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:: 2005 25 October :: 8.29pm

If anyone could tell me the html for moving your journal from one side of the page to another, I would be very happy and thankful.

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:: 2005 25 October :: 6.39pm
:: Music: Ani Difranco - Untouchable

Part of the song Untouchable by Ani
so fuck you
and your untouchable face
and fuck you
for existing in the first place
and who am i
that i should be vying for your touch
and who am i
i bet you can't even tell me that much

two-thirty in the morning
and my gas tank will be empty soon
neon sign on the horizon
rubbing elbows with the moon
a safe haven of sleepless
where the deep fryer's always on
radio is counting down
the top 20 country songs
and out on the porch the fly strip is
waving like a flag in the wind
y'know, i don't look forward
to seeing you again soon
you'll look like a photograph of yourself
taken from far far away
and i won't know what to do
and i won't know what to say

except fuck you

brad

:: 2005 22 October :: 9.05pm
:: Mood: unhappy

Well, the new apartment is nice. Dont really spend much time there but its still nice to have. Work is alright, tiring but meh, its money. The tattoo convention was fun. Dresden Dolls concert was fun. Things are alright lately, could be better. Someday we'll have it back....someday. Oh well, I cant complain.

Brothers in arms(earned in blood) has been taking up most of my time the past couple of days. good game, rent it, kill some nazi scum.

Anyway, i dont know why i bothered updating, pretty pointless, no one cares.

Later.

:: 2005 22 October :: 3.31pm
:: Music: Chevelle - Still Running

Mission Complete

I change this journal around, and I think it looks awesome. It's another one of those pictures I took with Amanda's dad's camera.

I want a camera now.

:: 2005 21 October :: 12.23pm
:: Music: BOB DYLAN

Good day.
Well, I just got back from the dentist. They had to fill my "mini" cavity. Man, I love laughing gas.

I also love days off, especially like this. I've been just walking around taking pictures with my Minolta. It's such a nice camera, I can't wait to get the pictures developed. They're all just nature shots, but it's fall so the trees are perdy.

Here's a couple of shots I got developed from my Canon. My scanner sucks so they came out really grainy and I had to photoshop some what, but they look all right. Just keep in mind the actual photos are good quality.

I want a new scanner!
Read more..

I don't know why the pictures are so small.. *shrug

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:: 2005 20 October :: 11.14pm
:: Music: Funeral for a Friend

Concrete and Ash

We did some more exploring today, and it was awesome. Took more pictures, got more scratches and grass and mud stains. I don't ever want to wash these pants again, because of how cool they look with the tears and stains. Now I know why people buy them that way; they're too girly to explore.

Six months tomorrow. How cool is that? We don't have school on our monthiversary. The circumstances are sad, yes, but still, it's cool.

I love how I redid my _Alastar journal. It makes me want to redo this one. I'll have to take more pictures like the one on that journal.

:: 2005 20 October :: 10.43pm

Ugh. WHATEVER.

Work was really really hard my very first day.
I made.... 1200 box lunches. I am so extremely sore. I can't wait to sleep. I didn't go to class today. I went to Charlie's. I love him so much. He's taking me on a huge trip in December for like, 3 or 4 days I think. I think he's going to propose then :-)
Tomorrow I have to work at 2 probably until late.

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:: 2005 19 October :: 4.48pm

The concert was amazing. By far the best show I have ever been to. The first two bands were just so different and creative and the Dresden Dolls just topped it off. I've never seen a concert be so artisitc and energetic. I'm so glad I went.

My only regret is not bringing my camera. I want to kick my own ass.

lookatmemynameisdustin

:: 2005 18 October :: 10.44pm

what?

its like 11 o'leary and im tired as fuck. i have a good job now i have to be awake at 6am and work 10 hr days mon-fri, but boy howdy do i forget that when that beauty of a check slides my way.(BRAG)

well im doing ok i need to do something diffrent ive been considering that tat. ive wanted for a while now but...i dont know...im a puss.

i won tickets to this GRD thing thats going on at the orbit room tomarrow i dont know why i tried but alas i won. soooo...if anybody dosent have anything to do tomarrow please come give me and berm a reason to stay and enjoy victory.

(616)7450761

LOVE,
dustin scott posthuma<@:)

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:: 2005 18 October :: 10.22pm
:: Music: A Static Lullaby

"Why did I laugh so hard baby? I never meant to hurt you, but I did...."
Paper to write. Maybe I can just do some now and some on Thursday. Wow I never used to be this bad of a procrastinator. First day of work tomorrow. 9am. ayayayaya. I have to start registering for winter classes already. Crazy crazy. This Saturday is the wedding and my last day of First Aid class. Yay.

:: 2005 18 October :: 4.42pm

YAYYYY Charlie's Christmas present came today. I'm excited. I have an hour till my next class. Blahhh. Nutritions was fun today. Eh I'll write more later. I'm kinda pissed.

:: 2005 18 October :: 6.52am

I'm going to the Dresden Dolls concert tonight. Can not wait.

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:: 2005 18 October :: 12.22am

So yeah, got one paper done. Nutrition analysis I'll work on tomorrow night after class. blahhhh. I think I'm really really going to like this job. Yippee. I think I'd be okay spending all day in a kitchen again, like when I had class. It's going to be great.
I was thinking today about how weird it would be to go back to high school. I wouldn't, but I mean, it just doesn't seem possible now. It seems like I've been out for a while. I'm getting married, I'm moving, I'm moving up with my career. It just seems to be going fast. Sometimes I forget what day it is then in the blink of an eye it's Friday again. Which is awesome. Life is crazy.

:: 2005 17 October :: 9.55pm

Things are WONDERFUL! Except I forgot I had a Bus. Eng. paper to write and a project for Nutrition to do...I remembered on the drive home. Guess they'll have to wait till after Laguna...
Charlie and I are all smiles now. It's good. He's working a 15 hour night tonight and probably all week. I went to my job orientation today and I will be working this Wednesday and Friday. It's going to be GREAT! I'm excited. We get paid every week though, which is wierd to be doing that again.
We're going to be saving up for a house soon. Once I start paying off stuff I can help. But Charlie's making a TON of overtime. Like 7 hours just today. Whoo wee that's cool and helpful. Ahhhh laguna is on...
I'll be on later.

:: 2005 16 October :: 7.20pm
:: Music: Get Some Mix: Version Four

Dead cameras and blank CDs

This is the best mix I have ever created. It's went through a few revisions, but now I think it is perfect. It only took 4 or 5 months and about 30 songs. These are the perfect 19.

This was a great weekend. Friday was fun downtown with certain people that I don't know if I can name because I don't want to start a(nother) fight.

Amanda and I went a lot of places yesterday. This soccer field in Sparta that had a creek in the back with all this broken concrete and cool rusty railroad tracks that went over it. Then to Greenville, to this river under a bridge. Oh, and more railroad tracks with scary sounds and creepy people in Suburbans. We took a bunch of cool pictures with her dad's camera. I couldn't get them on my computer though, because it's a different camera than I have and I don't have the right cord. I will put some up here when I get them, though. They are suh-weet.

This is the part of the weekend I hate. I save my thousand pounds of homework for 8 o'clock Sunday night and then end up staying up late so that I'm exhausted on Monday morning. Oh well, the fun part was worth it.

I'm not good at updating this, which is why I hardly do it anymore. It's lost something. Importance, probably.

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:: 2005 16 October :: 3.47pm

Erika, I love you. Hang in there.
Just remember guys suck and they were born idiots.
Juust kidding..

not. ;)

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:: 2005 16 October :: 1.46pm

I miss you, come home all ready!

onceagainistandalone

:: 2005 16 October :: 12.58pm

my sister was telling me the other day that like a year and a half ago she felt restless with life and started praying for god to give her a kick in the ass..you know, something to move her on the next phase of her life. Just like that, she got pregnant with the most beautiful little girl i have ever seen.

yeah. thats what i need. not to get pregnant though.

i just feel like im doing nothing.
well its not really a feeling i guess, more like the truth.

anyway.

:: 2005 15 October :: 9.34pm

Way to make me feel better dad! No, I just wanted to know if he even would cancel going for me. Now I know. I wouldn't have let him. But still, I just wanted to know. Silly me. I'm just a girl. I'll ALWAYS be here.

Anyway, I have a new job, and a new tattoo. Yippee!!!! I got it today at Wicked Ways. The guy Matt, he's pretty cool. I was laying down the whole time and holding onto Charlie's hand going "Oh god oh god oh god". It hurt when he got to the bony part. It's a star I drew, on my ankle. And I'm very happy :-)
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:: 2005 15 October :: 4.39pm

I got a new cell phone and it's a camera phone too!
I'm only excited, because my old one was a piece like you wouldn't believe.

Anyway, yesterday was a lot of fun. Kelly, Liz, Sammie, and Neilee rock hardcore.

I miss Brad.
Weekend homework sucks.

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:: 2005 14 October :: 2.58pm
:: Music: The Used

Holy crap. I just bought Charlie's Christmas present. AHHHH :-D

It's been an interesting day.

:: 2005 13 October :: 11.10pm

You don't have to want to see me. Whatever.

I have a new job now. Finally. After a month. I don't know how I did it. Now I know why you get graduation money. Haha. For times like this. Too bad I'm spending some of it on a tattoo.

Chef called me today and I go in for orientation on Monday. Andrew had a good idea about not dispaying the name of the company so when people google it they won't get my journal. So I'm just going to type what the business card says...

..."Our catering experience has expanded over 15 years of performing thousands of catering events in our "hometown" to Rome, Italy. We have catered to several Presidents of the United States and have been selected as the exclusive caterer for the Farmers Charity Classic and West Michigan Whitecaps. Whether you're planning a corporate breakfast or lunch, a picnic in the park, or a gala event for 1,000, the "--blank--" team of event planners and certified chefs are trained to bring...."blank"...to your event!

I thought that was pretty neat.
So Charlie may get the ring sooner than expected. Now I'm really thrown off as to what time he will ask! Ahh. I found what dress I want. Maybe I already put that in here. Anyway. Spring.
Panera bagels are sooooooo great!

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:: 2005 13 October :: 9.00pm

I want more nights like tonight.

But, of course something has to piss me off before I go to sleep, like a stupid as fuck email..why did I even bother trusting her again? She's doing the same fucking thing that caused all that shit last time. Whatever. Fuck you.

Anyway, today was good. Thank you.

Have a good time.

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:: 2005 13 October :: 12.55am

"We call it the suck it game, because, well, when we win, which, Will and I ALWAYS win, you get to turn to the loser and say 'suck on it'!!!!!"

"Which lever do I pull to have a safe dropped on me!?"

Gah I love this show.

:: 2005 13 October :: 12.46am

Awww. I love Will & Grace so much.
I love ma girls too. I had a TON of fun tonight. I'm so happy we're hanging out again. Sar-oid needs to hang out with us again too!
I'm just sad right now and I don't really know why. My body is just going crazy on me. Operation- Scare David didn't work so well but it was still fun. Stir-fry is yummy. My bed feels nice. G'night.

:: 2005 12 October :: 10.41pm

I don't want you to go anymore.
And that didn't help.

I'm freaking out.
I don't know what can make me not.

It's as if I feel like it's impossible for nothing bad to happen.

I hate this.

stinko

:: 2005 12 October :: 12.49pm

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:: 2005 11 October :: 5.27pm

Hooray for... subway cookies. Yep. I am bored but I don't feel like leaving for class yet. I ran over this HUGE raccoon last night while my dad was trying to call me. It was sooo gross. I get to hang out w/ma girls tomorrow. Yippee!

:: 2005 11 October :: 5.19pm

Ugh
It's so boring right now. And cold out. I have class in about 25 minutes. I was thinking about really having the wedding at Charlie's Grandma Caldwell's. It would be so pretty there and nice. At first I wanted it to be by water, but that's kind of hard... Anyway. I'm not feeling too great right now. I am so tired.