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2006 29 April :: 2.31pm
tired as hell.
prom was wonderful. still didnt top last years, but we werent really aiming for that. it was wonderful in its own way. me and keegan went with brandi and ryan, im so glad we didnt go in a big group. we got pictures at my house, then at the rockford dam. we had dinner at mangiamo! (the exclamation point is part of the title.. odd as it is) it was absolutely gorgeous. the restaraunt itself is in a huge "old world" mansion. its italian and suprisingly wasnt that expensive. i think it'd be a safe bet to say that we ate at the most beautiful restaraunt. seriously.... lol.
i didnt really care for st. nicks. to me it was set up really awkwardly. the dance floor in its own little room thing... odd. we made it fun though. senior prom.. gotta live it up right? i couldnt have been more happier with the way my hair and dress turned out.. i felt like a princess. and keegan just looked absolutely wonderful. it was nice to see him in black for once. he's gone white, ivory, and FINALLY black. and the black definately looked best. *smiles.... i love us together.
after prom we went to steak n shake and then midnight bowling. we didnt really know what to do. me and keegan wanted to go to oasis, but brandi didnt want to. so we kind of winged it. we didnt want to go anywhere that alcohol might be... which rules out alot of the post prom parties! no worries though. keegan and i went back to his house and stayed there. this morning he even made me breakfast. aww.
all in all i got about 140 pictures. thats gonna be a pain to print!
i cant belive this was my last dance. no more getting dressed up. no more extensive hair, no more beautiful dresses. its about time though. im assuming the next time i get ALL done up like this will be my wedding! bring it on..... all the more reasons to get an expensive dress!
tonights a rampage game. i should probably get ready.
HOLY my goodness did it take forever to wash all the hair spray out of my hair. i havent yet gotten to blow drying it.. but i know thats its mega snarled.
have a good rest of the weekend.
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2006 29 April :: 4.13pm
A lot has changed lately.
My dad called me on Thursday and told me that my stepmom was moving out. I don't really know what to think of this. At first I cried but then I realized the whole reason why I was crying wasn't because she was moving out it was because I was just scared of what was going to happen and I didn't want my dad to be alone and it hurts me to see him hurt. I guess I don't really have feelings towards this. I think it's for the best. I hated her anyways. Once she moves out my dad wants me to come over Tuesday-Thursday because he is always in Detroit all week and we need someone to take care of our dogs but there's no way I'm moving in there. I'm not going to be at a house all alone and plus once Summer comes I wont even be here anyways so it's not going to work out. I don't know what we are going to do and we are also going to put our house up for sale and move too. This whole thing is really stressing me out.
So then today my uncle needed me to drop something off at my dads so I planned on going to see my dad anyways so when I'm about five minutes away my mom calls me and tells me my dad called her and said that I can't come over right now so I wanted to know what that was all about and I called him and he said that my stepmom was there and that it just wasn't a good idea for me to be there. I got pissed off because I basically drove out there for nothing and my uncle still needed me to drop something off at my dads so I just went over there anyways and dropped it off and I walked out and then my dad came after me and we got into this huge fight and it ended up with me crying and leaving.
And now my mom and I are also in a fight because of this whole thing so I pretty much feel unwelcome at both of my houses.
She couldn't take one more day
Home was more her prison now
Independence called out
She had to get it
A fight was all she needed
To give her reason
She slammed the door with no goodbye
And that it was time
Now she's driving too fast
She didn't care to glance behind
And through her tears she laughed
It's time to kiss the past goodbye
In other news besides all the bad things that have been going on, Prom was awesome. I don't really feel like talking about it because Prom is Prom but it was really weird because everyone kept telling me last night that I looked like Mischa Barton and my Prom dress looked like her Prom dress that she wore on The O.C. and the episode just airred on Thursday so a day later we had almost the same dress. Hmm..her and I ... pretty much the same person.
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2006 29 April :: 1.21pm
You know what? I actually thought I wanted to be your friend and now I have no idea why. No idea.
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2006 29 April :: 12.30am
prom
well all prom is finally over and that means that its not long till my babe graduates. i am gonna get pics up on here as soon as i can and so you can all see how leet i looked in my tux. my babe looked fantastic and i couldnt keep my eyes off her. ahhh she is the love of my life
Tux
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2006 27 April :: 1.35pm
i just tried on my prom dress and jewlery and all that... OMG.
SMILES SOOOOOOO BIG
im excited now. it still fits. my tan is wonderful. i cant wait to eat at montiago or whatever its called. !!!!!!
see everyone tomorrow!
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2006 26 April :: 11.48pm
Gotta love those akward moments.
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2006 25 April :: 1.56pm
*phew... sigh of relief.
in other news.. H's prom promise spiel went good today. I figured that'd be a good message instead of handing out crappy pens. Feedback?
prom.friday.ohgod.
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2006 25 April :: 4.21pm
Apparently I'm not being vague enough for you. Either you pretend you don't notice or you are a complete moron. One of the two. Who knows which one that is.
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2006 25 April :: 8.52am
So yep it is actually me updating once in a while. I am sitting here at 9 o'clock on tuesday because I finally have a day off. It has been a long week. For those of you who don't know I started a job at Frito-Lay last week monday. It's a good job, but it is alot of physical work. Wery hard work. I walk about 12 miles a day, and lift over 6 thousand pounds by the time the night is over. Every muscle in my body is sore at the end of the night. The pay is good and I can't wait to see my first pay check, though of course it is all going toward rent. Anyway I am sad. I haven't seen rachel all week and from the sounds of it I may not see her until next week either. I work the weekends and she has been sick, her car is also kinda crapped out. I miss her alot. It's funny sometimes, you would think that it is the way that you feel when you are with somebody that would tell you that you love them, but if you see them all the time you don't notice it as much. Well I realized how much being apart and feeling like crap because the one you love is no where in sight can have the same effect. Everytime I want to share a moment with her or just wraps my arms around her and relinqish all my grief and anxiety to fate, and relax in the melodic rythm of her heart beating against my side, she is no there :( I love rachel so much and right now I miss her.
On another note I need some socail interaction please!!!!!!! I have two days off from work and I really want to get out of the house or see some old faces. *Cry for help* :P Peace all,
We Win!
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2006 24 April :: 1.30am
It's okay. We're helping the people in Iraq. And fitting in time for golf.
'Bring it on'
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2006 23 April :: 3.12pm
:: Mood: drained
Boys... not men... BOYS
First JD and I weren't going to prom together, then we were, now we aren't again. I'd blame Caleb, since it was originally his fault, but now it's just JD. He's stupid. He wants to date me, and he does. But at school it's just another day. I don't like it. I want to punch it in the face.
I guess I should be use to the craziness of that boys mind by now. Seriously, he's always been this way. But I still get taken by surprise when it comes to him. Craziness.
I'm so so so tired. I slept from 9:30ish last night to 9 this morning. And yet I'm still dead tired. I hate Sundays.
I'll c ya'll tomorrow. Have a great rest of your rainy Sunday. Love ya'.
-Jay-
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2006 23 April :: 12.27pm
Oh, and just so everyone knows, I love Stacy Cain!
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2006 23 April :: 11.56am
It's gonna be love
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
It's gonna be
It's gonna be love
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2006 22 April :: 1.40pm
last night at parkway was fuckin ausome, damn i love titties... i have been in an ausome mood latley, i have been goin out and doin more stuff then ever before
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2006 19 April :: 11.02pm
The fact of the matter is, we don't have anything to fix. It's to the point where I don't even care what you have to say and the whole thing where you say you don't want to see me hurt. Well it's a little too late for that. And obviously you don't care about me more or you wouldn't be doing this. That's a lie. Everything that comes out of your mouth is a lie. I would rather you just admit it than act fake about it. I know. He knows. You know. We all know.
Oh no
Don't go changing
That's what you told me from the start
Thought you where something different
That's when it all just fell apart
Like you're so perfect
And I can't measure up
Well I'm not perfect
Just all messed up
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
It's not like I need somebody
Telling me where I should go at night
Don't worry you'll find somebody
Someone to tell how to live their life
Cause your so perfect
And no one measures up
Yeah all by yourself
You're all messed up
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
Now wait a minute
Because of you
I never knew all the things that I had
Hey don't u get it
I'm not going anywhere with you tonight
Cause this is my life
I was loosing myself to somebody else
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
She was tearing us apart
Cause she's was everything
Everything I'm not
But now I see
I don't wanna pretend
So this is the end of you and me
Cause the girl that you want
she was tearing us apart
Cause she's everything
Everything I'm not
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2006 19 April :: 4.24pm
heres to the worst day ever...
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2006 18 April :: 9.27pm
My New E-mail is Not-Asleep_Not-Awake@hotmail.com
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2006 18 April :: 8.08pm
It occured to me yesterday that everyone I know is painfully normal. There is nothing special about any of us. There are one hundred other people out there with the exact same talents and skills as any one of us. What makes us think we are anything to be proud of? The only thing that sets us apart are our experiences, but hell, who cares about experiences if you can't fit them into a concise paragraph along with your hopes and dreams and plan of the future?
I found out a few weeks ago that I was accepted into the Grand Valley State University School of Music to study for a degree in Music (performance) or Music Education.
It appears I have everything figured out. It would be wonderful if I really did.
Today was a horrible day. I don't know exactly why. It was just the feeling I had about it. Everything seemed so real, so acute, so harsh. It's hard to explain. It seems like the good days float by with a cloud of superficiality, nothing really grabs hold so much as just grazes by. It's like a bullet being shot that whizzes about your head. You realized it would hurt if you were struck, it might even be fatal, but because it didn't strike, it's almost not real. You are left with no physical reminder of it's presence. It can be soon forgotten, there was no true impact on your life.
Being struck with that bullet is a different story. You must live with the pain and reminder of it every day. It digs into your body, as much as into your soul. It's there, it's real.
That's what today seemed like. Real.
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2006 17 April :: 8.09pm
:: Mood: moody
:: Music: my mp3 player
Meet Virginia
The highlight of my day: going into work and talking to Ken for about 10 or 15 minutes. True story! How is it that he's 23? Seriously... is that even fair? He's perfect. I can talk to him about anything and everything. He's such a sweetheart, and it makes me happy just to see him. Man, remind me to die when he goes back on active duty. Because I swear if that man dies in Iraq I will cry my eyes out. He and I are actually really close. Closer than most people realize, I think. Maybe Beth sees it... but she would. She's like that, always knows. I think it's the mom in her. Anyway, I just thought I'd share.
Yea, we got mercyed... again. And I didn't play... again. This is the first year ever, and I mean EVER, that I haven't been a starter. There was one game last year when I didn't start, and that was because I missed practice for a week while in California and couldn't play. Yea, see, this is stupid. I swear it makes me worse not to play. It really really does. I dislike softball lately... it's an ego killer.
Yea, I don't know what to do. I'm so stressed lately, and it's making me really short tempered. NOT good. Honestly though, I like having JD around again. Yesterday was basically terrible, until I went to work and she didn't need me. After that I got to go to J's house and chill. He cleaned out his car and I just layed in the backseat. It was nice to just talk to him. He was one person that I needed. Plus when we were done outside we went in and watched Malibu's Most Wanted. It was funny, and it was nice to cuddle with him. I think I might just like his friendship now. I don't need to kiss him or anything, I just want him there. It's nice when he holds me and the world's suddenly all better. I'm glad that my best friend is my prom date... it's gonna' be perfect. Because he's perfect... even his faults. This is what I held on for, I'm glad I waited for him. I truly do love him.
Wow, I'm so moody today. I just went from heated to extatic in like 12 seconds. So not kidding. Wierdo. (and yes, I am talking to myself now).
Anyway, I'll check ya' later. Chao.
XOXO,
Jaq
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2006 17 April :: 10.31am
:: Music: johnny cash ~ cocaine
so i'm gonna save up money and get my tattoo on my back covered up. probally with a tribal design
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2006 16 April :: 1.33pm
Well this weekend was pretty interesting to say the least. I pretty much just hung out with my friends and yesterday I got my prom dress.
I can't figure out why things like that happen and they always happen at the worst times. It throws everything off for me. Cheers to another akward moment.
I never knew, I never knew that everything was falling through. That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue, to turn and run when all I needed was the truth, but that's how it's gotta be.
Everyone knows I'm in over my head, with eight seconds left in overtime, she's on your mind & suddenly I become part of your past, I'm becoming the part that doesn't last, I'm losing you & it's effortless.
Stacy I'm waiting for you because I have my picture of my dress ready for you now lol.
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2006 16 April :: 12.19pm
well some dumbass was beepin me, the other night about Holly and my mom, and the ficticous charater kelly miller. there was no kelly miller, there never will be, i just said that to get the point acrost. there is a girl however, i dont feel to put the name in here, i dont feel like having her bein stalked.
oh if the guy that beeped me reads this i live at 224 lake in sand lake, lets see if you can man up to what you say?
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2006 16 April :: 11.47am
:: Mood: tired, sore, bored, blessed, and crazy
You know I'll always love you, but right now I just don't like you.
Okay new rule, if you update your journal, any journal, more than twice a day, you need to get a life. I kid you not.
So, JD and I saw Scary Movie 4 last night. Don't waste your money, there are like 2 funny parts and the rest is just stupid. But before that we went to Coldstone, his first time, it was BOMB!! He loved it too, which is good because I may have died of a heart attack if he didn't... that place is AMAZING!! Oh, and we saw Katie and Curtis at Circuit City. That was fun. I was so excited that I jumped out of the car with my shoes off to run over and hug Katie. It was funny. Then we laughed at this guy who thought he was cool in a big ol' SUV with like 20 inch rims on it. He was blasting his stereo with the windows down, all leaned back in his seat. It was pathetic. But funny.
Yea, church was WAY boring. Why is it that all ministers feel the need to tell the story of Resurection every single Easter. NEWSFLASH! Everyone already knows!! DUH, that's why we're celebrating it. Hello. Anyway, JD's family didn't come because his dad's sick and his mom said she had "too much to do before Easter lunch". So it was just Grandma, Barb and I again. As usual.
Yea, did I mention that JD and I are going to prom together. Cuz we are. And we're going to an AQ day next Friday together. And we're totally dating. Which is nice because I love him... and he's like 20 thousand times better than he was before. I love it.
So yea, I need a prom dress... but I have ZERO time to go get one, so we'll see how that works out. Hmm... whatever.
I'll see ya'll later. Happy Easter, even though Easter was originally a Saturday and this is just to satisfy all the people who love changing the Bible. Chao loves.
-Jay-
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2006 16 April :: 6.11am
friday was so beautiful. keegan and i went to AJ's and went mini golfing (which i won) and then in the batting cages. i'm not sure that i've ever even held a baseball bat.. lol.
then we got ice cream and went to riverside park which was wonderful. after that we drove around downtown and stopped at nicks house (breakdancer) and last but not least, got smoothies from coldstone. it was a really good night.
saturday we had a yearbook work day. the senior section is seriously awesome. if you havent bought a yearbook you NEED to. for the people who didnt buy a book this year.. i think that once it comes out next year and people see how good it is, we're going to sell all of our extras.i just did 3 spreads in 3 days. (just so you know.. it takes some poeple about a month or more just to do one) im so excited for the book to be done!
yesterday after the yearbook thing and before i went to work, i went for a run/walk. i havent excersised in so long. and then i got home.. cleaned out under our bunny hut (which was long due... ugh) and wheel barrowed it to the back of our property. i was just in such a good mood ijust wanted to be outside. but TODAY my legs hurt from overdoing it on my walk thing, my back hurts from lifting the wheelbarrow wrong, my shoulders hurt from doing countless handstands, and my tricept is a bit inflamed. ah well, who cares.
we're going to my uncle david and aunt pats today for easter dinner. keegans coming after he gets out of work. he has to be in at 11 and his boss wouldnt let him come in at 12 after church. like ANYONES gonna be eating at logans on easter during church hours. so that's to bad.
the "easter bunny" brought me the carrie underwood cd and a silk robe in my easter basket this morning (thats right, im 17 and still get easter baskets and christmas stockings... my mom doesnt want to let go) and im SEEING carrie underwood at the KENNY CONCERT! i can barely stand the wait. derks bently is gonna be there too.. but i dont really like him. BUT brandi and i just got tickets for the tim mcgraw and faith hill concert too! OMG... now im just freaking out. because im going to two of the biggest concerts this year. i cant WAIT!
happy easter!
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