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2004 9 March :: 4.00pm
:: Mood: emotional
:: Music: one call away
just when everything seems so perfect... it all turns to shit
..my hearts falling + only he can catch it..
wow everything is getting to me tonight i'm just sitting here and everything is making me cry.. hopefully it is because of my period..
to start it all HE isn't talking to me and wtf we were fine then i don't even know
then at dinner my dad started talking about his g/f with my gramma how they were at church or something and he wants me to meet her so bad and he said he was gunna make me.. i swear to god i will fucking spit in her face so that pissed me off and i wouldn't talk to him anymore and this was all after he said he would buy me my car when it was time ugh..
then in the car my great gramma (whose 93!) was fucking talking outta her ass she's going fucking crazy and it scares me so much her and my grampa are getting so old and it just makes me realize they're not gunna be here for much longer
and of course there is always luke... i try to be just his friend and i cant do it i still love him so much
god i don't know wut to fucking do anymore my grades SUCK and my mom thinks i'm depressed and wants to put me on fucken meds like i'm a fucken looney. i just don't even fucking know anymore
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i am soo tired of all these people saying Sarah
did this, and Sarah did that. well guess what ;
Sarah doesnt give a shit what you think, so
why dont you go and spread that??
she gets home from school too early &closes
the door to her room. there's nothing inside
her; she's weak & she's tired of feeling like
this. so they rise in the morning & they
sleep in the dark. but even though no one is
looking... she's falling apart. they call her
for dinner; she makes up a reason. she looks
at her arms & she rolls down her sleves. but
they're all starting to see through her lies
& every night she has tears in her eyes
just because i smile doesnt mean im
happy ; a smile can hide everything.
shes beautiful as usual
with bruises on her ego.
((citations to- mandi wray + katie serhegy ; these quotes fit well, i hope you don't mind))
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2004 7 March :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: a wee bit tired
:: Music: my mother yakkin
Last night - Sunday ;
teen nite was funn!! alotta freekin people showed up!! but me + whitney didn't dance much we were a bit tipsy =] hehe. then when we got home i checked my so i called him back but he didn't answer =\ but thats ok cuz i jsut got off the tell wit'm, yayy but anyways we added to the tipsy-ness and passed out! u knoo.. then this morning we got up and my mom cooked breakfast for us (banana pancakes, scrambled eggs, bacon, + hash browns !! lol yumm) then we all got dressed and met tim and dawn down at the el-beach-o. i'm so red.. lol i look like a freekin lobster! but hey.. it'll turn tan so thats gizzood. welp i'm outta here for now..
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2004 6 March :: 5.23pm
:: Mood: my eyes burn
:: Music: baby boy
hey guys its saturday.. i've been cleaning all dayy! but my room looks good so it was worth it i guess? i had to clean my room, b-room, and living room to pay back my mom for some stuff she bought me, lol. anywho.. me and whitney went to the pool again today to work on our tans =] and it's 5:09 now and i guess we're going to teen nite tonight so i'mma gunna go put a movie in and take a lil nap b4 we go.. allrighty i will holler at this later.. XoOx
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2004 5 March :: 11.58pm
:: Mood: zOoted
:: Music: TV
ohh ahh
HaPpY BiRtHdAy RaShArD !!!
today is friday.. it's been pretty boring too.
after school me + whitney went swimmen and laid out so that tired us out.
we're not doin anything tonight just sitten home + chillen, you know.. doin the regular
tomorrow... idk wut i'm doin but i'm open for suggestions!!!
so yea i just got off the phone with
_ _ _ _ _ _ _ !! he's sooo cute =]
anyways.. i'm gunna go so we can do wut we do ahh lol
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2004 4 March :: 5.36pm
:: Mood: :D
:: Music: commercials
w0w
i got my megan back !!!!!!!!!!!!
and not much has happened.. but i brought my math grade up to a D ! ah that'll dooo --for now.. and! i got a white/colorful louis vuitton purse!! anywho i'll be back after this weekend when some shit goes down to start some new drama ..bye
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2004 2 March :: 3.58pm
:: Mood: ugh !
everything i say in here gets me in trouble! ugh wtf.. i don't like hezikhia, DO NOT !! all right just to clear that one up.
can you put blocks on here? cuz i'm going to.. only my
f r i e n d s are gunna be able to look at this fine piece of work right here.. ahh lol
wow i'm really bored =\
hmm nothing to talk about so yea bye
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2004 28 February :: 3.08pm
:: Mood: quite tired
:: Music: TV
whOo
welp last night i went to the fair with leah, whitney, + ashley we had so much fun !! we ended up burnin b4 we went.. wow that was amazing! haha we did it again when we got home too in the car with the windows up.. ahhhh! good times. alotta people were there so that was cool, annddd... hezikhia rode "the claw" with me *hehe. he's fine... too bad he's got a g/f that could whoop me! lol so i'mma leave that one alone. a n y w a y s... today, i'm going to whitney's *NEW* house and i think teen nite.. i'm not sure yet, hmm.. but i'll get back to this later.. XoOx
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2004 26 February :: 9.36pm
:: Mood: =\
:: Music: TV
. . .
have you ever noticed i barely ever write in here during the week? yup cuz it's boring don't do nuthen but school.. funfun. well anyways... if you though d r a m a was just a highschool stage, you gotta nuther thing comin! everyone talks shit all types sizes and ages. its fucken bogus if you ask me! well "word" at woody's (where my mom works and suzie, whitneys mom works) is that at my house all we do is drink, smoke, and party with boys... yea so me and whitney were deffff in some shit with her mom but not mine cuz you know she knows an alla that.. but yea. so whit's probly not gunna be able to go to the fair tomorrow night cuz tonight was def filled with drama.. ugghhh
me and megan are still not straight.. UGGGHHHH !!!!!!
i hope i have a good time at the fair tomorrow with leah.. and i hope whitney can go.. hmm it all depends. but i'll be back sometime this weekend
... h 0 l l a
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2004 23 February :: 2.47pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: --
i don't have a subject ??
hola! how was erryones weekend? mine was ok kinda boring. friday as u know i went to the movies with kristin + jenn then saturday i came home did nothing + ladi out. then leah came and got me and we went to the parade, so lame. it was wayy too long and we missed the free food (lol) so then we went to mickey dee's and ate. we saw hezikiah worken so we holla'd at him lol then i went home and went to bed. sunday i got up and went shopping i got a new bathing suit. then me my mom + rachael went to the beach and we met michelle and tj there so that was cool i guess.. i got to work on my tan so thats good, i'm so freekin white !! lol today at school was pretty good too me and sara left for lunch and got mcdonalds! lol travis and some kid took us lol we didn't have any money tho so we only got fries and we hadda pay with quarters, woo good times lol ..yea soo... i gotta get my 2 low grades up its starting to bother me. hmm.. anyways.. this friday i'm going to the fair with leah + maybe whitney sara + meg but who knows. that should be fun i love the fair i wait all year for it to come and this year i'm finally gunna ride the rides!! yayy welp gotta go do some homework..
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2004 20 February :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: alotta things..
:: Music: TV
heyy yaaa
welp this past week has been weird?? i've had alot of alone time! lol me and megan are going through something and its VERY annoying... it's like she ain't got no time for me no more.. but o well she'll learn i'm for real.. but anyways! i talked to TIM, KEVIN, andddd JUSTIN this week.. yep they're all on my list so thats good. and i talk to rashard erryday lol i love that kid !! anyways.. tongiht is friday ! lol i was gunna go to leahs bro's base ball game then she was gunna come back here and we were gunna STFO but that didn't work out she's grounded cuz of her grades.. hmm so i was stuck with nothing to do cuz whitneys sick. soooo kristin saved me !! yayyy i'm going to coralwood with her jenn joe and whoever else is there.. so i hope this is fun ! it will be .. better then sitten at home.. so i'll update ya'll later.. xoxo byee
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2004 17 February :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: happy ; but a bit confused =\
:: Music: tipsy
just u p d a t i n g this wonderful journal of mine - - -
saturday night- went over to whitney's house, we just chilled and watched Jay and Silent Bob.. woo funny shit lol. then we got ready and went to teen nite there was more people there last week but i still had fun i guess. then we came home and i passed out lol i was really tired for some reason !?
Sunday- didn't do much of anything hung out around the house then went out with my dad for a little. came home hung out some more then whitney came over and we got crunk !! lol whoa !! good times good times.
Monday- "girls day out" me whitney and her mom went out for lunch at Brixz.. so nice and our waiter was f i n e !! lol then we went shopping at beals, ross, old navy, and the mall. ((i got hot pink, orange, brown, and white flips from ON and a new outfit from AE)) then we went to woodys for a little then came back here.. then went to brookes for dinner ! lol i had alotta fun :D
welp anyways... lol i'm so confused it my head.. all of a sudden i've gotten hit with like this huge case of j u n g l e f e v e r !! ahh lol lemme show you my list.. haha
-justin
-tim
-pop
-rashard
-tae
-terrence
-dayday
-kevin
theres probly more.. but i would date erry single one of them.. ahh haha this is crazy!
yea soo.. i guess my dad wants to come home cuz he was jealous of my moms b/f or w/e.. but hell noooo !! he ain't coming back fuck him !
annddd... i talked to luke last night.. hmm i dunno yet if thats good or bad ??
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2004 14 February :: 1.29pm
:: Mood: ohh ahh
:: Music: silence..
HaPpy VaLenTin3s dAy <33
w0w- i really thought this v-day was gunna suck but it turned out pretty damn good so far.. ( HE came over !! ) ..yep, and later i'm going over to whitneys and we're partien !! heyy, that'll fucken do ! but anyways..
last night i met my moms "friend" wow he's ugly.. you can def tell she met him in a dark place! haha. and my dads mad at me cuz i didn't go to his house this weekend.. but i really didn't feel like putten up with his bull shit so w/e.
hmm i dunn wut to say in this thinger right now.. oo! i'm gunna go call ashley to see if she's still havin her party tomorrow.. i'll be back sometime.. much love to all my jurnL commenters lol - do u think i should change my icon and stuff again? or later?
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2004 12 February :: 2.38pm
:: Mood: tired + bored.. BUT good
:: Music: none
gee i wonder ?
hey ya'll.. school was good today i guess, but i got hit in the face with a volly ball in gym.. ughh i bit my lip :( but its all good.welp it's already thursday this week has gone by quick.. which is good ! aww it's v-day weekend and i'm alone.. as usual.. o well no biggy! but my moms new b/f or w/e the F he is is coming in town so i'm leavin this hell hole.. and i'm def not going to my dads cuz of his bitch you kno.. so i'll be going over to someones house :D ashleys havin a party to i'll be at her crib sunday. anyways.. megan has this new guy Trae.. and there going to the movies tomorrow night and meg wants me to go.. so i told her to tell trae to get me a guy to go with- and he did. his names Justin !! he called me last night and we talked for awhile then i met him at school today... i really hope he calls tonight cuz he's wayy cute lol hm so yea we might start talken, gee.. i wonder how long this guy will last?? haha we will surley see. lol watch it's not even gunna last one day cuz i'm ugly and he won't call me.. =\ damn! o well i'll get over it huh? but maybes he's diffrent.. i sure hope! well uhh i'm outta here..
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2004 10 February :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: tired..
:: Music: i'm really really hot
hmm..
hey guys.. school was good today, me + meg stayed after for a little sara almost got in a fight so i was right thurr with her lol i was just gunna watch but she stupid bitch got her sister and sara was alone so i got into it.. lol i'm like a freekin magnet to fights for real.. uhh but!! *mike* talked to me.. lol we were playin patty cake, hehe. also, today i went to the g y m with my mommy, + after school i'm gunna start swimming :D welp i'm gunna go do some homework, eat, watch some tv, then go to bed.. bye guys
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2004 8 February :: 4.59pm
:: Mood: doin good
:: Music: heyy yaa
chillen..
hey ya'll i just got back from CVS, me and whitney walked up thurr i hadda get hairspray + toothpaste, i also dropped off 3 cameras + got some gum :D it was fun we saw a bum -haha! anyways.. last night me + whitney went to teen nite for the first time in forever.. it was fun tho. i danced with RED (hott ass), devon, + 2 other black guys.. yayy anyways.. i guess whitney's gunna go out with some kid james kirby -he's 18.. my friend better be careful !! lol welp just wanted to update.. talk to ya'll later..
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