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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 12 June :: 11.50pm

Just 10 minutes and THIRTY FIVE ugly days until I'm whole.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 12 June :: 6.50am

Thirty-Six days.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 11 June :: 6.20pm

I've been dumped. Or pushed aside until July. I'm not sure yet.

But someone put an offer on the house.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 June :: 9.48pm
:: Mood: dreading
:: Music: smashing pumpkins-here is no why

I don't understand.

But mom yelled at me because I was beating my dresser to death. And then I got the door involved.

It's not like I'm going to sleep. I'm so nervous and an angry. This is the last time though. That is my promise. I won't go through it again.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 10 June :: 8.56pm

When have people even paid enough attention to me to even notice a change?

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 9 June :: 5.26pm

So I guess today is National Tell Sarah You're Coming Over and Then Not Day.

I'm okay though. We're going to fix things. And obviously my love of Bosco Sticks and books is greater than my sadness.

friday friday friday friday friday.

ipromiseipromise

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 7 June :: 9.10pm
:: Mood: unraveled
:: Music: smasking pumkinds-farewell and goodnight

I'm making myself so nervous.

WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME?

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 7 June :: 6.32pm
:: Music: smashing pumpkins-zero

I'm going to be a terrible mother. reading. yes. playing spiders? no thanks. you falling asleep because i'm not paying attention to you? right on.

and hello little monster pervert you make me shake. you are my number one fear. and i'm not planning on crying now so i'm not going to. pretend pretend.

AND?!!!!! this feeling of being exiled. it can't be helped. please...come back. thursday?

and now i feel better about my not liking big j very much. and not wanting to die for him. and feeling like a stubborn child when i thought that.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 6 June :: 9.23pm
:: Mood: wizard!
:: Music: smashing pumpkins-to shiela

It's such a shame.

And I have no intention of honoring that promise.

ache ache.

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Rachely

:: 2004 5 June :: 11.53pm

Why does this feel wrong now? Maybe I'm just being selfish. And I'm definitely just being stupid.

Things are changing... I don't adapt to change well...

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 5 June :: 11.11pm
:: Mood: weak
:: Music: smashing pumpkings-luna

A few days ago it was my arms. Now tonight it's my stomach. It's going to fall out and I'm going to vomit through my eyes.

and a tommy bug? i yelled at it.

there are also bleach burns. alligator girl.

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 4 June :: 9.47pm
:: Music: today-smashing pumpkins

It was like there was no air in my lungs. Not like I couldn't breath, but like I didn't need to.

anxiously calm feeling and that terrible smile.

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Rachely

:: 2004 3 June :: 11.48pm

That's ok... just take other people's stuff and set it on fire... I don't mind...

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sugarmouse0587

:: 2004 3 June :: 3.48pm
:: Music: today

I wanted one thing today. And now I have anger tears.

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Rachely

:: 2004 2 June :: 11.58am

Yay...

I think...

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