1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 hang 10 (old school)
Warped tour did infact own, as do i. It started off very interesting as Sara and i both noted. We are such Crabs (as in the zodiac). Got to be more outgoing. I collected a fair amount of flyers. Also was forced to pay a donation for a book.. i now have good karma supposedly. Well i loved brand new.. got a cool shirt.. doing the whole handkercheif thing. need to buy a hat. also got very dirrrrty. my shoes will never be clean again. I got the cold shoulder from a certain boy, nothing new. what else? nice bands; bad sunburn.. i hate that. my legs hurt too, but it was worth it. Atmosphere owned. Sara and i took good pictures.. met some very cool people. hmm i dont even feel like going into it but ken again.. ugh. my love wasnt there. Sara broke my glasses.. erm. Damn im so out of it. i want a pin machine for my next birthday. im leaving out soo much. mrm. my theory about warped tour: so many hot guys still too much of me to go around.. at least i was called beautiful. ha
p.s. im ugly and in an eh mood. again. oh yeah i havent cried all summer.. im so normal haha
VosenTreste: heyyyy yoouu!! im just sayin hi and thanks for the water and piece of pretzel. warped tour ooowned!!! oh n thanks for carrying my boook!!!

Come to me, the only broken hearted loser you'll ever need
Well then Children,
I feel like writing this whole long thing.
Three/two days till i turn 16 (9:20 on monday). Dude, i'm still a 12 year old with braces. a milestone and i'm not even fucking getting my license.. my fault. My mother and i decided that i'm immature and childish, not to mention dependent. (which is one of the reasons i dont do well with guys).. which is the reason i'm shocked im turning 16. I mean, come on, i paint lawn gnomes in my spare time and laugh at near death experiances, not to mention skipping down the street and trick or treating on halloween. I even think i'm younger than people my own age. I'm a fucking little kid. And i dont want to grow up either "I'm going to stay 18 forever, so we can stay like this forever and we'll never miss a party cause we keep them going constantly" ..there you go i've figured myself out once again. I'm not turning 16 im turning 5.. and wait till you see my cake.
( and im not imagining how you give me the shivers ) For karin and my sanity I wont expect anything at the end of the summer. I'll just hope and wish eh?
And if you've ever said you miss me then dont say you never lied. I'm without you.
Oh, by the way i rock. I got 100 ( plus a super job) on my Jew test and a 5 on my ap bio exam.. as well as a 4 in Ap world. But i have sooooooooo much work for the class!
This is a lesson in procrastination; i kill myself because im so frustrated and every single second that i put it off is another lonely night ive got to race the clock.
Now the decoration of my room has begun.. i am so excited. I will soon have the coolest room in the world. ahhh. i've always wanted my room to be better and now i finally get the chance to put my art to use.
My eyes got worse again ( You've got terrible vision if you can't see that i'm in love with you). not that this is important just thought id chart the progress of going blind.. id get lasik i just dont trust statistics.
Dana and i were talking today about how i'm good at almost everything (except sports... blah) wow right? haha but i mean what has it gotten me.. it's cool though.. i just wonder if i'm great at anything. i'm a 7 all around i belive.. mediocrity.
I like reading old diary entries; they make me laugh at how insane i am.
Can't wait till warped tour..mm.. sara better have bought the tickets
Happy birthday to Sara .. yesterday not that she isnt in italy
Just a thought, I miss Sara, Amy .. a lot err, and Stephanie too..
Lakiesha is more popular then the name Bess and i met Rhonda (gold).
I think i'm out of topics
Sweet dreams
dream in Japanese, dream in Japanese, some language i dont even know how to speak

If you start out depressed everything's kind of a pleasant surprise.
hmm.. stacey and I had a pleasant evening. We or I am too young. Anyways we saw Say Anything after dinner and it gave me hope and it made me happy yet sad. i really liked it a lot; also by next year im going to be a guitar goddess .. v ery excting. i also found out i need to be less coy, i need to flirt, flirt, flirt and that i might suprise stacey next year. Plus "this will last a long time" .. oh yeah and don't settle.. the joys of a book answers. [ i looked in a book.. happy?]
p.s. watch out for the new icon .. coming soon
and i love books .. birthday in about 6 days .. life is too boring for words.. so i will say this
"Hey my brother, can I borrow a copy of your "Hey Soul Classics"? "
i want a Sarah Bess show.. down with Brendon Leonard. pie or bananana nut muffin (what's up with those by the way.. wonders stacey)

Pinky573: you are so funny sarah
Gosh, this summer is full of missing people. I cant wait to have more drama, as weird as that sounds. Dana and i are studying to get an A. Next year i'll make summer more worthwhile. Things have really changed since about two or three years ago... for the better
ya know i do believe in true love and fate.. just to clear things up
I guess i do know what i want
How cryptic can you get?? ahhh

Proud to be a Pirate
fuck yeah .. good movie..
Dana and i almost got killed tonight by a crazy driver on the wrong side of the road.. i was cracking up. i really think im insane...
love to love ya... today was a really weird day... very ... yeah
the boring life

I believe that omni has scarred me for life

Now and again it seems worse then it is but mostly the view is accurate
I havent written in awhile and i've been wanting too. I just dont really have anything to say that i havent said or at least thought before. My life is a complete bore and this entire summer has felt like a dream.
I started my college class yesterday. It was alright. It was slightly interesting yet slightly boring. Its really weird when you see people you havent seen for about two years, like Michael, who i used to have an on and off crush on. Doesnt that seem just like a movie or a book. Some teen angst book that doesnt have a good ending.. my life. And they remembered me too. I never think people remember me. I think i'm invisible to everyone so why would they remember me.
" At least I'm not blind to the facts I've been wishing were lies"
Oh fuck and i have to read and write two papers. why did i think i could handle this? Everyone just has so much faith in me and im just always scared that im going to fail.. everything not just this stupid course. I have only two more years of higschool left.. only two more years to makle the most of it. Time is running out.. im such a failure at life ahh.
I just saw this movie i really liked and i dont even know what its called but really liked it. The guy was "sexy ugly" (as they say in kissing jessica stein) and i love love. It inspires me that something that amazing could happen to me.. even though it wont.
This whole summer ive had the same okay feeling.. not too good not too bad. I almost feel like summer is too long. I have all of these mixed emotions..im happier then i sound i suppose. I really wanted to talk to someone about it all last night, but everyone is gone in one way or another. I miss Sara and paige.. and stephanie even though she's not gone and i miss jason because even if he sometimes makes me feel bad he makes me feel something. I need to go somewhere fun
I need money and new everything im bored of it all.. can you believe my birthday is in less than a month? I dont think ive grown up at all haha i really need a therapist
im so done

I don't mind spending every day out on your corner in the pouring rain.
I had a really nice time at the concert. I fell in love with all the performers; i guess that means i should be more open. Damn i want band shirts. I realized i'm worthy of being loved and i supposedly lost weight. I also like meeting people ( especially cute guys that call me pretty) haha. I miss Dana.
The most important realizatin of the summer is that i need to have more ( a lot more) courage to truly be alive. Right now im just observing. I don't know how to do it but at least i figured out my problem.
And also i dont do anything i dont want to do and people piss me off when they dont believe that im strong enough ( most likely because they aren't and they cant see life through a different perspective)
Anyways i really like these artists. whoa they are sooo good. happy i went. I needddd to learn how to drive. This is a boring entry but so is this summer.. it's going to slow because im in "l-o-v-e" ( as Sara says). Its been a great summer though. Cant wait for 16. I'm going to try to fly away