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2003 26 August :: 3.16 pm
:: Mood: content
Well school is out for the day, thank God. "Mr. H." is having us do a speech tomorrow and he told me I should bring my guitar in. I hope that goes over well.
I miss Dan so much, I'm not gonna be able to deal with this to much longer, and school just started 2 days ago.
I wish I could write as well as some other people I know. I wish I could.
Well I'm done
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2003 12 August :: 1.28 pm
:: Music: Marisa
I hate myself.
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2003 11 August :: 11.43 pm
:: Music: Counting Crows
It's been a while, I have not much to say. I'm changing and I don't like it, but I'm beginning to believe there's nothing I can do about it. I honestly think I've gone crazy. First off the band does need to practice more, we need to see eachother again. I'm sorry about the last day I talked to you. Second, Ryan when you come back I better be able to see you or I'm just gonna go crazy. Marisa, We need to hang out ...more. These things better happen or I'm going to kick all your guys' ass. And I'm serious. I don't like me now how I am. I changed and I hate it.
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2003 16 July :: 2.13 pm
:: Music: Angel
It seems as though it's time to give up. To pass in my chips and let the rain drag me away. And although outside the sun may be shining and the children laughing, inside the struggle to survive is greater than what anyone has ever seen. It feels like I'm the only one eho gets it. The only one who understands that when your feet hurt you can't walk anymore. Someday they'll listen.
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2003 14 July :: 8.23 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: crimson and clover
it's been awhile, I thought since it's been so long I might just throw all my thoughts out there so everyone can be pissed off at me complaining about my life. Well, I don't really care about you so fuck off.
First off I'm poor, I can't find a job and My gandma is pissing me off. I knew it was going to be a bad idea moving in there but theres noithing I can do about it now. I also broke my mom's car last Thursday because I got into a stupid car accident and it's going to cost me $1,000 to get it out of the shop. I have .25 cents to my name. I'm so pissed. I need help. We (Tim, My Mom and me) Don't even have money to pay for gas. It's a good thing we live with my gandma so we actually have food to eat. I'm so tired of it always being like this. I always get everything second hand and It sucks. Well thats my story of shit.
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2003 15 June :: 7.19 pm
:: Music: "Me and Bobby McGee" -Janis Joplin
broken
I sware to God I want to kill myself. I hate things so much. My mom's being a jerk and Dan is gonna start yelling at me. And I know I'm gonna be tempted to run away for at least a few days just drive south until I can't drive anymore then "MAYBE" I'll come back. I feel bad cause I was a jerk to Marisa yesterday. She wanted to go back to Sam's cause Dusty was there, and on our way there she said "hurry" but I was so pissed at my mom that I blew up at Marisa and I said "I don't fucking care about you and Dusty anymore" and I could tell that what I said hurt her a little bit but I was so angry I was driving 75 down Shaner. I gets really scary when you do that. But I really hope that she knows that I'm sorry. And I really didn't mean it. And on the other hand, Dan...
It's making me go crazy but I need to do it. I need to stop this. I need to be Me. I really feel like I wanna run away, this is so fucked up. I always told myself when I was little that I would never runaway because that never solved anything. But it seems that nothing is getting solved anyway so I might as well. Well, if I do....goodbye.
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2003 13 June :: 11.38 am
:: Mood: anxious
summer=he he he
well hello my friends. I haven't chated in a while. And do I have a lot to say. First off I have to say, Dan and I are on the verfe of being over. He doesn't know this, but in time he will. And I don't want to seem like a selfish bitch but i feel like our relationship has hit a brick wall and theres no turning around trying to go back. I love Dan so much but he doesn't understand that I need to be Molly for a while and not Chrissany. It feels like he still likes her but I guess this will all have to end. Marisa and Ryan both know that. Their the only two that I have talked to. And they both told me to go for it. So I'm gonna to try to make it as un-messy as possible.
On another note, Bright Lit City sounds beautiful, I'm not just saying that because I'm in the band, I'm saying that because I put my heart and soul into this band. and soon, my friends, you will hear it too.
well there's one more week for Ryan and we still have to do the thing. But I can't say what it is *wink**wink*
well I guess thats all that has happened to me I'll talk to you soon.
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2003 23 May :: 11.16 pm
:: Mood: happy
hello
hello everyone, I'm at my sisters house right now just chillin' with my sisters. It's quite nice my sister, Katie had a bon fire today and almost blew us all up. any way on another note.
Well today was a very emotional day for me, my seniors left. and if any of you seen me after school you would have seen me in my messy state. I cried so hard on the way home. If any of my fellow seniors read this...I will miss you dearly.hopefully someday we're both in the same boat.
Well on a different note then that, I got my license today and my car finally fixed. now all I need is a job and I'm all set. I can't believe I'd see the day when I'd be driving alone. I can't believe my mom actually trusts me to drive alone. It's crazy. well the day is going to start early tomorrow, it's my sister emily's birthday she turns 14 and my mission this summer is "#452: build up Emily's self confidence" she needs me to help her, and if we have any shows this summer you'll probably see me draging her along.well anyways I'll see some of you at school on Tuesday and some of you not: farewell and goodnight.peace!
Love Molly
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2003 16 May :: 2.58 pm
the time is near
Well it's Friday and I have nothing to do. Again. But oh well. I haven't seen Dan all day and I miss him. I don't know how it's gonna end up when he leaves school. I'll get through I'm sure. Well, Marisa has been glowy all day and I'm happy for her, she's finally getting what she came here for. And I know she needs it. Some many guys have broken her heart, and she comes and cries on my shoulder when they do. I don't really mind her crying on me,I'm just sick of seeing her hurt. It hurts me too, I feel what she feels and it just hurts a lot.
Well besides those kinds of things, life is pretty swell. I wish I had my damn license, but within time. Things are good. i love hanging out with my mom and Tim and I don't know if thats healthy. But I love it. Like the other day, Tim and I were fixing the car(replacing the water pump) and It was a bonding moment between us and it was cool it's taken me a long time to get used to Tim and it was just really cool. but anyways.
well I gotta go. so I will see ya all later. Love MOlly p.s.Marisa if you read this later give me a call.
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2003 14 May :: 4.03 pm
I heard the most beautiful song today. I don't know who plays it or sings it or who wrote it but it made me feel like I was high. Thats what music does for me. I could hear the most beautiful things and it has the same affect as marijuana. I don't know if that makes any sense but I tried. Marisa's making me watch a stupid Christina Aguilera video. The video was cool but the artist ( she doesn't deserve to be called an artist but oh well)sucks ass.shes such a bitch. anyways now that I got that out of my system.today has been one of those weird days. well i think it's time to bid you all "gooday" LoVe Mullally
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2003 10 May :: 8.19 am
DAYDREAM
My daydream seems as one inside of you
Though it seems hard to reach through this life
Your blue and hopeless life
My daydream screams bitter till the end
The love I share -true- selfish to the heart
My heart, my sacred heart
My daydream dream
My daydream
My daydream dream
My daydream
. . .
I'm going crazy
I'm going crazy
I don't want feelings
Your feelings
I have gone crazy
Motherfucking crazy
I have gone
The beautiful....SP.
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2003 10 May :: 8.00 am
today Bright Lit City plays at Solon township place thingy. So if anyone wants to show up they can. I just found out about this yesterday. It's at three so .....
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2003 9 May :: 10.45 am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: Queen-"another one bites the dust"
whats up everybpdy? we're at Krispy's house(senior skip day) we're just chillin' though. she's feeding me so I'm happy. Anyways, I realized that my journal entries usually have no point to them whatsoever so, you'll just have to bear with me for the time being.
I'm really pissed, lately I have become really close with God and with the christian religion within the past few months and I realized that I have not been doing what I am suppose to be doing as a christian. I have been trying to get people to believe but I have not been faithful myself. I don't know if this is making any sense or not but I hope you can bear with me.
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2003 6 May :: 7.09 pm
:: Music: none
hey whats up everyone? Its Tuesday and its been a very strange day. This morning I was very pissed off a lot. Things were bothering me so bad and I was about to go crazy. And all my Senior friends are leaving and I'm going to get really sad. Until I called my mom in 5th hour and she made me feel better. Well I'll see ya all later. Love Me.
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2003 24 April :: 2.57 pm
:: Mood: weird
:: Music: blah blahder blah
Hello everyone. I'm at the Bean right now with Marty and Marisa and Dan and Marty's little sister Kelly. We're all really bored with absolutely nothing to do except wait for my fricken mom.
Ya now what I realized, that Marisa is living in my shoes. shes going through all the things that I experienced like with men and everything. And it's really funny.
We have a show this Friday at the Bean. And I think that everyone should come And It would be cool. It's going to be acoustic set meaning just acoustic guitars. Not really unplugged but close enough. We have some new stuff. and we're sending out some sample tapes with a few songs on them that we're selling for $2.50 and stuff maybe a little more but it'll depend on Friday though. well I'll see ya all there.
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2003 20 April :: 5.20 pm
:: Music: "tears in heaven"-Eric Clapton
Today is Easter and I'm at my Grandma L.'s right now. I just got sone playing music for everyone. It was quite exciting. Well this morning I watched Dan get baptized and he made me cry when he was up there reading his testimony. It was very sad, but in a good way. I hope someday I'll be like that.
I know that Dan and I will be together for a long time. It feels like it's already been forever.
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2003 9 April :: 1.01 pm
Hello everybody. Its the dreadful morning. after a long night of .....partying? The band and I have now partyied together and Iloved every minute of it.Marisa 's here watching me type. hehehe I really never know what to write in these things so you're just gonna have to bear with me.well I'll see ya all later.
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2003 9 April :: 1.31 am
everuybodys fucked up riight noweespeciually . even marizzle he he he
Ineed food .marc doesn't like me....;//no you don't ,.he hehehe heh ehe i love cock, especially moo!marisa is peeing at the moment. I go get food.
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