cha...*stomach growls* hungry--

still hungry...

*waits a few more minutes*

still hungry...

ONE EXAM DONE WITH! 6 MORE TO GO!

cha--
I'm bored...really really bored...so bored that i carved another "LR" into my arm...but being my stupid self, i put it some place where the whole world could see it. For example, if i were to shake hands with someone, they would automatically see it... *sighs* let's see...so here's a reality check.

1) Midterms are slowly approaching...
2) X-mas is approaching also, which I'm really not looking forward to because I won't be able to spend it chatting with my online friends, even though it would probably bring back some bad memories...
3) The All-County concert is next month...and I've only looked at the music maybe an hour a day [as opposed to the 3-hour practice each night]
4) The pre-festival concert is also next month
5) In fact, ALL the concerts are practically a month or two away

cha--going down hill...time is flying away...and it's going faster by the second. I can't believe first semester is almost over, when it seems like it was just yesterday that I started sophomore year. I'm not looking forward to grow, yet I don't care, really. It's an odd feeling......

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i'm back online! YAY! okay...anyway....what has happened while i was gone...

1) I made All-County Jazz Band on piano
2) I did impressions of many people in my classes and now go by Robert or Mandy
3) A girl asked me if she had a big butt or not
4) People think I'm a lesbian...and I'm not

i think that covers it...yup...i think so....indeedy...
Currently, I'm having a personality and identity crisis...and it's drving me up the wall... - -;;

okay...gonna go now...L8terZ

I leave with...GO CRAZY WITH THE CHEEZ WHIZ!

HELP!!! i'm being attacked by people who hated me last year because of this one lie....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! okay...anyway...yeah. They blame me, even though it was Mike. MIKE DID IT! NOT ME! okay....yeah.....that's what i do. Freak out.


As if you were born into a world of tears, you
always tend to look at the darker things in
life. Inside you crave attention yet push away
society, and you're a hopeless romantic. Drawn
to things like the occult and mysteries, you
spend your time daydreaming of "What
If's".


What Type of Soul Do You Have ?
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*cries* AHHHH!! okay...i'm fine...really. I AM! I can assure you my sane-ness. you know what? i'm supposed to be writing right now. my English project on Dante's Inferno! WOOOOOO!! guess who my guide is for all you people who know what i'm talkin about. It's...Edgar Allan Poe! *laughs maniacally* and my whole Divine Comedy thing is on...writing.......go figure right? CHEEZ WHIZ! btw, i'm never this hyper....i'm just SPOOKED right now. indeed i am. AIEEEEEEEE!!!

food.......i'm hungry........TIME FOR SOME LEFT-OVERS! HAHAHAHAHAH! SCHMEE....okay...bbl....peace...


[[Distant Snowflake]]
You're so aloof. while giving some people the cold
shoulder may make you look cool, you could be
preventing great people from reaching out to
you. surprisingly, your chilly demeanor
probably comes from insecurity, not a
superiority complex. perhaps you are worried
that people are unable to accept you for who
you are. then these people are probably not
worth your friendship. to start breaking down
your ice-princess barriers, you could take more
small risks like smiling at strangers. and
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EMO-NESS!


you are an "emo kid". you're fresh or
light in the scene and enjoy your somewhat
nicer and lighter emo bands. don't let the
indie kids and punk rockers put you down for
liking dashboard confessional or hot water
music, stick up for your emo rights! keep
smiling!


*how emo are you?*
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okay, anyway...gonna go now...updated two poems on FP! FWEE! okay...bye now

... u_u ...

I'm gonna fail this quarter in World History...I just got like two zeros in that class today...but it was my own fault so who could I complain to...currently...I'm shaking a bottle of Coke, so all the fizz comes flowing out...[I love it when it does that... ^_^]

Hmm, other than that...a few people found out that I have a crush on this one guy. Now, for the rest of the year, they'll ask, "Who is it" every time I see them...indeedy...and so on...mm....here's another quiz thing....I just get a hoot outta all of these...


Your element is Earth. I hate to say it but you are
down to earth. Stubborn and loyal. You tend to
want to nurture others and you are the one
person friends always come to for awnsers.
Without people like you others would be flying
over the edge because, whether you know it or
not you keep a steady beat to your life and
will end up where you want to in the end. There
is a sureness about you that is hard to match
that draws people to you. No matter what
happens the Earth keeps turning.


What's your element
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Oye...fun fun...I'm gonna go write some stuff now...but I'll be back with another entry later today...indeedy...Till then...L8terZ

Hm...seems that I'm always listening to a song... - -;; okay, so get this. I feel depressed, but I don't know what about. I feel like dying, yet I don't. It's times like these when I want to just lock myself up in my room and stuff. I dunno. After my band rehearsal today, one of my friends asked me if I was okay. I couldn't answer 'cause I didn't know. Maybe I'm being ignorant to myself. I hate m'self, and that's all I can say. Here's a piece of my actual journal entry, in this one notebook I keep.

"...I don't hate life. I just hate myself. Other people shouldn't be penalized for my issues. It's on the outside where everyone can see that I seem fine, and my life is as good as it gets. Complimented on skills I was not good at, even when I didn't do anything to improve i.e. music and writing. Friends who actually seem to care. Respect from people who I thought hated me last year. But, it's on the inside where a too much of a good thing is a bad thing. Everything is so great that-that it makes me sick. I feel that none of this is for me. It's for someone else..."

...and so on. I don't know. So confused. And for some reason, my hands won't stop shaking. I've got issues. No one needs to tell me that anymore. Well, there's my second entry of the the day. Till 2moro, hopefully, L8terZ

You know what? I woke up thinking it's 8:00...when it's only like 7... - -;; I totally forgot about Daylights Savings Time. Geez...I COULDA HAD ANOTHER HOUR OF SLEEP! Of course, I woke up because I had this idea for my fic. Writing, writing, writing. That's all I've been doing ever since school started, for all these assignments and stuff. But, I have to continue with my fics...the ones I've started BEFORE school. Yeah. Gotta finish what you start, indeedy. If you want to check out my works here are the links.

http://www.fictionpress.com/~lonereaper
http://www.fanfiction.net/~digifreak103

Indeedy, feedback would be appreciated and stuff, yada yada yada. ANYWAY! My fic's newest chapter, 'Unexpected Visitors' of "It All Comes Down To This," will hopefully be finished and posted by next Sat...oh wait. I have band hosting thing to do. Sunday...wait! Oi, I have a gig on Sunday. What is this?!? Am I actually too busy this week?!?!? Oi...

- -;; This is insane...oh well, I'll figure something out. Maybe I'll finish it sometime this week, since people are asking me sooo nicely (note the sarcasm) I've got nothin' more to say. ^_^

L8terZ and have a lovely, 'Daylights Savings Time' morning...

Okay...so here's my first entry or whatever. Ehh...yeah. So bored. Hmm...it's almost one year since this one incident. I screwed up with a lot of my friends then, and the day comes around again to haunt me. Well, up to now, you're probably asking what!?? Yeah, I lied to a few net friends. Indeed, I did. And I'm not proud of what I did, but then again, who would? Oi. It's just so painful. It's like this. They were complete strangers to me, and then as time went on, we became friends. I felt bad and the truth had to come out. Let's say that some didn't take the news so well as others did. Reason being for my feeling of nostalgia. I should make this short...so I will. Till whenever...L8terZ