Dried Tears... not in vain

:: 2006 31 July :: 8.18pm

PLEASE TAKE INTEREST
i am selling the following.....

300 watt car amp for 25 dollars or best offer

sword for 50 dollars or best offer

video camera for 10 dollars or best offer

and be be gun for 25 dollars....

please take interest i really need the money

9 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 31 July :: 7.42pm
:: Music: Doll - Foo Fighters

well i had a great interview..... i dunno what else i'm gonna do for the week. i dont know when i'll get to see my girl.

:: 2006 31 July :: 7.17pm

Camping with matt and rueben and katie and joe tomorrow.

ah the bliss.

eating mother's stir fry. tastes odd. first home cooked meal in days.

callouses forming on my finger tips. beautiful music to my ears.

Plan B may be available without a prescription.

michelle

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 30 July :: 10.48pm
:: Mood: crushed

Tied up in ancient history... again
WHY am I jealous?? I should NOT be jealous!! So he kissed her, so what? I've kissed other guys... no biggie. Only it is... like a LOT!!! I know I shouldn't like him, but I do. See before the other girl didn't like him, then the other girl had a boyfriend... but this other girls is single and CRAZY about him. I HATE that. I hate that more than anything else in my whole life. I felt my heart jump from my chest and land at his feet when he told me that. And do you know the worst part? The last thing he said was, "You're still my best friend, right?" HELLO!!!! You just killed me... you made me be completely freaked out and upset all day, but of course I'll still be your best friend. Why not? I LOVE shooting myself in the foot.

I hate boys... stupid stupid creatures.

:: 2006 29 July :: 4.09am

life......is.......decent

7 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 28 July :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: depressed

I can't help but feel that I'm wasting my life.
I'm wasting my talent.
I'm wasting.

I'm wasted.

3 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 26 July :: 7.06pm

I AM AN ASS

Take the quiz:
What Kind of Driver are you?

Destructive
Your an ass. Your the guy even the old people on the road will want to speed up to and run off the road. You blast bad music and dont show any courtesy on the road. You probably dont remember the last time you obeyed a posted sign. Your pretty likely to either get your license taken or end up in an emergency room.

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:: 2006 26 July :: 6.27pm
:: Mood: worried

I had a picnic with Kae and Aaron today.

Lovely rain.

I would be a toaster, so I could take two slices at once.

Sometimes I catch a glimpse,
Of the world which I see,
A beautiful scene, magical,
You could never know what I mean.

"Sometimes I think this cycle never ends, we slide from top to bottom then we turn and climb again..."

I listened to Transatlanticism for the first time today. It was beautiful.

ladybug04

:: 2006 26 July :: 11.38am

Wow, time is going by pretty fast. My blackbelt test is less than 2 weeks a way. I'm very nervous.

4 moos | someone say moo

alastar

:: 2006 25 July :: 12.29pm

stalking quietly, shhh, through the jungle

I could hear the bones crepitating in Her throat as She worked Her mandible back and forth

grinding and _cracki_ng

and She unhinged Her jaw, opening wide with strings of saliva cascading from tooth to tooth.

swaying from side to side, hypnotizing with fierce and
glaring rapacious eyes that singed my skin

as the fangs unfolded.

- - | - -
I didn't even see Her move
or feel the fangs as they sank into my throat

all I felt was the pressure
the suffocation

the rich and saccharine venom being pumped into my esophagus
by the syringes of Her fanges

- - | - -
the trails are darkly carved in, narrowly avoiding arteries

and my skin is
perforated by serrated teeth
bruised around the punture wounds
numbed from within

by ataractic poison

slightly infected; they remind me of You

swimfan14

:: 2006 24 July :: 6.04pm

I'm in Washington D.C. right now at our hotel. This place is definitely beautiful. Our flight was at 6:30 am this morning and we were an hour away from the airport so my cousins and I have been up since 3:00am. I barely slept on the plane either. Tomorrow we are going to Virginia Beach for the rest of the week. *Smiles*.

<3

jacqui-chan

:: 2006 23 July :: 10.03pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: silence

Stolen survey
TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: kinda'
2. are you happy: I'm confused which is hindering the happy thing
3. are you talking to anyone right now: No
4. are you bored: Yes
5. are you german: a little
6. are you irish: maybe...
7. are you french: Yes
8. are you Italian: maybe
9. are your parents still married: Happily
10. are you in love with someone right now: Funny how you can love but not be IN love

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: Cedar Springs
2. hair color: Blonde
4. hair style: I don't think it's named
5. eye color: Blue
6. shoe size: 8
7. mood: Overwhelmed
8. orientation: umm...
9. available?: Pretty much
10. lefty/righty: Righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: Yep, it's getting over it that's the issue
2. do you believe in love: Obviously
3. why did your last relationship fail: Because we're both stuburn, I can be a witch, and he can be the most selfish, cold-hearted jerk on the planet.
4. have you ever been heart broken: Mmhmm
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: Yes
6. have you ever fallen for your best friend: Does it count if he turned into my best friend and I fell for him all over again?
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: Many times
8. are you afraid of commitment: Kind of, I'm too young to know who "the one" is... so why commit to ONE person?
9. have you ever kissed someone you liked: Yep
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: Don't think so.

TEN THINGS:
1. love or lust: In a way, they're interchangable
2. hard liquor or beer: umm... neither
3. night or day: Night
4. one night stands or relationships: How about dating a few guys at once for a while... not just a night
5. television or internet: internet (it's got TV too)
6. pepsi or coke: PEPSI
7. wild night out or romantic night in: In
8. colored pictures or black and white pictures: Black and white
9. phone or in person: In person
10. aim or phone: Phone

TEN HAVE Y0U EVERS.
1. been caught sneaking out?: Never snuck out
2. skinny dipped?: Nope
3. done something you regret?: Oh yea
4. bungee jumped?: Nope
5. been on a house boat?: Yea
6. finished an entire jaw breaker?: Mmhmm
7. wanted someone so badly it hurt?: Wanted how?
8. been caught by your parents with a hickey?: No
9. danced in the rain?: Of course
10. had a hang over?: Nope, never.

:: 2006 23 July :: 12.12pm
:: Mood: Eh.
:: Music: Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

I Dont Know
well i dont really know why i'm feeling the way i have been lately. being nice is just not cutting it for me anymore so maybe i should just be a normal person. then maybe i might be treated like everyone else is. my entries lately are meaningless and unpoetic but yet are thoughtful. why is that? oh well i dont really know anything about anything anymore.

:: 2006 22 July :: 6.46am
:: Mood: listless

I haven't slept in 28 hours, and if I go to bed soon I'm looking at about four hours of sleep before the park picnic and then work until 10 tonight.

I had my CMU orientation yesterday morning. Very informative. I got some of the classes I wanted, the others I dropped and added the correct ones. Twelve credit hours, not bad.

BIO 101 (and lab)
CSP 10something (computers and society, i know...but i had to fill a gen ed requirement)
ENG 235 American Literature
COM10something, intro to speech and communications.

All fun things. No ensembles, no music classes right now. Because I had to change schools so quickly, I can't be in their music program until next year. However, I may still pick up my entry level music classes and an ensemble next semester, until then, studying by myself is the only option I have.

We went to IHOP and played mau. I drank real coffee for the first time in my life, with a lot of cream and sugar mind you. The waiter made us triple strength coffee (three bags of coffee grounds in the pot). That shit really gets you. I believe that is the reason why I am not tired at this time.

Driving home from IHOP I witness the most beautiful sunrise, so, I took out my writing journal and compiled a few thoughts I will share with you here.

July 22 2006 6:30a

The dew soaks thorugh my clothing as I sit here, witness to this event. So few times have I been so aware of this constant change of my home. Something so beautiful would be more cherished if it were rare. We prize the true diamond because it is rare, but would we not just as easily be careless with it if it were common to us? Would we not use it as an adornment fabricated to eventually break to keep the economy going. The slogan would not be "Diamonds are Forever," rather they would be quite common place and often disposed of, losing all significance of importance. Beauty is only acclaimed in the rarest of forms. A perfect sunflower is often only left for the birds to admire.

This magnificent event before me may be prized by another people, another culture, because of its rarity, such as in the north. The sun sets for half the year, and is risen for half the year. Do you think they are not joyous after six months of darkness when the sun rises, illuminating their world? It seems beauty and admiration are only warrented for the rare, but never the equally admirable but common.

-michelle

4 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 20 July :: 10.15pm
:: Music: spineshank ~ forgotten

you are forgotten
You're the one who
You're the one who steals the life from
I'm the one who feels the falling
I believe you're nothing but a problem
Everything is so fake
You're just a motherfucking sight to see
And time will block the vision
Life with you is so vague
It's like I'm living in a dream

I have wondered why this always happens
Everything just falls away
Soon you'll be the one who is forgotten
It's so close but it's so far away

You're the one who
You're in disbelief of what you
Thought you could achieve or try to
Once I thought this life was never ending
Must've been my mistake
You're just a motherfucking accident
Offending yet amusing
I should have known that you
And your intensions weren't for me

You're the one who fed the violence
I'm the one who broke the silence
I will sew the hole you left inside me
Leaving you in the past
I will release

swimfan14

:: 2006 19 July :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy

Off the coast of somewhere beautiful.
Hey. I guess it's about time I updated.

Last weekend on Friday I hung out with Elyse. We stayed the night at my dad's new house. I really like my new room. We went to Olive Garden and then my cousins Brooklyn, Kyla, Kaylie, and the new baby Briley came over. I love her, she is so cute.

Saturday I went out on the boat. It was definitely interesting to say the least. Haieligh and I went tubing with Casey and Chad. We had some pretty fun times.

Sunday I went to Holland to watch Luke's basketball games.

I can't remember when, but I went and saw Pirates of The Caribbean 2 with Luke and The Devil Wears Prada with Elyse.

This week I've just been hanging out with Luke and my friends. Our power went out on Monday. We just got it back yesterday. That definitely sucked.

Friday I'm going to Champion with Elyse in the morning and then later on my family is going to Grand Haven for the weekend and we are staying at a hotel on the beach.

I just found out a few days ago that on Monday I'm going to Washington D.C. and then we are going to Virginia Beach. I'm going with my dad, my uncle Mike, and my cousins Rachel and Sarah. I'm pretty stoaked for that. Our plane leaves from Detroit on Monday morning. I think I'll be gone for a week. I honestly don't really know the details since my mom just informed me of all this. It will be fun though, except I'll be missing Luke, a lot.

I guess that is about it. Much love.

Ashley

When you whisper you want this, your eyes tell the same. Picking up speed, I can barely breathe, 'cause I'm caught in suspension.

6 moos | someone say moo

:: 2006 19 July :: 7.21pm

hmmm
TEN EMOTIONS.
1. are you missing someone right now?: yes
2. are you happy: no
3. are you talking to anyone right now: no
4. are you bored:yes
5. are you german: no
6. are you irish: yes half anyways
7. are you french: no
8. are you Italian: no
9. are your parents still married: yes, for now
10. are you in love with someone right now: no

TEN FACTS.
1. hometown: GR
2. hair color: dark brown
4. hair style: no hair
5. eye color: blue
6. shoe size: 12ish
7. mood: undecided
8. orientation: i dunno
9. available?: yes
10. lefty/righty: righty

TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE.
1. have you ever been in love: yes
2. do you believe in love: yes
3. why did your last relationship fail: i thought i was gonna get something better but i didnt and i havent yet
4. have you ever been heart broken: yes
5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: yes
6. have you ever fallen for your best friend: no
7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: no
8. are you afraid of commitment: kinda
9. have you ever kissed someone you liked: yes
10. have you ever had a secret admirer: yes

TEN THINGS:
1. love or lust: both in moderation
2. hard liquor or beer: BEEEEER
3. night or day: night
4. one night stands or relationships: relationships
5. television or internet: both
6. pepsi or coke: pepsi
7. wild night out or romantic night in: depends on my mood
8. colored pictures or black and white pictures: colored
9. phone or in person: person
10. aim or phone: phone

TEN HAVE Y0U EVERS.
1. been caught sneaking out?: yes
2. skinny dipped?: yes
3. done something you regret?: yes
4. bungee jumped?: no
5. been on a house boat?: no
6. finished an entire jaw breaker?: yes
7. wanted someone so badly it hurt?: yes
8. been caught by your parents with a hickey?: they dont give a shit
9. danced in the rain?: yes, when i was like 4 or 5
10. had a hang over?: hehehe...

:: 2006 18 July :: 10.27pm

why do i keep on missing everything?

why do i ruin everything?

why?

:: 2006 17 July :: 7.03am

ok well i went to this website that they had on wzzm and it said that i look 75% like Carl Sagan. Who the hell is Carl Sagan? try it out and tell me who you look like.

http://www.myheritage.com

oh you also have to sign up to use it...a small price to pay

3 moos | someone say moo

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:: 2006 16 July :: 3.59pm

remodling menards that is my new job that i start tomorrow

Jacqui-Chan

:: 2006 15 July :: 3.38pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Can't you just take ten seconds for me anymore? Is it impossible!? You think I want you to spend every waking moment with me... but that's not the case. I love hanging out with my friends and family... I need time for them and myself too. But I would like to see you more than ten minutes a week. We haven't hung out in a week and a half or more. Yet you say that I'm being selfish asking why you have to hang out with Nick and Logan all weekend and then into the week, and sleep over at Matt's for days at a time. You wouldn't even come over when my grandma died to help make me feel better! You were too tired from hanging out with your shit ass friends all night the night before!!! Well I'm sorry that her death came at an inconvenient time for you! Ass hole. You constantly call me your best friend, tell me we'll get married someday, tell me that you love me. Well if you ask me that's a crock of shit. You don't hang out with people you feel that way about only once in a while... you hang out with them at least twice a week... for longer than an hour. I know I have a job and softball, so I don't get as much time to just lounge around with my friends... but you could at least try to hang out with me when I have time. Not avoid me completely. I can't even believe you had your arm around me at that car show. You ignored me basically all day, unless it was to prove you knew my grandpa and his friends. I told you I would only see you for a couple minutes because that's always what happens when you're with your friends, but you wouldn't believe me. Proved ya' wrong again. I'm sick of being you 100th priority. I want to be at least in your top five. So give it a rest with the I love you, you're my best friend crap... I don't believe you anymore.

miniredhawk

:: 2006 14 July :: 7.43pm

Panic! At The Disco

Beyond awesome!

And for that, I say, thank you Anne!
Best. Gift. Ever.