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:: 2006 29 March :: 8.18am

I took a test in Intro now I'm out sooo early. Class doesn't start for another half hour. Tonight is my "what to expect" class and appointment. hm... I'm getting pretty sick of getting sick every single morning. I haven't actually gotten hours at work in a couple weeks. So now I'm working for my dad starting tomorrow. My mom took me to go look at houses and stuff. The only house that we found that was actually really nice and in a kid-friendly neighborhood was also $1200 a month. :-( Depressing. Well, that's about it I suppose...

:: 2006 26 March :: 4.39pm

I think it's all finally sinking in. My gosh, weddings are so detailed and hard to plan. I finally sat down and made a list of things I wanted/needed/people. I've been just putting it off because of the stress. It's going to be a really beautiful wedding! I'm excited. Just a lot of things all happening at once. If I can plan a beautiful wedding in just 2 months, I think it's possible for people to plan it in a year. I'm making a cool vase in ice carving tomorrow night :-) I love that class.
We watched Katriana yesterday and that was fun and interesting.
Well that's about it for now.

:: 2006 25 March :: 6.55pm

the sky is absolutely gorgeous right now.
it starts with a light blue, which is swirled with pink and purple. a rich dark blue is melting into the top.

i want summer now.
i need to waste away days outdoors.
i need to take walks and forget about school for a while.
i need to ride a bike.
i need to figure out what is going on with all of the people i love.

i have lost touch with a lot of things/people i care about.

:: 2006 24 March :: 12.26pm

i have just spent three hours by myself.
i did some homework.
i didn't speak to anyone.
i feel like a machine right now.
i need some human contact.
i am surrounded by people right now but i feel completely alone.

:: 2006 21 March :: 2.17pm

Holy crap. I had 4 tables at the Heritage today! It was crazy. I'm lucky to have everyone that helps me out. It gets really hectic.
Charlie and I are looking for houses now. I need to get a credit card soon. I'm angry I won't be able to get an ultrasound until 18 to 20 weeks. What is it with that? They don't do them unless something is wrong, but I'd still like to see. Grrrrrrrrr. I'm just happy nothing is wrong. I haven't even gotten sick. Just tired. Charlie's mom is so nice, she said now, everytime she gets paid, she will buy a pack of diapers. :-) Awesome. Can never have too many of those. haha.

:: 2006 20 March :: 10.11pm

Oh yeah, and we were going to wait until next year, but we decided to get married in June! Yay :-) We want this, that's why we're doing it. I think my work, Applause Catering, is going to cater it. And the wedding will be at his Great Grandma's farm, it's really pretty there. More details later...

:: 2006 20 March :: 10.06pm

The Stills- Love and Death
Oh WOW! It's been an interesting weekend. And a great one.
Saturday Char, Lissa, Katriana and I went to finish registering at Babies R Us. Then Char and I went to a beautiful park and he proposed on a bridge. It was wonderful! Sunday we talked to my parents and they aren't mad or upset. So that is nice. We also went to his Great Grandma's house for dinner. So overall everything in life right now is... right. And great.
Wednesday I have a class at the doctors so I suppose that will be pretty interesting. Tonight at Ice Carving I carved a bowling ball and a pin and everyone went bowling. I carved it only with a chisel too! It was way cool.

:: 2006 18 March :: 7.44pm

So I'm wearing something sparkly and shiny on my left hand these days...

Eh hem. Eh hem.

:: 2006 17 March :: 2.51pm

hot damn!!!
so i definately waited around for like three hours at school only to find that my teacher totally wasn't there and didn't bother to post it online or anything.
whatev.

:: 2006 17 March :: 12.08am

Today was busy. The Heritage opened. Ahhhh I helped Chris wait tables. Crazy crazy. Then Government.
Work went late. We went to the Gardens and it was a party for 315 people. The plates looked superb and we got major compliments. whooo! And I found out we won best caterer of w. michigan this year too (& 2003 & 2004) So that was cool.
Tomorrow I work at the Heritage so all those CC kids should stop by sometime.
Saturday Lissa and Katriana and Char and I are all going to go register! FUN STUFF. :-)

:: 2006 16 March :: 2.25pm

so . . . today was productive.
and i will still have time to do my homework when i get home from work.
stupid honors stuff.
colleges shouldn't make me work to get in . . . they should beg me to go to their college.
i should just be able to get all F's and still get scholarships.

like seriously.

:: 2006 16 March :: 10.21am

So....I miss people

:: 2006 14 March :: 6.14pm

Isn't that awful!? This was on MSN today.
Miss Deaf Texas killed by train
"Witness says engineer sounded horn repeatedly before striking 18-year-old"

:: 2006 12 March :: 9.20pm

Well, I guess I can say something now!

Charlie and I are having a baby! <3

And we're really excited.

We told his mom and sister tonight, and I could not have a better family. They are so loving and wonderful, I can't believe it. I just...They are so great! :-)

I love you Charlie!

:: 2006 11 March :: 11.55am
:: Music: Elvis Presley

You're all so fake. It kills me. It should kill you too.

:: 2006 10 March :: 10.57am

242 days
and
17 days
and
12 1/2 hours
and
I love you :-)

:: 2006 9 March :: 9.10pm

i have wasted entirely too much time online today.

:: 2006 9 March :: 2.53pm

Jessi and I are totally having a Facebook orgy right now!!!

TRUE STORY!
haha

:: 2006 9 March :: 10.12am

spring break = almost over.
my hell = almost beginning.

suck.

:: 2006 8 March :: 8.43pm

I really can't wait. 3 more weeks!!!! 3 more weeks!!!!

Oh my gosh.
I'm so excited.

I can't hold this secret in any longer! I'm going to burst!

:: 2006 6 March :: 3.43pm

so today in the shower i was washing my hair and when it was all lathered up i shaped it like a mohawk.
it looked sweet.
so i was telling robby that i wanted to get one (i was joking of course). but i told him that i wouldn't because he would hate it. and he told me that i wouldn't do it anyway.

but the thing is, now i do want to do it just because he doesn't think would.
blah i don't have the guts.

it would be sweet for summer.
damn, i am going to sleep on this but if this feeling doesn't go away, i just might chop it all off.

hmmm . . .

:: 2006 5 March :: 11.41pm

November 8.

I love you.
~
We are so wonderful to each other. We belong together. We are so strong. We will become even stronger. I've never felt so peaceful wrapped in your arms. It all happens for a reason.

:: 2006 5 March :: 10.53am

This is going to be the hardest secret we'll have to keep. But well worth it.
It's going to be okay. It's going to be amazing.

:: 2006 5 March :: 10.27am

My parents just dropped 50 on an SSR yesterday! Holy crap. They were working and saw it and then just decided to buy it. It's really cool and I get to drive it to the beach this summer. It's a convertible, too. And the color changes. Aqua Blur. AHHHH.

:: 2006 5 March :: 10.05am

everyone around me is braking up. it's so crazy.

this winter has been a little too cold.

:: 2006 4 March :: 6.44pm
:: Music: James Blunt - Goodbye My Lover

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun.
Yes, I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So, I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over, but it won't stop there.
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart, you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
my heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Chorus:
Goodbye, my lover.
Goodbye, my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer, but when I wake
you can't break my spirit, it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me.
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the [mother] of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts, but now we're fine.
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[Chorus]

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine, when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
when I'm kneeling at your feet.

[Chorus]

I'm so hollow, baby. I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

:: 2006 4 March :: 2.40pm

i totally just saw a couple get married at mcdonalds on the news.
they met when they both worked there.
that is so cute.
i knew mcdonalds was good for something other than creepy guys hitting on you at the window . . .
well, maybe not for me but it is for some people.

:: 2006 3 March :: 11.28pm

seven days off of work and ten days off of school. or something to that effect.
i am stoked.
seriously.

:: 2006 2 March :: 2.24pm

I want to go on a trip. A big one. I'm so excited.

:: 2006 2 March :: 1.55pm

Hmmm. Well, my car finally did start. AHHH. That always happens. And I didn't have any class to go to or anything. I was just waiting around. Today was interesting. My table service class is going to be fun. I think.

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