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| sameen (profile) wrote, on 5-6-2004 at 7:43pm | |
| Was up? Today was all right. Chem, the power was out, so we all gathered our stuff and went by the cafeteria. It was nice. Nice change of pace. Just sit and relax while working on those stoichiometry problems that I just live for. Ceramics was boring. We just helped set up 4 the show tonight and I glazed my project. I like spending lunch in Morone. I duno why. It's nice hangin out wit that group of girls. There's just all good feelings between us and it's just chill. Listenin 2 random Disney songs and sharing eachother's food like when we were little. English was all right- took our vocab quiz and read a story. Mo's done a really good job wit the analysis stuff. Finally.I mean before all we learned was vocab and we read shit but we never did nething 2 understand it. Definitely gotta do that daybook 2 bring up my grade. I did well on my poetry anaylsis tho- 98. I needed that. Even PETER said it was good, he was like- I didn't know you were smart. If I'm not mistakin' I think that's a compliment ?? Spanish was all rite- nothing special. I think she's a nice lady tho. She's a stickler 4 the rules, but nice. I probably just said bad things about her just cuz I was bitter about my B, but it's all good- rite? Not good 2 hold onto things from the past- especially when u can't do nething. Worrying, complaining, and just being overall pesimistic will only have you going around in circles- you're not gonna get anywhere with it. I mean, don't keep it bottled up, but time could be more well spent just doin something else... working harder to correct the screw up. It's good 2 remember ur past, but work towards the future. Anyway, stayed after school 4 Art tutoring. We did multiple based slide questions, I did pretty decent, I got 25/35. Which is a C average. I don't think that's that bad, especially after getting 35 wrong outa 85 or 84. Then I helped Mrs Howard wit the Art Show setting up. I figured what was the point going home if only 2 came back in 2 hours, especially since I know it's not my mom's favorite thing 2 drive around town(s) so much. I dunno y, but I just like being by myself. I dunno if that's just weird but I do spend a lotta time by myself. I think I'm not a type of person who depends on other people 2 make myself happy. I think it's cuz when you set expectations for other people, and they don't meet them, u just get let down. And frankly, I'm tired of bein let down. I dunno realizing this makes me lucky or just makes me look at the world ina bad way. But, I just hope I don't end up alone one day.. like I'm about 2 retire but I'm all alone. I think that's one of my worst fears. And dying.. and no one missing me. I hope when I leave this world... some part of me will live on and some sort of legacy will continue. I just wanna be a good person. I think the happiest people aren't necessarily the richest people. It's like that story we read in English about how one guy killed himself for one reason [I dunno y ] and the other killed himself cuz he "had everything" I dunno, just my thoughts. But I just wanna work hard 2 get 2 the places I want 2. Working hard makes you feel good about yourself, it really does. It makes you feel accomplished, sure u get tired, but that's what "life's all about" right, working towards perfection?? Or at least being happy with your imperfections- but hey, I never was settler. All right.. I'm out. |
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alwaysfalling | 05-06-04 10:43pm i really like this journal entry... a lot, it's going to be added to my memories. it's so nice to have a friend like you, especially in art history.
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sammibaby | 05-06-04 11:32pm hey sameen~
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lifesuxsodanz | 05-07-04 11:22pm This gives me some kind of hope thank you... |