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2005 22 November :: 12.00am
I love... music.
Love will tear us apart...
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A house of cards, a supple heart, is not a place to dwell. Now you have your cake, don't hesitate. C'mon just do it, c'mon just do it. Put it in your mouth, there is only now. Tomorrow has to wait. But know there's
No Backing out
This is going to be, reality, you can never dream and doubt.
I have no way of telling the two apart.
Well I made amends in the general sense
But the devils in the details. And I know the cards. And I want to stop
But I can't do it, I just can't do it. There was love i meant. There were accidents. So tell me which is which. Cause I just CAN'T WORK IT OUT. But for memory and for clarity, we had better write it down. I have no way of knowing the truth with timed results. . .I put the past into the ground, I saw the future as a cloud. If theres no time to turn around, I'm going to. It's just one day I fell asleep, and now all day and night I dream, I'm the first one I decieved. If I can make myself believe. The rest, is easy.
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2005 21 November :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Anything But Ordinary-Avril Lavigne
So I was going to write this whole long entry but I don't really feel the need to anymore.
Friday-kids show, pizza, charlie & the chocolate factory, went home for two hours, show, IHOP.
Saturday-show, annalise's, show, cast party. At the cast party I cried for a long long time and so did April and alot of the seniors. I don't feel like explaining why so if you were in the play then you'll know why and if you weren't then don't bother asking.
Saturday night-Mikki's house.
Sunday-Aprils house then to Strike.
That was it I guess. I wasn't going to come to school today because I wanted to sleep in but then I remembered April I promised I would go and she promised me she would go so we both just, went.
I'm really happy that we talked today. I haven't talked to him in so long.
I'm happy that tomorrow is our last day of school.
Lisa and I are going shopping on Friday since it's the biggest shopping day of the year!!! I'm excited. We now have Lisa and Ashley days which are like once a week lol. We are dorks haha but I'm going to post pictures from the play soon.
Love always, Ashley
Your so predictable.
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2005 21 November :: 4.02pm
Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
But hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I try to make it seem ok
But my faith is wearing thin
So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them up
I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted the movie screens
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is and open soul for all to see
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me sew them up
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2005 21 November :: 9.52am
oh you know!
sometimes i wish i was older so i could get married and have a house and fight over taking out the trash.
how grand life shall be.
i have never been happier. i don't even hate hardcore today. i pretty much just want to sit and smile.
:)
oh gosh! falloutboy/thestartingline/motioncitysoundtrack/boysnightout and harry potter totally rocked so much a lot. and so did robby.
yippers.
oh and sarah, i swear one time you come home and we hang out with anyone other than a puzzle we will both be not pissed. someday. pissed not. also not pissing on things. nothing that has to do with pissing on, pissing off, pissing around, being pissed, pissing away, getting pissed, putting the piss on, letting the piss off, or even thinking of the piss.
*robot/giant/elfdance*
shabam!
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2005 20 November :: 11.11pm
Its done....
Wow, this play has taken up so much of my time and energy, but i enjoyed it ever so much, i always do. Im gonna miss doing this every year. I guess I can still come back and help next year after i graduate, but we can only do it one year after we graduate H says. That makes me happy. I love the kids show, and Saturday's show. They're the greatest, the little kids because they get so into it and they make it a lot more fun for the actors. I like Saturday's show because they change they're lines around a lot and its always funny. : D Woo! I'm excited that there is only 2 days of school this week, I need the good old sleeping in thing. I've been really tired lately. Went to strike today (where we go and take all the set apart from the play) got there at four, H said we should have been done around 8, i didnt get home till about quarter after 10 lol. He was a little angry that so few people actually showed up. We cleared out the costume closet and threw some useless crap away. I had fun in there, putting on all the different costumes lol. There was an awesome skeleton mask that had some kick butt glove thingies with it, and i put a really old graduation gown over it and was walking around sort of scaring people. Hahah! I never even knew we had a costume closet before today. Hmmm... oh yeah, i got my mom and Darrell to go! And Jessica attacked my mom without knowing it was her lol. Then i got another monkey to do it again. They left before i got my rose though, that makes me sad.....speaking of which...i forgot my rose at Jessica's!! dammit! oh well...ill get it later. I love cast parties! The down time between shows is the best part i think. IHOP wasn't very good this year either, but at least there were no fire trucks and ambulances this time. Yep.....I really really really wanna see Wicked. I'm listening to it now, hehe. I'm gonna try to get my mom to take me to see it when we go to Chicago again in January...if its still playing then. Hmmm....well i think that's it for now.....I said quite a bit, that doest happen very often. Heh...oh yeah....Tom isn't gay!
Oh yeah! I saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory finally on Friday between shows! It was on a giant screen in the auditorium, so i didnt quite get to see it in imax, but it was pretty darn close, and it was free too! Im in love with that movie now. Tim Burton is a fricken genious, I love him! (In a platonic way, lol)
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2005 20 November :: 8.37pm
:: Mood: Depressed
So I was going to write all about this weekend but now I'm out of time and I typed out everything and then I didn't like how it sounded so I erased the whole thing and then I typed it again and I still thought people wouldn't understand and I want them to so I just decided that I'm going to write it tomorrow when I have more time to think and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.
<3 ashley
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2005 19 November :: 10.55am
:: Music: Fugazi
I've got, this epic problem, this epic problems not a problem for me
And inside
I know I'm broken, but I'm working as far as you can see...
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I love this song.
So yeah, chances are likely, and probably around July 26th, 2006. I feel like there's never enough time. :-( I have all this stuff I want to get done and it just never feels like there's any time. This sucks. Break should go well though, except that I have to work on projects. Blahhhh what do I write for an All About Me essay? You'd think this wouldn't be that hard. I hate it.
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2005 19 November :: 10.56am
This isn't going to happen.
I wont let it.
Now my whole day is ruined.
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2005 19 November :: 10.06am
the play is going really well.
and if anyone ever goes to eat at the IHOP on the beltline i will personally kick your ass for being stupid. im sure ashley will too. that place can burn....
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2005 18 November :: 4.04pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: The Used
I have an hour before I have to be at school for our second show of the day and I don't even know what to do. I haven't had time to myself or time not to do anything in forever. Today we had to be at school before it started to get ready for the childrens show. After we were all ready April, Mikki, Megan, and I all watched Laguna Beach. I love that show. Anyways the show was so much fun. Little kids are so adorable. Afterwards we could pretty much do whatever we wanted so Megan and I hung out with Emily and Pam since they are office aids and they weren't doing anything. We got to go to our normal lunch in full costume and makeup and see everyone. Everyone was amazed when they seen us..haha like we wouldn't normally be wearing tutu's and monkey costumes? Kidding. Afterwards we ordered pizza and then we just watched Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in the auditorium. Most of us fell asleep on the stage and when I woke up school was over so here I am now. Tonight after the show the whole cast is going to ihop to eat and we have to go in full costume and makeup again even though it's like 2 degrees outside lol. Oh well. Tonight at the play I have to wink at Emily when I'm on stage lol. She's such a dork but anyways I should get going.
<3 ashley megan
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2005 17 November :: 10.51pm
The play was really awesome tonight!! I wasn't even nervous at all but Annalise and I couldn't stop laughing in our munchkin house's. I got a dozen roses and then Missy gave me a single rose too. I miss her. She is one of the nicest people I know. Anyways tomorrow is going to be a long day but at least we don't have to go to any classes. Two shows tomorrow=tiring.
What the hell? You really upset me sometimes. I just need to go to bed. I have a long weekend ahead of me.
sweet sixteen . beauty queen looking
through her magazine && everyone
thinks she has everything while deep inside she’s crying
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2005 17 November :: 9.49pm
Man. So tired. Class went pretty well. Char and I hung out. It was sooooo nice. And we laid in bed and snuggled while it was cold out. It felt so good. So yeah, we may have some big news here.
I'm so in love.
Oh yeah, this morning, on my way to the expressway, I took 18 mile to shaner instead of 17 mile cause there was a crash, and I pretty much jacknifed my car near the intersection and almost hit a stop sign. My car spun sideways. It was really scary! Tomorrow Becca and I are meeting for breakfast then driving to class.
G'night :-) <3
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2005 17 November :: 8.55am
yesterday was the first snowfall of the season... which marks the day keegan asked me to be his girlfriend.... it may not be the technical date... but its the symbolic day. I can't wait till the 24th when we can finally wear our rings engraved "the first year". just a symbol of our relationship.. not promise rings, just a symbol.
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2005 16 November :: 11.28pm
Ahhhhhhh SLEEP
Tummy. Ow.
Tired. Blah.
Today. Ah.
Can't. Talk. In. Full. Sentences.
Eh, whatever. Today was boring. Saw Charlie for like, 30 minutes. Worked on our Menu project for like, 4 HOURS. I'm sorry I didn't call Jessi, I just realized and I believe it's too late now :-( I am sorry :-(
Time for sleep.
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2005 16 November :: 10.14pm
:: Mood: Exhausted
I promise I wont let you down if you take my hand tonight.
I promise we'll be just fine this time, if you take my hand tonight.
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2005 16 November :: 2.12pm
god damn im a victum of a bad hair cut.
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2005 15 November :: 10.26pm
I'm so tired. Dress rehearsal seemed like it took forever. Micky, Veronica, and I had to go into Great Day to get something while we were in full costume and makeup and wow did everyone look at us. Everyone kept asking us what we were doing. It was pretty fun and then we had to explain to them 1234028408 times that we are in the play. Tomorrow we have dress rehearsal again so I probably wont be home until right now once again. After school I'm going to April's house. It should be pretty fun.
Anyways here are pictures from yesterday!!
Read more..
I was going to show pictures from tonight but I want everyone to wait to see what we all look like if you come to the play!!
Anyways I should get going. I have to wash off all this makeup. It's gross, trust me.
<3 ashley
Oh yeah sorry these pictures are so big!!
Edit: Well, actually, the pictures aren't big anymore, I don't know how that happened, but someone must love me! ;)
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2005 14 November :: 11.09pm
Maybe someday I'll be able to tell you...
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2005 14 November :: 9.42pm
:: Music: Ima Robot
You were the best love I ever had, you hit me high, you hit me low
Time doesn't slow down for those who dream, I wake only to hear this scream.
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Yeah, so... Today was pretty alright. Everyone stopped in at Art & Bev's which was cool, thanks guys! Chef told me ice cream would be on him. That was cool.
Then I hung out w/Charlie <3 <3 <3 I seriously can't wait to get married. His sister and I are going to start looking at bridesmaids dresses and everything. I love his family. Which is cool. It's definitely not a monster-in-law thing. His family is awesome.
I got my neice some cute little things. A cute little tigger hat and mittens as part of her Christmas present. She was tigger for halloween. She's almost 16 mos.
Things are definitely happening. It doesn't feel like last time though. That's what confuses me. But people say it's different every time.
I should definitely be drawing the layout for my group's resturaunt. Or studying for tomorrow's CA 112 test. Or something. But no, I'm exhausted. And I'm going to sleep soon. After I read Star/In Touch. Gahhhhhhh stupid addictions. Better than drugs though. Aw who'm I kidding?
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j/k.
G'night.
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2005 14 November :: 8.31pm
:: Mood: Happy
I'm watching Laguna Beach re-runs
That wasn't what I expected. Oh well it's not like my world is going to end or anything.
Today was my Birthday so that just makes everything better. H let me leave play practice after my scene because it was my Birthday. Otherwise I would have had to stay the whole play. Thank god for Birthdays. I went out to dinner @ Olive Garden. They all sang to me and it was really embarrassing. Lisa was also there with Chris since it was their one month today and they sat pretty close to us. So I thought that that was pretty cool that they were there and so were we and we didn't plan it. All day people kept calling me,leaving voicemails, and texting me to tell me Happy Birthday. It made me happy lol. Anyways I love everyones cards and Lisa got me the coolest present ever. She gave it to me this morning in the car. Today is my cousin Zoe's 1st Birthday and my dogs birthday lol except I don't know how old he is, it's also my grandpas b-day, my grandmas dogs b-day and then today erika bauer and I both found out in 3rd hour we have the same b-days so we both thought that was cool......
Everyone should come see the play.
I'm excited for the play and for whatever this weekend brings haha..
Anyways I gotta go.
I'm so tired. I didn't really sleep last night and I didn't really all weekend either. I would go to bed but I have to at least watch Laguna Beach.
<33 ashley
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