go away

:: 2005 22 September :: 5.51pm

MISHY:
Are you free tomorrow after school? I'd like to work on drama and glorify Hitler!

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:: 2005 22 September :: 6.43am

~~I can't go to the pageant. I am very dissapointed about it. I like watching those kind've things. *sigh* Ah well, I hope someone at least records it.~~

Anyway, things were going good. Keep in mind were.
I don't understand it.
I don't like it.
And I really don't know what to do.
But, whatever. I guess I'm just not perfect enough.

Well, I better finish getting ready. Three weeks in and I all ready want the year to end.

:: 2005 22 September :: 12.07am

OH my gosh! I am so very energetic right this very moment. I need to get to sleep. Starbucks ice-cream is very yummy but probably not a good choice.
CHARLIE we're going to go to Jared the galleria of jewelry this weeeeeeekeeeeend. YES. WE ARE. I want to look! It'll be fun! Okay, it's up to you, I'm leaving you knowing that you'll make the right decision. hahaha
I got my hair done today and Angie and I were talking about the wedding. How she's going to do my hair, how we were thinking about it being in April, but fall might be nice. Just for fun though we were joking and planning it around when she could wear her red dress and wouldn't be fully preggers. haha. She told me she wanted to have a baby in April. Then I said that's when we wanted the wedding. But she HAS to go... She NEEDs to wear that red dress. This is all really funny.
My dad is driving the harley up north tomorrow and I need to pick him up. Then I have Nutrition which we have a test in.
Anyway, g'night!

stinko

:: 2005 21 September :: 12.39pm

this library isn't helping me at all.
blah.

jake is sitting next to me. he is so cute. and a little scary.
sarah, you need to come home on the 7th. big fun awaits you!

BIG FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

B
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F
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:: 2005 20 September :: 11.47pm

So so so so so so so
SO
Excited.
Charlie leaves me wondering like he always does :-D
He's going to PROPOSE! But I don't know when, and that's what makes it so incredibly exciting. Mom is excited too.
I am just so incredibly happy and in love. <3

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:: 2005 20 September :: 7.41pm

It seems like just yesterday, we were in Detroit

5 months tomorrow. Should be fun, if gas and dad allows.

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:: 2005 19 September :: 6.16am

Ruined anniversarys.
Either way I lose.

Why can't you ever help me?

sherriffsteve

:: 2005 18 September :: 11.36pm

Well, in seven months, on April 29th I will oficially be announced as Mrs. Kuhnle. It was beautiful. It will be beautiful.

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:: 2005 18 September :: 11.26pm
:: Music: Cursive- Sierra

This song is so sad.
In the desert where the cities are made of gold
There's a girl playing hopscotch, with pink ribbon pigtails
And her mom calls out from an apartment balcony
"C'mon baby, your bath is ready, it's almost time for sleep"
And I wonder who's the father
And I wonder what they call him
Ohhh
Sierra
Does her mother smoke or does she jog every morning?
Does she drink when she thinks about me
Or doesn't she need to drink?
Does she have a man who works from 9 til 5?
Does he come home to kiss that young Sierra, tuck her in, and say goodnight?
And an extra kiss for momma
Ohh...
I want that kiss that kid that apartment.
I'm ready to settle down now
To get that man out of my bed
I want my daughter back now
I want to kiss her tuck her in and say
"Goodnight my baby"
Sierra...Sierra...Sierra...Sierra
I'll never know, now who you are, and I don't deserve to.
Sierra...Sierra...Sierra...Sierra
My little girl, we would've been so...
oh, nevermind.
But I'm ready to settle down now
Yeah I'm ready to leave that wrecking ball behind
I could be your carpenter
And you could be my twinkle in the sky
On that desert sky...

:: 2005 18 September :: 11.16pm
:: Music: UnderOath- I'm Content With Losing

"I'm leavin you the way I think it should be..."
-I love this song. AHHH
-I'm addicted to Laguna Beach. I can't wait till Season 2 is out to buy. I will get it.
-I'm going to learn how to play this song. Argh I love it.
-My ex-boss is really annoying. She didn't have my check on Friday and she says "Well I don't have your check ready and I don't have the checkbook or anything..." blah blah blah so I says:
"Well you should have had it ready. I'll be in on Monday."
All stern and such. I'm really cool. Kinda.
-My mom agrees that I will be married soon. It's AWESOME!
-Charlie and I looked at houses in GR Saturday it was fun. :-)
-Maybe baby.
-Classes on Tuesday.
-Tomorrow I'm going to try to get my flippin' check again.
-The whole unemployment thing sucks and I wouldn't even do it if it wasn't just to totally screw her over.
-I get my hair done on Wednesday yay!

That's it for right now.

:: 2005 18 September :: 10.32pm
:: Music: Nightmare of You - Thumbelina

I'm glad you can live without me

Had another one of those weekends where it was summer all over again. Busy, busy, busy. Summertime funtime busy. The best kind of busy.

Two new CDs this weekend, and two new last weekend. I'm on a roll. But, while putting the new CDs in my case, I realized that I have many CDs I never listen to, which can only mean one thing: CD Sale.

All CDs will be three dollars or best offer. If two people want one of them, the highest bidder will get it. All CDs (unless otherwise said so) come with the original cases and CD wallets or booklits or whatever you-call-it's. They're all in perfect condition (probably because I don't listen to them much).

Godsmack - Faceless
Midtown - Forget What You Know
311 - Evolver
Doves - Some Cities
Hoobastank - The Reason
Korn - Take a Look in the Mirror
Maroon 5 - Songs About Jane
Saliva - Back into your System
Something Corporate - Leaving Through the Window
3 Doors Down - Away From the Sun
Fuel - Natural Selection
Evergreen Terrace - Sincerety is an easy Disguise in this Business (This one doesn't have the booklet but will come in a case.)

The person who buys the most will get a Victory Records Music Sampler with 6 songs on it for free.

Damn, I'm quite the salesman.

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stinko

:: 2005 18 September :: 5.18pm

for the love of God, there are no polar bears at John Ball Park Zoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

anywho . . . college is pretty much like high school. only no one gives you detention for not showing up.
whatever. there are pretty much like five or six people from school that i regularly talk to/see anymore. it's so crazy.

so crazy.

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:: 2005 17 September :: 9.18pm

I went to some strong man show at the Ressurection Life Church in Rockford. Saw some big, sweaty guys break bricks and rip phone books in half, haha. It was pretty cool though, better than sitting at home like usual.

Dan proposed to Molly before the show on the stage. It was soo cute and I'm glad I was there to see it. Her ring is beautiful.

Things are good lately.
That's all.
Night.

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:: 2005 15 September :: 10.12pm

Oh my gosh you're right! I DO have a glow.

Brad

:: 2005 15 September :: 8.27am
:: Music: Lynard Skynard - Swamp Music

For some reason, I can't learn from my mistakes. I keep doing the same stupid shit over and over. Anyway, things have been interesting lately..not exactly in a good way but i'm hoping that it all gets better. We've been having our ups and downs..and the downs..are pretty bad. But no matter what, i'll still love her more than anything in the world. When we are having a good time or day together, she's the best girlfriend any guy could have. I have hope that things will start to look up soon.

I'm looking for a new job now. I started looking into art careers, such as forensic artists. That would be sweet. I just want a job that pays well and will keep me happy, and I know that I can find one. I just need to look closer this time.

My hands are freezing, barely numb. I want to go back to bed, but I have to call my temp service guy around 9am.

One thing about me that has been changing lately that most of you dont know, is that I have been reading the bible and going to church regularly for the past 3 or 4 months. It's good for me. I need to be more open minded and have a better understanding of it all. I'm not all churchy now, I just need something to believe in instead of being stupid about it all.

Anyway, let's hope for a good day, week, maybe month!

I love you, Stacy.

Brad

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:: 2005 14 September :: 1.05am

Alright. So I don't have a job anymore. How abouts one last "screw you"! Yeah. I'm filing for unemployment. Not so much for the money though you know...but it might be nice. I don't think anyone really cares what my artwork looks like but I'm going to post one anyway because I think it's cool. I drew this a long time ago...
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:: 2005 13 September :: 3.54pm

I don't know what's wrong with me lately.
Everything in school is really hard. I don't understand anything and I never can just get my homework done. It never makes any sense to me. And I'm not even in difficult classes with tons of homework.

I'm not happy. I don't know why. As soon as I am it only lasts a day or so. I'm not trying to be negative, it's just..this year seems way too hard for me to handle.

Everytime I try to do my homework or just understand what a teacher is saying I'm on the brink of tears because I feel so lost and stupid.
Everyone around me gets it and if I ask for help I am treated like a complete dolt. I'm just stressed out. Nothing makes me happy anymore, I wish I knew what could do it.

I hate being at school and I hate being here.

I don't know what to do.

Oh, and I fucking hate Econ.

In other news I am very dissapointed about something going on. It frustrates me so much. Erika, Mishy.. you know what I'm talking about. I don't know what to do, it goes in one ear and out the other. It's like I'm just a broken record..

I guess I am.
Nothing ever comes easy, I should get used to that.

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:: 2005 13 September :: 3.02pm

I'm in nutrition class right now.
Kathy called today. Hmm...
She's taking me off the schedule permanently because I am in class during the day.
Yeah I don't like her.

:: 2005 12 September :: 11.53pm
:: Music: Bleed the Dream- Solace

Side aches. Ugh. Class tomorrow. 2-9. It's pathetic I take the long way home every time because I would get lost any other way. My back hurts. I'm tired. And complaining a lot. I hope there isn't something going on again. . .
Dad comes home at 4 am. From work. He left around noon today. He works his butt off. Dang. He's so awesome.
Charlie and I hung out today and went to Steak n Shake. Yummmm. I haven't had one of their shakes in forever! And it was so good. I may post some pics on here but I have to read some chaps for english tomorrow. I put it off long enough. Ugh. Boring...

:: 2005 11 September :: 10.07pm
:: Music: Driftwood: A Fairy Tale- Cursive

My arms, my legs, my heart, my face...
I saw my grandparents today. At dinner my grandma asked me how old I was going to be. I felt bad. She only has 2 grandkids. My grandpa hugged me extra hard :-)
It's just sad to watch people get older.
We're pretty sure my mom's cancer came back. They really don't know what it is, but it was a large tumor on the side of her head. She goes for a ct scan tomorrow morning. When Kathy was telling me about how her mom died, and she started crying, i just couldn't hold up. I started crying. I don't want to lose her. She's had this once. Now she started getting headaches again and she's tired all the time. I don't want to lose her. I can't.

:: 2005 11 September :: 5.30pm
:: Music: at.the.drive-in

Bruises that never reach the surface;

This weekend felt like summer all over again. I could have sworn I didn't have any homework to do, or a schedule to fit myself into come Sundaynight/Mondaymorning. But...I do. And I think I have a test tomorrow. Hm. I should read the chapter.

:: 2005 11 September :: 7.49am

The bonfire was fun.
Not a lot of people showed up, but it didn't even matter.
The main group was hilarious and I enjoyed it.
I like smaller groups better.
Though it is sad that none of my "closest" friends even showed up.
Whatever, just don't expect me to bother anymore.

Other than that I feel sick and I needed a lot more sleep than this.
I get today to write an essay then tomorrow it's..school.

I hate saying that.

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:: 2005 11 September :: 2.50am
:: Music: Irony of Dying On Your Birthday- Senses Fail

I tried to make these smaller
Here's the cutie. I fed her ice cream today. She loved it, it was so cute. No brain freeze though, that's good.
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And here's my boy!

Here's Katriana in her totally stylish sunglasses!

:: 2005 11 September :: 1.51am

I'm doing good for barely any sleep. Exorcism of Emily Rose is pretty okay. It can't be really really really scary obviously because it was based on a true story so they can't add too much. Which actually makes it good/scary because you know it's happened. It was scarier afterwards too because there were cats in the movie and when we got home the cats were making noises. The lights were all off and Elvis sounded like a little kid screaming. I guess there was a racoon outside though. But still.
Today I got up at 6 to go to class and it was good and all. My stomach growled like a stupid moron though. It was annoying. Then I got out earlier and slept like an hour at Char's. Then his fam started showing up because they all got to go to the ZOO. Not fair at all. I had to leave for work. Which wasn't bad at all today. Then I went back home and they were still GONE. So I went to Wal-Mart and bought a bunch of cleaning supplies and cleaned for a couple hours. Just went crazy. Then everyone came home and we went out to eat. I have a cute picture of Katriana so I think I may post it. I am totally staying home tomorrow. All freakin' day. I ran my car into concrete today...a little. (in a parking ramp) hahaha. How stupid. G'night.

:: 2005 10 September :: 12.08pm

I'm sick of this shit.

See everyone at the bonfire.
I hope another unnecessary scene doesn't occur.
Ha! Riiight..

:: 2005 9 September :: 3.54pm
:: Music: BOB DYLAN

Why does every party have to have drinking to be fun?
I thought a lot of people got over that..apparently not.
Whatever.

Anyway, I've been good. I'm happy lately.
School sucks, but it doesn't seem to go as slow as it did last year.
It's fine. I have to just suck it up and remember I only have to make it through the year.

And I seriously need help in Econ. I'm doing shitty with the stock thing. Does anyone know the "loop-hole" in the game? Ah fuck it..

I realized that being an office aid is like saying you're their slave for the hour. I'm so the office bitch.

I love Bible as in Lit. First we drew pictures of God, then today we played with Clay. Hard work.

Ummm...I love my bunnie.
And life is good.
Remember to come to the bonfire tomorrow.
8:00pm!

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:: 2005 9 September :: 12.02pm

Yeahhh. That last entry was so long I just deleted it. I only work for 3.5 hours today. holy crap. That's kind of awesome, just because it's Friday and it's payday and tomorrow I have to get up at 6 for class.
I want to just have one day where I'm not always counting hours. I'm so crazy! I'm going to write my granny a letter now. teehee. :-)

:: 2005 8 September :: 10.34pm
:: Music: The Recluse- Cursive

THIS SONG IS AWESOME
How'd I end up here to begin with?
I don't know.
And why do I start what I can't finish?
Oh please don't barrage me with the questions
To all those lovely answers
My ego's like my stomach, it keeps
Shitting what I feed it
But maybe I don't wanna finish anything
Anymore.
Maybe I can wait in bed till [he] comes home and whispers...
*You're in my web now,
I've come to wrap you up tight
Till it's time to bite down.*
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I can't believe this cd had to grow on me. It's like a euphoric moment. Every song sounds good to me now. Hm.
Slept in, went to class, went pretty good, went to Char's, went to McD's to see Jess, went home and I am so energetic right now...it's crazy. Tomorrow I have to work then I'm going to go see The Exorcism of Emily Rose and maybe go to Friday's. And I have to go grocery shopping!
TOMORROW IS PAYDAY! It's funny, I only have enough gas paycheck-to-paycheck. I'm running low but I have enough to get to work. Then I need to cash my check. Haha. I have class Sat. morning @ 7:45 then work. blahshshshs.

:: 2005 8 September :: 9.29pm
:: Music: Andrew W.K.

I've used them all before

This school thing is really cutting into all my free time. Morale is low.

I've had enough for this year already. Homework every night. What's that about?

It's about dumb, that's what.

:: 2005 8 September :: 3.00am
:: Music: From First To Last- Note To Self.

This is probably the most I've ever updated. So I'm looking at tattoos right now...and I can't believe what some people get. Not to mention the creepy guy that used to stop in at the cafe who had pooh bear characters on his arms.....ekkk.
I think I'm going to just get a plain star on my ankle or foot. What about on my ribcage? hm? Nah... Wait. I think I want some on my foot. Ugh. I have to go to class tomorrow. Er. Today. In about 11 hours. I'm going to bed now. No more of this journal stuff! ha