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2005 24 May :: 6.27pm
bad mood
God .. give me strength
Mom .. give me strenth
Somebody .... anybody .. give me strength
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2005 8 May :: 8.51pm
wattup gangstaaa
hidey ho fuckers! well, i dont remember where i left off but shit has been madd fun lately. im not gonna get into detail but lately me and lauren have been chillin w/ anthony and mikey... lol can i possibly get names right?
all week i saw lauren n ant. we saw mikey a few times n steve once i think. the week was mucho fun but friday was the best. we went to play pool, ran into bobby, lauren ran into john, crazy shit.. had a tickle fight.. then i wanted to beat lauren up lol.. went and saw house of wax on saturday, was pretty good.. everyone clapped when paris hilton died -- was madd funny
all together good week except for today, but imma cut this short nd go.. happy mothers day mommy i miss you xox
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2005 2 May :: 10.10pm
what up gangstaa?
what up peoples?! not much here.. well spring break is OVER! and i think the best days of my spring break were the first and the last! lol
i already updated about friday and bobbys party, so that was a good night. then for the rest of the spring break i just basically lounged around, woke up around 12, 1 , 2... fuckin wondeful!
hung out with rob and shannon n met Mel. AHH I LOVE HER. she's fucking awesome and i cant wait to chill with her again!
anywho.. soo i think it was friday .. yea. i met up with rob and me . rob . dj willie [will] . anthony . jeff . mike . cathy . and marissa all met up and went to this studio by old country road and they started doing their mixes n their raps which was tight as fuckkk .. it was so awesome! so that was a good night, had about half of jeffs 40 of bud n then anthony busted out the tequila but i didnt drink it lol. anyway, so we chiled n got to know each other n we're all friends n shit n we're prob. chillin again this saturday which would be nice. it was a lot of fun. they're my kinda ppl n i hope we chill again sooon..
then sunday lauren came back yayy!! i missed her so much, anyway so she came back, she did my hair ,we did my homework lol tankies sweetie. and then we headed over to 194 .. we met up w/ some kids and the same lil one who always fucks w/ us, but we had backup this time so it was hysterical.then the kids left and we went to the deli and then ant. called me so we went back to 194 and met up w/ ant. and mike and played more volleyball n just talked n shit.. was fun. then greek mike showed up which was cool. he got caught on a fence lmfao. then i went backto laurens to get my hw, n then went home. after that me and lauren talked for a while n shit n that was that
first day back at school was iight, just suckd gettin up so damn early!! school in itself went by pretty quick i guess.. got some sponsors WHOOOP and that was that. afte rschool i got on the bus to go home but ant. called me and told me to get off the bus and him n greek mike were gonna come get me, so htey came and got me and then we got lauren. then we went to deli bizz and just fucked around, then went to my house, then to ants. n then to the park. played volleyball boys played football thenwe all played volleyball. after that we went to queens college so mike could go to 10min of class lol hope ur aunts alright.. haha. and then i got dropped off and ant called, talked for awhile but i had to fin. my hw. n then i calld back, mike picked up, hasnt called back so i dunoo!! but imma get going, im talkin to madd pl and im tired. byeee
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2005 23 April :: 12.15am
heyy.. well i just got back from bobbys birthday party thing. ohmigosh it was so much fun lol. at first it was kinda awkward cuz i didnt realy know anybody and some people were being dicky, but it all got much better.
john dropped me and lauren off at francis lewis, and we met up with bobby, samir, and jeremy.. from there we walked to the pool hall and played pool. playing was fun, so was watchin, bobby oopeneed his birthday present and im pretty sure he liked it hehe i love the card. pool was a lot of fun especially when we really got into it
after pool me lauren and bobby went to the pizza place and met up with jeremy, we all talked n shit and then after we finished eating we walked to arbys to meet up with a few other people. we ended up drinking bobs gift haha and then we talked and chilled for a while. after that we went back to the pool hall to play ping pong.. that was funnnnnyyy..
john picked us up at like 1130 -- i wish it coulda been later =( .. im not very pleased with john tho, im actually really disappointed in him, but thats a different story.. kissed everyone bye and dipped. dropped lauren off, came home, changed and got online.. oh yea, and i sorta think he likes lauren.. eh what can you do?
all in all fun night and i hope to chill w/ him n his friends again soon. g'night!!
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2005 20 April :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: staind
longg timeee
wassup!?! well its been a year and a day since i updated. yes i know ive been neglecting woohu but i guess its because i have a myspace now too and that thing has something new everyday, plus ive been completely bombarded with plans and homework. anyway, heres whats been happenin'.
so there was this kid at my school named bobby that i thought was pretty hot and i told myself that before the end of the year i would go up to him, tell him he's hot and just have that be that, just so i know i did it lol. i ended up finding him on myspace and we've been talking ever since. no, i dont like him or anything, i just think its kinda weird yet cool, and im glad we're talking bc he seems like a fun person to chill with. anyway, so yea, ive been talkin to him a lot and we're gonna chill soon.
friday after school lauren came over. we all ordered chinese because i wanted it lol =) .. then john drove me paul and lauren to my school play [grease]. when we got there we got seats, thanks to paul we were in row X out of A-Y lol. we had the bitchiest lady sitting in front of us, i wanted to ring her neck.. the play in itself was okay, some of the singing could have been better and they took out good parts of the movie, but for a francis lewis school play, it was good. i saw shannon there, haha that was a trip.. then john picked us up, we "rolled out" to some funny songs, dropped lauren off, and then headed home.
saturday morning lauren came over. we just hung around for the most part, i did my homework n shit. john came home around 1 and brought home some sandwiches so we all had lunch. then after that john washed his car outside and blasted the music while me and lauren played volleyball in the street. it was great, we listened to all sorts of music, then we did the electric slide haha fun fun. then me lauren and john went to the store and got shit to barbeque. we got back home, put on music in the jeep, john cooked, we played volleyball, then we ate. after dinner john took me and lauren to college point movie theater so we could see amityville horror. bobby called about 10 min before it started bc he just got off work n wanted to chill, but he wasnt able to get to the theater on time, so i told him id call after the movie.. fuckin annoying ass people sitting behind us, the whole row full, i swear i know their life story now. after amityville -- which was a kickass movie - laurens pops took us back to my house. we called bobby back, he was going to play pool and invited us, but my ride was a tad too drunk to drive me and it was getting late anyway. so we went back to my house, talked for a lil while and then passed out.
sunday we woke up around 10, had breakfast, lauren went home to shower n shit, then she came back.. we did each others hair, had leftover chinese food for lunch, watched the italian job and oceans 11. then we researched the amityville horror bc we were bored, that shits whack. aroudn 630 my pops picked us up and took us to get pizza and italian ices, it was okay i guess. then we dropped off lauren and i went back home.
we had some guy over this wk to fix our computers, mine crashed, aunt lee had 500 viruses, and pauls was fixed already. i got a new computer and thats the story. this friday im gonna chill w/ bobby, lauren and a shitload of other people and play pool for bobs birthday. [happy 17th]. then lauren leaves me and idk what im gonna do during the week.
i guess thats about it, oh yea, im still not over him. : \ whatever
good luck in orlando ECE!!..
two days left :: then SPRING BREAK!
woot
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2005 3 April :: 9.59pm
:: Music: daddy yankee - gasolina
its been a while
Yo Yo! Well its been forever and a day since I wrote in here .. sorry .. Ive been so busy dilly dallying with my myspace and doing homework every time im online. Anyway, I'll try to pick it up where i left off, but i cant promise ill hit every detail.
WARNING :: Long Entry :: :p
Saint Patricks day was great! At school we were supposed to dress up in green. Me being me, I went all out. I got a cat in the hat ype of hat with green nd white stripes. On the white stripes, there were green clovers. I had a green tinsel thingy wrapped arond my neck, 2 clovers glued next to my eyes, green shirt, stickers all over my body and jeans and shoes, a lei wrapped around my waist, and an irish flag. For a real italian girl I went CraZy. So that was fun !!
I honestly dont remember what i did for the rest of the weekend or the nxt week. But we got report cards, letter grades, not number grads. I got 5 "s'' and 3 "e". i did alright i guess.. Easter was good, family came over, fun times. I bought a volleyball. :) Bookd my flight for florida :D .. I saw hostage, pretty good movie. uhh the scleroderma walk is in june nd im trying to get as many sponsors as possible so please sponsor me..
all these things are in random order bc i cant remember nething special that i did. LAtely me laur and john have been going to 194 and playing volleyball after school which has been fun.. Rob made a mix for me.. hung out w/ mike and shannon after school... hug w/ rob andd kris fri night nd sat n still lookin for houses.
WHOAH -- had a great day friday 9th pd -- wont get into it .. but -- WHOAH lol
I <3 you .. how do you still have ALL of me
cant remember nething else, maybe i will by next entry. peace
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:: Music: story of the year - ntil the day i die
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going to florida!! June 30 - July 14. I cannot freaking wait. woop bring em out bring em out.
fl aint ready
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2005 27 February :: 8.55pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: linkin park - reanimation cd
filling you in
Well, this week there was no school because we had mid-winter recess so it was pretty cool, the only things that sucked were that 1. i was madd sick and 2. it went by madd fast. anyway, heres the break down of what happened WARNING: long entry
friday after school i came home and lauren was at my house. i got home and dont think i was in the best of moods. i started to clean up all the glitter on the floor from my english project and lauren and my gramma helped me, then i had some oreos. After that john came home and he brought me and lauren to wendys, i had been craving it for the longest time, anyway, so he brought us to wendys and we ordered so much damn food they made us park for it. and of course they still didnt get everything we ordered. bastards of course they forgot my meal. we stopped at abbie doos to get lotto tix and candy for the movie. We got back home and ate and then john brought me, lovie and paul to the movies to see Constantine oh lord -- sick ass moviee! Then Laurens momma brought us home. tankies Rose <33
Saturday morning i called laur bc she was coming w/ me to my dads. she came over around 11 or so, then she ironed my hair for me <33 and gram came down bitching as usual. After that laur me paul and john watched "Master of Disguise" and then my dad showed up. He brought us to fishtown and he got two clownfish, one that looked like nemo and one that was black and white, soo cute! it only took 2 hours lmfao. pain in my ass. After that we went back to his house to celebrate his birthday. Dick and Kelly came over and danielle was declared slave again, me and lauren watched a cinderella story - lordy cmm is gorgeous! then we watched fear of the dark and tower of blood, i fell asleep during tower of blood tho. the start to my movie marathon!
sunday was brunch with my family. me, lauren, grammy kat, cynthia, uncle terry, aunt lauren, uncle jake, and my pops all went out to eat for brunch. was good i loved my fruit cup and of course eggs benny. The waiter patrick was adorable hehe. He "taught" or at least tried to teach us how to fold napkins the professional way, but i think he was nervous lmfao. When cynthia was ready to leave everybody left and then lauren came back to my house, we ordered pizza and watched like 15 min of freaky friday. after that me lauren john and aunt lee all played texas holdem, aunt lee won. and then me and john went to carvel and then lauren went home. it was a fun night, oh yea, and we also did some damage on our movie candy.
monday i just hung around the house, watched tv, movies, usual stuff. i went food shopping with johnny boy and just relaxed, was a nice stress free day
tuesday i went to my cousin kristinas house. we got candy for the movie wednesday and watched a few good men w/ rob and willy. they made me a sandwich [whipsht .. *whip sound*] lol jk jk We played ddrmax and cards. We had pizza for dinner again and watched american idol [go carrie and amanda] we had a balloon game going which was actually fun haha. playeed work, talked and decided that we could not think of one adjective/characteristic that does not describe my family, it was soo weird. slept over.. passed out around 12.
wednesday we woke up around 8, got ready, did some more ddrmax and then went to pick up the grls for the movie. we pickeed up amanda, lauren, then alex and krista. We went to cp movie theatre and saw because of winndixie, to my surprise it was a cute movie. After that we went to 711 and all got slurpees and then headed back to kristinas house. we all played twister and ddrmax and nancy drew and just dilly dallyed. we watched american idol again and then we startd a game on sims2 making a family lol its so funny. we only did it til about 11 tho cuz we were extremely tired so we went to bed early again.
thursday we woke up around 11 and got ready and stuff, kristina packed cuz she was coming to my house and then we played more on sims two and kristina had twins lolol. u had to be there to see this thing have a baby. after that we finally got to my house and me and kris met up w/ lauren and jess to go to johnnysto get our nails done and there was the most annoying ppl there i wantd to shoot myself. the nails took forever and after that john picked us up and we ordered chinese food, then the grls came back over and we played holdem and i won. after that we went to bed
friday me and kristina hung around the house, watched movies and tv, played on the computer, read a lil bit, and just relaxed again, was another good day
saturday we played sims for the duration of the day, got our family going.. gram made soup for us all so we went upstairs to eat, after dinner me, kris, rob, paul, aunt lee and john all watched the village and the seventh sign. i was coughin up a lung bc at this point im xtremely sick. so we watched the movies and then after a while i tried to go to bed. btw the village was retardeddd! lol
today we were all supposed to go out to breakfast but of course i was too sick to go so my loving cuz kristina stayeed home with me and we did hw for a lil bit then played sims and watched a lil beetlejuice. they brought me back eggs benny from ihop <33 and around 1230 rob and kris left. after that i layed around on the couch while john and aunt lee went to look at a house in ronkonkama [dont that sound familiar lauren??] and we'll know whats going on w/ the house tomorrow. fingers crossed! i didnt have dinner, took a shower, did my labs and have been bummin it ever since. still not feeling that great but imma go to school tomorrow. but i should try to get to bed, school tomorrow. much love. mommy i love and miss you
its so weird, my aunt says she knows my moms visiting me at night bc the nights i sleep in my room my aunt can smell my moms perfume but when im not home it never smells like that. she even kept the bathroom door closed to make sure it wasnt the air freshner shit. soo weird, but i believe it. god how i miss her
and lauren, u gotta admit it was weird, everything that relatd to truffle. i mean kelly said something about the age 21, then a shitload of billyjoel songs, then cant hurry love, then the song that comes on the second we get in my dads car is mr brightside - his fave song. i mean holy shit, then a main character in the seventh signs name was jimmy... oye vey. oh yea and the real estate agents name is jim.. im going nuts haha. well im out much love, and i miss alll the fl ppl!
c u soon!
xoxox
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2005 16 February :: 9.31pm
well whats new? valentines day sucked, but who gives a shit because ::
NEWSFLASH :: so did a shitload of other peoples
plans for the weekend fell through, figured they would and im starting to not trust who i trusted before. I realized almost everybody talks shit and when its possible for you to get caught in anything you always point fingers.. always.
Ive been sick since monday which sucks, but eh what can you do? didnt go to school today for the first day this year. Stayed in bed all day and watcched movie after movie. [italian job, oceans 11, a cinderella story, freaky friday, and getting there] My cat was with me the whole time, almost like he knew i was sick. hmph.
ive decided to MOVE ON. Theres obviously not the same amount of feeling coming from both of us, so whats the point of me wasting my time. Im not gonna dwell over a guy who isnt even worth it. Friends, yeah of course i still wanna be friends, but other than that, i expect nothing. and what ive realized is .. his loss, not mine.
The only thing i wish is that this fight between my family would get resolved because i really miss rob and joe. but foreal, i dont know why i let myself cry over a guy. A guy who is being persuaded by a bunch of people who wouldnt know the truth if it hit them on the head. but thats okay, because i have my friends and even tho theyre far away, theyre still there for me. [zach i was almost ready to say fuck everything i dont give a shit, but i just needed one push to get it overwith - and u did it, like u always do, and i love you] im finally ready to say FUCK YOU and move on.
so lets be honest now
fuck you pops for never being there for me when i needed you, and now im being there for you. it killed me for years that you werent a real father, but you know what, i cant change you and i have no desire to try. so heres my new slate. fresh and clean. i forgive you
fuck you all at jfk for not being there when my mother needed you. i cant go back, i cant make my mother here again, but i forbid to hold a grudge on you fucks who have hearts blacker then night, i forbid to let ur faults stay in the back of my mind and drag me down, i forbid to let u make me feel miserable. i forgive you
fuck you alex for being a dick, fuck you mo for being the stalker you are, fuck you mike and christine for mindfucking me, fuck you jimmy for being a tease and letting people get to you and for making me hear shit from the grapevine, but you know what. i pity you all for the bullshit you put me through. but i forgive you
fuck you you bastards who broke into my house and stole from me and my mother while she was on her deathbed. but more then disgust i have in you, i again hold pity. but because you dont matter and you never did i forgive you
and God, i hated you for taking my mother from me, i hated you for taking her the way you did, making her suffer, and me not being ready for her to leave, i hated you for the life i now live and i hated you for not letting me get one last hug, but you know what, she's in a better place, and she's happy, and she's looking down on me always. of course i want her back, but shes not coming back, and i think ive finally accepted that. and God i forgive you
and last but not least
fuck you danielle for letting all these people get to you and for spending nights crying and feeling sorry for yourself, nobodys life is perfect and nobodys ever will be. fuck you for feeling inferior and for holding on to things that cant change. fuck you for holding back feelings and not doing what you want when you want to, but even more then that, fuck you for not letting go and not being yourself. but it all doesnt matter because i forgive you
i finally forgive myself, and im finally going to take a leap and let go. i have to, because denial is no better or easier then the real deal. God help me and please help me to get through the rest of my life, dont let me sell myself short, bc that is something i do easily. help me to stand up for myself and be a strong independant woman.
forgiveness is beautiful. much love to my friends and family
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:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: lohan - rumors
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____ the world. you fill in the blank.
anyway, so im not in the mood to update anybody on anything right now. I am so pissed for so many reasons I'm shaking. lauren - we NEED to talk, lets say by that one link you gave me, I found and saw a lot of information i didnt want to read and see.
i dont know what i feel, or what i should feel and frankly i dont know what to do anymore in this situation.. well im so shaken right now i cant concentrate or say what i want to say so ill just write about this when i have more self control. i dont want to say anything ill regret or anything i dont mean.
Im a strong girl who keeps my shit in line, even with tears streaming down my face i still manage to say [I m F i n e] .. fine .. freaked out, insecure, narotic, and emotional. [the italian job, so true]
love no nigga' . trust no ho'
dont allow someone to be your priority .... while allowing yourself to be their option
you gotta live your life no matter what comes along, its gonna be tough, but you gotta stay strong.
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2005 8 February :: 9.08pm
:: Mood: anxious
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soooo anxious
kk. well lemme check my last few entries to see where i left off...
iight, well last weekend on friday me and lauren hung out. uhhm what did we doo?? oh yeaa haha. friday me and lauren went out to pizza classica and got some food and talked about a lot of shit, then we went to her cousins play out in long island. it was great, they performed bye bye birdie.. [we love you connnrad] [[SUFFER]] lol. I guess one of her family members wanted to "slap me in the face" because i laughed too loud or some shit, whatever. After the play we went back to laurens and passed the fuck out.
saturday we woke up around 8 because she had a dentist appointment to go to. after the dentist we went out to eat at omega. i finally got my eggs benedict which was greaat. Then we went back to my house so we could get my money and shit and then went back to her house and then we went to roosevelt field. Me and Lauren got john a valentines day present [cds] and then i got jimmys present. Its sooo nice. I got him fierce cologne w/ a keychain that has his name on it. And a cute stuffed animal and a card, im also going to get him a rose. I also got two shirts for myself from the mall. After the mall I went back home. Kristina came over and we watched A Cinderella Story --- cuuute ass movie, CMM is sooo hot! After that we played cards n stuff and went to bed.
Sunday morning was b e a utiful! Me and Kris woke up and ate breakfast, then we got in touch w/ lauren, went to abby doos and got some cards and then we met up with laur and went to bowne park. There we went on the swings nd i gave my adolecence speech, it was soo funny, good times good times. dont make me get into it hehe. After the park we went to mcdonalds for lunch and then playeed texas holdem on my grandmas patio. It was fun. after that we watched lake placid and had dinner. My cousins left and me and lauren wetn downstairs. We did our hair and watcheed the superbowl. We wnt to pick up paul around 830 and droppeed off lauren. that was about it.
hmm yesterday was school, nothing special.. days are dragging on like all hell. i guess its cuz i cant wait til sunday! i want to see him so bad but im SO nervous about seeing him, idk why, its like im scared. I duno. I cant wait, no matter what we do its gonna be fun.
Anyways, i was going to get shit off my chest, but i dont feel like complaining in this entry, soo im just gonna go and save the rest of the babble for another entry.
full week -- tomorrow go to rainbow and west coast video [gotta get something for lovie], thursday - go to johnnys with lauren n get nails done, friday - grams pickin me n lauren up to go to the city so i can get my hair done, might sleep there might not., saturday - kids should be coming over, chill w/ them, maybe s/o laurens. sunday go to a.n.s and get the flowers then head over to ronkonkamo. this week needs to go by a lil quicker - - - its only tuesday!
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looong overdue update awaiting. i promise it'll be soon
much stuff to write about
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:: Music: killers - mr brightside
high on life
wow. im actually happy. for the first time im actually very happy, to the point where it will take a lot to bring me down. I only wish lauren felt the same way [[babe we gotta talk]]
anywho, soo im thinking of getting him cologne for valentines day, but then i think well what if he dont like the kind i get, or he doesnt where cologne at all..?? Alls i know is im madd excited, i figured out what im gonna write in the card, and im going nuuts. got 24/7 goosebumps lol. who knows what we're gonna do n shit, alalala i just needa calm down and take it one day at a time haha.
Anywho, so i got an 84 on my government regent and i didnt even do the thematic essay -- WHOS A BALLER? lol .. Schools been okay, im interning for mrs brown after school and for mr radske at lunch, and im actually doing good in school, im actually proud of myself. REWIND! im proud of myself? That hasnt happened in a long time.
Well, i really miss my mom, im hoping she's looking out for me, i dont wanna get caught . but its not like im doing anything bad anyways.. idk idk , i just miss her in general. Freddy I miss you, i love you so much!
Lauren, we neeed to talk, i read your journal and i dont like when youre upset, but babe, i tell u over and over again and u dont listen, so i decided one of the days me and ur are hangin out we're gonna have a SERIOUS conversation about all of this. trust me, we both need one lol. Dont be so hard on yourself and get down on yourself. Trust me, we'll talk and shit will be better. You know i love you and im always here for you.
Anyways, Rest In Peace Fred, you will be missed. Say hi to my mommy for me. Well lets hope all things go as planned, but i need help figuring out a present, comment with advice. xoxox
did the sun just come up or did u smile at me?
The correct version // sex is like a casino, liquor in the front, poker in the back =]
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2005 2 February :: 8.10pm
well the moment of truth arrived. both bad news and good news. but the good news completely outweighed the bad news!
talked to carly last night, not enough tho because i need to be filled in on the rest of stuff before i start assuming things. all honesty, its like everything changed once i left -- idk what the f-cks goin on anymore!
anyways, so im trying to figure out what to get him for valentines day, i know its a girly girl holiday, but i wanna get him something. i was thinking cologne, but what if he doesnt like the one i pick out? then i was thinkin a shirt from af, but i couldnt find one i liked.. idk maybe ill just have to look around and whatever pops out at me ill check out.
im sooo nervous about my regent grade, i really wanna know what i got on them, probably failed with my luck. Anywho, so nobody could ruin my day today. my smile would not wipe off my face. I CANT WAIT im so excited!! :D
anywho, goin to get my hair done the 11th, nails done i think the 10th, _________ the 13th, play the 4th, shoppping the 5th, lunch w/ laur n dinner w/ paul n aunt lee the 14th. phew i got a lot going on this month lol. plus MID WINTER RECESS! woot! well imma get going, gotta do some research on the golden age of television //psssshtttt// lol.
imm so nervous i have butterflies in my stomach. he drives me nuts, but i love every minute of it!
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im so excited, and i just cant hide it! lol
sex is like a casino, poker in the front liquor in the back haha.
hey lauren, im a supergirl and im here to save the world lol.
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well we talked today so i guess everythng is all gravy. he just gives me the jitters, the heebee jeebees, the butterflies in your stomach, on the edge of ur seat feeling that i just cant get past.
got my report card. sci - 85 gym - 100 english- 80 global - 80 lab - satisfactory math - 95 government - 85 italian - 95 and she wants to put me in honors. woo hoo!
anyways, so we talked a lil today, that was good, i just wish he could open up a little more. like i said before, i wanna hear the truth from him, not the grapevine. oh well.. .
so im not sure what to get him for valentines day, i was thinking the cologne i discussed with my meliS would be good, i just gotta see if i like the scent. idk about whats gonna go on with what gets written in the card, ill just have to play it by ear.
i have this bad feeling his answer to "beers" is going to be no. that he has other plans or he'll make some bullshit excuse, thats waht im afraid of. idk i just really hope his answer is yes, i dont have to get into detail of how important this is.. oie. i needa lay down..
anyways, imma get going, im in the middle of a texas holdem game w/ lovie and some other random people. its good to ramble on tho, get my feelings out haha. whatever
tomorrow. 148pm -- moment of truth
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