Uh....

:: 2005 4 November :: 7.36pm

Aww Mishy you are so sweet. I can't believe some of the things you said. They are too sweet and you know me better then you think.

I'll post it just so everyone can read it:

1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
Actually, I would just call you Ashley. I think that you've had enough of nicknames, and "Little One" makes you sound like a little kid, and you arent.
2. Am I loveable?
Very.
3. How long have you known me?
Let's see. Around two and a half years, but we've become much much closer this year.
4. When and how did we first meet?
October 03, drama class.
5. What was your first impression?
"She has a really pretty nose and her laugh is cute. She seems sweet."
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
Yes, only my opinion is better, because I know you now.
7. What do you think my weakness is?
Him.
8. Do you think I'll get married?
Definitely.
9. What makes me happy?
California, The O.C., Modeling, acting, music, Him.
10. What makes me sad?
Being confused about Him, living in Cedar.
11. What reminds you of me?
The O.C., california, Gold digger, "Why?", gossip girl, "Goodbye to You"...more
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
A redhot acting career and a huge mansion in LA, along with of course, happiness with Him.
13. How well do you know me?
Well, I do not know your favorite food, or color, or your birthday, things like that. However, I do think we're close, and you know why :) I will learn those other things in time.
14. When's the last time you saw me?
Today, during Anatomy.
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
Absolutely not, the exact opposite actually.
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
Never.
17. Describe me in one word.
Star.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
Stronger.
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
Yes. yes. yes.
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
YOU would play you. :) No one else could do it better.
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
Hmm.. Christina Ricci.
22. Who is my hero?
Hmm.. I really don't know. Dad perhaps?

Your definately right about everything and nobody will know why were so close, ever.

3 squirrely | have some nuts?

:: 2005 3 November :: 6.31pm

I got this from Brie!

I just found this quiz so please take it!
1. Give me a new nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I loveable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or
staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I
would listen?
20. If there were a movie about my life, who would play me?
21. Who would play you in the movie about my life?
22. Who is my hero?

<3 ash

:: 2005 2 November :: 10.44pm

It's no big deal. Break her heart. Let her down. Make her cry. You "love" her right? Everything is fine. Hold her hand. Lead her on. It's no big deal, she's just a girl.

:: 2005 2 November :: 9.21pm
:: Music: California-Phantom Planet

The O.C. DUHH!!!
I know Brie said this BUT--22 Hours, 32 Minutes, and 40 Seconds until The O.C. is on. I already have the scripts for tomorrow's episode but I'm not reading it beacause I don't want to ruin what I've waited weeks for. It's called The Perfect Storm!! Sorry Brie I decided not to read them and tell you what happens. We'll just have to watch and see!!

I've heard from alot of people that after this season they aren't going to continue making The O.C. but if that seriously happens my life will be over............and, i'll cry, alot.

I watch this show religiously...

5 squirrely | have some nuts?

stinko

:: 2005 2 November :: 2.13pm

waitin for class.
waitin for a bass.
hummin a tune.
hummin with a loon.
thinking of you.
thinking at schoo.

i was always so close to you and now you are an hour away. ill make you pay for this i swear it.
well, actually i wont because i just love you and if i harm you at all you wont come back anymore. you will just hang out with your crazy mom, and your fat necked brother, and magoon mcscaryface, and orangy.

i have pickles. i have a cute brother. i have pretty hair. i have vh1. i have a family that thinks gay marrage is a good idea. i have a really cute boyfriend with a disease that makes him even more needy and cute. i have so much to offer you. i have good food, and stools so you can reach the counter to eat it. i have love.

but as of right now i don't have you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im so sad.

5 squirrely | have some nuts?

brokenmentality

:: 2005 2 November :: 9.30am

its been a semi-long while.

halloween was just a normal day for us. we figured we're to old to go trick or treating, and we didnt have my sister so its not like we had any reason to go. instead we went to the outback, and had one of those perfect nights that we have so often. PLUS we got some new games from toys R us.... and that was wonderful.

i havent really been up to much lately. just work, wizard, and keegan. oh and throw failing algebra in there too. but its all good..

i think im begining to slip away from woohu.... i dont really have much to update anymore. it seems so much easier to update when im depressed and upset, like i take the good times and the good days for granted. i dont know... maybe its time people actually had to start getting to know me instead of reading about me in my journal.

yeah.. that sounds like a good idea.

tonyp.

:: 2005 1 November :: 8.18pm

i need a job
a real job
im really not getting the money i need to work at michels so i think im just gona give up on her cause really shell just hold me back. im just gona get a job and save up for the shop and get my tattoo equiptmen to i can start making some money.
i have tons of people who already want me to do stuff for them which is pretty neat (the preasure is on, i have to get good or else i let everyone down) but im really excited.
i need to find things to do to keep my mind off of things and i think im doing pretty good at that but i bet i could try a little harder. i need a new car to, wow i need alot of things and i think i need to stop bitching, mabye thats why no one every says anything.

:: 2005 1 November :: 9.21pm

So much for that idea.....

holiday

:: 2005 1 November :: 1.13pm

Did anyone happen to see a blue tow-truck that looked like a pickup truck yesterday? The creepiest thing happened...

holiday

:: 2005 1 November :: 1.05pm

Ugh. Why are you being crappy? Whatever.

Things have been going good. I don't have to work this week. Art/Bev's is fun. Charlie is still really awesome. I can't wait.
Mom's surgery went really well. They took out some of her skull. :-( And stuff. Not like anyone really cares. But I do. I cried at the hospital last night and Charlie held me. I just don't like seeing her hurt. She was so out of it and her head was all bandaged up. You know, doctors are human, and they make a lot of mistakes. That's why I get so worried. But hopefully she'll be better now.
That's about it for now... Oh yeah, and I totally passed my Nutrition exam and my NRA (nat. restuarant association) test. Not the gun club test. blah. I'm so bored.
Come to Art & Bev's tomorrow we're open.

:: 2005 31 October :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Relient K- Be My Escape

Oh, to be young and worry-free
I feel really stressed out. The stressed out type where I think I don't have enough time to do all the things that I need to do. Could my life get anymore melo-dramatic? Yeah, doubtful. I have my monologue memorized verbatim. Haha just kidding. I need to memorize my two page monologue and also need to memorize my lines for our seminar skit. I also need to write my resume for my modeling stuff and send them out, but I still haven't which pisses me off. I just don't have time to write it and then I also need to get more pictures made for everyone because they keep asking me and well.....I don't have them. Anyways I talked to my counselor about taking the SAT's and ACT's so I need to figure out when I'm taking those and she gave me websites for colleges in California and I need to call them and see if they will accept my credits because I'm probably going to dual enroll next year and then I need to figure out everything for my birthday party too. I could go on about all the wonderful things I need to do but those are the most important things right now.

So tonight I went to play practice and it was pretty fun. H told me tonight that I am going to be a ballerina munchkin so that makes me really happy beacause I'll have a cute costume and half of the other girl munchkins all want to be a ballerina munchkins so when they find out they aren't, then I'm not sure how well that will go. So I need to find a pink tutu lol. I need to find my costume before Monday. After play practice I went to Megan's and we ate dinner and then Luke came over and then later on Lisa, Kourtney, Justin, Matt, Emily, Tj, Cohen and Brittney came over and we watched Amityville Horror which is fine even though I've seen it a million times now but it's still a good movie. I've watched too many scary movies lately and now I'm paranoid to even be in my own house.

I guess thats really all I have to say. I need to go do my homework.

Your still my one in a million <3 ashley

I'm so scared, but I'm also excited in a way :S

P.S.-Chloe's coming up for Christmas!!! Sweeeett!!

:: 2005 30 October :: 4.34pm

I just love it when people ask me that question....

Not really.

eddy

:: 2005 29 October :: 7.51pm

Look at me,
My depth perception must be off again,
Cuz this hurts much deeper than i thought it did.
It has not healed with time,
It just shot down my spine

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Ehhhh......sunnova bitch....mo fo....ass fucker.....shit faced cock master.....

eddy

:: 2005 29 October :: 6.22pm
:: Music: OMG....The fricken Backstreet Boys

ERGH!
Dangit that boy! Gah! Hes really bad at calling when he says hes gonna. I was sposed to go visit him today, but he didnt call me yet >.>
Oh yeah!! Senior pictures for me today!! Im so exausted now. I could take a nap. Or two. Im sooo effing bored!!! Somebody do something with me today!!! or tomorrow!!! I have no idea what im doing for Halloween either. I hope I do something. It would be sad if I did nothing for Halloween. *sigh*

:: 2005 29 October :: 10.40am

Okay so lately I've been going picture crazy so now I'm going to post tons more. Some of them are from when I was a baby and some are from two days ago lol

Read more..

:: 2005 28 October :: 5.23pm

So today I get one of those calls that I've had before. The ones that you can already tell something is wrong before you even know what's wrong. Yeah, those kind. You proably know what I'm talking about. I had one of those calls when my uncle died during the summer and when my friend Dakota died too and then today I had another one. So I guess my Great Grandma died today which really upsets me because in the past four months she is the third person to die that I've been really close with. Nobody was planning on my uncle dying since he died not even two weeks after I just left him in TN and nobody was expecting this either. I'm really upset about this whole thing and I try not to think about it but people that I love just can't keep dying on me. I can't deal with this for much longer. We aren't sure if we are going to TN for her funeral or not. My dad is taking this really hard and he said he doesn't know if he could handle it, and I don't know if I could either. My dad told me today that he is thinking about going to the funeral but he's not sure so if we end up going we'll most likely fly out on Monday. That's really all I've got.

tonyp.

:: 2005 28 October :: 10.43am

well this weekend is all fucked up , i have no clue whats going on at all. me and erica are suppose to do something like dinner because its sort of our 3 year anniversery and its also halloween and i dont know what were doing for that either. so i was talking to my buddy ben and he wants me to move out to chicago when he gets out of the mariens and im not sure if i want to, id be away from my friends all the time and my family but... mabye its something i need. i got some more of my chest piece filled in and boy did it hurt!
life right now is freakin crazy and things are hard to hear when they come form someones mouth who is suppose to love you but i guess everything happens for a reason, i just hope i dont lose her after all this is done. i just need to surround myself with happy things, well thats enough for now.

jburt1

:: 2005 28 October :: 2.46am

It's funny how one thing can change everything. Or how someone will say something in front of you that changes what you know.

It's the roommate situation. I'm living with Keith, my friend from last year. Things are great. Yeah, there are things he does that irritate me, but I'm sure there are things I do that irritate him as well. But we get along. And those are just trivial things.

Since we started living together, though, we haven't been as great of friends. At least that's what it seems like because we both kind of do our own thing most of the time.

He's become better friends with his roommate from last year, though. To be frank, the kid rubs me the wrong way. I don't know why that is, but it just is. Tonight I was playing uno with him, his girlfriend, and her roommate. He made a comment about where he was living next year, saying that he was going to live somewhere whether or not keith lived in the same building. I'm not sure what he meant by that, but I didn't ask.

I'd like to live with keith next year, especially if we can get an apartment...with an actual kitchen, living room, and separate bedroom. But I don't know if keith is making other plans to live with his former roommate or what. I don't know how to bring it up, either. He made a comment last week asking where I thought I'd live next year...kind of sounded like he already had plans.

I was considering being an RA next year because you get free room and board and then I'd basically be paying nothing, but I decided I don't want to take that avenue because I think it will distance me further from some of my friends, including keith. Plus, I want the responsibility of living in an apartment, paying rent and cooking food.

I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess because it's on my mind. And I don't have anyone here to tell it to.

I will say this, however. The one thing I learned is that you can't make decisions based upon other people. You have to make your own decisions for what is beneficial to you. One reason I didn't go to Rome this year was because I based that decision on other people, on friends. But now that I'm here, instead of Rome, things aren't the same anyways. All my friends are doing their own thing.

I really liked freshmen year, okay?

"If it all ended tonight...back to the good ol' days, before it won." Random song lyrics.

:: 2005 27 October :: 10.34pm

Aww tonight was fun. I got to meet Lisa's boyfriend. He's pretty hilarious and he wanted to go into my barn and let me add that it was dark out and we were all scared, okay so Lisa and I were, he wasn't. So we went out there and then he wanted to go into the basement part of the barn and I started freaking out. I've been down there like twice my whole life and it's been during the day with my family not just two other people. I was scared lol!!

Then last night I had fun even though the play did suck and Brittani Matthews and I shouldn't ever sit by each other at a restuarnt or at a play because we are too damn loud and then the fog stuff about killed us and then we couldn't stop laughing at how they kept breaking character. It was pretty fun though and then on the way there the truck in front of us kept putting his brakes on and we didn't know that his left brake light was out so we thought he was putting on his right blinker every five seconds and Britt and Dani were swearing. It was hilarious and then Brittani was screaming at Justin L. to stop the car because she had to pee and he wouldn't because we were literally like 2 miles away from the community center and so she opened her door and was like "IM GONNA JUMP" and then we got there and H was like "why was the door open the whole way there" lol it was funny and I still can't learn this little Blood thing that Mishy tired teaching me. Oh well but I will post pictures from it sometime this weekend I gotta go.

LOVE ALWAYS, ASHLEY