And with our broken smiles we walk away

:: 2005 13 September :: 4.19pm
:: Music: blink182-

catching things and eating their insides. . .

crying from happiness?

me?

question mark!

:: 2005 9 September :: 11.46pm
:: Music: rocket summer, mcs

i'm so pissed right now. i had a bad turned good night and i'm still pissed.

i don't know how to deal. i feel guilty for being here. i feel guitly for not wanting to go to the lobster party. but i'm mad. i could have my car if he weren't being a d-bag. and then we wouldn't have to worry about how i'm getting home. and everything would be cool.

i'm going to kill something

:: 2005 9 September :: 7.55pm
:: Music: brandston-mercy medical

little girl so beautiful, with life so new and meaningful

I don't know what's wrong with me.

fffffffffuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkkkkk

:: 2005 9 September :: 4.02pm

mychemicalromance
I need my car. That's not even a joke

:: 2005 2 September :: 8.38pm

it's not that i hate my mom. . .

am i bad? am i too needy and selfish? maybe i'm just the smelly kid.

reason number 112 why my mom doesnt make sense:
i ask if i can return pop cans so i can make some money for my parking ticket. she says she'll give it to me as a graduation present even though she's already given me two. one being 300 hundred dollars.

i ask for shampoo and toothpaste and stuff like that. she bitches about it to me to my friends to anyone who will listen.

i don't want food from the store. i get called a bitch.

yeah i'm moody, i exagerate, i whine. so does she.

i don't want to go home. i don't want anything from her. i just want to cry until i explode.

15 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 1 September :: 10.39pm

car pass-$300 a year
insurance-100+ a month
gas-3.19

i can't have a car.

so that means. . .i might not be able to have the tutoring job i want and am super qualifed for

and i won't make 8.25 an hour

i can't go shopping or see kalamazoo on my own.

i can't see jake.

I CANT SEE JAKE

i will die.

5 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 28 August :: 7.29pm

hey quit freaking me out.

:: 2005 26 August :: 3.32pm
:: Mood: excited

YAY!! I'm at CMU finally!!! question: my internet works, and so does msn messenger....but i can't get aol messenger to work.. it's very frusturating....does anyone know what i can do to get it to work??? anyways, let me know!! having a blast!!

:: 2005 26 August :: 10.56pm

THIS IS MY PHONE NUMBER!!!!!!

269-276-2519!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

4 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 26 August :: 6.30pm
:: Music: my chemical romance

i'm at college and i'm a badass

2 comments | Its raining inside my head

:: 2005 20 August :: 10.44pm
:: Mood: bouncy

oh wow.....tom is home!
but he's sleeping so he hasn't called me yet :(

umm...jessie wibble...i love you ...and i couldn't call you back from work because my manager was there :(...sorry babe

liz artecki....yay...i will call you because you were someone i really wanted to see before i left. but yeah, we'll get together soon:)

yay!

:: 2005 20 August :: 9.22pm

maybe i need to grow up. or maybe my mom needs to calm down. maybe realize that i'm leaving in TWO DAYS and i'm not going to take the compost out.

i don't care.

i'm packing. i'm relaxing. i'm doin' a little illin' with my peeps.

maybe i am a bitch though. she's probably right about that.

I LOVE JESSICA WILDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: 2005 20 August :: 12.35am

yay...i love hanging out with sara and tony. :) 5 days till i move in!! it's great to cross ppl off my lists.. :) leave one if you want to hang out before i move, leave your # or something and i'll try to fit you in sometime! love!

:: 2005 19 August :: 9.57pm

i'm so cranky, i think i might kill something.

i'm leaving in four days. i can't stand it.

:: 2005 14 August :: 1.16pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: gorillaz

OMG ...yeah OMG....rascal flatts puts on the best concert in the world. holy shit....there aren't words to describe how freakin good they were. i bawled when they came out singing "here's to you". it was just amazing. and blake shelton opened and kicked ass. it was just the best night of my life. despite the fact that we stood in rain for 2 hours in line, and for over an hour while we waited and heard blake shelton. we were soaked. but it was 10000000% worth it. wooooo!!!!!!!!!

tom, you should come home now. i realllllly miss you buddy.