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2003 21 February :: 10.34 pm
:: Mood: giddy
How can they see with sequins in their eyes
Well another spendid friday night.
Went to the wood to see Chicago.. again.
All inspiring. Wow Razzle Dazzle.
Then some weird girls harrased us about drew, kid from journalism last year (thank you thank you soo much you changed my night annoying girls)
Then.. wow then. I saw him and he came up and said " hey, your the kid from the keiths party, how are you?".. yeah im soooo good. Can't tell if i squeked out any words. possibly hey.. possibly good now that I am around you. Saw Keith. Saw Matt.. said adios instead of hello. He is funny, although obviously intoxicated.
I want Kurt Cobains Journals.
Im very much in shock.. and i miss perfect oppurtunities. And i wonder why people come up and talk to me at all.
I dont know what to say right now...
I guess when i calm down we will see
ps. saw Jackie gold tonight. what a weird world
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2003 19 February :: 5.25 pm
:: Mood: quirky
I'll love you. Even if your name is Mimi and you want me to pronounce it "May May"- P.M.
I SAW DAVY JONES ON TELEVISION... he is my idol..
I have a top three on the list of people i kind of like. ehh
nothing to write about just neeed to thank Davy, my little brit
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2003 18 February :: 6.44 pm
:: Mood: nirvanaesque
:: Music: 'I need an easy friend'
Sequester this!
So basically .. well reality.. is soo unavoidable.. and im such a dreamer.
Its insane.. i wish i could talk about this more freely but i dont know what to say.
It seems as though the truth does not always set you free. And although cliche someone can be standing next to you but seem so far away.
Even farther then one might think.
Im the Queen of Stupidity.. Stacey and I sat in the parking lot for a good hour and a half. yeah it was good. we had fun.
Dreaming is my defense mechanism.
This reality thing bites.
ps. I want a coooool rider.. ;)
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2003 17 February :: 4.00 pm
You can dance if you want to
Just got back from the Renaissance Festival. It was pretty fun.
Got hit on by a guy named Mischief or misfit or something. Called me hot stuff.. was impressed i was a cancer.
A jester with a fake italian accent called me emo and kept touching my necklace. Dana scared him off haha
Got down and dirty.
Saw this real cute guy. mmm
Dana got harassed.. by little girls
So did I.. by a troll.
We got lost in the maze.. bought kettle corn..
It was a good time.. will do it again
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2003 16 February :: 7.31 pm
:: Mood: needy
:: Music: Nirvana
Rape me
Which Grunge Band Are You?
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2003 16 February :: 5.49 pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: Ramones- Sheena is a Punk Rocker, Clash-White Riot etc
I got Hustlin' in my blood
Anyone else ready for some change?
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2003 16 February :: 1.53 pm
Last night was ok
I am still one of those losers who knows none of the words to any the songs.
Or maybe im the only cool one.
Any way the cutest guy said 'goodnight ladies' towards us.
I'd like to think it was directed towards me, but im the weird deformed one.
Anyways, cute people ugly me
Saw some OLD friends.
All in all, it was ok. Kind of annoying. Kind of funny (especially when staceys mom went in and when she sat on gum)
Her lucks running out
SO bored
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2003 14 February :: 5.18 pm
:: Mood: hmm :)
Yes, friday im in love
Well today was/is (always had a problem with that) Valentines Day.
It was pretty/very good. Even though i didnt have anyone. I have my friends and they made it worthwhile.
The most important part of the day was that i found out whats in a wonder ball.. No more wondering. Phew
Sugar High.. it was lovely. Im insane. Oh man sooo much chocolate.. i love making the people jealous
Saw my lovelies and my dirties.
I dont know i am overall happy. There should be a holiday every week, day, hour.
I hit cuties with my flowers. I am a cutie.
I forgot everything that happened.
It was overall good.
O yes.
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2003 12 February :: 4.13 pm
:: Mood: Im not happy
:: Music: Bright Eyes- Waste of paint [lovely song]
Why'd you gotta go and cut your hair, do you think its going to make him change (new hair cut mmm)
It seems this year i have been generally happy. But right now i feel like i am going to slowly slip into some sort of depression again. I dont want to mess up this year with my thoughts.
I'm really not good right now.
Sometimes.. i hate being right. I hate being the only one at olympic who understands. I hate being soo invisible and lonely. and no one can truly relate.. although they can think they do. For some reason i let the littlest things build up in me.
Not that i havent been thinking about the concept for awhile.
There are the lucky ones and then there is me.
I have a friend, he’s mostly made of pain
He wakes up, drives to work and straight back home again
He once cut one of my nightmares out of paper
I thought it was beautiful, I put it on a record cover
And I tried to tell him that he had a sense
Of color and composition so magnificent
And he said thank you, please, but your flattery
It is truly not becoming me
Your eyes are poor, you’re blind, you see
No beauty ever could have come from me
I’m a waste
Of breath, of space, of time...
And still to me I’m sick, lonely
No laurel tree, just green envy
Will my number come up eventually
Like love’s some kind of lottery
Where you scratch and see what’s underneath
It’s sorry
Just one cherry
I’ll play again, get lucky
- bright eyes
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yeah and it sucks . it sucks.. when you like someone . not really, but when you like someone and they get upset that your best friend has a boyfriend.
That's not it though.. its just a detail.
Its everything.. its how Im not going to be remembered or loved.
I'm dead.. yeah
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2003 10 February :: 9.25 pm
:: Mood: inspired
What's with today, today?
So thought of the year.. Empire Records is an amazing movie.
Finally something to inspire me to write.
Really though, wow incredible soundtrack. I wish i lived in the early 90's.. im all about the grunge scene.. or the 80's. Im all about that decade. Except for george michael and his white gloves.. or michael jacksons plastic surgery.
And you know maybe your all right. Maybe you never do know who might be ' falling in love with you'. Because you don't. Because there are people like me out there who like complete strangers and keep it to themselves. [ though i'd keep it to myself either way].. because because because maybe I'm just hoping someone sees something in me. Its an incredible thought.. At least enough to get me through another day.
Also, how about not changing yourself. How about doing everything to please you, not to impress. Because the guy or girl who falls in love with you will love you no matter what. So just wait. It doesn't matter if you are wearing the blue skirt with the flowers on it. The person who loves you will love you for who you are. And hopefully you will eventually meet. I want something greater then love.
Im all fantastical right now, full of all of these ideas.
Im going to be a rock star.
ps. anyone else notice that ' warren' in the movie is also in welcome to the dollhouse..."Same time same place you get raped .. be there"
O soo classic.
pss. love my icon and me
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2003 3 February :: 7.41 pm
:: Mood: wonderful
:: Music: Sara
I love the month November
Bo Babe344: awww i love you
Bo Babe344: i love when youre happy
Bo Babe344: youre the cutest happy person
Bo Babe344: when sarah smiles the whole room lights up
Indeed. Wow.
In conclusion i love the library. I love the unexpected. I love blue eyes. I love song writing with Sara. (and november)
And i love to make a fool of myself.
In conclusion i am a fool. a happy fool no less.
Might be tutoring from now on.
Credits:
PAIGE
Love to everyone =D
Books are you friend.
Ps. i found my ap world book.. joyous holiday
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2003 30 January :: 9.05 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
No need to repeat myself
QtSarah987: i hate people who are conditionally my friend
Bo Babe344: conditionally?
QtSarah987: . like i will act like i am friends with you sometimes.. infront of certain people but not infront of others on certain days
I might be making this up. But. But. But. I need friends i can trust. I don't need this. [maybe we will all just blame my active imagination.]
"But at least Im not blind to the facts.. ive been wishing were lies'
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2003 29 January :: 7.39 pm
Isn't it funny how one not so great thing can ruin a good day.[ actually it's not that funny ]
Step dancing has changed my life.
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2003 28 January :: 7.50 pm
:: Mood: enraged
:: Music: none.. speakers?
My brother is an asshole. He persists in ruining my happy times. That's it. There will be retaliation
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2003 27 January :: 4.01 pm
:: Mood: hmm
:: Music: Pixies - Gigantic
What a hunk of love.
My motto: never get too attached. From now on i try too never get to attached because then i will never get hurt (yeah right)
I realize overthinking/ over feeling will be the death of me eventually.
Well. ya know I saw him to day
What a gas it was to see him
Well I am delighted.
It will all go downhill when i want something more.
I guess we will see how this goes.
kind of happy. I have come to no conclusions.
Get me a alifesize poster. and possibly an early birthday present for this little girl.
I will find someone eventually.
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