sugarmouse0587
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2004 17 March :: 7.11pm
It doesn't even give me a good feeling anymore.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 16 March :: 8.56pm
:: Music: ben folds
so you want the freedom, but you know leaving the security is going to hurt really bad
but you also know that emotional rampages aren't normal and there's and oppressive akwardness that you can't get away from
and it's the little things...and that your whole relationship has been in the precarious situation for a long time because there isn't a firm foundation.
and you don't want to try because you're too tired of the problems.
but it's so scary.
Its raining inside my head
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 16 March :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: lazy
:: Music: ben folds
It's not that I'm unhappy. I would say this is my favorite year of high school. I just hate winter. And school.
School+winter+me=mrs. grump
And I hate all these conflicting feelings. Sometimes I think I shouldn't make decisions anymore because I change my mind so much. You can make most things sound like great ideas if you think about it hard and long enough.
Its raining inside my head
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 14 March :: 5.09pm
Rainy Sundays are the worst kind of days.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 12 March :: 11.32pm
I am way lost.
but I do know that you really have to sit back and figure out the real reason why you're upset.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 10 March :: 11.55pm
It's kind of funny how I manage to break my own heart.
I'm freaking Arthur Stupidsdale.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 10 March :: 11.44pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable
beautiful day
except for the angry part
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 10 March :: 1.23pm
Hey...stop being a such a crappy person. You big meanie. I won't be used. Thanks.
And yay, I get to come home for real tomorrow.
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danibean
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2004 8 March :: 2.35pm
:: Mood: cranky
so...as i sit here eating a dannon light 'n fit blueberry flavored yogurt (0% fat) i wonder what i'm doing. i mean, i sat here till almost midnight last night. that's nuts...and i knew he wasn't coming back. i think back to honors band and i can still see him when he whispered into my ear and gave me the sweetest little grin when i wispered so sweetly into his. we could just make the cutest couple ever. he just has this indescribable innocence and radience about him that no one i've ever met has. we'll see if i talk to him this week, if he wants to meet for coffee on satruday.
i talked to mr. walker today about my schedule for my senior year. he reccommended dual enrolling. i agree. so i need to check out GVSU's website to see if they have their class offerings listed yet. that would be sooo sweet if i could get into college before i graduated. and CMU will most likely take my credits from grand valley. woo hoo. plus i'm taking a whole year of psycology.
so i'm leaving at 3:15 to go get the girls from school and babysitting then to who know's when tonight. no turbo kick because i forgot to call their mom to tell her. i'm trying to get my piano lesson rescheduled on wednesday because i want to go to districts. i totally forgot we have a half day so i could very well go after school. but i kind of want to go shopping.
well that's it for now.......
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA WIBBLE!! THE BIG ONE SIX TODAY!!!!!! (16) :) LOVE YOU!!!
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danibean
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2004 7 March :: 10.38pm
:: Mood: contemplative
i realized when i write in here more, things seem to be more clear in my life. therefore, i think i'm going to have to devote some time to journaling more often. i have a quite thoughtful mind and i feel that my thoughts should be written out so i don't forget them. i've been waiting for him for like an hour and a half now. it's worth it. even if we only talk for 10 minutes, i'll be filled up with happiness. i think he's that great. i talked to ross today for the first time since we got together over swirl weekend. i kind of sorted out my un-feelings for him and i feel better about it. i think he's hurt, but he'll move on. i'm not that great. i have the week off of work so that'll give me some extra gym and practice time that is much needed. it'll feel good to get to the gym more. shoot...that's what i forgot to do...call karen and tell her i have to leave by 5:30 to make turbo kick!! ahhhh.....i hope she calls while i'm babysitting tomorrow so i can tell her i need to leave. oh well, turbo kick might have to be put on hold for a week :( well, i'm out for the night..... cya's.
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Tbaby92588
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2004 6 March :: 5.35pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: Playground Love [Air]
Love is all my soul.
You came upon me carving some kind of little figure out of wood and you said, "Why don't you make something for me?"
I asked you what you wanted, and you said, "A box."
"What for?"
"To put things in."
"What things?"
"Whatever you have," you said.
Well, here's your box. Nearly everything I have is in it, and it is not full. Pain and excitement are in it, and feeling good or bad and evil thoughts and good thoughts- the pleasure of design and some despair and the indescribable joy of creation.
And on top of these are all the gratitude and love I have for you.
And still the box is not full.
-Written by John Steinbeck to Pascal Covici.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 4 March :: 10.47pm
I should stop everything.
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Tbaby92588
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2004 29 February :: 9.28pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Elephant Love
I love David.
I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss
Well a few of the verses, well they've got me quite cross
But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song,
It's for people like you, that keep it turned on.
So excuse me forgetting, but these things I do
You see I've forgotten, if they're green or they're blue
Anyway, the thing is, what I really mean
Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen.
And you can tell everybody, this is your song
It may be quite simple but now that it's done,
I hope you don't mind, I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is while you're in the world.
...My mom always liked that. Me too.
I do love Lindseys feet.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 29 February :: 9.33pm
:: Music: train
Now that I'm done being a frurk, I can move on and be happy again.
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