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:: 2005 10 July :: 8.06pm

Okay. I really am upset. I feel like I caused something to happen somehow. I really don't know.

:: 2005 10 July :: 8.01pm
:: Music: Finch- Ravenous

So...
I really don't know how to feel. I know I am sad. But I need closure. I need to talk to a doctor. I need to know what actually happened. I keep thinking I did something wrong. I know that's not really the case. But I can't help feeling like my body let me down. If I would've gone sooner, maybe we would have known. I just keep saying maybe. But I NEED CLOSURE. In the meantime. I'll find out how to deal.

:: 2005 10 July :: 3.49pm

Leave a comment if you're in any of my classes.

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:: 2005 9 July :: 11.25pm

Hell: A Vacation from Home
1. British Lit - Millard
2. United States History I & II - Hazel, Norkus
3. Anatomy & Physiology - McDonald
4. Geometry - Neier
5. Bible As/In Lit - Olsen
6. Yearbook - Stark

There's my schedule. Tell me what you think/know about the teachers and classes. Oh, and if you're in any of my classes.

:: 2005 9 July :: 4.26pm
:: Music: Gatsbys American Dream - Theatre

Schedule

1. Integrated Math 3 :: Modisher - First fucking hour. Again.
2. American Literature :: Eilola
3. Advanced TV Pro. :: Martino
4. Biology :: Fournier
5. Bible As/In Literature :: Olsen - Score. Another easy class.
6. United States History :: Norkus

This gets me thinking about school too early. Summer isn't even half over yet.

:: 2005 6 July :: 11.32pm
:: Mood: anxious

party in two days........

mmmhhhh

:: 2005 5 July :: 7.38pm
:: Music: A Pefect Circle - Vanishing

Looks like the streak has come to an end

Does anyone like crazy screaming and/or god? If so, I have the perfect CD for you. Bought on impulse, I perchased Still Remains - Of Love and Lunacy, because I was handed 20 dollars and had nothing else to spend it on. I'll never buy a CD I've never heard of again. Don't get me wrong, it's a good CD, I just can't stand the screaming. It has really good lyrics, they're just sort of hard to understand at some points. So if anyone wants it, 5 dollars should do the trick.

Oh, and by the way, I'm sorry. I had no idea.

Try this game. It's hard.
http://www.bbc.co.uk/radio4/hitchhikers/game_nolan.shtml

:: 2005 2 July :: 11.50pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Sparta - Travel By Bloodline

The best

I've been to Taco Bell three times in the past 24 hours. I've eaten it for my last four meals. I could never get sick of that stuff. Oh, it's so delicious. I've been to Best Buy two times today, and gotten a total of seven CDs (between both Amanda and I).

I bought:

Sparta - Porcelain
Armor for Sleep - What To Do When You Are Dead
At the Drive-In - Relationship of Command

This has been the best day I've had in quite awhile. And it's not even for these materialistic things, it actually has nothing to do with the CDs or the great mexican (almost) food.

:: 2005 30 June :: 10.56pm
:: Music: A Perfect Circle

A mind is wasting away

Challenge me.

:: 2005 29 June :: 10.44pm

Wow. I am just learning now how psychotic my boss is. EVERYONE::: DO NOT WORK AT TWO SISTERS CAFE!!!
I mean, it's a great place to work, if you really don't mind having your brain ripped out by your bosses fingernail (to say the least)
I am not joking at all. She made me cry today. And then had the nerve to tell me, with all her yelling, that I'm "lucky this is such a good job, no other place will put up with that crap". Well I am SORRY! But that is bullshit lady. I have worked in more kitchens than you for longer than you have and I know that if I want to leave I WILL LEAVE. I can find a job that will not "TEST" me and be manipulative and be insane. This job is nice, don't get me wrong...it's really just the boss.

So, if anyone really wants to visit me, I WOULD ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!!!!
Kathy won't be there tomorrow, or next tuesday, and both days I work 11:30-6.
Two Sisters Cafe, in Champion (Rockford) open to the public. duh. :-)

In other news, Charlie won't let me go to Michigan's Adventures. Well, just in case, you know. I've already rode the Zipper. Don't want her comin' out all cross-eyed. :-P
The zipper is crazy. I will never ride that thing as long as I live.
Off to work tomorrow so I better get some sleep.

:: 2005 29 June :: 5.36pm
:: Music: Gatsbys American Dream - Pompeii

Come on rain,

-----drown this city.

:: 2005 28 June :: 10.31pm

Tonight was definitely interesting. I didn't feel too well at work today but it got better. ate a samwich. drank a yummy drink. I need visitors there. Jane and I were bored out of our minds! Today was an interesting day though. Full of craziness. I need to go to the beach. I want to lay in the sun. I'm scared to ride quads, I think I need practice. And rollercoasters. But I love them just the same.
So tired. Water is good. :-)
So is sleep.

:: 2005 28 June :: 12.07pm
:: Music: Cursive - Bloody Murderer

Rent the movie is going to be in theatres soon! How kick ass is that?
In other news I got the position I wanted in Yearbook next year. Photo Features Editor. So I get to help people make their spreads cooler with photo shop and such. The yearbook will be kick ass next year. Guaranteed.

Brad and I are wonderful and things are going good.

:: 2005 27 June :: 10.54pm

people are fuckheads and need to hurry up and die to make room for others with open minds and hearts. people with loving souls (unlike me) the world needs less angst and all you cock jockeying, ass mongers can just shit off and fuck yourselves. i hope my child rules the world and rids it of your seed.

:: 2005 27 June :: 9.25pm

worst headache of my LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I had to leave work early. It actually made me sick.
Ugh. I am tired. My eyes felt like they were being cut.
Feeling a little better now. :-)

:: 2005 27 June :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: At the Drive-In - One Armed Scissor

Sweat Soaked and Sore

Chris and Kirk just stopped over for 2 or 3 hours. I hadn't seen Chris in about a year, and just recently Kirk came over for the first time in about a year, also. We had a great hack session. Oh...it was awesome. Blasted some Linkin Park, which is always a good beat for hacky sack. It was like we had all just been away from it, doing other things for so long, we all just knew it was time and got to business. Sweat was just dripping off of us onto the pavement. We walked away and there was actually a circle of sweat where we were standing.

But...none of you probably care about hack, so I'll stop babbling on about how great my day was.

:: 2005 25 June :: 9.46pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: the USED

Road Commision

Amanda and I stole a total of seven cones yesterday. We are the masters of cone stealing. With her good eye, and my bold, fearless, awesome ability to grab things from the side of the road, we are an unstoppable team. I don't really know what to do with them though, so I just put them in random places around my house.

Also, my cat is missing. I let him out around 6 this morning, and we haven't seen him since. It's not really like him to run off and not come back within a day. My mom is going crazy. She can't stop crying. I feel sort of bad, since I was the one who let him out last. I hope he turns up. I heard something outside about 5 minutes ago, so I went to see what it was, and he was sitting on the porch in front of the door. I was right, I knew he was just out doing whatever cats do.

:: 2005 24 June :: 8.41am
:: Music: Action Action - This Years Fashion

You have the same name as my banana!

I couldn't find the movie, but I did find this quiz.
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:: 2005 22 June :: 5.55pm
:: Music: At the Drive-In - Lopsided

Voltage in your veins

I just bought At the Drive-In - This Station is Non-Operational, and it fucking rocks. I can definitely see the influences in the Mars Volta that come from this band.

Friday. Fried A. Fry Day.

Mmm...fries.

:: 2005 22 June :: 12.23am
:: Music: Sleeping at Last

Ron finds fun in IQ tests and beating his wife

I've always been good with words.
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:: 2005 21 June :: 9.43pm

I guess I realized today that life's one true, real promise is death.

On a lighter note: I like my job. A lot.

:: 2005 21 June :: 1.30am

After you make Him your first, He'll find your second.

:: 2005 20 June :: 3.25pm
:: Mood: awake

Ron is burnt

Testosterone levels are higher in the A.M. and decrease gradually throughout the day.

Ohhh, that explains it.

Just for fun.
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:: 2005 19 June :: 10.01pm

What if it's more than that?

:: 2005 17 June :: 8.57pm

Ron finds something hilarious

Looks like you accidently left something here. Oops.
*laughs hysterically*

:: 2005 16 June :: 1.30am

Ron changes his mind

Ok, after just seeing Batman Begins, I'm willing to say that it would be a very close fight between The Dark Knight and The Webslinger.

By the way, it's an amazing movie. One of the best movies I have ever seen. Go see it.

:: 2005 16 June :: 12.41am
:: Music: The Shins

Today has been pretty strange. Slept in till noon. Went to work. Was overly emotional. Stressed out. Got stuck in traffic for 1/2 an hour after work. Had to PEE!!! Finally got out of traffic and now I'm home. Feeling yucky. I want to go to bed so I will in a second. There's only tomorrow and next Tuesday left at Johnny's. If anyone wants to visit me, sniffle sniffle, I work at 4 tomorrow, and 5 on Tuesday.
I will be very tired on Tuesday though. Next week I work 48 hours at the Cafe. Which, by the way, if anyone wants to visit me, sniffle sniffle, it's at Champion fitness center, and is open to the public. I will be working 5:30am-1:30pm. I'm excited though. Yuck! I keep burping.
Ew.
Alright it's time for bed.

:: 2005 15 June :: 12.16pm
:: Music: the Faint

Ron likes to start arguements

Spiderman would totally kick Batman's ass.
No questions asked.

:: 2005 14 June :: 5.41pm

Ron has a fun idea

The next time I purchase gas, I think I'll wear a ski mask.
That would be fun.

:: 2005 13 June :: 12.42pm
:: Mood: blah

I hate to say it but-i miss Cedar alittle bit. Not really high school-but everyone whos up there.

Sam is moving away-which kinda sucks. We'v been fighting for far to long.
Sarah is just hot....and i miss her.
Matt i havnt talked to in forever.
Mishy i havnt talked to in forever.
My dad...i really havnt talked to him much either.

i need a job

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