leavin tomorrow
hey guys,

what's up?? i'm leavin 4 bangladesh tomorrow. excited. the plane ride there will be long. about 2 days. at least i don't have 2 travel alone tho.. don't know whether that's a good thing or a bad thing lol. we'll c. i have 2 take my summer assignments tho [ the bio packet and the eng book- it's not that bad, but it seems like it's gonna move really slow. we learned about the author in spanish- isabel allende. i think that's her name at least--- don't quote me on it. so i did all my packing today. had 2 go run errands 4 my mom. the whole excitement of driving independently has worn off. i had 2 pump gas, which i don't like doing. the gas nozzle is broke so it takes two ppl 2 open it lol. one person 2 hold the button and the other 2 get it 2 open. how annoying. o well- there r worse things in life. packing's crazy tho. goin so far away and everything. it costs a lotta money too.

well im gonna go now. i dunno when i'll get a change 2 update.. so we'll c.

winter break
hey guys,

was up?? nothing much here. exams r finally over. art wasn't THAT bad. these last 3 exams.. i've just been so burned out that i've barely been trying, u know?? and that sucks. but, what am i gonna do? it's all done now. so yesterday, art finished at 9:30. went on the bus. no one was there. i felt so alone. lol. o well. ms betty brought us chips and drinks. that was really nice of her. of course the ONE day that i can't eat

...cuz i had 2 get my wisdom teeth pulled, so wit the laughing gas they were gonna give me, they told me not 2 eat, cuz i guess it makes u throw up?? i dunno.. so yeh, i got my wisdom teeth pulled yesterday. i mean it hurts of course, but u know when ppl exaggerate something, it seems worse. so, it's not AS bad. i guess it's better than it bein the other way around [ppl sayin it's not as bad then it really is, and then hurting a lot..] just the taste of blood is the worst thing. it's so nasty. and i can't swallow stuff ucz it hurts. i'm not that swollen tho. i swear-laughing gas it so weird. i dunno y ppl wud ever do drugs. not 2 sound like a goody goody. but it is sorta scary cuz u don't have control over ur body. cuz i felt like.. i could still think clearly, but my body felt all tired so no reactions occured. haha. and then i started laughing randomly and the docotr/nurse/ my mom were laughing at me. lol. and then i came back 2 reality 4 a sec, and was like heyy. i felt schizo. :D

so these next few days will probably be spent with recuperating. then monday, i'm going 2 my dad's. geeze, it felt like i just went.. lol, prob cuz i DID just go lol ?? who knows what i'll be doing there.

so, i guess that's about it 4 now. i'll update later, i guess... later

Thursday
hey guys,

was up?? nothing much here. well here's how my exams have went so far:

chem: great, i got an a.
ceramics: it was all rite. i just did it really quickly and then worked on my project.

math: it was ok. i didnt know some of them. all i need is a c.
eng: vocab was so ez. but then the story questions were a lil hard.

econ: started off basic wound up wit detail. i don't feel the a- vibe. i think i might've gotten a b or c.
span: SOO freakin hard. the grammer was hard. it was fill in the blanks, and we had 2 do like..120 questions in 1 hr, so i was trying to rush a lot...

tomorrow: art. all i need is a d, so i haven't even started to study yet. it's all good.

i'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled tomorrow, and my stepdad finally comes from bangladesh. wow, it's been like a month since i've seen him.

monday: im leaving.. 4 LA. : / i don't like flying. ppl always ask y not, cuz i guess they like 2. it gets old quickly tho.

i hope everyone has a good winter break. i'm sure that we all need it. we all worked hard this semester. my advice wud b not 2 wry about grades, cuz it's outa our hands now. well except 4 .. 6th hr, but u know what i mean. lol.

well neway, i guess that's about it 4 my BORING life.

- sameen

the weekend is over
hey readers,

was up?? nothin much here... well neways, the weekend is unwinding and coming to an end. wow this sucks. i feel really unaccomplished. i think everyone does cuz it seems like everyone i've talked 2 hasn't done that much- hey, at least i'm not alone lol. major cramming.

yesterday i went christmas caroling 2 the elderly- it was fun. i learned some of the songs, it was nice. man, john has a pimped out car. it's an suv. i think he shares it wit his mom tho.. but u know what i realized tho, that jealousy isn't good. i mean i wasn't insanely jealous, but i was like, y can't i get a new car?? u know?? but it's not good 2 always look at what u DON'T have, cuz i have SO much stuff that i shud b grateful 4, u know.. so yeh, i guess that's how i look at it. and that was basically what i did yesterday.. and a LITTLE- emphasis on little- studying.

today, studied once again a lil- all i did this weekend was make flash cards 4 chem which i didn't even finish. but then i had 2 work on making a tea pot 4 ceramics. lol. i wasted so much time doing that. i think just by.. gathering materials i spend about 45 mins, lol. o well.. that's life. and then i went 2 brandsmart 2day- damn what an experience that was.. i hate those ppl who work there, they have NO idea what they're doing, i swear. we wasted like prob.. 1/2 an hr just cuz ppl don't know what they're doing. well neways, we bought sinbad. [and other stuff] but i saw it just now.. it was really good. man i wish i was a kid again. :D lol. well neways, i guess that's about it 4 now.. later

weekend
hey everyone,

was up?? it was weird the week ending, cuz it was like.. i wanted the weekend 2 come so the week wud b over, but then i didn't cuz i knew finals are comin up. that sux. so yesterday was all rite. chem- quest, i dunno how i did. some of the things were tricky, esp if u didn't read it correctly, cuz there was one where u had 2 put the unit in L and i had in cm^3 and just stuff like that. then ceramics was frustrating cuz i dunno how 2 make a "tea pot" lol i have 2 work on it this weekend. i wud have never taken that class but it was the only thing they had besides world history. i'm kinda glad i did. neway then was english, talked about the daybook and then freetime. it's nice 2 not have 2 work bell 2 bell in one class. and i don't mean like, o there's 5-mins-4-the-bell-2-ring free time, but like 1/2 an hour or something. spanish, ahh i dunno. she's so disorganized. i don't feel ready 4 the final at ALL. i don't even know the format of it. and i know she's gonna screw up my 2nd quarter grade.. she gave me a c now, but it's her fault, she gave me a 0 on my vocab quiz which i got an a on and i obv did take. and i've been askin her 4 weeks if she changed it or not and she said no. then after school i stayed 2 make "reindeer candy canes" lol. weird. then came home and i was really tired i dunno y. so i had a chill nite- had pizza, downloaded like 50 songs, lol, i had 230 songs on kazaa yest now i had 310. and today i woke up and sorta kinda started studying 4 finals.. well that's about it 4 now. sry 4 the boring update..

hi, my name is sameen and i have a problem
and it feels like... ooo u don't know my name

hey guys,

was up?? nothin much here. well i havent updated in a while, so i'll just off wit yesterday:

chem:

we had a sub and he didnt say one word besides the attendance- hey, it's all good :D i, for one, didnt mind.

and then i went 2 ceramics.

and i just.. looked around and everyone had somethin really neat about there project, esp on the outside, and mine was plain. so i cut a shape into it- i was so nervous. i thot i was gonna detroy it. but i didnt.. i like how it is now. it started out wit my initial, S, and turned into just somethin totally different, something abstract- i like the evolution of the whole process.

of course around 10, the ppl who had epstein left- like 3 ppl lol [me included.] it was good. but man, it's so hard 2 fite the temptation.. of talking lol. i dunno, i just can't. i know, it sounds so simple, but i dunno, i think the chemical reaction doesn't go on in my brain or something.. i dunno, im not even gonna bullshit. straight up: i dunno WHY i can't shut up. but it's not like that at home lol. it's like.. at school it turns on: my talking. i mean, not that i'm dead quiet at home or nething, but... NEWAY, man, i can't even STAY ON TOPIC when i talk lol. it's funny. i'm not criticizing myself, i'm just sayin how pathetic i am. it's funny. neway, since i'm already off topic. if i werent me, and if someone else were [Lord, have mercy on their soul lol] i dunno how i wud deal wit that person, i wud punch them. how do YOU guys stand me? lol.. ahh :D NEWAY the state senator seemed really nice and genuine. and plus he wasn't that old. so we cuz somewhat relate or he cud talk 2 us better..

next was lunch: all of ib. i sat wit my usual group tho. me, myeong, edgar, and sunil, and i think there was someone else... i don't remember, damn who cares neway? lol.. it's not like ne of u guys REALLY wanna know that bad who i sat wit at lunch on thursday, 12/04, at 11:40, rite? lol. i hate goin into so much detail lol.

neway, after lunch: morone:

it was ridiculous, and not in a good way. i think it was SO unbelievably wrong how ppl took advantage of him. it's like, ok????? wtf? y can't u just go 2 ur own damn classes 4 just one hr. and even if u did come, y didnt u just leave when the bell 4 third lunch rang? and some ppl were so damn rude, they don't even HAVE him 4 a teacher, but they came. i'm sry if i "offend" ne1, but that's just my opinion... especially when it was SO many ppl, and ur classes can't b THAT bad where u can't just go 4 a damn hr... and ppl were blasting music and shit that had cuss words and stuff, it's like, at least show respect- if u're gonna go into some teacher's room who u don't know, stay there the whole hr, make noise, disrupt his class, and w.e... then have some common sense wit it. lol u all KNOW i just wrote about yesterday so i cud write about that lol, but ya know, u know how we do in west boca- keepin it real..

and then in spanish:

it was eh. just eh. u know what i mean.. lol

and then TODAY

chem: sub- w/s

alg: took test. ah if i did bad on it, im SO screwed, i dont even wanna think about it.

econ: if i did bad on that test, im SO screwed, dont even wanna think about it.. again, even tho we took it a LONG time ago lol.

art: test, w.e. i don't care. i get an 88.7, so i know i mita gotten an a, but last quarter i got a b, so, i'm sure i won't get a on the semester exam, u know??

and then today was jackie's party. it was a lotta fun. i'm glad i went. it was nice 2 meet her other friends. i'm the twister champion. i wuda one tho the other time, but someone intentionally pushed me, cuz i wudnt give up. but ahh my joints hurt so much after it. it's good.. yoga stuff tho. seriously. and then, when my mom came 2 pick me up, i ran 2 the gate lol. cuz i called her 2 come, and then she i ran all the way there before she came. lol. i probably looked like a freak or like some murderer was chasin me at 11 o'clock at nite. i'm such a freak. will someone seriously tell me what is wrong wit me?? but u know what i realized tho, we r ALL screwed up. we have all gone through shit that makes us messed up. seriously- think about it.

well, i guess that's it. i commend u if u read this lol. hahaha peaceee