Cause I'm leeeeaaaavin' on a jet plane!
So tomorrow morning I'll be off on a plane to Japan. I've never been out of the country except for like 2 trips to Canadia which doesn't count. Though I love Canadia.

I've always wanted to go to Japan... Wow I'm so excited!! Expect a full report on the goings on, but expect it late. Of course.

Yes, this is cheating. It's IB's fault. ^.^



About yesterday: Overall I felt more connections with people I haven't felt close to in a long time. I'm quite happy about that. There are other people I really want to get close to... hmm.

Oh, Sleigh Ride is very cool. Someone should not be in that band and we are all quite annoyed that she is there. The other songs... didn't sound too well but hopefully they'll get better. I was proud! Perc sight read all of their parts (like usual) and did a more than decent job!

Tip the Scale
Well. I'm the 'Evil Junior' but apparently I have a tiny shred of niceness that comes out every once in a while. I'm also in charge of the balance of good and evil of the whole world. Awesome huh? Guess which freshman has concluded this stuff!

Yesterday I was in a cynical, outspoken, quick-comeback, bitter mood according to Erik. The thing with Kai is still getting to me. But I do not blame her. Or Kyo I guess. Today I'm back in monosyllabic answers and a listlessness. Though not as lacking in willpower as yesterday. (And I'm sure you all followed that. ^.~)


I need more cds for my trip. I'm hoping to ask Kyu and Allison if I can get my first taste of Reliant K.. but I don't like to put people out.


Since I haven't lots to post, would you people like a Question of the Day? No doubt that would keep you guys entertained, commenting, and starting war- I mean discussions.

Paul. Ian. Jake. Andrew. Noah (yeah he counts too). Leah.
It's fun to be called a senior. I got that from 2 more people today.. and senior night was great. Jeanatte actually gave me a rose! ^.^ Yeah, yeah, I gave it back.

So, skipping school since I don't remember what happened, I moved my car and ran into the parking lot, trying to figure out where we were going to eat. Awesome plan guys. Trip to publix then out to Veteran's Park. Karen took me and I got food then Amy took me to the park with her and Lauren and Gabe and Meredith and Krystle and Adam and lots of others. It was great fun and quite relaxing.

The ride back ended in the best ever. [Complete docs from Lauren start here (Hey! I'm lazy!)] a whole bunch of underclassmen were playing hacky sack baseball in the parking lot. So you know Amy. She drove right through them and went "Steven! I love Steven! He's so cute! Let's run him over." We drove right up behind him, and then krystle beeped the horn and he got SO SCARED! He jumped like 2 feet in the air. It was hilarious. And then he got mad because we had embarassed him, and he sat on the hood. So we kept driving and he jumped off. It was really funny though.

Then we went into the band room and Gabe came in complaining that Kyle had drunk all of his green tea, so we poured a mix of all of our drinks into Gabe's empty tea thing and tricked kyle into drinking that. It was a good face. [docs end] Later he came up to me again asking me to make more. That kid is... interesting. He tries to challenge me just because he's taller than me and I find it hilarous. One because I always win (what would you expect? ^.^) and two cause of the comments other people make when he tries it.

Sat with Leah on the bus in the beginning but.. she talked mostly with other seniors. So I gave AJ my seat and moved back with Matt. I came it at a really weird time when he was talking to Brian and there was a lot of awkwardness. Had some fun when things picked up though.

Stands time was a bit slow. Early on we knew we'd loose, so we were playing as much as possible. Our show went poorly.. but compared to the other school we were spectacular! Only their officers came over to mingle later and one girl was on snare. Coolness.

The end was most special to me. We ended with the Mule of course and I was watching each one. The Mule now starts with me and the first time I got freaked.. but the last 2 times I've done pretty nice solos. This one was decent too. It's a good feeling when people cheer for you after your solo.

I'm going to miss you all so much. And all the other seniors in band... you were the ones I was closest to outside of my own grade these past years and I really will miss you all. People just don't know how important they are to me... even if I've never really talked to them ever.
o.O;;

Shut out. 35-0. Yeah. Marching season's over. The next time I'm in those stands I'll be a senior. Each time will be that much closer to the end.

Unraveled into Randomness
Today was sorta strange... Argh I hate roller coasters.

To start I'll say.. things with Kai were where I tried to avoid. I told Kyo not to tell her I asked about her... but he didn't listen apparently. And.. I told myself people have a reason for doing stuff like posting where they are or saying something about my birthday.. like their mom having multiple possibilities of cancer. See? So I tell myself: 'Don't blame her for not being around, something must've happened. Just get over it and wait for her to get back but keep the relationship distant.' Easy. Just not think about it right? Damnit Kyo I didn't need to know why she'd been away. I didn't need her to feel more pressure presumed to be from me when she's dealing with that. She can come back when she wants.
Yes, I know all of you know what I'm talking about here. Just ignore this.


So. Thinking about that stuff throughout the day.
Math: Test back, not bad. Guess I'll stick it out it calc. *sigh* If Krystle and Leah can muddle through it then I can.

English: Told myself last night that I had better finally run through my oral.... Guess what? My group, last one left, had room for one to go before class ended. Gabe was no where near ready. Shelly wasn't mentally ready to give it. Dorjan stole my idea of being a grader. Yes, yes. I volunteered to go and save everyone's asses. You guys so owe me.
So it went well I think.. Of course I was nervous, and not as prepared as I would have liked.. and missed some stuff I wanted to say.. but ah well. I loved Natalia's score for me! 5, 9, 8, 5! What's better than that huh? Schilit gipped me on her grade. Got a 21 overall. The whole class I think was just like: "What in the world is she saying? Kristen's oral was great!" MUAHAHA

History: 84, 87, 74. That DBQ was just to screw us into the ground. I'll live. Hall actually didn't bite my head off when I showed him the note to excuse me 4 extra days before Thanksgiving! I was happy.

Band: Watched Blast for 2 hours. That is such an awesome show!! Even better live! ^____^ Substitutes are awesome. Though I wish I could've worked on the duet I have to play for Lerner next class... Ah well.


Went up to the mall with mom and Katie after school. Pretty good. Some jackets, a shirt, and finally a pair of shoes. However, this is where the really freaky scary thing happened.

We were in Journey's and mom saw this shirt with the Orange City Choppers on it and nearly flipped. She went off on what a great show it was and was soon chatting with the young punk sales kid about it. HAHA It was SO scary! Small bit of shameless flirting on my part as I was trying on said shirt which we eventually bought. But.. she had a whole conversation with this guy! And they were laughing and reminiscing and all that and wow, me and Katie just looked at each other and blinked. Freaky man.


Tomorrow should be fun. Hopefully back up to the mall for supplies for the trip. Then a visit to Shelly to see Matrix 2. So awesome that she lives only 5 minutes from me!!! ^_____^

I Love You
Just watched 8 Simple Rules for Dating my Teenage Daughter, the episode where John Ritter's character dies. Teared (that's tear-ed) toward the end.. not much in the mood to fight tears and it was very well done. I.. hadn't known of the actor or that he died, I don't pay much attention to those kinds of things. But.. I do enjoy the series and how it displays things.. and I did love how the dad acted and responded.. such love came from that family.

[tangent] Anyone ever noticed those families on tv that always end on a happy note? Where everyone loves the others and you can just tell everything is really great. And after the show you have to smile cause you actually felt some sense of togetherness, even if it was all fake.
Well, I would sometimes wish for a family like that. Why can't my parents be like that? Why can't my family have that kind of relationship? And all of that. Kay, enough of this stuff.
[/end tangent] (<~parenthetical docs to Amanda for now and future use)


'..love how the dad acted.' 'Love those guys.' 'Love him too.' The last two were from convos with people. So.. yeah. I've been saying things along the lines of 'love you' a lot lately. Now's a good time to ask 'why' eh? Read Amanda's post and I was like 'Hey, it means a lot to me and I don't say it unless I really mean it. I really dislike the people who throw it around too.' Then I'm like.. 'Wait.. didn't I just say "I love that kid!" at least once today?' So. I thought some more on it. (Yeah, a lot more since her post was a few days ago.)

I've known for a while how much I care for things and people.. but a lot of the time I have a hard time figuring out how to show it. I used to just say "I love you" to my family.. when going to bed or leaving or something. And some times I know I'd say it partly because I was afraid of the things that might happen between then and the next time I saw them.. (ie death, people) but still always because I did love them.

It's only been lately that I've said it of people... not to them exactly.. maybe to one or two.. but of people. "I love my section." I really do love them. The kids. It's how I am I guess. I actually mean it when I say it... So I think maybe Amanda's post doesn't relate to me... since she said 'most'.. but...... I dunno.

I also noted the impulse to end the posts with 'With love..' I'm thinking of stopping that and just putting in '~*~'. Any comments on that?


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~~Forgot to add this:
The reason I started out with the show.. was cause you never know when will be the last moment you'll spend with someone you care about. So.. saying "I love you" everytime you see someone you feel deserves it... isn't really over using it or being insincere. In fact it's almost the opposite..

Jumble of threads tied tightly still does not make a bow.
Hooray for Ruth!! Today is her 15th birthday! YAY!!

Kudos to Kyu for the donuts. Definitely grand.

Math test... I think I did.. okay. But.. I really don't like it when I have to ask Power questions. I know he hates answering but then feels bad and gives people hints so they'll get it...... Yeah. So on that note I had worked out about 4 different answers for 6 and 7 when I had to ask him to better clarify. Therefore I think I got what they wanted for those... whether or not they're right.

I.. felt dizzy in that class. It was weird. I sat there.. and suddenly the room was shifting, literaly. Going back and forth and I was just like 'Stop!! AHHH!' So I was pretty sure I'd collapse sometime soon.. hoped it was before the history test.

I know why I was so dizzy too... I didn't eat much yesterday. Like.. less than usual. Not my fault! Dad's away. Which means mom's here.... and she... yeah. So there's no food here. And, we all feel asleep after the alarm got us up yesterday morning... Katie got up at 6:58 and is like.. 'Oops.' So I got to get ready in 5 minutes! Definitely a record for school-readiness. First time I haven't eatten breakfast as well. Grapes and chex mix for snacks. Ice cream for lunch. Not much for after school snacks. Dinner... was like a bowl of popcorn. Yummy eh? And don't anyone dare post comments satirizing this section of this post.

Back to today...
English we got a lecture on doing other hw in her [Shilit's] class.. then I went back to reviewing history. I really wasn't ready for that.. I was also pretty sure I'd be doing my oral today.. Thank you God I was wrong!

History test... horrid IDs.. not sure.. but eh.

Band.. painful. Yeahyeah but a half hour lecture on how we'll be graded on how well we play a level 5 snare solo (There were grumbles from musically-oriented seniors on that piece!! It really is impossible for all but Paul, who spent the whole class teaching people.) then 2ish hours on the vibes. Playing little. Half the class was on mallets. The other half was drumming away on chairs. oO;; Wow we were going nuts.

Dad drove all the way back here for something that didn't happen and we are all pissed at (however no one more than me and him). So he's left again. Grand.

What else?
Eh, haven't done any work. Still sorta dizzy... But dad went out special and got us dinner. So I had something.


Other news!
Yesterday, instead of studying history and math, I fell back into Neopets (of which I'm an elder! : P!!!) and got caught up in the avatar craze. It was awesome!! I got 15 avatars in one day! So proud! Stayed up till 12 to get this one... bed at 1.. OH! That would be why I'm tired!


I am also now the proud owner of the following:



MUAHAHAHA *Steals bandwidth*

To see more pretties along with my pride and joy (Shal) go here.


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P.S. Up next is a special post about deep stuff. MUAH! Have fun.

Oh and yes, this is how I work. Massive late posts and editing old ones and all that complicated stuff. Greatness.
^.^

User# 15843
Quite impressive. Number 15,843.

Alright! Yeah, so you guys (prominent credit to Amanda) wanted a journal you could all post comments on.. So here ya go!

Make a note this is my.. fourth? Yeah, fourth journal in existance. *Shifty eyes* I had woohu before all of you!! *evil cackle* [MUAH! Don't start with me on this..] ^.^

So it being the fourth... yeah, it may not have as many updates as frequently as some may like. But now that I've said that it'll be the second most frequent. People from xanga will be directed here in copy of Amanda since xanga hates me and causes my computer to crash.

On another note.. comments that I make on other people's journals still might be under ~*~ if I don't feel like switching into this one. And anyone who tries to track down certain other things have no decency and will be destroyed.

Everyone happy with my new journal? It'll be pretty-fied eventually... Really it will be..



With Love..