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2004 28 November :: 10.29pm
:: Music: k i s s meeeeeeeee - mariah carey
holy christ!!
holy christ! lol. this weekend was unbelievable i had butterflies 3 days .. scratch that, 4 days in a row. heres what went down.. -~-~>
friiday -- okie dokie, me paul and aunt lee go to the isle [ long island] .. we get there around 3'ish. nobodys home so i start my homework, we dilly dally, finally aunt dee gets home. next thing i know, my aunt patties calling, so i answer it. i get invited to go to the movies. so me rob paul n jimmy go to the movies, we get in to see national treasure, which in fact, is a damn good movie. so, its this order in seats from left to right .. jim me rob paul, so me n jim share the drink he bought, im leainin towards him, hes leaning towards me..nothing happend, just a smidge of innocent flirting. after the movies i get dropped off back at aunt dees, then the kids come back over and we played texas holdem, i gave r o b a massage, and then we all passed the fuuck out.
saturday - omg what an incredible day i swear to you. ok so i get up at 10 something to a text message by jimmy, we talk for a bit, then he invited me to the mall. so he picekd me up, we went to the mall, bought a few things, got in massage cfhairs -- those shits are ill as fuck -- then we went to tgif and we had lunch -- he paid for me. then we went back to my aunts house, played cards, then we had to leave quick cuz we were going to the movies, again, he paid for my ticket, but i snuck in the money to buy the drink. SCCCOORE lol. it was so cute, he was gonna get pepsi, thn saw they had cherry pepsi, he asked me if i lieked it so we coould share it i was like awwwwwwww lol.. the movie we flirted, leaned towards one another.. holy christ i wanted to make my move haha. then we picked up the goonies, went to aunt pats, then he brought me back to aunt dees and dropped me off, he woulnt leave until i was in the door.. awz then he came back over w/ the goons, and we played cards, he got an incredible back massage, so did i , i know he looved it lol. he loveed it, the moans comin out of is mouth lmfao.. then i started massaging his neck and arms, oh baby .. yeaa lol yes, mucho flirting, i was leaing on him n just WO lol. he smells soo good lol. i can say soo muich more about this night, but i gotta go in like 2 min
then sunday, aka today i played pool and txted jim all day long. idk i wanna confront him about me liking him czu if he dont know hes kina retarded ... but i dont wana be rejected, omg id be soo happy if he liked me back.. theres just a few little bumps in the road lol right lovie.. well i gotta go b4 my aunt rips me another asshole...
hellpp .. omg i hope he likes me ...... lol to confront him or not to confront him!!!?
When I see him, I got nothing to say -- cause the damn urge to kiss him takes my breath away...
xoxo
cruushin'
i could wake up to that face everyday.. plus, we're both good massuses hehe.
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2004 22 November :: 9.35pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: get low remix
suck it suck it suck it lick it lick it lick it -- lolol strawberry
okay.. well my weekend was pretty freaking awesome -- if only just a few more things went my way..
i shall start off with friday, friday went to school. exciting right? i wore my skirt outfit and two guys named mohammed yes two guys names mohammed hit on me.. reaallly weeeird! lol. anyway, so i met up w/ lovie at bayside, and then we went to my house. we hung out with paulie for a while and then john took us to a movie. we saw after the sunset. movie was good, john fell asleep so lovie and i shot spitballs at him -- SOO FUNNY. then on the car ride to the pool place we shot them all over the car, he didnt see one, amazing that guy. pool was fun, then i came home talked to my babby <3carly then*jimmy* and then laur and i went to bed in my room.
satuurday -- omg the most nerveracking day everr lol .. woke up at 825 so laur could go to her dentist thing and then when she left i passed out til about 1130. woke up, watched laguna beach, lovie came back over, we just hung out, then i packed and got ready for loong isslaand woot woot. it was a while til we were leaving, so me laur and paul all laid in his bed and played w/ our cell phones lol. soo bored, rearranging our contacts into groups -- what nerds we are!! then me john and aunt lee left to go to the island.. we arrive there and go to my aunt dee's house, they're all talking about politics.. then aunt lee and john go out to have a cig and me and aunt dee talk.. shes like .. you know, jimmy broke up with his girlfriend lol. and i was like oh i know.. haha. so anyway, i finally get in touch with jim and rob so i get dropped off over there and we played texas hold em the whole night and we were up til like 1 sumthin playing, i did good for my first time, partially b/c of the r o b . after that everybody passed out cept for me and *jimmy* so he played halo and i watched him, then when he was done we started to wach freddy vs jason, but we both passed out b4 it was over. soo we fell asleep on the floor.. omgggg i wanted him soo bad lol. i was gonna make a move.. but i didnt!! wonder what he thinks ..
sunday ... woke up with him by my side, oh i could go for that again lol. its a great feeling. hehe. my gram cooked us pancakes.. we had a uhm, interesting conversation during breakfast and a few flirty looks [ i think ] and then after that the boys played halo, and my r o b went to the hospital, he makes me so nervous. so after that rob came home and we all hung out. played smash, had lunch, more looks. .. played more cards, kinda flirted with gijoe .. played a good game then got picked up to go home :-( saddest part of the weekend forrreaaal.
but i solemly swear -- jimmy has the nicest eyes i think ive ever seen. theyre soo blue, but not ugly blue, beautiful cleary blue.. wher it looks like an ocean i swear.. its amazing the feeling i get when i look in his eyes. and his voice.. aahh so hot lmfaoo. i swear, id be so happy waking up to that face. hes soo awesome, i havent found a flaw yet, cept that we live in diff cities, but im moving to his town next yr, so it all works out i guess. but i really hope i dont get disappointed.... blecghh
pros
SOO HOT
nice voice
loove his eyes
awesome personality
has a car
friend of the family
sweet
FUNNNNNY
etc..
cons
JUST broke up w/ his grl.. only wants to play for now
21 yrs old
lives an hr away
not sure how he feels about me
god, i want this to work soo bad, his last two grls fuckd him over completely, and im not like that. i wouldnt use him, fuck w/ his head, cheat on him, make him spend all his time w/me, be up his ass. i would be soo good for him and he would be soo awesome for me.. wish me luck guys, i need it and i reallly think this would be good for me..
i really wanna tell him how i feel, but i think its too risky.. ahh hellpp. im going all gaga..
but im out, or else ill keep rambling x0
<333 cruushin hardcore
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2004 18 November :: 9.20pm
well.. lets see, whats been going on, im not even going to try to fill everybody in on whats been going on
*woot woot* good news -- crush just broke up w/ his girll. yaaayyy! omgg im soo giddy right now lol im madd excited, its really nothin tho.. but still hehehe.
annywho, i guess i wont complain this entry.. hm.. ive been feeling really tired lately tho, really overwhelmed with stuff, especially school.. which reminds me, i wanna go out for the volleyball team -- but who knows.
omg im shaking, i cant type right now, ill finish later. xoxoxo i miss uuuu mommy.. i love u soo much
CARLY I LOVE UU..
LAUREN - WERE SO GIDDY RIGHT NOW HAHA
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2004 15 November :: 9.48pm
RIP Scotty Harris ...
Im so sorry, my prayers are with you and your family, maybe you and my mom can take care of each other..
This is getting way outta hand, i dont think i can handle one more disappointment.. im going insane, i cant do this anymore...
i need a better solution
mom i miss you so much, im running out of tears!
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2004 12 November :: 3.32pm
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WoOt WoOt...iTs LaUrEn*....dani* and i are gonna fuckin have an awesomee weekendd..No DoUbT...Trying to sound gangsta again haha....my parents went awayy and we chillen at my houseee...gonna get our drink on....last weekend it was only 2days and one night...and only 4 movies...this time its 3 days and 2 nights...like a mini vacation away from home for her at my house lol..i luvv her...now we can have like triplee even quadruple times the movies to watch...FuCkiN RoCks...she just left to go home to clean and shit and i miss her already haha...she had to walk home in the rain poor babyy :-( .... her facce was all wet and only her left foot was knumb...shore it wasnt left nut hahaha....candyy is mad good yoo...i feelll whoopiee already lolol...well we will update again later about how much fun we are having lol....lovv yaaa
LiFe CaN Be GoOd..OnlY at ThEsE tiMes ThOuGh WiT uR hOmiEs!!
-LaUrEn*
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2004 1 November :: 5.35pm
hehehahahahlalal
hidey ho f-ckers. whats up!?!
well, this has been one incredible weekend.. i dont even know where to begin. let me see....
friday was a half day, got outta school at 943. met up with a SHITLOAD of people, then lauren, duane, and juana came over and i did laurens hair. that night my father took me to an AA party thing, and there was this woman who looked like my mom, really reminded me of my mother, i cried .. a lot. then we picked up carly, i was soo happy. i hadn't smiled like that in SO long. so we went back to my aunt dees house n just chilled for a while, we were tired as fuck so we went to bed.
saturday.. my birthday woop woop! sweet 16. lets see, giuseppe didnt show up, but i had a blast anyway. *jimmy was there and i had a lot of fun, had a limbo contest, chilled w/ my family and friends, danced my butt off... much fun. i had green paint all over my face tho when i got a kiss goodbye. thanks jimmy lol. _________'s girlfriend got tooore uppp, she looked horrible, glad to hear shes better now tho. jimmy got me a nie present, it had my name on it, its cool, got loads of cash, and a really cool ring thx cici. all in all fun day, i missed my mom tho, i really wish she coulda been there.
sunday was a b e a utiful day, played volleyball.. got my ass kicked, but it was fun. went to mandees for a lil bit then my gram mad carly and i a nice lasagna dinner, yumm yumm. then i had to send my baby off to the airport, i miss you already carly..
found out giuseppe's single! WOOT! lol, and i also like this other kid.. but we'll see what happens, hopefully something goes good for me. jimmy and rob were suppoised to play vball w/ us sun, but we all had a miscommunication, then jimmy invited me to the movies w/ his grl *says rob*. who knows?? but john wants to get online, so i gotta go. i didnt get into much detail, but ill finsh later xoxoxoxo..
cruuushin'
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2004 27 October :: 8.58pm
:: Music: mario bros theme
im talking to marrioo! oh how i miss that kid. <33
birthdays on saturday -- not even looking forward to it!! well sorta.. but even more than that....
im looking forward to friday night -- 2 days! ill see you in two days babe-ay!! xoxoxo
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2004 24 October :: 4.24pm
:: Music: in my daughters eyes
well ill start off this entry by saying how PISSED i am bc i was in the middle of writing my entry and the computer went cooky on me and erased it all.. damn computers
well, first off, i miss carly, a lot. and i feel like i dont talk to her anymore and we're drifting.. really drifting. i thought she would be the only one that really made an effort to kit with me, and she is, but i feel like we dont talk as much and like shes mad at me. are u mad at me carly??
other than that, ive been setting up for my birthday party. friday is a half day, 815 - 932 .. yupp only 80 minutes, then that night i get carly from the airport and we go to my uncles, then saturday is my paarty.
oh and get this bullshit, jfk sent my aunt a letter saying that there was money that needed to be paid. they said there was an emergency breathing procedure used for my mom before she was put into icu. the thing is, THE ONLY REASON THE PROCEDURE WAS DONE WAS BECAUSE MY MOM WAS FOUND ON THE FLOOR IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT WITHOUT OXYGEN. ITS NOT OUR FUCKING FAULT THAT U FUCKERS AT JFK DIDNT TAKE CARE OF MY MOM LIKE U WERE PAID TO DO. U SHOULD HAVE BEEN WATCHING HER LIKE HAWKS, BUT YOU WERENT. THATS WHY MY MOM DIED, BECAUSE U FUCKS COULDNT WATCH HER, UR ONLY JOB WAS TO MAKE SURE SHE WAS IN HER BED WITH OXYGEN, BUT YOU CANT EVEN HANDLE THAT. WHEN I FOUND OUT THAT SHE WS FOUND ON THE FLOOR, I WANTED TO KILL EVERY NURSE THAT EVER TOOK CARE OF MY MOTHER. AND NOW U WANT ME TO PAY FOR AN OPERATION THAT WAS ONLY DONE BECAUSE OF YOUR LACK OF RESPONSIBILITY, BECAUSE OF YOUR CARELESSNES.. .NO I DONT THINK SO. i have so much anger towards you, and i swear the first stop i make in florida will be jfk hospital, n it will be a visit you will never forget
other than that, i am completely head over heals with this guy, but i think he has a girlfriend, im actually pretty positive he has a girlfriend. whatever, shit never works out for me anyway.
but now im so mad i lost my train of thought and forgot what the rest of my entry was going to be about. soo im out..
girl.. i love you
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2004 17 October :: 11.02pm
its about that time again...
time to break down
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2004 11 October :: 10.23pm
:: Music: breakaway
weeekend -- sry im missing details
welll, im not in a good mood at the moment, but im going to try to include as much detail as possible in this entry. so hold on tight, cuz this is a long one.
friiday -- well, hmm.. where to start.. uh i walked into government [7th period] and there was practically nobody in the class. we had a substitute and practically nobody was there. nobody i really talked to anyways. except simon. so after about 5minutes into the class.. giuseppe shows up. he walks into class and comes and sits by me. We started talking, and ended up talking and shit the whole period. It was fun because we got to know more about each other and just effed around. might i add, i found out his girlfriend lives in brooklyn while he lives in Queens We got to talking about my spaniish class, and i told him i dint wanna be in it cuz i was italian -- he then told me he would get me into italian. so after class, he walked me to the language department, talked to some lady in italian, and next thing i knew, i was being escorted to italian class. I thanked him, and went to italian. Then after school my girl Lauren* met up with me. We ran into phm [hehe lau] and then ran into giuseppe, i told him how i had a test on my first day in italian and had homework. then i told him he's my new italian tutor lol. he was fine with it. then we all went to arbys. After arbys, lau and i got our nails done at johnnys, then went back to hr house and went online, ate, talked and played cards for a while. went home and passed outtt.
saturday -- woke up hella early, packed for long island. went to long island and just hung out all day. played pool, had muuudsliiides yummy and hit the volleyball a few times. Around 7 we went to aunt pattys for rob's sweet 16. It was fun. i was bartender -- i made 20bucks and i got a back massage [thanks jimmy]. The boys played texas holdom and i just watched/helped. Then they played smash.. oh and the r.o.b won 120 dollars in cards.. lucky lucky. Jimmy and i talked for a lil bit ..and well, if u wanna know the rest of the story just ask lol. then jimmy me rob and glen passed out at like 3am waiting to leave. it was a good night all in all.
sunday -- woke up around 11, had those good egg sandwiches that we always get. just hung out all day, did stuff for my party. we got tents, bathrooms, favors, invitations, and centerpieces all done. all we need to do now is set shit up for a dj and food. that night paul and i went out with jimmy jarryd robbie joey and glen. it was sooo funny. we were supposed to go the the malll, but it was closed. so we ended up going to sports plus which was fun, rob met up w/ 2 chicks, not the prettiest but w/e, hes a pimp lol. jimmy and joey played that dancing game at the arcade with those four arrows and u gotta move ur feet on em or some shit. then jimmy almost hit glens car lol funny. as we were leaving th4e parking lot, jarryd threw a hanger at glens car, adn then glen kept pushing jimmy's lancer little by little into the intersection .. it was soo funny but scary at the same time, we got soo close to a semi. then jarryd threw suntan lotion all over glens car, n then joey threw paintballs at jimmys car. it was fun but crazy. then we went to taco bell and that was another fiasco lol jarryds a nerrrd.
monday -- got honme around noon, and my girl lauren* picked me up and we went to roosevelt field mall. we had loads of fun, didnt buy much, but we sure had fun lol. ran into a few people and saw some hotties, and some not so hott people haha. and were def going for my bday again haha. ran into mrs kucic -- shes soo cool.
but on the real, there were sooooooooo many more details, but i reallly wanan go to bed, so ill catch ya on the flip side. lol and robbie, ur suuch an alcoholic jk jk [ "jimmy -- how u gonna do me like that nigga its my bday, lets drink come on son" lolol.
robbie merked 'em!!
lauren, i want him soo bad, and if not him, i want the other guy.. but hes just a little illegal haha. im going craaaZy
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2004 6 October :: 7.47pm
this fuckin blows
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2004 4 October :: 9.20pm
heyyy!! well my weekend was pretty fun, im NOT going to get into friday, but saturday i slept i til 2 and then went to kristinas. we had fun!! i slept over and came home sunday night and did maddd homework!!
next, today was awesome.. well not the whole day, but omigosh lol lauren u know the whole story -- i only raged on about it for hours haha. i dont want to get into it, well i do but its tooo long haha, lets just say the guy im obsessed with kissed me today, its nothin big, just a kiss on the cheek, but now i never wanna wash the cheek again haha. i wouldnt go that far, but if you guys saw this kid lol. wick u would be like DAAAMN. haha. so yea, we talked a lil today, when i see him i get weak in the knees.. its sooo weird. it was just a kiss on the cheek, but i swear i lilke melted, ivve never done that before haha.
anyways, after school i went to bayside, it was fun, i love lauren shes great hehe. after bayside lau came home w/ me and we did our nails, we got tired at looking at the same designs lol. then we had dinner and everyone kept asking her if she wanted anyting to eat or drink, over and over and she was like no thank u tonns of times.
had madd homework tonight, finally finished it, then i had to help aunt lee with papers for my mom, that shits so frustrating, started thinking about her, so i had to get on here to stop myself from being sad!!
other than that, this weekends gonna rock my socks, its robbies bday on the 12th and we're gonna paaarrrtaayy. the 11th i go w/ lau to get my nails done, same for the 27th haha, we're such nerds.
im so head over heals its not even funny, but i know it aint gonna work out, hes gonna have a girl, but thats okay, i want at least friendship.. i really hope i get that much. buut yeaa imma get going b/c im gettin confused im sick and im tired lol.
good talking to u patrick carly and joe, patrick thank u soo much for that song, i love youuu!! ur awsome. u too carly i miss you babe. and wick, ur so damn fuckin awesome. cant wait to see youuu!!
mucho loooove~!!
wish me luck!!
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he's comiing!!
yaahooo .. ill update more laterrr!! maddd hw xoxo
yay, he better show up, and better have fun. hehe :)
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2004 27 September :: 8.34pm
hiidey ho, well my weekend was rather fun, but before i even get into that id like to wish the bestest person on this earth [[carly cathleen weaver]] a happy happy happy 17th birthday! i love you more than life itself giiiirl.
now, to my weekend, friday after school i did some homework and packed to go to my uncle ginos house,we leftaround 9pm and got there at like 11pm. Kristina and I played some hardcore volleyball, only with a soccer ball. soo u can imagine how much it hurt when we bumped it. Anyways, Robbie and Jimmy showed up, then Joey, and they played basketball. After a while me, joe, jim, rob and kristina played spades. my team was winning, then everyone decided not to play anymore. so that was the end of that. had some laughs w/ rob and jimmy and then Kristina and i talked and then went to bed.
saturday, krissy and i woke up and had breakfast, then we got straight into stretching for volleyball. thank goodness john and uncle g got us a new one. We played vball all day and then had a tournament.. me and aunt lee vs krissy and john, they won, but we're gonna have a rematch lol. plus, i think i did rather well. then at night, krissy and i bartended we each made like 20bucks which was niiiice lol. we were supposed to have a volleyball tournament with jimmy and robbie, but robbie ended up in the hospital.. soo we've got a raincheck lol.
sunday, played more volleyball, played some pool, just hung out. was supposed to see the boys again, never happened, me and aunt lee played a vball game and we beat em yahoo. other than that back in school, gisseppe is the hottest ever i sweear. i want him to come to my party soo bad
in other news, im having a sweet 16/halloween party at my uncle gino's house on october 30th and its gonna be awesome. caterer, dj, karaoke, volleyball, football, baseball, basketball, dancing, drinking, bartending, cards, whatever u want we got! the house is gonna look soooo spooky with all the decorations we got, and i got my costume, its nice. its gonna be badass, now all i need is friends hah wishful thinking. but i invited 3 of gisseppes frinends, now i just want him to come lol. but i really gotta go or imma rag on and on and on about trhis boy. soo ill ttyl xoxo
crushiiinnn*
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