses Fail concert
::08 Things you wear daily::
1: t-shirt
2: Pants
3: underwear
4: socks
5: suit coat
6: Mesh Hat
7: Deoderant
8: a smile
::07 Things That Annoy You::
1: DASHBOARD!!!!!!!!!QAHHHHHHHHHHHHH
2: Slow Internet
3: BEing board
4: mean people
5: People Smoking
6: English papers
7: Cymbals
::06 Things You Touch Everyday::
1: Drum sticks
2: Steering wheel
3: Piano Keys
4: KEyboard
5: Mouse
6: My BEd
::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
1: SUPER TROOPERS
2: Happy Gilmore
3: Jack ass
4: Oceans 11
5: My Music video tape
::04 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys::
1: Legos
2: toy guns
3: bike
4: super nes
::03 People You Have Kissed::
1: Jessica
2: Mr.Robuck
3: Mr.Babbitt
::02 Of Your Favorite Songs::
1: Taking Back Sunday-Head CLub
2: Matchbook Romance-Promise
::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
1: ...

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:: 2003 21 October :: 12.12am

::15 Random Favorites::
1: the color purple
2: my blanket
3: jason :)
4: diet coke
5: good hand lotion
6: ben kweller
7: kitties
8: theater
9: my car
10: roller skating
11: charlies angels
12: WIDR
13: my brown boots
14: chapstick
15: my apartment
::14 Favorite Foods::
1: pizza
2: french fries
3: doughnuts
4: chicken and dumplings
5: pasta
6: peanut butter
7: granola bars
8: grilled cheese sandwiches
9: belgian waffles
10: diet coke
11: mac and cheese
12: french toast
13: chicken alfredo
14: beef stroganoff
::13 Most Watched Shows::
1: this
2: is
3: really
4: a
5: ridiculous
6: question;
7: i
8: don't
9: have
10: television
11: in
12: my
13: apartment
::12 Good Bands in your Opinion::
1: ben kweller
2: green day
3: modest mouse
4: the cranberries
5: the eels
6: iron and wine
7: grandaddy
8: everclear
9: deftones
10: a perfect circle
11: ben folds (five)
12: barenaked ladies
::11 Memories::
1: the beach
2: the beach part II
3: halloween as a kitty
4: not one but two cop cars
5: charlies angels at rosies
6: celebration on the grand
7: modest mouse
8: "can you see my butt?"
9: my "run-in" with the cargo van
10: the noctunal hamster
11: lord of the rings II
::10 Close Friends::
1: jason
2: eliz
3: the whole great sex cast
4: mike
5: first fox gang
6: kal
7: katti
8: kristin
9: nick
10: mommy
::09 Things you're looking forward to::
1: sleep
2: the play being over
3: the semester being over
4: going to belgium
5: graduating
6: getting a masters?
7: getting married
8: having children
9: enjoying life
::08 Things you wear daily::
1: underwear...well...usually...
2: nail polish
3: contact lenses
4: hairties
5: 3 earrings
6: shoes of some variety
7: chapstick
8: clothing of some variety...well...usually...
::07 Things That Annoy You::
1: mcguiver
2: my hair
3: the play
4: frat boys
5: dishes in the sink
6: homework
7: telemarketers
::06 Things You Touch Everyday::
1: myself...hehehe
2: water..in the shower
3: my keys
4: my phone
5: the newspaper
6: mcguiver
::05 Movies You Could Watch Over and Over::
1: chicago
2: the new guy
3: grease
4: west side story
5: ferris bueller
::04 Of Your Favorite Childhood Toys::
1: nintendo
2: my vetrinarian set
3: pound puppy
4: roller skates
::03 People You Have Kissed::
1: lets
2: not
3: start
::02 Of Your Favorite Songs::
1: "The Night Decending" by Iron & Wine
2: "All-Nite Diner" by Modest Mouse
::01 Person You Could Spend the Rest of Your Life With::
1: ...

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:: 2003 20 October :: 11.49pm
:: Music: Hidden In plain view

Clearly blind is now, opening up for MxPx at the intersection

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:: 2003 20 October :: 1.30pm

As far as Forever Decmber goes we are moving a head very nicely. We should have our 3 or 4 song done sometime in decmber if all goes to plan, we have 4 forsure members and we might just be a 4 person band. But there is this other kid that we are thinking about that might be in but that is yet to be decided.

:: 2003 20 October :: 1.26pm

Last night was so awesome. Dont look down was so much better than the first time I saw them. I think that might be the last time they have a concert at that place. I dont think they were expecting Pits, crowd surfing and stage diving, we had this guy come in the pit and start flashing his badge tell us to stop the pit. so we started a dance pit instead. There were lots of funny stories and what not but Im to lazy to type them all. Over all the night was a 10 and I would like to thank hilary for taking us with her to the concert.

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:: 2003 19 October :: 12.54am

What is Your Destiny? by Valcion
Name
Color
Birthday
Destiny Savior of the human race
Date when you fufill your destiny April 1, 2009
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