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2018 20 May :: 2.43am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Chelsea Wolfe - Spun
In brief:
I'm in school for HVAC.
I run a smutty art page on Facebook that is slowly gaining in popularity, and gathering a set of new and quirky internet friends from the four corners of the Earth.
I've doubled my dosage of Prozac, and was considering supplementing it with Buspar, but I've since discovered that skullcap (herb) does the same thing, and costs pennies on the dollar.
And, strangely enough, I've integrated my alter ego into my immediate reality, and it has been a boon to my confidence and has had a positive impact on my interactions with strangers. That chap is far more charming than I ever was.
Oh, and I've entered my thirties.
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2018 19 May :: 10.43pm
It's a get-fucked-up kinda night.
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godessalthena
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2018 15 May :: 9.41am
it's a placebo kinda day
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godessalthena
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2018 11 May :: 9.26am
every night I go to sleep optimistic that I will not wake up
every day I awaken to the same nightmare
the sets and faces change, but the feelings always remain.
worthless. lonely. isolated. absurd. pointless. grey. empty. devastated. crushed.
I'm just so tired, but sleep doesn't seem to rest my soul. do I even have a soul?
all I feel is blood and bone. no heart. no soul.
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godessalthena
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2018 11 May :: 7.53am
I wish I had someone to talk to
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godessalthena
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2018 10 May :: 9.47am
wake up
wake up
WAKE UP
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catatonicsean
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2018 9 May :: 8.32pm
:: Mood: accomplished
:: Music: Swans - A Screw
Hello, again.
Been a while, hasn't it?
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godessalthena
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2018 3 May :: 4.06pm
honestly, I'm never completely honest.
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godessalthena
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2018 27 April :: 7.09am
heading to Seattle this weekend to visit my best Frome I am so excited! last time I saw her we went to her best friends memorial at the state park it was very sad... this will be more fun!
we are going to explore whidby island! I've always wanted to go but never was able to. we are going with some mutual friends and their adorable twin daughters. I made some macarons which I need to ship off today, but the extras I'm bringing with (not that we need more sugar she went crazy getting me candyyyyyy)
my sweetie got a 2018 wrx, I have driven it once and I'm really jealous but..... I love my 35 mpg way more than his however many horses haha
maybe I'm too much if a grandma but being a passenger is scary. especially in the back seat.
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godessalthena
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2018 23 April :: 11.46pm
all I really need right this moment is an encouraging word or a friendly face.
I just want someone to see me.
I feel so utterly and totally invisible.
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godessalthena
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2018 14 April :: 9.00am
this birthday has been shit.
I want this to be my last birthday.
there isn't anything in the world worth this much pain.
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godessalthena
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2018 6 April :: 11.58am
Easter dinner was delicious I will post photos soon...
So glad it's Friday, I wish the weekend would last forever... I need a permanent vacation
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godessalthena
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2018 30 March :: 4.11pm
Everything is ok
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godessalthena
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2018 23 March :: 7.10pm
I fucking LOVE Easter because my mom always makes my favorite dish: minty potatoes.
I know it sounds weird, but imagine small red potatoes with the center peel taken out of the skin, then cook until soft and mix with a metric fuck ton of fresh garlic and fresh mint and hella butter. It's all my favorite things in one dish plus mint! And then you put all the salt on. It's heaven.
This year is a special Easter because it also is my very special friend Jay's birthday! Turning the big 24! So proud of you man! Keep fighting the good fight and keep a stiff upper lip! Pip pip cheerio hip hip huzzah!
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