Got bruises on my heart, and sometimes I get dark...
Hey everybody...yesterday pretty much sucked. I got grounded cause of somethin really retarded and I wasn't supposta use the phone or internet all day. Oh well, i'm on here now...lol. Crazy. I really wanna re-arrange my room and tidy it up. Make it prettier. I wanna make it feel like...ME. Right now, it's so piled up with junk from many years ago. I hardly have room to move in there. Somethin is gonna hafta be done once I get satellite in my room next week, and I get my computer fixed...who knows when? lol. Anyways, I really want Ryan Cabreras CD. He is such a hottie. I can't wait to get it...hopefully i'll go to Wal-Mart sometime soon. I also want Maroon 5 and maybe Matchbox 20...yea i've noticed I may be slipping back into my punk phase from the end of 9th grade. I listened to my Good Charlotte yesterday, been listenin to Ashlee a lot and now I actually want the posters of GC that I have on my walls. LoL...don't get me wrong, I LoVe country, Emerson Drive will always be my #1 it's just at that point when there aren't many new songs out. Oh well. I wanna know who wrote the second comment in my last entry. That's odd. It makes me wonder...whoever wrote it should really tell me who they are. What am I sayin? It's probably not someone bein serious, just someone bein a dumbarse. Anyways, i'm thankful for labor day tommorow. No school! I'm so sick of it already. Nothing is the same anymore, everything has changed. We're gettin older and I guess it's really weired to think that in less than 2 years I won't ever see half of the people that I talk to now. Ninth grade was so fun with the exception of a few things that had to do with Cody...I just miss the feeling. I hate thinking about that stuff it makes me wanna cry. So I guess i'm gonna move on now...meh. Girls don't like boys girls like cars and money...lalala. All of these boys yeah, and all of these girls, losing their souls through the material world...haha. I love that song it makes me happy. It reminds me of the summertime...like in 2003. They need to come out with a new CD. Hold on was like 5 months ago. It's hard to believe that be and Cody have been together for like 8 months and a week. We would have already broken up if it wasn't goin to work out. I've never had a relationship last over 6 months. So, go me! lol. I think i'm gonna go now I don't even know why i'm still up. This is the longest entry i've written in awhile, hope y'all enjoyed it. But yeah I have this cute forward thing for ya. C-YA.

Natural Highs
1. Falling in love.
2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.
3. A hot shower.
4. No lines at Wal-Mart.
5. A glance from someone special.
6. Getting mail.
7. Taking a drive out a pretty road.
8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.
9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.
10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.
11. Finding out the shirt you want is on sale for half price.
12. Your favorite milkshake.
13. A long distance phone call.
14. A bubble bath.
15. Giggling.
16. A good conversation.
17 The beach.
18. Finding a note in your coat from last winter.
19. Laughing at yourself.
20. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.
21. Running through sprinklers.
22. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.
23. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.
24. Laughing at an inside joke.
25. Friends.
26. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.
27. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.
28. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).
29. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.
30. Playing with a new puppy.
31. Having someone play with your hair or rub your back.
32. Sweet dreams.
33. Hot chocolate.
34. Road trips with friends.
35. Swinging on swings.
36. Putting the Christmas tree up and wrapping gifts.
37. Song lyrics printed inside your new CD so you can sing along without feeling stupid.
38. Going to a really good concert.
39. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.
40. Winning a really competitive game.
41. Making cookies.
42. Eating home cookin'.
43. Spending time with close friends.
44. Seeing smiles and hearing laughter from your friends.
45. Holding hands with someone you care about.
46. Running into an old friend and realizing that some things (good or bad) never change.
47. Riding the best roller coasters over and over.
48. Watching the expression on someone's face as they open a much desired present from you.
49. Watching the sunrise.
50. Getting out of bed every morning and being greatful for another beautiful day.

Ah...I love that!

"Hold on if you feel like letting go, hold on it gets better than you know..."

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Hello. I haven't updated in a while but I don't think much of anyone has. Got a lot of stuff to do now, with school goin on. I hate my classes. I dread them all! First isn't bad, Human Services. Second, Ag is really boring but yeah...Chemistry is really hard. I don't understand like, anything. It's pretty sad. You know it's bad when Ben doesn't even understand it that well. Fourth is kinda fun cause theres alotta loud mouth people in there and Mrs.Richardson doesn't care lol...but I hate speakin in front of the class. Last night we had our first home football game. I think it was like 14-32. We lost...oh well! After the game the 11th grade (my class) had a dance and Dustin DJ'd. He danced to 'Yeah' just like Usher does...he's gonna be famous one day and i'll be like hey, I know him! haha!...it had to be the highlight! Either that or the newest odd couple at Hannan high. HaHa anyways. Today hasn't been great i'm bout to beat someone down. Bad day, don't ask! Well i'm gonna go i'll c-y'all...later.

School SUX!!!
I can't believe the summer is almost over =[ it's really depressing! Less than 9 hours left of the summer. That's so sad. School sucks...it causes depression. LoL, I can't wait til thanxgiving break! hehe. Anyways, i'm pretty aggravated with my mom she was supposta make me a nail apt. i've been asking her to since May and back then she was like why don't you wait til school starts. Well school is starting tommorow and I asked her to call for an apt. a week ago and she ALWAYS has an excuse. It really makes me mad. I would do it, but mom is good friends with the woman who does em, and she has to call her house and I don't know her so I don't wanna call. Also, i'm mad cuz I want to get my hair cut before school and i've been tellin her this for like 2 weeks and the last time we were at the mall she was like just wait til sumtime next week, you have plenty of time. Well, I asked her to take me today and she threw a fit. I am so sick of this BS. I can't wait til I get my lisence in a few months...then til I turn 18 so I can do stuff by myself and not have to rely on any1 else. I have no idea what to wear to school tommorow. It's supposta be almost 90 degreez. I was hopin to go to the mall so I could get a few more shirts...cuz I have like $80. I hope I have all my classes with my friends. I know I have at least 2 of em with friends this semester. I dunno about the other 2 though *crosses fingers* LOL! I can't wait to see all my friends tommorow. I've only seen Ben like 3 times, and I only talked to him twice. Once at the store, once at the mall and all I sed was Hey! Great huh? I miss all my other people that I haven't even seen once. Well, i'm gonna get off here and go do somethin productive. Yea right...Bye!!

I <3 Rodney!
This is great. I actually feel older. I dunno really if it's that, but i've been lookin forward to it forever sooo. Now that it's finally here =] yay. LoL. Guess i'll tell ya what I got.
Mom and Dad got me a 20" flat screen TV, A care bear comforter for my bed, a watch, some body lotion, and they gave me a car...it's driveable but it needs a lil work to the engine...other than that it looks awesome. It's a Silver 95 Chrysler Cirrus. YAY! I could get my liscense now (if I had all my hours in.) but I think i'm gonna wait until the first of the year to get it. My aunt got me some lil Care Bear figurines to sit in my room, and this lil coat like thing. Jenn n Tabi....you know what i'm talkin bout cuz I dunno what it's called lol. Jenn n Tabi gave me $10 each, Cody got me a watch...lol I have 2 now!, Rodney Atkins CD, A big stuffed Eeyore with a beanie butt lol and a change purse thingy. His Grandma & them got me a stuffed Eeyore, and a sweater thingy. Becky, JD and Zoe (lol) got me a cute T-shirt that has a bazooka Joe bubble gum van on it. I guess his mom and Jeanne got me sumthin too...or that's what he sed. They jus hadn't given it to him. I wish none of them woulda bought me anything. I'm glad they did I liked everything they got me but I didn't really deserve it. LoL. Anyways...my cake was really pretty! It had Care Bears on it =] i'm so childish...haha. Jenn, Tabi, n Cody came over last nite. Cody didn't leave til like 11:45 or later. After that me n Tabi watched CMT and Americas Funniest videos and laughed our butts off. It was greatness! Jenn was talkin on the computer to a certain sum1 til 2 ;) hehe. We didn't go to sleep til almost 2:30 and Jenn went home at like 10 and Tabi went home at 11:30 or sumthin. I kept dozin off after she left and I didn't get up for good until like almost 2. LoL. Anyways....i'm gonna go and watch TV. I got some great lyrics here for yah...it's a very goofy song...lol!

[Rodney Atkins - Sing along]
-Yeah.
If you could read my mind, you might slap my face.
If you could see inside my heart, you'd see it's in the right place.
-See, it's like bunnies in a Bramble, or honey bees in a hive.
Whenever I'm beside you, that's my paradise.
Might be a twisted way of sayin', I ain't proud, an' no offence,
But I been thinkin' 'bout you, baby, in the future tense.
-We'll take it slower than a broke-knee'd turtle.
Yeah, we'll get tighter than your grandma's girdle.
Oh, I want you, I need you, an' I'll never do you wrong.
If you're feelin' what I'm singin', baby: sing along.
-Ain't no moonshine maker, ain't no man of the cloth.
Ain't no kangaroo lawyer, but I will get you off.
'Cause anything worth doin's worth doin' again,
An' again, an' again, an' when,
-We're dancin' slower than a broke-knee'd turtle.
Gettin' tighter than your grandma's girdle.
Oh, I want you, I need you, an' I'll never do you wrong.
If you're feelin' what I'm singin', baby: yeah, sing along.
Yeah.
-I want you, I need you, an' I'll never do you wrong.
If you're diggin' what I'm singin', baby: just jump on in an' sing along.
-Slower than a broke-knee'd turtle.
Tighter than your grandma's girdle.
Don't say a word:
Mmm sing like a bird.
-Don't say a word:
Yeah, sing like a bird.
-Slower than a broke-knee'd.
Tighter than your grandma's.
Yeah.

Emerson Drive!!!
Hey guys. Tonight was awesome...I am soo lucky to have gotten to see my favorite band 2nite! (and meet em!) For me...they beat Jimmy Wayne. They are all so adorable but ya know Brad was the best cause he's ma man! In his John Deere shirt hehe! We got seats in the 6th row I took about 10 from there and this nice woman let us go up to the stage in frontta her so I got about 10 more pics of Brad lookin right at me almost every time. I found out sum stuff bout them I did not know 2nite. I'll Die Trying is going to be their new single after November (which came out a couple days ago) and they sed it's the #1 most added songs on the radio right now. I am soooo happy for them. They deserve to have so much more than what they have right now. They are the best ever! Also I found out that Mike's last name 'Melancon' is pronounced like...Mellinsun. All along i'd been sayin Mellincon. Some fan I am...haha j/k. Also when I was gettin autographs I was talkin to Dale about our last names cuz we have the same (made that obvious...lol) I told him we had the same last name n he was like Cool! Is it A-C-E too and i'm like yeah and he asked me if i'd ever did any reasearch on my family tree and I said well kinda n he told me bout just finding out who his greatx2 grandma was. I was like hmm then I should really look that up I could be related to you n he said anythings possible...ofcourse, I made a fool of myself when I was talkin to him cuz I was tounge tied. LoL but Newayz, then Patrick Boroque (The bassist) told me that he's originally from Australia. I did not know that! He has the accent n everything (like Keith Urban) Almost everytime i've met sum1 this year i've embarrassed myself. When I met Rodney Atkins after the show he put his hand out n I grabbed it n knocked the marker outta his hand n it fell n almost rolled offa the table lol. Then I was gettin a pic with Jimmy Wayne and he was talkin to Tabi and I thought he was talkin to me about her mom and I was like Oh she's not my mom and he was like Oh I wasn't sayin to you that she was I was jus talkin straight so I didn't have to turn away from the camera and I was like aww i'm sorry and I got all embarrassed and he was like aww come here and he put his arm around me n they snapped the pic. LoL! Anyway...Brad got offa the stage n sang in the audience. It was like flies on crap. 4 real. LOL! He was lettin people sing into the mic I wish he woulda came over to us. Brad sed every1 could come up to the stage for the last song...and when they left every1 chanted "One more!" and they came back out n sang Forever young and Still got yesterday I ended up gettin to touch Danicks hand cuz him and David were in frontta me the whole time. After the show we waited in line for autographs for like 45 mins. They didn't have any shirts I wanted so I jus decided to get this one on their site I found that has all the 2004 tour dates on the back. They had this awesome hoodie but it was $60 so I was like haha dream on. I got a pic signed and my What if? CD. Then at the end of the line I asked Brad if he would take a pic with me and he was like Sure! So mom took it. We were very close HEHE! I can't wait to get em developed. Cody's supposed to do it for me tommorow =) I can't wait to see them again. I wish the best of luck to them in the future they've really got somethin good goin for them!!! But yeah, we kinda got lost on the way home but we made it out...lol! I didn't get home til like 12 sumthin. I guess i'm goin to Carter Caves now. Bobbi wants to go so we're gonna go with Cody n follow Jeanne and Eric up Friday morning. Tabi might be goin also but we're not 100% sure yet. I hope so though! I think i'm gonna get goin now tho, cuz i'm really tired! I hope I dream about my boys cause that's all i've been thinkin about all day. GOSH!!!! Tonight was friggin awesome! Can't wait til the next time! Ahh! =) TTYL! Byez!

Watchin TRL...
Hey everyone. Yesterday was great...Cody got alotta stuff. A guitar, and alotta stuff for his truck and some clothes. I got him a hoodie, a CD, and I made him a cake. =) Everyone thought it was good...lol! Today I went school shoppin. I did a lil shoppin last week too tho. Guess i'll tell ya what I got lol...
Kohls
Maroon athletic-ish pants
White SO shirt to go with em
Unionbay jeans
SO jeans
Levis
SO khaki-ish pants
Blue Care Bear shirt
Red Strawberry shortcake shirt
Leo <~ my sign...sandals
Pink carrying bag...back-packish thingy. LoL.
Blue Care Bear PJ pants
Aeropostale
Turquoise shirt
Long sleeve black shirt
Pink hoodie
Light blue sweater w/ white tank underneath
Brown cargo pants
Pink/White/Maroon sandals
American Eagle
Blue/White/Purple purse
JcPenneys
White tank
Pink, blue, green striped long sleeve shirt
Finish Line
K-swiss shoes...with red stripes, CUTE!
Wal-Mart
A few notebooks, pens, pencils & binders
Some new make-up!
Anyways...
We saw Jeanne [Cody's aunt] in Kohls today and I felt so bad for her. Some girl came up to them in the mall and told them her dad used to be a police officer and that some guy was like following her and Luke and they were all freaked out...I think I scared her when I yelled her name when I saw her...LoL. Tommorow is Emerson Drive @ Meigs. Mom called today and you can start buyin tickets at 5 so I think we are gonna leave here around 3:30 or so. Cuz it takes like an hour to get there. I am sooo excited! I haven't seen Brad (in person) since May 13! LoL! I can't hardly contain myself! HaHa...i'm so pitiful! Oh well I guess a girl can dream! HeHe! Oh yeah I went out to the school to get my schedule today. I saw Mr.Dewhurst and I cried...i'm really gonna miss him! I guess i'll tell ya the classes I am signed up for.
-First Semester
1 - Mrs.Pyles...Human Services
2 - Mrs.Mullins...Ag & Natural Resources 1
3 - Mrs.Matheny...Advanced Chem
4 - "Teacher"???...Advanced Communications
-Second Semester
1 - Mr.Barr...Advanced Biology
2 - Mrs.Hagley...English 11
3 - Mrs.Edmunds...Algebra 2
4 - Mrs.Shaw...20-21 Century History
I'm pretty much gonna be changin my 3rd period for 2nd semester cuz I told Mrs.Romans that I wanted to switch to Trig with Linger. Hopefully I can get that worked out sumhow! Well i'm gonna get goin. TTYL! Bye-Bye!

Boringness!
UgH! The fair is over...i'm always depressed a few days after it's over! Oh well...only 360 some days til next year...haha. Well I guess i'll highlight my past week.
Monday - Worked FFA booth, showed my pig, got 54th place out of 111.
Tuesday - Rode rides...thas about all!
Wednesday - Worked in the morning again, watched Tabi & Jenn show the moos, watched the lip sync, and watched Rodney Atkins with mom, dad and Cody...Me and mom got to meet him afterwards, got a cup holder autographed, and got a pic with him. And he also posed for a few pics for me while he was on stage! AwEsOmE!
Thursday - This day was BLAH! I slept a lot, it rained and stuff then Billy Currington ended up cancelling but David Lee Murphy filled in for him. Me, mom, Cody, and Tabi watched him. He was awesome n i've always liked him. =) It would sprinkle every now and then thru the show just a lil but we sat out there and he congratulated us for that hehe! Ne ways...After the show I had him sign a dollar bill and I got a pic with him.
Friday - I sold my pig 215 lbs. $2.50 a pound then when I got done I watched some other sales. After that rode some rides...watched a lil bit of Rick K. and the Allnighters and then acted all depressed the resta the night. Tabi...it was very sad!!!!
Saturday - Picked up my check. I got $533 dollars outta that pig! HEHE I'll only get to keep about $200 of it though. Oh well...I'll be okay! LoL! Rode rides from like 1-4 then went to the camper with Tabi and well...we were sittin in there and saw Jimmy Waynes tour bus pull in and yeah we ran outside and Travis <~ Tabi's bro was like "Omg I just saw him!" and we ran over there n looked and he was sittin in the front of the bus wavin at us so we went n got cameras n took pics! He mentioned it in the show later that night. We were like THAT WAS US!!! haha! There were LOTS of people there. I was in the 2nd row but he ended up tellin us to come up to the stage-side and I got some really good pics cuz I was right in front. I got em developed today. =) He had me laughin, cryin, singin...ahh he's a really great entertainer. And might I add. VERY HOT! lol...ya'll know this! Afterwards I took my CD up for him to sign then afterwards he took a picture with me and Tabi with her camera, but we don't know if they're gonna develop. But it'll be okay if it don't. I have a pic of me huggin him on my camera that I got developed and plus he's gonna be in Gallipolis on Oct.10 and i'm gonna try to go! The resta the time til the fair closed (until next year) awww =( Me n Cody walked around n then went back to the camper til 12:15 or so when he left.
Today - Came home from the fairgrounds around 10, then went to town around 1 and ate at Chili's for my mommys birthday. I got her peony body spray and lotion and a pumpkin spice candle in B&BW and dad got her a shirt and Victorias Secret perfume "Very Sexy 2" It smells awesome! I also went shopping for Cody's birthday...which is tommorow! He will be 19. I spent like $50 on him. I hope he likes what I got him. I shall tell y'all bout it later. I have a surprise for him tommorow. I think i'm a'goin over to his house tommorow. Should be greaaaaat! LoL. YAY! I went to see my Grandma today in the hospital. She fell Friday and ended up breakin her shoulder. They have her on morphine now n she didn't have enough oxygen in her blood so she's a lil loopy as of now. So, she really needs everyones prayers right now...
Anyways...
My birthday is a week from tommorow. I can't freakin wait. And i'm goin to see Emerson Drive on the 18th YAY! My Braddy! I love ED =) I want a picture with Brad sooo bad! AHH! Well I guess i'm gonna go now and get in bed soon. I'm tired. C~Y'all around! Bye Bye!

Jimmy Wayne is SO hot!
So...mom and dad took up the camper to the fairgrounds this afternoon. We are right behind Tabi and diagonal from Kim & Jenn. So yeah, that's good. I'm glad we are all close n such =] I sooo have to start packin when I get offa here cause I think we may be stayin up there tommorow night too cause they're makin us pay. Ehh...who knows! Yea I won't be talkin to Cody today, he went to Ohio I guess...I got on here and I had an e-mail tellin me he'd be home late tonight....bleh. I'm sittin here watchin the 100 greatest love song concert on CMT. Joe Nichols and Sara Evans are the hosts. Why does Joe have to be so darn good lookin. I am such a sucker for that shaggy hair. Myyyy gosh! I hope Jimmy Waynes hair has grown back by now. HeHe. [He got it cut off a couple months ago...rumors were that he cut it cause people kept getting him confused with Keith Urban. I actually don't think his real fans would, and that's all that should matter but oh well.] Oh yea, also I found out that Rascal Flatts new CD comes out September 28. I can't wait! Well i'm gonna show ya a pic of Jimmy Wayne (and his straight fro Jenn...haha!) Ahhh! I get to see him exactly a week from today! Oh yeah Tabi when you get on remind me to show you a pic I found. It's freakin hilarious! I'm gonna go y'all! Later!

2 more days!!!
Hey everyone! Today I got up at like 10 and went to Kohl's with my mommy and got 2 pairs of jeans then went to the mall and I got 2 shirts in JcPenney and a new pair of shoes in Finish Line. Might I add that I saw Ben, Amanda D. and Marissa. I got home around 2-3ish and went to sleep for a bit and later on Me, Jenn, Grace & Kim all went to the mall AgAiN! And we got shirts airbrushed for Jimmy. They say "We love you this much. Jimmy Wayne MCF 2004." Then they say our names on the back, and we got him one made too and we all signed the back. After that we went to Burger King cuz Kim and Grace were hungry and me and Jenn got milkshakes then we went to Wal-Mart n had a great experience with the retarded self-pay registers. LoL. Don't I always!? haha. But yeah, tommorow i'm gonna be packin for the fair and I hope I can see Cody somehow. I haven't gotten any time with him and it feels really weired. I am startin to miss him like crazy cause things have been really retarded. I don't even think we talked longer than 2 minutes today. I wuv my Cody!!! Oh yep, it's been 7 months and 1 week as of today =] hehe! Well I think i'm gonna go...i'm gonna post some pictures before I depart though. Sorry guys, there's a lot of pictures of guys. LOL. Enjoy em anyway! I hope I don't get in trouble for borrowing em from the websites. LoL. I'll give em credit though. [emersondrive.com & joenichols.com] Thanks to them and thanks to Ashleigh for tellin me how to get these darn pics on here! =]

The doggies! Patches is in the chair & my baby Jazzie is on the top of it. AWWW!


And of course, this is me...sorry it's scary. My hair looks really orange in these pics. It's orangeish (from the beach) but it's bout time for a new dye application...lol


The newest additions to the family...Tinkerbell & Cookie. HeHe!


One word. Perfection. But don't be gettin any ideas...he's all mine! =]


Once again...effin' gorgeous! =]


This is Joe Nichols...for those of you who aren't sure of who the guy is that I was obsessing over last night...lol.

Joe Nichols is VERY great =)
Tonight was soooo great! We left around 5:30 to go to the fair and first we stopped at Sam Goodys so I could get Ashlee Simpsons CD then we got to the fair, went and talked to Bobbi and then rode the Typhoon and some other ride, then we went over to the stage and got some eats...then we pretty much just sat there til he came out. It was awesome! He sang til like 9:35 then he went offstage and everyone kept yellin n like 5 minutes later he came back out and sang til 10. It was the best when he sang "Family Tradition" though =) hehe! After he went offstage me and Tabi went lookin to see if he was doin autographs cuz we bought pics. He said he wasn't going to sign any but there was a big crowd on one side of the tour bus, and then me and Tabi were on the other side where there were only like maybe 15 people. Well he went to the big crowd first and then all of us girls were like chantin "We want Joe!" & "We love you more!" So he finally came over to us and I got my pic signed and he let us take pics so I got like 6 or 7 pictures of him where I was in touching distance...I can't wait to get them developed! He is amazing & looks SOOO much *better* in person! He reminds me of Cody when I jus glance at him...so yeah, that's perfect for me! After we left me and Tabi really hadda pee sooo Cody went to Point but everywhere was closed so we went back to Gallipolis an went in Taco Bell. Well, we ended up seeing Kim, Grace, Annie and Keshia there so we talked to them for a few minutes. Well we were almost to R&L and we found out we had been behind Joe's tour bus which was AwEsOmE! Cody layed on the horn and Tabi put her autographed picture up to the window when they turned off! Awww...this is sad. I can't even imagine how sad it's gonna be after I see Jimmy & Billy...then Emerson Drive. LoL! Tommorow i'm gonna go shoppin a lil for stuff to weat at the fair. Should be fun =) I dunno if we're stayin with Kim tommorow night but I hope so! I'm glad I decided not to cheer, but best of luck to Tabi and Jenn. It's gonna be a good break for me, then ima try my senior year! Well i'm gonna get outta here y'all.
-3 days til the fair!!!

Oh yea. Just wanted to update and tell ya'll what i'm up to. Today was $h.... (need I say more, don't think so!) HaHa...I just added this gurl from Cody's MSN list to mine and I actually didn't mean to. I was on his name lookin at profiles and I found out how to edit my profile and I typed in the same adress after I got onto my name and it didn't work so I thought oh i'll just add her e-mail then find that site again from her profile I gonna be like what the h%&# when she gets the message that I added her. Oh well, maybe Cody will see this and tell her what happend even though that's really embarrasing! Maybe I just make too big of a deal outta everything. I think that's it...lol. Okay i'm gonna stop obsessing =]
And so on...
I soooo need to start packing for the fair! Tabi told me she packed a lil the other day. I haven't even thought about all the stuff i'm gonna need. This will be worse than packin for the Beach. Only + side to that is if I forget anything I wouldn't have to drive 10 hours to come back and get it =P But yeah, I know i'm gonna have to get that packing done soon cause tommorow i'll probably be helpin get the camper ready, and then in the evening goin to see Joe Nichols. I think it may be possible that i'm more excited about seein Bobbi Jane than I am him. My gosh it took a stupid guy and a lil argument to realize how much I miss one of my best friends! Then Friday we're goin to get our Jimmy Wayne airbrushed shirts YAY!...then Kim said sumthin bout Me, Tab and Jenn coming over but i'm thinkin it won't work out...but I hope so =] ...I might go to church Sunday night if we defi. don't go up to the camper that night. I haven't been in a long time. It makes me feel terrible, ehhh...I think i'm gonna get outta here now, it's time for me to go bed. I still dunno what i'm gonna do about Cheerleading. It's not lookin too sunny! Well TTYL! <3.Shama.<3

My Favorite song right now...
~On a Monday I am waiting
Tuesday I am fading
And by Wednesday I can’t sleep
Then the phone rings I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cause you’ve come to rescue me
~Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts
~Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
~I am moody and messy
I get restless and it’s senseless
How you never seem to care
When I’m angry you listen
Make me happy it’s your mission
And you won’t stop till I’m there
~Fall, sometimes I fall so fast
When I hit that bottom crash
You’re all I have
~Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
~How do you know?
Everything I’m about to say
Am I that obvious?
And if it’s written on my face
I hope it never goes away
Yea
~On a Monday I am waiting
By Tuesday I am fading
Into your arms
So I can breathe
~Ohhhh
It seems like I can finally
Rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhh
It’s as if you know me better
Than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

Anyway...
Today Sarah called and wanted me and Cody to go bowling but I didn't feel up to it plus I was gonna help out with the camper. I layed around mosta the day. I guess Me, Cody, Jenn and Tabi are gonna go to the Gallia County fair tommorow, jus for something to do. I may go shopping in the morning though and i'm not sure what time i'll be home. I can't wait until this week is over I am so bored. I hate this boredom...I think this could possibly qualify as one of the worst summers i've ever had if it wasn't for all the great times i've had with Cody. I dunno, I guess it has just went by too fast. It doesn't feel like it's been 2 months already, it feels like 2 weeks. And it's so hard to believe I have to deal with 9 more months of HELL until I get the next summer break that feels like 2 weeks. Ahh, maybe next summer won't be like that. I should look on the bright side =) LoL. Well i'm gonna get outta here. Farewell!
-6 days til the fair starts!

Oh yeah, I found out how to make my entries friends only and i'll be doing that to some of them from now on...so anyone that wants to read it and doesn't have woohu...let me know and if my heart desires, i'll getcha in =)

This song is great...especially when Kenny Chesney sings it ;)
There's a lot of ways of sayin' what I want to say to you,
There's songs and poems and promises and dreams that might be true.
But I wont talk of stary skies or moonlight on the ground,
I'll come right out and tell you, I'd just love to lay you down.

Lay ya down and softly whisper pretty love words in your ear.
Lay ya down and tell you all the things a woman loves to hear.
I'll let you know how much it means just havin' you around.
Oh darlin', how I'd love to lay you down.

There's so many ways your sweet love made this house into a home.
You've got a way of doin' little things that turn me on.
Like standin' in the kitchen in your faded cotton gown,
With your hair all up in curlers, I'd still love to lay ya down.

Lay ya down and softly whisper pretty love words in your ear.
Lay ya down and tell you all the things a woman loves to hear.
I'll let you know how much it means just havin' you around.
Oh darlin', how I'd love to lay you down.

When a whole lot of Decembers are showin' in your face.
Your auburn hair has faded and silver takes it's place.
You'll be just as lovely and I'll still be around.
And if I can, I know that I'd still love to lay you down.

Lay ya down and softly whisper pretty love words in your ear.
Lay ya down and tell you all the things a woman loves to hear.
I'll let you know how much it means just havin' you around.
Oh darlin', how I'd love to lay you down.

Lay ya down and softly whisper pretty love words in your ear.
Lay ya down and tell you all the things my woman loves to hear.
I'll let you know how much it means just havin' you around.
Oh darlin', how I'd love to lay you down.

Lay ya down and softly whisper pretty love words in your ear.
Lay ya down and tell you all the things my woman loves to hear.
I'll let you know how much it means just havin' you around.
Oh darlin', how I'd love to lay you down...

"West Virginias sexy when the sun goes down!"
Hey every1...i'm jus sittin here watchin CMTs 20 funniest videos. It's hilarious, lol. Anyways, last night was AWESOME! I can't even explain! 1st Uncle Kracker came out at 7:30 n sang like 5 songs, then Rascal Flatts sang for an hour and Kenny Sang for 2 and then everyone came out on the stage and they all danced around n stuff. Gosh they sang ahh lotsa songs lol, and they played, Jack and Diane some Guns n Roses and AC/DC. Kenny Chesney sang "Lay you down" hehe soo that was hot! lol. Some girl ran up on stage and Kenny like pushed her away and security guards came n got her...lol there were like bras flyin on the stage and stuff...CrAzY!! haha On the last 2 songs my aunt got to take a security guard with her down to the front row and she got pictures about 2 feet away from Joe Don and a few others, I was with her to begin with but I left. I'm really sad it's over, I don't have ne thing to look forward to until Aug.5 when I see Joe Nichols. I hope Kenny comes back next year =) I got me a keychain and a shirt. They're pretty much greatness lol. We didn't get home til like 1:30 or 2...Then I went to bed around 3. OmG today mom and dad went to town and when they came inside when they got back and they bought 2 baby guinea pigs! They're so cute...haha! ANYWAYZ! I can't wait til the fair. Only 2 weeks or so. YAY! Well i'm gonna go! Byeeeee!

Watch out West Virginia for that long black train...
Wednesday - Went to church...Thursday - Went with Cody to Ohio to watch the boys play basketball...Friday - Me and Cody went shoppin...Today - Me and Cody (once again) went to the Putnam County fair to see Josh Turner, the first lil bit sucked cuz people were standin in our way and you couldn't hear him very well n then a whole buncha people started complainin about it and they turned it up finally lol there was a woman beside us that was all mad cuz of it, she was really nice though she offered me one of her chairs to sit in cuz we were on the ground...so I was like okay! haha (me and Cody didn't think to bring our own...lol) But yeah that concert was awesome...I love Josh Turner he has some really good songs off his CD! Everyone went crazy on Long black train (both times he sang it...lol) and What it ain't...I wish I could see him again! He's great! I got like at least 5 pictures, one of em is REALLY close, I don't care if any of the others develop, I just want that one!! LoL! Anyways, after that Me n Cody walked around with Bradley and saw some other people we knew then around 10 or so we left and went to Wendy's then came home. HAHA when we were at Wendy's, Josh's tour bus went by I was like OMG! LoL! Tommorow I have to go stay the nite with my aunt and i'm gonna go drivin I guess so I can get some hours then I can get my liscense on my birthday or the week after. I dunno what i'm gonna do the rest of the week but the Kenny Chesney concert is Saturday and i'm so siked! =) Well i'm gonna get outta here! I'm gonna leave ya with a pretty song.....

~Some men dream of crossin’ oceans
Some men dream one day to fly
Spend their whole lives out there floatin’
On the water and the sky
~Some men dream of building fortunes
Some men dream of havin’ fame
Nothin’ else is more important
Than makin’ money and a name
~But In My Dreams I see
A little sky blue house
Beside a small stream
A front porch, a screen door
The sound of bare feet runnin’ and cartoons
In My Dreams, your dreams come true
~I come find you in your garden
Pullin’ weeds between the rows
Trade a kiss for a glass of water
Sit and watch what love can grow
~But In My Dreams I see
A little sky blue house
Beside a small stream
A front porch, a screen door
The sound of bare feet runnin’ and cartoons
In My Dreams, your dreams come true
~In My Dreams, your dreams
Are the only things
That really matter to me
When you smile, I smile
What makes you happy makes me happy too
In My Dreams, your dreams come true
In My Dreams, your dreams come true

[How far do I have to go to make you understand?]
Holy crap...I could jump to the sky and bring back a star!!!
[Cody you may not wanna read this hun!]
Tabi found a picture of Brad Mates...with his shirt off and a baseball hat and sunglasses on! That's not even the half of it!!!! Oh boy! He has his nipple peirced and I didn't even know til I just saw it. That is sooo sexy. He's great!!! If anyone wants to see it just tell me...there was also a pic of him on a boat and he was showing off the fish he'd just caught! There were some others, he looked as adorable as usual! =)
Now I guess I gotta make up for that cuz I told Cody not to read it but I know how he is and I know he did anyways...lol. I know you get all angry about me being obsessed and all that jazz but you knew I was like that before you started dating me...just remember that I love you and You ARE my reality...he isn't! ='( haha j/p!! So for the 50 thousandth time...don't worry about it babe. You're jus as adorable as he is! LoL! Okay now, next subject lol. Today/Yesterday I did a WHOLE lot of nothin! I planned on it...but it just wasn't happenin for me. lol. Tommorow/Today *i'm so confusing* Cody, me, Jenn n Tabz are goin bowling. It should be fun, I hope I own them all. That would be so great!!! Well ima go now, this update was kinda pointless (i'll add a survey) but hey that's how the cookie crumbles. LoL...later!!!
-9 days til I getta see Josh Turner
-15 days til Kenny Chesney, Rascal Flatts, Uncle Kracker concert
-30 days til the MCF starts...He77's yeah...haha!

[10 things in your room]
1: my cd player
2: my bed
3: posters
4: candles
5: TV
6: computer
7: shoes
8: Clothes
9: body spray
10: lotion
[9 things you love]
1: Cody...ofcourse
2: Country music
3: Brad Mates...betcha knew that was coming
4: Emerson Drive, in common! =)
5: my awesome friends
6: Rascal Flatts
7: my fam - including pets :P
8: huggin n kissin Cody...hehe
9: hangin out with friendz
[8 songs you love]
1: Emerson Drive [What if?]
2: Keith Urban [You're not alone tonight]
3: Scotty Emerick [I can't take you anywhere]
4: Keith Urban [Your everything]
5: Joe Nichols [Brokenheartsville]
6: Emerson Drive [Only God (could stop me loving you)]
7: Jimmy Wayne [Stay gone]
8: Brad Paisley & Allison Krauss [Whiskey Lullaby].......AHHH so many more!!!
[7 characterics you like about the other gender]
1: eyes
2: great smile
3: their voice...just the way they talk can b cute & I love the singin!!!
4: I love when guys are dressed all nice =P
5: sweetness
6: athletic
7: intelligence......this is basically only about my guy =)
[6 things that annoy you]
1: whores
2: annoying people (whiners, liars, loud mouths...etc.)
3: songs that they wear out on the radio n cmt
4: people who stick their long ugly nose in ur business when it shouldnt be there
5: 2 faced LIARS
6: friends that get a boyfriend and then practically forget you exist ...hmm?
[5 things your wearing]
1: grey, white and maroon EKU (college) shirt
2: white shorts
3: Cody necklace
4: ankle bracelet thingy that Kim made me
5: contacts
[4 of your nicknames]
1: Shama
2: Sharmers LOL
3: Mom calls me Sweet Pea every now n then lol
4: Shamane <~ only Luke n Ben call me that when they see my learners but I gotta name 4...so yeah! lol
[3 words to describe you]
1: crazy
2: fun
3: giggly
[2 clothing brands you wear]
1: Aeropostale
2: Old Navy
[1 thing you can't live without]
1: Air? lol

..You and me goin' fishin' in the dark..
Hey everyone...today was intresting! Lotza fun!!! Cody n I were gonna go to Dairy Queen n then go to Church but he came to my house n told me that Church was a business meeting (so we didn't go) well we got halfway down the road n he asked if I wanted Jenn to go with us cuz I was all sad there wasn't gonna be no church n I couldn't see Jenn n I misses her =( and so we called and Tabi ended up bein there also...they didn't think they were gonna get 2 go but they ended up goin ne wayz lol...well we went to the Dairy Queen in Gallipolis and then went to Wal-Mart to be retarded and then we went on like 10 different back roads...and a field..............FULL OF COWS! It was pretty much scary! lol I had no clue where we were...Cody stopped and Jenn picked up a lysol can somewhere along the way cuz I was like OMG Cody stop I want that can...but Jenn threw it and we drove on haha! yeah we were gonna go out more roads but poor Tabi got sick so we took her and Jenn home and then I got home around 9:45. We sooo needa do that again =) I think we're all gonna go out again n go bowling Friday. Wooohu! Tommorow I think I may see if Cody wants to come over n swim unless theres somethin else I gotta do or the pool or weather isn't warm I may jus save that for another dat in the week...I dunno....hehehehe! Yea jus a bit ago I was readin old journal entrys and u know what? Why did I ever allow myself to be upset all the time over Luke when Cody was right there the whole time watchin it n still liked me. BLAH! and why did I get such bad grades over him and bein upset all the times...seriously! When I was with him I had like all C's and when I was in school and with Cody I had all A's and B's. That's really depressing! I know next year i'm gonna try my hardest so I can prove to myself that i'm not stupid...and it made mom and dad so happy when I brought home that 3.8 report card and I would love to see them that happy with my last *8* report cards. It'd be awesome! I'm kinda lookin forward to football season...not school all that much! Actually this summer has been pretty good, even thought I haven't spent much of it with some other friends that I would like to such as Jenn, Ben, Sarah, Em, Kim...I guess I just miss them a little and it seems like school is the only thing that's gonna cure that. Ehhh!!! I see Tabi every now and then and Cody like every other day. Aw. Cody I love youuuu. Just thought i'd add that in there. HAHA. I can't wait til the fair it's gonna be so much fun (AND i'll get to be with friends!) Jimmy Wayne...Billy Currington...& others! AHH and the fresh smell of dirty animals and their poop! haha, that sounds gross but when I go by a farm or sumthin I think of the fair...I guess it's really not that far away! And the Kenny Chesney concert is in like 2 weeks...It's also gonna be awesome. We got our tickets and they are Lower Level, Row N. Me n Codez gonna have a blast. There is sooo much to look forward to =) Ahhh...Well i'm gonna go but i'm gonna post this entry from awhile back that I found that is mostly for Jenn and Tabi to look at. I don't wanna make you all sad, cuz it made me sad but I started thinkin bout school and stuff earlier n I jus thought ya'll would like to see TTYL...XOXO

2003 6 November :: 3.46 pm
:: Mood: sad
Today was REALLY depressing. It was dark and rainy! and the worst of all, sumthin I cried and moped around about all day. Mr.Lambert is leavin sumtime next week to go to Iraq to fight in the war for 18 months or so. He is the most awesome teacher. I don't know what i'm gonna do without him there, he picked on me and made me mad every day, but for some reason I still liked him and his class. When he told us that he got his call today, me and Bobbi just started cryin and he was like girls why are you crying? and we were like OMG cuz we don't want u to leave! and like before we left for lunch we were talking about who the sub was gonna be while we were gone n he was like...."I don't know who the sub will be but no one will take care of you all like I do, and i'm gonna miss you all." and we just like all broke down. That makes me think back to the times when I was upset over Luke when I came back from lunch and he would always say sumthin funny about Luke and joke around with me and make me feel better and he would tell me some of him and Luke's fishing storys and stuff how Luke goes over to his house all the time cause Luke's cousin Aimee is married to Mr.Lamberts other son :( Another day I was really sick and he was worried about me and stuff...and another day Bobbi was crying and he brought her tissues and asked if she was gonna be okay...there's been way more times than that but that's just some that have really made me realize that he cares about us. Something else that hurts is today when he was checkin my timeline he was like, "Shama, who's gonna pick on you when i'm gone?" and I was like "I don't know i'm gonna miss you though I don't want you to leave." and he said "why? I pick on you every day you all seem like you hate me." I think he knows we don't but it feels weired to think he might think we do when actually he's one of our fav. teachers. His son is graduating in the Spring and he isn't even going to be here to see it. That's like the most depressing thing...my gosh I could never go through anything like that. I hope I can make it in that class without him teachin me. He is one of the best teachers in the world I can like always understand what he means n stuff...it's just all gonna be weired from now on, with that class an all. He is allowed to retire in December so he doesn't even know if he will be back to teach here anymore. It's so odd though. When he makes it back, most of us will be seniors, unless by some chance he gets back sooner (which I hope.) But yea i'm gonna change the subject cause I don't wanna cry anymore :( We love you Mr.Lambert! Good Luck!...