oh what marvelous things

:: 2004 16 July :: 2.30am

chris wants t0 hear fr0m yall!! answer the f0ll0wing!! ::
do you have a pee-pee?

is it a big pee-pee?

are y0u f0nd 0f y0ur pee-pee?

are y0ur girlfriends 0ok that their gilfriend has a pee-pee?

d0 they sometimes "grab" y0ur pee-pee?

when they frist f0und 0ut y0u had a pee-pee did they "ax" t0 see it?

did y0u let them see it?

new subject::

chris::what d0 girls like t0 hear fr0m guys?

kayla:: uh, they like it when therr man buy them an ugly d0g

chris:: then w0nt they wanna kill the d0g?"

kayla:: no, b/c celebrities have little ugly d0gs.

"im d0ne... i guess..."

lma0..

if y0u can fill these 0ut and c0mment, then ill read them t0o him!!
l0ve ya all!!

<3
~~kris & chayla!~~ -- h0pe every0nes happy!

((chris sed mah pee-pees name is princess feonna)) l0l.
<3

:: 2004 16 July :: 2.09am
:: Music: christopher on da ph0ne

heyy yall!

sh0ut 0utz::

bailey-- i l0ve y0u and y0ur the bestest friend ever! im here f0r ya babe!

kayla-- w0rds cann0t describe just h0w much i freakin l0ve y0u.. m0re hang 0ut time!!

lacey-- y0u are in my bed right now!

britt-- y0u is da bestest big sister a dudette can get! we need to hang 0ut m0re. mizz jizz!!

chris-- b0o!!/jack/best friend cry babii!!**

mia-- mia i l0ve y0u m0re then life itslef. y0u are the funniest pers0n ever!! i <33 y0u t0 the starz and back *((haha, britt, you n nick))*

calli-- dude!!! lol. y0ur s0 sweet!! f'din t0 kn0w ya better!! we still g0tta g0 0n 0ur date.! ((haha:: r0bert w0rd!!))

nich0las-- da biggest c0olest br0ther in the w0rd. :-)

devin-- mah h0mie! / h0ney / 0ur sexii special special handshake!! y0u have a nice b0oty.

kaela-- heyy sexii thang! y0u are s0 beautiful!! alm0st as beautiful as da firew0rks at red white and b0ob ::c0ugh:: b0om!! ::c0ugh::

daniela-- i l0ve y0u! maybe y0u sh0uld c0me 0ver n jump in mah p0ol again s0metime! <3

mark-- mah 0ther c0ol 0lder br0ther! maybe i sh0uld walk 0ver therr right NOW! lol.

becky-- didis/ hillbilly!! lol. i think i l0ve y0u. l0l.. I L0vE MaH seXXi SoCKs! startin a new trend! l0l.

n t0o every0ne else, y0u kn0w i l0ve y0u!
((including m0m, wh0 s0metimes reads mah j0urnal! ))

<3

lisalion816

:: 2004 15 July :: 2.24pm

hey hey hey!!

If you need to mail me it costs 80 cents...strange...i have to pay over a dollar..arg oh well, what can you do? strange swedish system...

hokay, we sent the sis to camp for a month...its a conformation camp ( at the end you will be able to take communion) where you hang out with 52 other 15 year olds ( you go when your 15) sooo...shes having fun... i did it three years ago and had a blast. no parents or dumb siblings for a month!

sooo...tomorrow im going over to my aunts house and hopefully i will be able to decorate my room so it will look more like "Lisa" other than a sewing room. funstuff.

ok, the fashion here...omg! everyone is VERY fashion conscience and the style is the 80s. and punk. ive seen ppl with the mullet hair and eww...not for me. i will have to buy some clothes to blend in better...

...getting my hair cut so i look more swedish...dont know whats going to happen or if i'll need to wear a hat until it grows back to a desired looking yeah...ok then

having fun...cold...more cold...fun stuff!

MISS EVERYONE!!

Later....

:: 2004 14 July :: 11.18pm
:: Music: echo-- trapt

bailey
hey babe!

you wanted me to update.

so its for you.

i love you so much.

and im always here.

b/c thats what best friends are for.

everythings gonna work out.

and youll be fine.

b/c you have SO many ppl that care abuot you.

and hey i would make a list of all the ppl who love you, but g0d. andi'd prolly kick me off woohu for writing so damn much!

your my best friend.

and i love you. forever. and ill always be here.

right here.

to listen.

you talk.

-x0

lisalion816

:: 2004 12 July :: 11.22am

HEY!!

Ok its been forever since i've been able to get the internet! ahhh...oh well what can i do?

I went to Stockholm last week for two days and had fun with the family. Well, as much fun as you can have right?

Havn't been doing that much...went for a long walk in the woods saturday and picked a bucket full of blueberries. that was something i can't do at home.

Im going to write as often as i can! Hope all my buds are having a fun summer!

Later...

:: 2004 11 July :: 10.27pm
:: Mood: _GaNgStER_
:: Music: lacey eatin chips yo!

Your Inner Gangsta by crash_and_burn
What is yo name?
Yo gangsta name be Los Pantalones
You ride around in a Huffy Sun Catcher (Ride that bicycle, fool)
Yo gang Gary Coleman's Alleycat Thugs
Yo shoes be Bathroom slippers
Yo dubs be dis big, fool 4,336
How much money you got? $4.56513075787745e+26
How gangsta are you, bitch?: 100%
Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

:: 2004 11 July :: 8.14pm

im S0 stupid!

me n bay went to daytona and i dropped my cell phone in the p0ol :( so i lost all mah f0ne numbers.. so if you can.. leave me a comment wish your numbers! i luVv yOU

5 | glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 9 July :: 11.06am
:: Mood: just woke up yet happy
:: Music: sugarcult - memory but i can hear aqueous transmisson by incubus coming from my room ha

down the strip II
again, tears were trickiling down my cheeks. i need to escape from the burdens that were weighing on my soul once again.

i had no one to call.

for you became the burden that made it hard for me to breathe.

after the last excursion down the strip.
after the last sunset we watched.
after the last kiss under the palm trees as rain seeped through the shimmering palms after the skys broke open after the sun went down.
after the last innocent goodbye peck from you on the cheek as i opened up your rusty car door and walked, dazed through the rain to my front door.

after all that
something about you changed.

our phone calls were curt.

when we met up, a certain warmth was gone and it was cold like a winter night.

i could tell by your eyes that something had changed.

now i dont know who to turn to.

i miss hearing that bad muffler of yours.
i miss us singing along to old disco songs as we charged down the strip.
i miss the smell of the ocean and your cologne as it mixed and made this scent that could make me melt.
i miss my best friend.
i miss you.

so today, with tears now hitting the ground and evaporating as soon as they fell.

all i know is that i need to get down to the strip before i self combust.

only one way. the el camino.

i frantically searched through our junk drawer for the keys to the beast.

finally i pulled out the key ring with my ticket to freedom and a big orange cactus attached to it.

i ran to the side of those house, keys and red cap on my head.

it took a couple tries to get the beast started. after about 6 times the beast was up and kicking.

i tried rolling down the drivers window but it was jammed and wouldnt budge as hard as i tried rolling it down and how much i cursed at it.

at the next red light, i stetched over to the passengers side and tried to get the window down. it only rolled down an inch and stubbornly stayed that way.

i let out a long sad and annoyed sigh and made my way into the 7-11.

to add on to the greatness of that day, the slurpee machine was broken. no cherry/blueberry mix for me.

there was only one more thing that could make me feel better.

okay two, but you never answer my calls anymore.

so i headed on the road to get to the strip. of course i got stuck at the longest light in town. i remembered how we both used to sit at the light just counting down til when it would turn green and the strip would be ours once again. i would always ask, 'why dont you just run it." and you would always say in your mellow gravelly voice, 'good things come to those who wait." and once our debate on the red light was over, the light changed and we were off to the strip.

green light finally poured through the beast and i jetted down the strip.

i found our spot.

i quickly turned off the the beast but left the old disco station blaring.

i ran to the spot and sat under the palm trees.

i crossed my legs and crossed my arms and sat in this little ball.
as my tears soaked my arm as i hid my face there.
i sat there and cried as 'she's a brick house' played from my car and wind rushed through the palm fronds above me.

my tears were suddenly stopped when i felt something cold on my arm.

i looked at my arm to see a slurpee pushed against it.

glancing up to meet your eyes that looked like the sea when a storm was rolling through. except i could see tears in that sea.

andie andie oxenfree***

:: 2004 8 July :: 6.19pm

britt\'s next to me!!!

thirteen random things you like:
01) guys

02) shopping
03) hang 0ut wif BrItT
04) laughing
05) friends
06) movies
07) music
08) abercrombie
09) hollister
10) shoes
11) purses
12) money$$
13) my phone

twelve movies:
01) texas chainsaw massacre
02) the notebook
03) night at the roxbury
04) the ring
05) white chicks
06) mah d0g skiP
07) SwimFAn-- LOL. KAYLA, great movie
08) d0DGebALl
09) fINdINg nEmo
10) aL0nG cAmE p0lly
11) STaRsKy N huTch
12) thE bUtTerFlY eFFeCT

eleven good bands/artists:
01) BlINK 182
02) go0D CHaRlOtTe
03) TaKINg BaCk SunDay
04) uShhHer
05) fEfE DoBsON
06) lp
07) THe SeXii MaN WiTh THe WaLK.. lol. britt
08)nfg
09) dc
10) mest
11) anything ROCK***

ten things about you ... physically:
01) brown hair and blond. lol.
02) green eyes sometimes brown
03) (p0wer chain!!=)straight teeth
04) 5'2
05) strong fingernails. lmao.
06) full lips (dsl)
07) peanut shaped eyes. lmao. i luvv britttttt
08) long hair
09) pierced ears
10) glossy ears, lmao. sorry kayla,we luvv you!

nine good friends: in like.. special order or anything.. (j/p)
01) BRITTANY!
02) bailey
03) chris
04) mia
05) kristi
06) kayla
07) chris
08) callli
09) rachel, lacey, kaela, sandra, and BRITTANY***

eight favorite foods/drinks:
01) shrimp stew
02) shrimp salad
03) brittany!!!!!!!!!lol
04) shrimp rye
05) pop corn shrimp
06) fried shrimp
07) shrimp cocktail
08) shrimp! (j/p bout all those.. i hate shrimp!! me n britt are jusss REALLY hyper!!!*

seven things you wear daily:
01) socks
02) bra
03) shorts/pants/skirt
04) shirt
05) makeup
06) undies
07) deoderant ( none of you ppl put that!! YOUR ALL SICK!)

six things that annoy you:
01) ppl who leave annonnmous comments that are mea :(
02) ppl that arent britt
03) the pop pop pop POP of pop corn
04) nick
05) nick attemtping to play the guitar.. the same song over and over and over and over and over and over!! grrr. lol
06) havin no $$$cha-ching$$$

five things you touch everyday:
01) keyboard
02) phone
03) brittany
04) brush..?
05) my bedd

four shows you watch:
01) boiling points
02) the brittany show. lol
03) mad tv.. (STUART! AND LORLAINE!)
04) snl

three celebrities you have a crush on:
01) ashton kutcher
02) brittany!!
03) tom delonge!

two people on lj you have kissed
01) brittany!! even tho she doesnt have an lj!
02) and YOU!

one person you could spend the rest of your life with
01) brittany!!* muah britt! thanks for helping!

:: 2004 8 July :: 2.12am

thanks britt!!>>>
the journals lookin hot now! lol
ne ways.. today was fun. me and bailey got our nails done. and made fun of her lil cousin. lol. NEMO! lol. and umm. we went shoppin and tomorrow i get to spend the night at baileys and we get to go to daytona friday for brooke and paul's birthday! gonna be fun fun fun
gonna get tan babii!! lol

^SuperScriptgotta jet!

i love dudes
are you a dude?

i love you <3

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 6 July :: 8.47pm
:: Mood: wonderful :)
:: Music: burning up - madonna

little things ya may not know..
i love things with hibiscuses on them.
(journal doesnt hit any does it?)
i love things with black and white checkers on them.
if i could find something black and white checkered with a hibiscus on it then i would be a happy camper.
i am asking and asking for a drumset for christmas.
and asking and asking for an american bulldog for my birthday.
i go to get my permit in 9 days.
i want a pair of aviator sunglasses.
if i moved to daytona beach i would totally buy a mint green or tan and orange vespa or a 74 vw thing.
if i ever get really rich and build a house, i will have a room just for me to paint in and the floors will become an art cause there will be so much paint on them.
i love 80s music.
i love my old madonna tape from 1983 that i found yesterday.
i love to wear clothes that dont really match but actually do.
i love bangs.
i hate when they grow out and get all in your face.
i have been told that i dress like a beach bum.
i didnt take is as a bad thing.
if i had tons of moolah to spent i would spend it on roxy and billabong shtuff from surf shops.
i dont know what i wanna be when i grow up.
i always go back and check to see if i locked the front door when i leave to go somewhere.always.
i love to travel.
ireland is very high on my places to travel to.
i cant type with my watch and hairtie on my wrist or my ring on my finger.
i cant stand necklaces that are too big and plummet down your neck so i take all the beaded ones i get and cut them to make them fit around my neck.
i always flip-flips.always.
excpet when i have practice.
i love lacrosse.
i am not too fond of the ball though.
i love taking pictures.
i love art.
i love love music.
it should be a crime to make a remix of pink floyd's 'another brick in the wall.'
if this was true then the music people at express would be in jail right now.
lindsay and i have thought of jumping the miracle mascot.
'what are you two in here for? i killed a man with just a straw.'
"we jumped the miracle mascot."
i am constantly drumming on things.
i am pretty unlucky.
i am definitely clumsy.
my neighbors probably hate me for playing my music to loud.
not my fault i love music.
:P
i am going to go eat a healthy dinner of a slim jim and a hi-c.
yum yum

andie andie oxenfree***

lovethehibiscus

:: 2004 6 July :: 10.53am
:: Mood: bwuahahah
:: Music: down - 311

the plan
ive been living out of a suitcase for days
trying to see the good in things but i cant see through the haze
not understanding why they still ask what my problem is
instead of being in my life she chose his
everyone knows of the problem that larks
on the cruise, we are gonna throw him overboard and feed him to the sharks

andie andie oxenfree***

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

4 | glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

:: 2004 6 July :: 12.01am

crying. no idea why.

ive been thinking so hard.

about everything.

and all the thoughts= the tears rolling down my cheeks.

i cant remember the last time you cared about ne thing.

the last time you allowed yourself to be seen.

listenin to trapt now.

emo is mine.

all mine.

chris is gonna call me and make me feel better.

just pray it works.

all im thinking about is making my stomach curl.

and im thinking about just so much. that it would be impossible to type it all.

and all my thoughts change so fast.

everything from kayla velente.

to brittany.

and everything happening with chris and calli.

and bailey.

and mia.

everything is my fault.

nothing would have happened with mia if it werent for me.

everything would have been ok, if i hadnt come along.

i cant escape walking down these halls.

have to find a place where there are no walls.

definitly an emo girl.

screwed

and i love all my friends.

but all of their wrongs.

have something to do with me.

crying.

still..

and as for you,

your wasting your time reading it.

-x0

:: 2004 5 July :: 11.33pm

Name: kayla
Birthday: 2.24.91
School: gms
Color of eyes: hazel
Hair: dark brown and blond
Height: 5'1
Shoe Size:7ish
Righty or Lefty: righty
Brothers/Sisters: 1 brother
Who lives with you?: my mom, my dad, my brother
When's your bedtime?: whenever im tired
------------HAVE YOU EVER------------
Been so drunk you blacked out:iunno. bailey?
Missed school because it was raining: nope
Kept a secret from everyone: yea
Put a body part on fire for amusement: uhh..?
Had an imaginary friend: actually, no
Had a New Kids on the Block tape: no
Been on stage: yeah
Cut your hair: yeah..ive cut it
---------------FAVORITES--------------
Color: red
Day/Night: night
Summer/Winter: summer
Fave food: basgetti
Fave ice cream: the soft ice cream
---------------RIGHT NOW---------------
Wearing: roberts shirt and red cheer shorts
Hair: wet from the shower
I'm feeling: ok.. i guess.
Eating: nothing..last thing i ate was a slice of cheese though
Drinking: last thing was sprite.. mah fav
Thinking about: puh i dunno
Listening to: yellow card and trapt
Talking to: britt
Watching: uhh..my computer screen
--------IN THE LAST 24 HRS.-----------
Cried:yeh
Worn a skirt: yeh
Met someone new: no
Cleaned your room: no
Done laundry:no
Drove a car: nope
----------DO YOU BELIEVE IN-----------
Santa Claus: no
Tooth Fairy: no
Ghosts:iunno..
-----------FRIENDS AND LIFE-----------
Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend? nope
Like anyone? not really
Who's the loudest: lol uhhh thats easy.. ME! Who's the shyest: hmmm...becky
Who's the funniest: mia and kayla
Who do you go to for advice: kayla and britt
Who do you cry to?: bailey
When you cried the most: when im depressed i guess...
What's the best feeling in the world:ok ok, not to sound corney or anything like that but prolly love both ways
Worst feeling: being alone
Where do you plan to go on your honeymoon? california.. my future hood
Last person you talked to on the phone? uhhh...chris and mah bro
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes and personality
Your favorite drink? sprite and pina coladas
Favorite alcoholic drink? bailey's dad's shots!!
How do you eat an Oreo? i bite off the top choclate part n then i eat the frosting on top of one of the cookies.
Relationship or one night stands? relationships
Chocolate or vanilla? both
What's on your mouse pad? no mouse padd
Least favorite smell? umm shit?
Favorite sound? guitar
Which finger is your favorite? middle!!
What is your favorite lunch meat? umm turkey. bock bock
Any bad habits? swaring
What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? n*sync...i dunno why i have it..i should burn it
Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? yupp
Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? no but i think ur on crack or soemthing
Do fish have feelings?yeh i was a fish in my past life
Where is your second home? mia's house.
What was your favorite toy as a child? uhh.. i guess i liked barbies..
Do you have a journal? ....what does it look like?yeh, like 5.
Have you ever been in a mosh pit? yeh, close, got bumped into at the blink concert! dude they f***in rock
What are your nicknames? lala and diddy and kay-kay :(
Would you bungee jump? yeah, i have...a cheap version though..not actually off a bridge...i wish!
Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no, my shoes arn't even tied when they are on
Do you ever wear overalls? no lol
How many people have a crush on YOU right now? oh wow.. lol. just playin like 0.

-----------ON THE INSIDE-------------

YOUR HERITAGE~ american, irish and german
GOALS YOU'D LIKE TO ACHIEVE~ college... lol
*YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW*

YOUR MOST OVERUSED PHRASE ON AIM~ uh. lol
YOUR THOUGHTS FIRST WAKING UP~ "f*** you, let me sleep"
YOUR BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE~ hair..?
YOUR MOST MISSED MEMORY~ a lot of stuff:-(
ADIDAS OR NIKE~ Nike
LIPTON ICE TEA OR NESTEA~ dunno
CAPPUCCINO OR COFFEE~ coffee

*DO YOU*

SMOKE~ uhh.. mia can answer thaT ONE..
CUSS~ yeh.
SING~ yeah. not that i can, but yeh i do
TAKE A SHOWER EVERYDAY~ of course
WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE~ yupp
LIKE MIDDLE SCHOOL~ i guess.
WANT TO GET MARRIED~ yeah..not now though
THINK YOU'RE A HEALTH FREAK~ ha, no
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS~ uhhh...?

*IN THE PAST MONTH*

DONE A DRUG~ what do you mean by drug?
MADE OUT~ nope
GONE ON A DATE~ yeh i guess. group of ppl
GONE TO THE MALL~ yup
EATEN SUSHI~ ew
BEEN ON STAGE~ no
BEEN DUMPED~ nope
MADE HOMEMADE COOKIES~ yeh but, i ate all the cookie dough
STOLEN ANYTHING~ ...no.. had someone steal something for me

*EVER...*

PLAYED A GAME THAT REQUIRED REMOVAL OF CLOTHING~ iunno.. i dont think so
BEEN CAUGHT "DOING SOMETHING"~ iunno

AGE 2 GET MARRIED~ 20's
NUMBER AND NAMES OF CHILDREN~ 2-3...names..umm ...brooke, travis,kalia, WHERE DO YOU WANT TO GO TO COLLEGE~ cali, wif kayla.
WHAT DO YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU GROW UP~ iunno.

*IN A GUY*

BEST EYE COLOR~ dark
BEST HAIR COLOR~dark
SHORT OR LONG HAIR~ kinda long
HEIGHT~ taller then me
BEST WEIGHT~ umm good fer the height
BEST ARTICLES OF CLOTHING~ umm...shoes:-p
BEST FIRST DATE~ somewhere nice

*IN THE NUMBERS*
NUMBER OF TIMES MY NAME WAS IN THE NEWSPAPER~ a cuple
NUMBER OF SCARS ON MY BODY~ a lot
WHAT DID YOU DO LAST NIGHT? stayed wif mah girlie kayla and watched frieworks
HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?hott -n- dark
HAIR COLOR? mine? brown and blond
EYE COLOR? answered that.
SUNRISE OR SUNSET? sunrises occure to early sooo sunsets
FAVORITE HOBBY? iunno
____ im not gonna fill out the rest. so this other girls answers are from here on, her names emily._____
Zodiac Sign? Pisces
ON GUYS FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT
Boxers or briefs: boxers
Curly or straight hair: prolly staright
Tall or short: tall
Six pack or muscular arms: if i had to choose then....6 pack
Hat or no hat: either
Ears pierced or not:nothign overboard
Tan or no tan: not too picky about that
Stubble or neatly shaven: shaven! hate stubbles
Accent or not: not unless it's french;-)
Glasses? dont care
Smart or dumb: smart
What sport should he play? snowboarding, surfing, skateboarding
Dependent or independent? independent

Pick One:

Lights on/off: uhh off
Mickey D's or BK?Bk
Backstreet Boys or NSYNC? they are both fuckin fags
On the phone or in person? in person
Paper or plastic? umm plastic bags have handles....
Sausage or pepperoni? pepperoni
Milk Chocolate or white chocolate: mmmm they are both good
Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? dr.pepper
Glass half full or half empty? half full
Tape or DVD: DVD
Mud or Jell-O wrestling: mud
Cake or pie: pie
YOUR FAVES
Candy: skittles
Animal: penguins
Number: 22
Scent: lilu

Here/there:there
Cold or hot: hot
Pool/Hot Tub: pool
Open or close: depends
Open or Empty: dunno
Pop or Milk: milk
Water or Tea: water
Fruit or Vegetables: fruit
Radio or CD: radio
Email or Instant messenger: IM
Phone or IM: IM
Cookies/cake: cookies
(To watch) Baseball or Soccer: Soccer
(To watch) Football or Basketball: Football
Blonde or Brunette: Brunette..the whole blonde thing is going overboard
Ocean, lake, or pool? umm ocean or a pool
Flordia or California: ive only been to florida
Old or young: young

THE LAST TIME YOU...~*~
Danced: while ago
Fell: i dunno
Kissed someone: not long ago
Hugged Someone: yesterday
Showered: i dunno... an hour or o ago

KISSED A GIRL: fuck no
KISSED A GUY: yeah....dah
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? no
Buttered, plain, or salted? which food are we talking about?
Can you juggle? haha no
Who would you hate to be trapped in a room with? ummm lol a few ppl

~~~Most Disliked~~~
food:....shit?
condiment: mayonnaise<-- thats what liv put -n- im sticking to that seeing that i dunno what a condiment is
Drink: alcohalic...
Attitudes: preps

~~~history~~~
how many people are in your family (extended family): thats funny cuz i have no fuckin clue
What's your blood type: no clue
Your pin #: specify...
How much do you love your job on a scale of one to ten? i will be getting a job soon
Love someone so much it made you cry? funny question..yeah
What color is your bedroom carpet? blue-gray
How many times did you fail your drivers test? im only 15
What do you do most often when you are bored? work out, ride my bike, listen to music, draw, read, computer, eat, umm...sleep..wow, i actually do a lot of stuff when im board...
What do you like to do in you spare time: write, go places, i duno, do something entertaining...
What kinda grades do you get?: low 80's
Do you work?: not yet, but soon
Do you like coffee?: yeah..it's got cafeen in it...what do u think?
Write down what comes first to your mind when you see these words.....
SCHOOL: fuckin jail fer kids -n- a good way to waist the first 20 yrs of ur life.
BROWN: ...shit?
FOOD: yum
WOODLANDS: don't go in them alone, u might get raped...
MONARCHY: i dunno..soemthing about global?
TEA: leaves
POWER: magical powers...which is faggishly gay lol
BUTLER: ur rich -n- lazy
YELLOW: the sun
WAR: iraq
FREEDOM: puh, not what we are livin in
RED: my fav. color
TELEPHONE: good way to evesdrop..i dunno how to spell it...

4 | glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

:: 2004 3 July :: 11.08pm

yellowcard-- only one
britt, i love you. i can talk to you about ne thing without you judgin me or tellin anyone. i love you To0o much!! thanks for being ther.. <3

broken this fragile thing now,
and i cant i cant pick up the peices.
and ive thrown my words all around.
and i cant i cant give you a reason.
i feel so broken up
and i give up
just wanna tell you so you know
here i go
scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go
therrs just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only my only one
made my mistakes
let you down
and i cant i cant hold on for too long
ran my whole life in the ground
and i cant i cant get up when your gone.
somethings breaking up
i fel like giving up
i wont walk out until you know
here i go
scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go
theres just no one that gets me like you do
you are my only my only one
here i go
so dishonestly
leave a note
for you my only one
and i know
you can se right thru me
so let me go
and you will find someone
here i go scream my lungs out and try to get to you
you are my only one
i let go
theres just no one, no one like you
you are my only my only one.
my only one.

:: 2004 3 July :: 8.27pm

gonna be changin my icons a lot.
check the journal.
everyday.
i have so many icons.
not as much as kayla tho.
but a lot.
and i need to show them off.
but they're copyrighted by me.
dont take them.

i lOVe HaPPy pEoplE.. arE yOU hApPy?.

I <3 yOU.

:: 2004 3 July :: 7.24pm

look at her go,
useless and torn.
at this point in time,
she'd never been born.
so many friends
the other ones had.
this case is so sorry,
hopeless and sad.
sat by herself
at the table in school.
watching those kids,
their label was "cool"
thinking about her fantasy
realizing it wont come true.
she'd found her solution,
her problem will be through.

got home round 4
dad was there,
drunk tired and sore.
grabbing the knife
she went to her room.
this lovely place,
would see her doom.

up from heaven she stares,
happy and free
up here, in heaven, everyone cares.
smiling bright,
not a care in the world,
shes happy now, everythings right.

i made that up.. feelin in a depressed mood, no idea why.

kayla's coming over later.

maybe calli.

her mom's pms'ing. lol.

gotta go!! kayla's coming.

i love kayla.

i love you.

-x0

glimpsed a bat with butterfly wings

lisalion816

:: 2004 3 July :: 12.49pm

OK....

Not much has been going on lately....

Last night we all went to my cousin's house for dinner and then the siblings, eric, and i went in the field in the woods and played soccer for a while. We left around 9, but it wasn't dark because the sun never goes down over here in the summer...it after 8 it just looks like it does at 6 in the evening.

Today we went over to a friend of my mom's, who has two kids our age that we know. It was ok.

Monday we're taking the train up to Stockholm and we'll be back on tuesday evening or so. Fun stuff....

Im tired....not quite used to the 6 hour time change yet....

not much else to say

Later...