And with our broken smiles we walk away

:: 2005 7 April :: 11.55pm

FRIDAY, APRIL 15, 2005
C.D. RELEASE PARTY

FUZZY LOGIC AT CEDAR SPRINGS HIGH SCHOOL AUDITORIUM

TICKETS ARE $10 IN ADVANCE FROM BANK ONE AND STEIN BROTHERS PIZZA........WILL BE $12 AT THE DOOR

C.D.'S ARE $5

C.D.'S AND T-SHIRTS ON SALE AT THE CONCERT

SEE YOU THERE!!!!!!!!! THIS WILL BE AN AWESOME CONCERT SO COME OUT FOR SOME FUN AND TO SHOW YOUR SUPPORT.

PARTIAL FUNDS GO TO PROCEDE GOD'S KITCHEN IN GRAND RAPIDS!!!!!!!!!

3 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 7 April :: 4.31pm
:: Mood: tired

well, day 2 at the grindstone. woot....tomorrow i work from 9-3. then i stopped into the ice cream store today to drop off my app. and i guess we're opening on saturday instead of next friday! soooo, instead of having a somewhat peaceful weekend, i work saturday 11-3:30 at ice cream, then 3:30-8:30 at steins. sunday 12-5, monday 11-4:30, and wednesday 5-10. ahhhhhhhh.........i'm excited though, i can smell the money $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$ :)

in other news, ryan called yesterday. we talked for over an hour and i didn't excatly ask him about prom. stupid me. i asked him if he was busy that weekend and he said he was booked until graduation. *sigh*...after talking to him i want to go with him more now than ever. i knew that it would be too much like a fairy tale and somewhat too good to be true if he could come. i just wish it would work out between us once. just one time. it's so hard too,...........ughaglkajglashdgakjdlfkaj. that's that. i have to be real, and i'm realizing that.

anyways, so i'm finally growing up i think. i'm starting to get ancy and wanting to get out of crap hole cedar springs. i'm excited to work 2 jobs now and maybe 3 if i do the farm this summer. if i can keep up. it just seems that i don't really care about high school things anymore. it just all seems stupid. i want to move on with my life. that's a first though...i'm not afraid anymore i don't think. and i know i'll make it.

well, i should get cleaning....if anyone wants to hang out when i'm NOT working, let me know.... :)

:: 2005 1 April :: 7.27pm
:: Mood: happy

i feel so good right now. i'm actually going to go hang out with people i like. and that i don't have to pretend and be fake around. and i went to tina's today and hung out with kale, sarah, and radine...it was like old times with stuffing ourselves with pizza and cheese bread..mmmmmmmmm yeah. and we used tina's tanning bed...yay!!!!! so i'm going to matt's tonight to play poker and have some genuine fun and good times. that makes me happy....break is going to be awesome. yup..:)

12 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 30 March :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: contemplative

hmmm....things are coming to an end. and some things already came to one. it's sad to think about, but exciting to look forward to new friends, living arrangements, and teachers. not to mention a lot of hot guys! woo...anyways, i've been thinking. weird...i know...but don't fear, for it's good news. i'll tell you...just things, not necessarily all bad or good...that have crossed my mind.

1. i haven't updated in forever....and i've had this journal since my freshman year...humph....that's kind of neat-o
2. it just crashed thunder and lightening...and i liked it
3. i'm over the fact that dan laatz lied to me only so he could ruin our friendship so he could be with someone else (this is good...)(that i'm over it anyways)
4. i don't have a prom date....this is bad...only because i feel like a complete loser....i have a beautiful pink dress...that makes me feel like cinderella, with the glass slippers and all...but no prince....i'm trying to figure out what my problem is....
5. graduation doesn't seem real....or in reach at all whatsoever
6. i wasn't as cool as andrea groner when i was a freshman
7. i'm fake?
8. i'm scared of change

anyways, it feels good to get stuff kind of written out. feel free to leave me love...and remember...i love you :)

Tbaby92588

:: 2005 20 February :: 6.54pm
:: Mood: Pissy

Do you ever want to write on your homework... "I don't know this answer because I don't speak spanish very well." ?

Me too!

I feel like there is a dead fetus on my back.

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Tbaby92588

:: 1980 1 June :: 5.32pm
:: Mood: groggy

I'm really into ruffles.

I think I will decorate my soul with ruffles.

But don't hold me to it; I might change my mind.

:: 2005 7 February :: 10.02am

it's not a handicap, it makes me feel safer.

i'm pissed.

and if it wouldn't be weird i'd crawl under the desk right now.

:: 2005 16 January :: 11.30am

It is beauty.

6 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 13 January :: 9.55pm
:: Mood: discontent

so this is a public appoligy to james golden and anyone who was offended by the comments left to his journal. apparently, my journal was hacked into or someone knows my password and left those comments on your journal, james. i don't know who it was, and i really don't care. i'd like to say i'm sorry for whoever did that because they totally suck. i would never want to say anything to hurt your feelings. just as you said, you have never done anything to me so why would i do such a thing? i actually didn't even know that this was going on until liz artecki told me in 5th hour that i should check it out. i was almost to tears when i read what someone had wrote under my name. anyways, i wish this never happened. i'm just glad i caught it in time to do something about it. again, i'm so sorry this happened and i'm going to get my password changed so hopefully this will never happen again.

:: 2005 10 January :: 2.14pm
:: Mood: bouncy

at school
so mr. robuck never showed up today for class. i don't blame him though. i didn't show up either. but i always skip the middle school. ha! oh well. now i'm just sitting around chatting with jacque and writing. WOO!! i got a part in the musical! i'm so happy. i'm the mother. i have a name this time...haha... Mrs. Lottie Child. how cute. she's a bitch though. my character lives and new york and i'm rich too. sounds fun huh? i had such an awesome weekend. sara (my cousin) and her friend jen came over and so did jenna. we had a dance party at 4 am and didn't go to bed til 5:30. that's the latest i've stayed up in a long time. it was such a BLAST!! WOO! PARTY! so i have musical practice this week and i get to babysit for mr. carr on wednesday. i love his kids to death. they are the BEST!!!!!!! and sooooooooooooo cute!! anyways....things are going great!!! lots of love! :)

:: 2004 30 December :: 11.08pm

I'm like a freaking grown up!!

Take that!

1 comment | Its raining inside my head

:: 2004 30 December :: 11.12am

I'd like to say that I love candy too much.

and I'm worried. and I never hoped to live in a house with barking dogs.

But it's true.

today must be a c r a z y day. because i feel it. i don't want to be sad again though. i can't take it.

it's not so bad though. i've got the jumping thoughts and i can't really concetrate too much on it.

i don't ever want to go back to school.

SIXTH HARRY POTTER! JULY SIXTEENTH!!!!!!

Tbaby92588

:: 1980 2 April :: 7.35pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Caring is Creepy [The Shins]

This is way beyond my remote concern of being condensending.

The tears to smiles ratio is definetly looking prosperous for the smiles.

Maybe it's the weather, I love snow.

:: 2004 15 December :: 10.01pm
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: bless the broken road-rascal flatts

HHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAaa
wow....good things at school are happening. i love that i don't care what people think. it's such a hoot. hahaha....the play was awesome....i'm so glad i did it and made so many amazing friends!! you guys rock my socks off :) ummmmm......wow it's been a long time...so i'm going to CMU for sure now...i got accepted and scholarships and all that jazz. woot! well, i never post anymore...sorry...heh...but have a great Christmas or whatever holiday you celebrate. LOVE YOU GUYS! bye bye ybe ybe byebyeyeybeyebybe