And with our broken smiles we walk away

:: 2004 6 August :: 10.40pm

jeeze.

band camp is over over over over forever. and drill is finished.

and. . .jeeze. trouble.

:: 2004 5 August :: 10.21pm

i can't help it. i'm weak for it.

Rob

:: 2004 5 August :: 1.06am
:: Mood: surley
:: Music: Led Zepplin

Wallow and Unhappy are such negative terms but seem to dictate my life. The words of a true Mayter(Spelling?)
I should stop, just stop feeling sorry for myself. Fat chance lets face it, I love attention, but right now I don't think its a cry for attention, I think its for real.

P.S.
I know how lame that sounded.

:: 2004 5 August :: 12.21am

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

i am not allergic.

but i am in some kind of trouble. like usual.

there's no winning. . .ever.

it's the summer of losing and growing. but that's a life.

4 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2004 3 August :: 10.07pm

That's what I want.

but it's a secret.

:: 2004 2 August :: 9.54pm

In fact I was disgustingly happy.

I have to talk to Kerrie, but if it makes me happy why not?

:: 2004 1 August :: 11.30pm

ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha

senses indeed.

it's step in some direction. not sure which way, but it's something.

:: 2004 1 August :: 12.47am

This can't even be happening.

But it is.

:: 2004 31 July :: 10.24am

we are alive and we will survive.

I'm so happy this morning. Just to be me. My possibilities and my body and my mind. Everything is alright with my world for a moment.

oh yum.

4 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2004 29 July :: 9.08am

you meet a red head who likes to dance.

realistic too.

you meet someone who lives too far away.

we'll all float on.

:: 2004 29 July :: 12.00am

Oh swoon. . .and weep.

also I heard Ryland talking baby talk to the dog.
I'm not sure what to think about this.

Rob	:: 2004 28 July :: 9.23pm The Wisdom Of Me I wonder what it is like to be an only child, I am imagine that its lonely but I bet it has some nice benifets, but I suppose you cannot apperciate it unless you have had siblings. Its raining inside my head

danibean

:: 2004 28 July :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: blah

WARNING: PINE BOARDER FARMS GIVES YOU CORN NIGHTMARES.

work sucks i know....oh well, i get tan, and money...but still. staring at corn for 7 hours is not my idea of FUN!! ahhhhhhhh.......... if patsy dones't know how to play the game, we'll play it for her!! ow ow...zing...cabbage!!! haha corn!

:: 2004 28 July :: 10.22am

Can you see me
Floating above your head
As you lay in bed
Thinking about everything
That you did not do
Cause saying I love you
Has nothing to do with meaning it

And I don't trust you
Cause every time you're here
Your intentions are unclear
I spend every hour waiting for a phone call
That I know will never come
I used to think you were the one
Now I'm sick of thinking anything at all

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Do you remember
The way we used to melt
Do you remember how it felt
When I touched you
Oh cause I remember very well

And how long has it been
Since someone let you in
Has given what I gave to you

And at night when you sleep
Do you dream I would be there
Just for a minute or two do you?

You ain't ever coming back to me
That's not how things were supposed to be
You take my hand just to give it back
No other lover has ever done that

Heartache heartache I just have so much
A simple love with a complex touch
There is nothing you can say or do
I called to let you know I'm through with you