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2016 29 September :: 8.42am
what does the sun keep a' shining
what does the sea rush to shore
don't they know it's the end of the world
it ended when i lost your love
i wake up in the morning and i wonder
why everything's the same as it was
i can't understand no i can't understand
why everything goes on like it does
i just needed it to stop. i'm worth more than to feel like shit all the time.
no matter how shitty being alone was, being hurt by someone who loves you is worse
i really hope you can get better. i shouldn't want to change you, but if you want to be with me you have to hit my bar. harsh maybe but how else will we get what we deserve...
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godessalthena
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2016 28 September :: 8.48pm
timing is everything and mine is terrible.
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godessalthena
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2016 28 September :: 7.36pm
breaking up
the worst feeling
anchors pulling at the pit of your stomach
you feel the weight of oblivion dragging you
into the murky impossible depths
your soul a rotting carcass in the mariana trench
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godessalthena
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2016 27 September :: 9.40pm
what is real
and just a dream
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godessalthena
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2016 27 September :: 6.04am
after the shit storm that has been the last few weeks, there is a light on the horizon.
finally finished the office. i've never experienced office life quite like that, but i can relate at least a little. excellent show.
now to finish quantum leap.
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2016 24 September :: 12.28am
definitely not getting any sleep tonight
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godessalthena
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2016 22 September :: 10.12pm
if i close my eyes and imagine laying in my favorite field of clover and sunlight with you, will you ease my pain?
if i hold out my hand in the dark will i find yours there next to me?
i wish i could cuddle with you again, in the early morning hours in your leather chair. could i forget all that's happened since then? can we sit in the golden montana sun and snore our lives away? i miss you so much. i wish i could have hugged you one last time.
why are things always so fucking painful? why are people so terrible? why does everything turn into a burning pile of charred ash and cinder..
i just want to sleep forever. i feel so dead inside.
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2016 22 September :: 8.24am
:: Music: FIDLAR bad habits
sometimes i really want to become a drug addict
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godessalthena
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2016 22 September :: 6.56am
the sun is no longer up when i go to work :(
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godessalthena
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2016 21 September :: 9.17pm
a lil drunk
feelin pretty grood
not worried about too much besides my internet being a fucking bastard
y u no netflix & chill, vizio?
going to portugal. the man in november. bought everyone tickets for their birthdays. i love me some scorpios man.
what da fuq for halloween doe.. dayman and nightman? harambe and a banana? the fox and the little princess?
i don't know man. i just don't know.
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godessalthena
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2016 16 September :: 2.11pm
gotta take a picture.
but first gotta find the damn thing.
still haven't unpacked from my move a year ago.
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2016 16 September :: 1.56pm
I never didn't care.
I need to be alot nicer than I have been. I haven't been thinking about how this will affect others or myself at all. My dumb mouth.
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2016 14 September :: 8.07pm
I don't like the way I'm feeling right now
my stomach sinking
all the blood rushing to my trunk
I just feel so frustrated that you won't talk time about anything.
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godessalthena
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2016 13 September :: 12.04pm
this dead heart of mine is a heavy burden to carry.
I used to think maybe I wasn't meant to carry it alone
but every day that passes it seems more and more like a fact
I am not made to be happy. I am not made to love.
I am not made for anything. I am a tamed animal that's been left alone to waste away.
this hollowness I feel grows more every day. temporarily am I filled, but only to have it slip out of my cracked base.
i watch the wind through the trees and feel the brisk autumn air against my exposed flesh.
I feel nothing but meaningless inside.
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godessalthena
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2016 13 September :: 7.52am
disappointment
why can't you be a little more responsible?
or why am I such a responsible old windbag?
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