And with our broken smiles we walk away

4 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2004 1 May :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: Achy Breaky
:: Music: The Fabulous Life of The Hilton Sisters

I'm dreading Tuesday at 3:38. It makes me nervous and my tummy gets all knotted.

I'll just be glad when it's over.

:: 2004 1 May :: 1.33am
:: Mood: tired

i could do it for you, but i couldn't bring myself to do it to you.

and that means something.

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:: 2004 30 April :: 3.39pm

me=hot

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:: 2004 29 April :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: exciteddddddddd

I'm not sure how I feel about LBJ. I mean he's way crappy, but still, he's LBJ.

seriously....how can i possibly make up my mind about the man?

because his name was LBJ...

lotsablowjorbs....snickersnicker, or "getting the johnson treatment"

i guess he's just one big sex joke and that makes him loveable. or more loveable than something that isn't loveable. whatever.

lbj

:: 2004 28 April :: 10.16pm

. . . and we sit and we marvel at the other. . . and i believe it's one of the nicest feelings I've ever had.

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:: 2004 27 April :: 8.52pm

Just floating along a cloud of vauge niceness.

How am I even supposed to get through a day tomorrow when I'm so excited about other things?

but in other news....I finished the Great Gaysby. bllllecccchhhhhkkkk. Worst Book EVER. No emotion, no erotica, no happiness at all. Just a bunch of crazy characters that are supposed to represent the badness of consumer culture of the 1920's while F. Gay Fitzgerld was the same freaking way. What makes that a classic? It's supremly rotten. The only good part was where Gatsby and Daisy made out. But even that was below the good reading material line.

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:: 2004 24 April :: 11.27pm

+ LAST PERSON WHO...
`Slept in your bed: emily slept in my trundle and griffin is sleeping there right now
`Made you cry: caleb
`You shared a drink with: roman, kind of...sometimes i have sips of his pop at lunch....or wait maybe it was jab
`You went to the movies with: i can't recall
`You went to the mall with: renee? well i'm going with jab tomorrow
`Yelled at you: robuck, actually i'm not sure if he was yelling at me or not
`Sent you a comment on Xanga: what zee hell?
`Said they were going to kill you: probably jab or becca

+ HAVE YOU EVER
`Said "I love you" and meant it? i tell griffin everyday
`Gotten in a fight: yes
`Been to New York? yes, twice
`Been to Florida? Yes, three times
`Been to California? no
`Been to Hawaii? No, but my parents have
`Been to Mexico? no
`Been to China? No
`Been to Canada ? yes
`Danced naked? no
`Wish you were the opposite sex? sometimes when i'm mad at my sweater puppies or having my period
`Had an imaginary friend? yes, it was a green dog with glasses and there was sam who lived in a hole at hilltop
`Red or Blue? red
`Spring or Fall? Spring
`Santa or Rudolph? santa
`Math or English?eww
`What are you going to do after you finish this survey? wash my face
`What was the last food you ate? strawberries
`High school or college? i hate high school
`Are you bored?no
`How many buddies are on? 10
`Last movie you saw? kill bill two
`Last noise you heard? space heater
`Last time you went out of the state: two weeks ago
`Things you like in a guy: there are lots of things
`Do you have a crush on someone? yes
`Do they know? i tell them everyday
`What's his/her name? everyone
`What do you think of ouija boards? marie
`What book are you reading now? gap creek
`What's on your mouse pad? supreme gayness
`Favorite board game? 13 dead end drive
`Favorite magazine? maxim
`Worst feeling in the world? there are lots
`What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? this isn't working
`How many rings before you answer? at least two.
`Future daughter's name: Rebessicarly
`Future son's name? Lyndon B. Johnson
`Chocolate or vanilla? gay
`Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes, boom the frog
`If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? professional sit arounder that gets paid to do whatever she wants
`Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righto
`Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? Yes.
`What's under your bed? bed
`Favorite sport to watch? hockey
`Hair Color: aburn
`Eye Color: the same colar as a brownie
`Height Currently: 5�2 practically 5'3
`Glasses/contacts: contracts
`Current Age: 17
`Siblings: one brother
`Siblings age: 14
`Location: office
`Any Piercings: Yes
`Best Friends? oh lots and lots
`Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Boyfriend, girlfriends, fiances, wives
`Hobbies: oh yuck.
`Are You Timely Or Always Late: timely
`Do You Have A Job: Yes
`Do You Like Being Around People: sometiems

+ STUFF
`Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
`Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: der
`Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: crazy person?
`Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: no
`Are You Lonely Right Now: no
`Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: no, i'm afraid that i will and then not be esp. satisfied
`Do You Want To Get Married:yes
`Do You Want Kids: yes

+ FAVORITE
`Room In house: my room
`Type of music: umm....i'm into the grunge latin polka thing right now
`Song: no regrets by molly
`Memory: lots and lots...it probably has something to do with making out or laughing
`Day Of The Week: saturday
`Color: green
`Perfume Or Cologne: um, that sparkle gel musk that jarma gave me
`Flower: eh
`Month: June or July or August.
`Season: Summmmmmmmmmmmmmmer!
`Location for dates: i don't really go on dates

+IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU
`Cried: no
`Bought Something: food
`Gotten Sick: no
`Sang: yes
`Said I Love You: yes
`Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: yes
`Met Someone New: someone new checked me out and i met someone new
`Moved On: ...? didn't need to
`Talked To Someone: der
`Had A Serious Talk: that was more like four days ago
`Missed Someone: yes
`Hugged Someone: yes
`Kissed Someone: yes
`Fought With Your Parents: no
`Dreamed About Someone: yes
`Had a lot of sleep: not
`Wanted This Survey To Be Over: yes

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:: 2004 23 April :: 10.56pm
:: Mood: contentedish

I would give today like six thumbs up.
If I had six thumbs.

so...yay.

:: 2004 21 April :: 10.36pm
:: Mood: Forlorn
:: Music: Umbrella [The Hollies]

Bus stop, wet day, he's there asking, "Please share my umbrella."

I should be sleeping, but instead I'm missing you.

How about that?

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:: 2004 21 April :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: way awesome
:: Music: blink 182

Ho ho ho...guess who's not in trouble anymore?

me. that's who.

and that other thing....it's solved too.

so the big ones are gone.

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:: 2004 20 April :: 9.39pm
:: Mood: tragic

I have to do it tomorrow.

Or I'll burst with displeasure.

God, I'm so sick of myself lately.

:: 2004 20 April :: 6.45pm

I'm not quite sure you know who the Bee Gees are. They sing Stayin Alive.

You know, Night Fever.

Have you heard Tragedy?

...Jive Talkin??

Who are you? Who am I?!?!?!

:: 2004 20 April :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: melancholy
:: Music: Tragedy [Bee Gees]

I'm listening to the Bee Gees. What does this say for my mental state?

Not much, I'll tell you that.

:: 2004 20 April :: 5.00pm
:: Mood: unreal

Either God is playing a fantastic joke, or he's seriously pissed.

What are the odds? Or is it stress?

I'm going to have to be sent away or shame my family.

:: 2004 19 April :: 10.42pm
:: Mood: stiil kind of scared

I mean, I have a serious problem here. But for now it's kind of a private matter, cause it could be something stupid and I don't want to freak out for no reason.