Shea's thoughts

Shea's thoughts

tare	:: 2007 9 October :: 9.43am I knew being patient would work out. =] Do you want to see some drama?

.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 8 October :: 3.28pm

goodbye red robin hooray!!!

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 8 October :: 12.06am

So today i was in a really horrible mood. really life isn't that bad. i am just really really stressed and overwhelmed. i have too much stuff going on.

what it comes down to is that i am horrible at making decisions. and yeah

gosh now i forgot what i was going to say.

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:: 2007 7 October :: 6.53pm

what the hell is a wedding anyway.

fuck this shit . i need a mother fucking vacation i swear to god if i wouldn't lose my scholarship i would leave this stupid fucking country in an instant. fuck the sholarship, i'm going to lose it anyway because there is no god damn way i'm passing that fucking class. who the fuck am i kidding whydidn't i just enroll in chic or some shit so i could actually have some income by now. seriously how the hell do people even fucking do it. theres no fucking way . i'd say i shoudl move back in with my parents but fuck it they are moving to florida anyway so too god damn late for me.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 6 October :: 7.21pm

okay so red flannel is like scary and loud and ugly

and i dont know if i can go to one ever again. it had good parts and i liked the band competition but i couldn't wait to leave. i know, bad right but i duno

whatev

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 2 October :: 10.46am

Okay so I work on Wednesday and then I don't work again until Sunday.

I have to tell you guys something...

I'm so excited for Friday and Saturday. AHHH i'm such a loser. I've never been way excited for RED FLANNEL DAY lol except when I was in a band-it was a pretty big deal because of the performance and parade. but still.

I am like counting down the day until the Friday game and excited for RFD and the nothingness. I dont know.

I miss...
home?

and guess what!

I HAVE AN INTERVIEW AT THE PLACE I WANT SO BADLY TO WORK AT YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

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tare

:: 2007 30 September :: 10.47pm
:: Music: silence

I could spend all day trying to figure out why things are taking the course they are, but why? At the end of the day it isn't up to me. Things are the way they are because that's how they're supposed to be. Life isn't going to be easy every step of the way... I need to realize that.

I am going to face hard times and extremely difficult obstacles. There are going to be times when I feel as if nothing is going right and my heart is going to hurt. I need to embrace life for what it is, and what I have... instead of cursing it because it isn't what I want. I'm 19 years old, how do I even know what I want?

I don't, that's the thing. I don't know where I want my life to be tomorrow, or next week, or next year. I just don't know. What I do know is that I love him and I want him in my life. I need to realize that just because I want it, doesn't mean it's what is best for me and God will let me know if he is or not. Sooner or later God will let me know where I'm going and what I'm doing. I need to have faith in that, I need to let him show me the way instead of thinking I can do it by myself, because I can't.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 29 September :: 7.55pm
:: Music: fever

well, if i never make it as a nurse at least i know i'll be a good housewife.

i make the best damn chocolate chip cookies ever.

i have the potential of being an excellant housewife.

sad.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 28 September :: 1.54pm

i feel so sick to my stomach because i dont want to go to work. i would do anything seriously to not go. i want so bad to just not even go in but i know thats wrong and stupid. but i've only worked there for like a month so it's not like they'd be a good reference anyway ughghghgh i should just not go in but i dunno

any advice?

i need a new fucking job.

i'm gonna call midnite sun and cruise right now and try to fucking get hired so i have an excuse not to go in!

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runningfreak

:: 2007 27 September :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: Classical

A bathe.

The one thing I never take because of time restrictions. Well I am making time for it tonight.

I deserve one.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 27 September :: 10.27am

ahh i love tr night. why does he have to be gay?

yay greys anatomy tonight i am so fricken excited.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 26 September :: 5.53pm

gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i need a new job.

please

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runningfreak

:: 2007 26 September :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: Elated

Perfect.

Absolutely perfect.

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.j.e.s.s.

:: 2007 25 September :: 8.20pm

college sucks

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runningfreak

:: 2007 24 September :: 1.23am

May there always be work for your hands to do;

May your purse always hold a coin or two;

May the sun always shine on your windowpane;

May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;

May the hand of a friend always be near you;

May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.

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