Don't forget the sandwhich!

:: 2003 7 April :: 12.09am

tomorrow it BEGINS.

:: 2003 6 April :: 5.10pm

And so ends a night full of adventures. I suppose that right now it is 5:00 the next day.... but right now is about when I feel that yesterday has ended.

:: 2003 1 April :: 9.36pm

You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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:: 2003 30 March :: 9.11am

my point is not to protest. my point is that people need to think a little harder before they jump into things. i'm not against the war. i'm against killing. i'm against people who think because Bush is president, he is always right. we need a generation of critical thinkers, and too many of us are simply mindless sheep.

i dont appreciate the harassment I've received from the floor on this issue. i would like to think that you were all intelligent and mature enough to respect someone else's opinion. unfortunately, with all the jeering, the anti-american comments, and the signs mocking protesters, I can't resepct any of you anymore. I can't ever look at you guys in the same way again. Next time think about how YOUR actions impact others.

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11 Raise and Ruin | Crash Test

:: 2003 27 March :: 11.17am

i dont believe in killing, whatever the reason. -john lennon
You can bomb the world into pieces, but you can't bomb it into peace!

If you kill one person, you are a murderer. If you kill ten people, you are a monster. If you kill ten thousand people, you are a national hero.

THINK BEFORE YOU BOMB

War doesn't prove whos right, only whos left

America is a leader- lead with nonviolence

Bomb Texas - they have oil, too

Bombs leave a return address

Bombs kill too many children and too few dictators

God does not bless only America

How many lives per gallon?

I dissent

Let's try preemptive peace

Read between the pipelines

Save the humans

The United States military spends $65,573,200,000 per month. Why?

War is not a video game

:: 2003 27 March :: 12.18am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: once again, mel is sleeping...

Getting closer. I've got:
- One math exam
- One social psych exam
- A sociological theory paper
- Three finals

And then I'm done. If you count this week as over (which as of tomorrow, it is for me), I have three real weeks of classes left, and then exam week. And then I move back home, I'm scared to death of it. I'm scared of dealing with my parents, of the changes at work, of how much freedom i will have, of facing all my friends back home, of leaving the friends i have here. I also wonder how Jason and I's relationship will fare, knowing how busy I usually am, how strict my parents can be, and how far apart we live. I think...scratch that...I KNOW that it can be done, its just a matter of doing it and not giving in when things get rough. I've never been especially good at it, but I'm gonna give it a good shot.

:: 2003 24 March :: 11.11pm
:: Mood: sore

sometimes i think i love you so much that i feel emptied out inside.
i don't think that's how its supposed to feel.

i'm in so, so much pain right now.

:: 2003 19 March :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: drunk

This is college life.

Lets make a comparison...

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:: 2003 19 March :: 2.26pm
:: Mood: productive
:: Music: Gorillaz- Clint Eastwood

I'm useless, but not for long...the future is coming on...
So yesterday was this phenomenally good day, I got a lot of work and studying done, did the homework I needed to do, finally figured out how to go to the library (yeah I know).. and cleaned my room like mad...every drawer in my desk has been organized and cleaned out. I guess I'm in the mood to get out of here, I'm ready to move out of the dorms. I don't really want to go home, but I think I need out.
My friends are all jerks and I can't stand the way they think that their lives center the universe. But really I'm just ignoring it and living my life away from them. Which has ups and downs.
I really want to go camping. I'm not sure exactly why, but that's the mood I've been in lately. I think a lot of people are feeling the same way. I need a break from life.

:: 2003 18 March :: 4.12pm
:: Music: Taking Back Sunday-There is no "I" in team

I've got a 20 dollar bill
Yeah, I dont know if you guys feel the same as me about how sick i am about talking about this hole thing, and people having nothing better to talk about it. It happend there is nothing anybody can do and im dealing with it the best i can and if you disagree with what im doing all i have to say to you is just to exept it because im doing the best i can its the first time i've delt with something like this. its not every day your hole world changes. And in more ways than just the jess thing. And im slowly building my world from the ground up. There are very few people i look at in the same light as before. And the way i see it nobody is not my friend now because of this and if they arnt i dont know about it. So there it is

1 Raise and Ruin | Crash Test

:: 2003 13 March :: 10.40pm
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: The White Stripes- Dead Leaves and the Dirty Ground

...and every little breath that is in your lungs is a tiny little gift to me...
all i do is take, i don't know how to give.

:: 2003 13 March :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: sad

sometimes i think i don't like anyone. and no one likes me either.

:: 2003 13 March :: 10.16pm
:: Mood: tons better and looking over the ridge
:: Music: tbs- you're so last summer

life
life is so confusing. I cant seem to figure out my feelings. So much could go good but at the same time so much could go wrong. but all i know is know one else needs to be hurt and i dont need to be hurt any more. But right now things are looking up. It will be an adventure to see how things turn out.

:: 2003 13 March :: 10.02pm

adamhardcore
You're "The Blue Channel", you're not
sure of anything, but you know everything. You
don't want something, but you do. Make up your
mind!

Which taking back sunday song are you?
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