go away

:: 2006 1 March :: 8.16am

GRRRRRR

THIS ALWAYS HAPPENS!
DANG YOU! ! ! ! !

Now I'm stuck here. Probably for hours.

:: 2006 28 February :: 9.11pm

sarah, gus, and i are having a giant orgy right now. it is so cool.
i am so hot for them.
oh gosh.

i hit a racoon on the way.
we mourned all the way home.
poor poor racoon.
oh sweet thing.
it's fur was so soft and smooth.
he was such a smart little guy.

except that he ran out in front of the car.

so dumb.

it's been a bunch of months.
seriously.

:: 2006 24 February :: 12.43pm

There's a fire forming, not too far from here
Along the east coast maybe, it resides in you, my dear
Worn out on our courtesy, we've made our curtain calls
Like vampire bats deprived of blood, into the New York City night we crawl

Brad	:: 2006 23 February :: 7.27pm :: Music: E.P. - If i can dream -.- Yay. 4 huh \| what

:: 2006 23 February :: 5.44pm

Pathetic.
I officially hate our Senior class. Everyone is so immature. No one can simply shut up for two minutes and just listen. No one takes anything seriously. People just don't care. I figured people would want to be in the Yearbook. Especially since it's their Senior year, but obviously they don't. I love how people bitch and moan about not being in it or how it's all the same people every year. Well, if you're not willing to give us a quote or anything you have no reason to be whining. When the only people willing to say something not half retarded are in the class that's who is going to be in the majority of the Yearbook. Don't complain to us when you're the one being an idiot.

Now people are bitching about how Erika and I apparently "rigged" the Mock Elections to win. Riiiight. Because, oh my God..if two whole people that are in the class win an award it means we just decided to add extra votes to our name, even though three other people helped us count them. Hmm.. that sure is strange. And I really want to convince my Senior class that I am funny. Maybe if you took the time to vote, I would have had more competition and one of your popular friends would have won. It's just because you didn't win anything. Get over it.

Ugghhh. You all just bother me so much. I am so glad I am graduating. I hate who you've all become. Sure, I'm not perfect, but at least I have matured somewhat since 8th grade.

I have no idea how you're all going to make it in this world. Honestly.

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:: 2006 23 February :: 2.46pm

holographic puzzles are NOT as cool as they may seem. it just makes things so much harder. like you try to fit the pieces together, but you can't because everytime you turn them a little bit, the picture changes.

wtc?

shit. what's wrong with just wanting things to be a little bit more like they used to?

2 huh | what

:: 2006 21 February :: 10.14pm

Oh my goodness.
That was an awesome time. Went to the Grand Culinary Affair. Pretty cool. My feet ache like whoa though cause I wore stupid shoes. It was worth it. Tickets were $65 so I was happy I got to go. There was a lot of awesome food and I saw a lot of people I worked with and knew. I'm glad my aunt had a good time.
The most fun was the dart game. For $20 you get 2 throws. You aim at chef hats and then people pull cards out and the number on it corresponds to a gift. Well I didn't ever think I'd play cause it was so much, but my aunt gave me $40 to do it. So I threw and won 2 things... It was so cool. I got my knife kit for school, and normally it'd be about $250 or so...And I got a cookbook so that's pretty neat. It was a good time.

:: 2006 21 February :: 2.55pm

Standing in the hall here. haha. I so did not write my paper......
That's not good.
Tonight is the Grand Culinary Affair and I'm taking my Aunt with me. It should be pretty nice.
I ran a mile and a half today. And didn't eat anything. But I'll probably eat tonight.
Bah. I missed class last Thursday cause of the weather, now I didn't write my paper...
Well I should probably actually go do something for class.

:: 2006 20 February :: 12.57pm
:: Music: The Shins

It was a really great weekend. And beautiful.Just really reminds me of why we're together.
I love him.

Sometimes it's just really nice. You have to remember the beauty in things.

:: 2006 19 February :: 9.43pm

this weekend i slacked off again with school.
i don't even care.
i freakin want summer. even though that means precalc.

but the trees look sweet.
it's like living in a snow globe.

2 huh | what

:: 2006 18 February :: 9.09pm

It's two degrees man and everything is still covered in ice, weak.
I got some wicked pictures of all the trees though. Here's my favorite.. [ I made my mom stop on the side of the road to get it, so I am glad it turned out! ]

Read more..

Anyway, I am so glad the power is back. It was truly miserable. Sammie and I were cracking out man. I'm not even going to get into details. All I have to say about not having power is...LAME.

I've hung out with Sammie for four days now. It's awesome, because she is so much like me that I don't get annoyed with her. She's bahmb dig and we're getting married. But, really...she's my best friend and I wish she could walk with me for Graduation. Too bad she's a sucky sophomore.

I saw Brokeback Mountain today. It was soooo good. I cried for the last ten minutes of the movie. I suggest seeing it, unless you're one of those homophobes that is closed-minded and needs to suck it up and get some balls. Yeah, that's right.

Break has actually been a lot of fun for doing nothing. I don't want it to end.

Well, I need to get going. I've got things to do.
(Like call you)

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:: 2006 18 February :: 12.28pm

Sammie is pretty cool and so are you.

(I love being able to call you at any given moment again)

lookatmemynameisdustin

:: 2006 16 February :: 7.58pm

hey kids

im just letting everybody know my new phone #

here it comes........................

450-8929

thats it for now,

LOVE,
dustin

1 huh | what

:: 2006 16 February :: 7.17pm
:: Music: Vermilion, Pt. 2

I won't let this build up inside of me...
Ahhhhh our power is out!
I have like, 7 candles lit in my room. Our house will probably catch fire...
...
I hate this crap.

:: 2006 16 February :: 3.48pm

So spill my blood.
Midnight skies turned scarlet red.
I told you I was really sick. Then you don't call or anything.
At least I have someone who cares.
I feel like falling off the face of the earth again to you. At least for a day or so.

Whatever. That whole entry probably didn't make sense!

brad

:: 2006 16 February :: 1.19pm
:: Mood: renewed
:: Music: Elvis - Gospel

"There's a heaven somewhere"
(So Valentines Day was completely unexpected. It was very nice for a change. I have no regrets. And I'm very happy to see a change in the writings I read.)

So things are good now, i'm happy. Work is fine, although we're moving the store which is going to suck, mainly because it's going to be moved into a tiny little store a forth the size of what we have now. Oh well.

I learned a few new songs on my guitar, one being a song that two lovers once shared, an Elvis song.

Must go and get ready for work, later.

Bradley

(I miss you)

:: 2006 16 February :: 1.05pm

Oooooh. I think I heard thunder.

Yeah. I'm not going to class today. I'd probably get stuck in GR when the storm hit.

:: 2006 15 February :: 10.28pm

I've never been so tired in my life.

:: 2006 15 February :: 10.06pm

I don't know where to begin.
It's just sad.
People get replaced so fast.
A vendor my dad worked with, a really nice guy, was trying to plan a meeting for them to work out some stuff.
Thursday my dad calls saying he's kind of busy and if they can reschedule it for Friday.
Friday the guy calls saying he's not feeling too good maybe Monday.

Then he dies.

They buried him today.
My dad really didn't want to have to call the company, but they said they'd get someone to fix things.
Someone called 20 minutes later to take the other's place.
My dad felt really weird about deleting the guy's number out of his phone.

I would feel weird, too.
Everyone just gets replaced so fast.

I haven't felt very well today.

:: 2006 15 February :: 8.08pm

(I miss you all ready)
I am so happy. I can't get the smile off of my face ever since last night.

This is just what I needed.

:: 2006 14 February :: 8.46pm

Turn out the lights. My life, on standby. :-(

This weekend was different. Saturday Charlie and I drove all the way up to Gaylord to go to this restaurant called Legends on the Hill. It's at Treetops resort. Three hours away. It's where I wanted to go for New Years but we couldn't. He said he never forgot. And that felt really nice. When we got there it was totally different than we expected. Freezer paper tablecloths, the works. I just laughed. I don't think we needed a bigger sign that said "We're not from around here". But I laughed. The ride was nice. The talking. The silence. The laughing. Everything. All the gas stations we had to stop at so I could pee. Haha. It's a beautiful relaxing town that looks like Switzerland. I asked him to pull over on the way back so I could give him a ring that I'd gotten him.

Monday I spent the night there and waited up for him to get home from work. I stopped The Big Lebowski and jumped out of bed to greet him at the door with a hug. But he was upset and held on tight.

His mom has cancer.

But I have this feeling and I can't explain it. I've been praying so much for her to get better. I just have this feeling like it's not her time yet. How could I know such a thing? When I told him "It's going to be okay." He asked "How do you know?" And I had no idea. I just feel like how could God take such a wonderful person away like that. Maybe it just doesn't feel real. She has so many people who love her. And a new grand-daughter. She feels that our lives are pre-destined so she doesn't want to get treatment. I don't know. But I feel like she's going to be okay. I hope so. :-(

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:: 2006 14 February :: 8.20pm
:: Music: HH- Life On Standby

I need you now, more like yesterday, the last day I could see you smile.
It's felt more real than ever before.
Waiting. Waiting.
Till I could hold you.
I'm sorry. I wish I could take it all away.
I just know
It's going to be okay.
There's too much sadness.
It's going to be okay.

:: 2006 13 February :: 11.02pm

well . . . i played scrabble this weekend like i planned.
but i was pretty much only into it for like the first half.
robby kept cheating. but i had a dictionary at my disposal.
so it was all good.
i still am not sure if i am sane, this weekend did absolutely nothing to get me closer to the truth. blah.
blah.
school sucks.

i need a vacation away from everything i know.

1 huh | what

:: 2006 13 February :: 1.13pm

I'm giddy like I used to be. I think that's a good sign. I haven't been giddy in a while. I feel a lot of love.
Today we went to the Amway. It was pretty cool getting to see what goes on behind the scenes. I almost forgot about the tour today. Then I took a test. I think I did pretty well.
~~~
Quit coming up with excuses you're going to blow us all off anyway. You already have.

bleedingsun

:: 2006 13 February :: 3.28am
:: Mood: drained

Fingers twitch and muscles flinch

I've been lying in my bed since 10, wide awake. The pills that my mom got me say "Stop use and ask a doctor if sleeplessness occurs." I don't think I'll be using them anymore, which is too bad because they work really well.

I'm going to be so dead tomorrow.

3 huh | what

:: 2006 12 February :: 3.51pm

Yesterday was a lot of fun. The ride was long but it was nice. :-)
He never forgot. It felt good.
He means more to me than he will ever know.
It was a good day.

bleedingsun

:: 2006 12 February :: 11.34am
:: Music: At the Drive-in - in/CASINO/OUT

Esophagus Roller-Coaster Derailed

The drummer in my ear is a slow monotonous ache beating his rhythm to that of my pulse. If I swallow, cough, or even breathe, it feels like lawn furniture is being shoved down my throat. Also, I have recently learned that my nostrils once contained tiny dams that kept all the fluids in my body in their proper places and off of my top lip. I no longer have these tiny dams. As a result of this, my waste-basket and the floor around it has become haunted with a thousand little ghosts. A thousand slimy, sticky, and gooey little ghosts.

I haven't gotten any better since I left school after second hour on Thursday, but I have to make it through the next three days. I have to make up all the tests I've missed, (so far I've been told of four). I have no idea how I'll pass any of them.

I need to find out what assignments I've missed so I can start doing them right now. If anyone is in American Literature with Dolbee, could you please tell me what she assigned on Friday? I'd greatly appreciate it.

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:: 2006 11 February :: 11.34pm

Shake that laffy taffy!
Swirl was fun. I'm glad I went, but my feet are in agonizing pain right now.

"I get fast really ready."
"This sad is so song."

I could not talk today..

[Oh, and pictures from Swirl and Spring Hill are soon to come]

Night ya'll.

9 huh | what

brad	:: 2006 11 February :: 4.14pm :: Mood: unexpected 20 years old. 9 huh \| what

:: 2006 9 February :: 11.19pm

Today was a really good day. Had some fun with my good ol friend Becca. Took a test that I think I did fairly well on. Talked to my love. He makes me so happy. I played the guitar a lot and actually learned a whole song and it sounds good. I love it. Tomorrow's going to be really nice too. And fun. And awesome. I'm excited. :-) So yeah, that's what's been going on. The other night at work, we did a bridal tasting where all these brides come in, along with all our vendors, and we just make a bunch of fancy stuff. It was pretty neat. We had our Choc. fountain out too. Yummy. Works been going well.
Anyway, that's about it.