And with our broken smiles we walk away

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:: 2004 3 June :: 3.48pm
:: Music: today

I wanted one thing today. And now I have anger tears.

:: 2004 1 June :: 9.21pm
:: Music: lilly-smashing pumpkins

feeling just as bad. worse even. that was a bad idea, now i only feel rejected and resented and disapointed. always disapointed. and now there is nothing to do about it except wait for thursday.

oh, you might show up. how reassuring is that? none.

your mind skips over the ugly parts.

:: 2004 1 June :: 6.33pm

My God. I'm ready to burst.

because boys are so stupid.

and i don't want to do my history.

:: 2004 1 June :: 4.16pm

Hardest Class: Like most challanging acedemically? Cause all my classes were near unbearable. But most difficult was algebra until second semester and then I would say AP because it's the only class I had to do any work in.
Easiest Class: Spanish probably. But it is the most annoying
Funnest Class: AP
Best Teacher: Mr. Norkus, the epitome of hot
Worst Teacher: Until last week, Ms. Eilola.
Best Grade: I think at one point I had 113% in Spanish
Worse Grade: Algebra, but now I have 100% thanks to Miranda
Boring/Fun lunch: It's kind of boring even though Gangles is funny, but most things are boring.
Detentions: zilch
Best Game: um no? Wait, probably that hockey game my dad took me to or that basketball game where we left pep band early...and the pose game was fun
Worst Game: That one in Remus
Funnest Dance: Homecoming
Newest Friend: I've made a lot of friends who I was friends with, but got closer to, but I'll say Little Matt
Oldest Friend: Amy
Favorite Memory: Mr. Greene trying to give me the heimlich or anything to do with jess, becca, or hilary
Embarassing Memory: Maybe Little Matt seriously thinking I'm bi. But that's funny. Or anytime Ms E. yelled at me.
Worse Memory: Concert band or last week when I left my purse in English and didn't get bosco sticks, or any time that they ran out of food and I almost cried.
Best School Meal: Bosco sticks and stuffed crust pizza!!!!!
Worst School Meal: wet burritos, chips and cheese
Best Decision: Leaving
Biggest Regret: getting seared salomon at 1913 Room
Biggest Concern: Mr. D-bag
Smallest Concern: nothing
Friend you wish you still had: hmm
Friend that you are glad you dont have: also, hmmm
Spring Break/Winter Break: I don't remember Winter break very vividly except that Christmas was beyond crap. Spring Break was cool away from cedar dumbs.
Best boyfriend/girlfriend: caleb
Worst boyfriend/girlfriend: caleb
Biggest Fight: No fights, just things.
What was it about: General meaness
Coolest Trend: wearing your underwear outside your pants? cause that would be neat.
Dumbest Trend: probably...all the really ugly people, not to mention dumb.
Good/Bad Year: very fine
Rate it 1-10 (10 best): nine with a side of meat

:: 2004 1 June :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: the smashing pumpkins-farewell and goodnight

Sometimes there is a pang. It's true. But at least I'm free. But it certainly wasn't dumb. And it wasn't sudden. Some of us just failed to read the signs.

But on the other foot, where are YOU? I miss your d-bag face. Hopefully Upperville didn't take you back. Eh?

danibean

:: 2004 31 May :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: tired

hey...i took this from jessi hazen's journal because i really liked the idea. i hope you don't mind jess!! anyways, it'll help me sum up the year a little and yeah...
HIGHLIGHTS OF MY JUNIOR YEAR

Hardest Class: Chemistry

Easiest Class: Either AP Stats or English

Funnest Class: Band or History with Nork-Dogg

Best Teacher: Nork-Dogg all the way!!!

Worse Teacher: Andrus or Eilola (when she's being dumb)

Best Grade: History

Worse Grade: Chemistry!

Broing/Fun lunch: Lunch rocked...we had soooooo many people at our table..it's always fun

Detentions: just 1, but i got out of it :)

Best Game: The Crossover game against Wyoming Park...wooo...that was awesome!

Worse Game: The District game against Tri-County, we beat them by like 40 points, it was so boring...and i felt bad for Phillip

Funnest Dance: PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Newest Friend: Justin and Chad or Phillip

Oldest Friend: Jenna Pie

Favorite Memory: Ummmm.... The Red Flannel Pageant when they called my name to be on court :)

Embarissing Memory: Uhh...when i spilled dressing on my pants at lunch or when i had major Code-C riding on the keystone cops car on red flannel day!

Worse Memory: When i found out jason had a girlfriend...:(

Best School Meal: Chicken stir fry or wet burritos!! mmmm

Worse School Meal: Oh gosh, the list goes on and on and on...the absolute worst is probably...chicken strips, if you can call them that

Best Descion: To give everything to God...no matter what, give Him all my problems, worries, and dreams

Biggest Regret: Messing crap up with Joel...i miss him

Biggest Concern: Right now, at this moment, if i will have to take the Stat's exam or not...

Smallest Concern: I don't know..

Friend you wish you still had: BEANS

Friend that you are glad you dont have: Ross Huber.......ewwwwwwwwwwww.

Spring Break/Winter Break: Spring Break = Pensacola Beach, FL with Kale, Winter Break = Family from Tennessee here, band camp sleepover, fun stuff

Best boyfriend/girlfriend: HA!

Worse boyfriend/girlfriend: HA!

Biggest Fight: Beans i guess, if you call it a fight...

What was it about: Dumb stuff.

Coolest Trend: TRUCKER HATS!

Dumbest Trend: really short skirts that when you walk, your butt cheeks hang out...ewww... no one wants to see that

Good/Bad Year: Great year!

Rate it 1-10 (10 best): 8 or 9 actually...i had a lot of fun this year :)

danibean

:: 2004 23 May :: 9.34pm
:: Mood: satisfied

i haven't talked to his mom in sooo long...she just picked up the phone and started talking to me. i loved it so much. and he wasn't even home. i can't wait to see him. it's such an amazing feeling when you know you're still madly in love with someone after not seeing them for 2 years. and i think his mom knows too. that's why she talked to me. she knows. he feels it too. ahh..happy day.

:: 2004 20 May :: 10.25pm

i feel like i'm drowning.

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:: 2004 20 May :: 9.06pm

BOO!

BOYS!

YUCK!

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:: 2004 20 May :: 8.56pm

I can't believe this. Walker Strikes Again. A-ron totally beat the school pole-vault record and then he set his own. Plus A-ron did wrestling and soccer and he's totally a fast runner. And Walker still beat him. But A-ron is just going to have to learn. They win at everything. They're mutants. Or Jesus loves them. Or both.

And it sucks even more because unlike me A-ron is not mediocre. He's good at everything. Music, skateboarding, school, sports, being funny and well liked. He really deserves something for being so cool.

:: 2004 19 May :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: glad
:: Music: alice's resturant

I think I've been upset since last Friday and I'm finally feeling better. For real. I think.

Cause I've got something really happy to add to the memory bank.

Being a shameful minx is not over though. I need that.

:: 2004 17 May :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: diggin' it
:: Music: lady in stupid

It's so tragic. But alluring.

I can't help it, have you seen the shoes? Or the everything?

In France this would all be acceptable.

No, wait. Boys are dumb. Real real dumb.

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:: 2004 17 May :: 12.08am
:: Mood: anxious

I'm a feeling a little bit ill.

Tbaby92588

:: 2004 16 May :: 7.00pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: Dryer noises

The stairway that used to be headed no where (Stairway-to-no-where) is now headed somewhere. Why? No one really knows, but I guess it was all for the best. All stairways have to grow up sometime, I was just hoping it didn't have to happen so soon.

Tbaby92588

:: 2004 15 May :: 1.15pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Strange Magic [ELO]

The project de Romeo and Juliet is going well. I'm glad.

Romeo
If I profane with my unworthiest hand
This holy shrine, the gentle fine is this:
My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand
To smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss.
Juliet
Good pilgrim, you do wrong your hand too much,
Which mannerly devotion shows in this;
For saints have hands that pilgrims' hands do touch,
And palm to palm is holy palmers' kiss.
Romeo
Have not saints lips, and holy palmers too?
Juliet
Ay, pilgrim, lips that they must use in prayer.
Romeo
O, then, dear saint, let lips do what hands do;
They pray, grant thou, lest faith turn to despair.
Juliet
Saints do not move, though grant for prayers' sake.
Romeo
Then move not, while my prayer's effect I take.
Thus from my lips, by yours, my sin is purged.
Juliet
Then have my lips the sin that they have took.
Romeo
Sin from thy lips? O trespass sweetly urged!
Give me my sin again.
Juliet
You kiss by the book!