So maybe this time, I'll speak the words of life, with your fire in my eyes, but that old familiar fear is tearing at my words. What am I afraid of?

 

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swimfan14

:: 2005 12 October :: 8.59pm

Okay, so weird things keep happening to me and it's not just a coincidence anymore.

I will try to tell all of them if I can remember everything.

Oh and these aren't in any special order either.

I already told this story a while ago during the summer but I'll refresh everyones memory.

1) I was in Detriot and I had a dream that Mischa Barton was on the cover of Cosmo Girl. I woke up and I told my cousins friend about it and she said it would be really scary if she was on the cover of the magazine so that day we went to the store and we checked and she wasn't on the cover of it. I went home like a week later and when I walked in my room there sitting on my bed were all my magazines that I get and on the cover of Cosmo Girl was Mischa Barton and she looked exactly like she did in my dream and the reason why she wasn't on the cover in the stores is because that was that months issue and I get them a month early. So I thought that, that was really freaky considering how I'm obsessed with her. So of all people, it was her. I just don't know.

2) A few weeks ago I was at Sam Ballews and I stayed the night at her house because we had pictures the next day and we wanted to get ready together and then before I left I got into a fight with my mom because my phone charger just went missing out of my room and I wrote about this in woohu too. So before I left Sam and I checked my room everywhere and we took everything out of my bag because we were folding stuff to wear for the next day and putting it in there. I am 100% sure it wasn't in there because everything was taken out of it and Sam can confirm this too. So we get to Sam's and she wanted to use my hair krimper thing so I had to take it out of my bag and my phone charger was not in there..so then in the morning I opened my bag and there on top of all my clothes was my phone charger. I have no idea how that happened and Sam was even freaked out.
3) I had a dream a few weeks ago that my best friends parents were going to get divorced and then she called me a week later crying telling me that they were. (Chloe)
4)I went tanning a while ago with Kourtney and Lisa and Lisas car was broke and my tanning lotion was in her glove box so I asked if I could use my sisters because she has the same exact one and my sister said I could so then in the morning when Lisa picked me up she had her car back so now I had my tanning lotion in her glove box and my sisters in my purse and then after school we went to go tanning and I got mine out because I didn't want to use my sisters since I had my own back and then when we got to the tanning place I couldn't find my sisters and I searched Lisa's car everywhere and Kourtney and Lisa couldn't find it and I swear to god I had them both because I remember trying to figure out which one was mine and then when I got home I went into my room it was sitting on my bed..I was like omg.
5) The other day Lisa and I were at Target and we got into her car to leave and then an alarm went off right next to us and then another one right after, and then another one. I don't know what the point of that was or why it happened but I just thought it was weird.
6) The other day at school Lisa goes "omg I just..." and right before she said anything more I was like "got really dizzy" and she started freaking out because thats what she was going to say. So we both got dizzy at the same time. Odd!
7)Oh and yesterday I was talking to Erika Bauer, DeAnna, and Katie about how I never have subs in school and then today I had three of them. Weird!!
8) I had a dream about police officers and it had something to do with Lisa and then she got a ticket for speeding and then also she said shes been seeing a million more cops that normal and the other day we were on the freeway and she was going 85 and then someone passed us and it was dark by the way and were like "wtf why are they going so fast" and it was a cop and he didn't even give her a ticket for speeding..but that was just weird too.


and I know theres a few more things but I just cant think of them right now so I'll add them when I do.


EDIT

okay so more weird things I thought of.

Before I went to the Red Flannel Pageant with Elyse and Em we were talking about who we thought would win I said Sam, Brittany, and Lauren on my first guess. Elyse was suprised when she found out that my guess was true.

Then a while ago I went and seen Flightplan and before we left the person I went with asked me what I thought happened to the girl and I told them exactly what I thought and it turns out thats exactly what happened but I dont want to say it because it will give it away if you haven't seen the movie. Also I don't really remember how many people on the plane there was but I think it was 400 something and only two people on the whole entrire plane knew what happened to the girl and I guessed the two people.

Weird. Then the other day in the car with Lisa she goes "you know what song I really like" and instantly I said "photograph-nickelback"
and that was the song she was going to say. I don't know how these things happen anymore.............

yay mishy im sooo excited for my pictures and whatever your doing with those songs....

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Tails

:: 2005 12 October :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: Scared
:: Music: creepy sounds from the attic

best time of the year
Anyone know of any truly scary shit going down around our side of michigan this halloween season? dont say the haunt cause everyone knows that i just want to know if there is anything else thats supposed to be scary as shit? if you know of anything please tell me...also anyone having any kicking halloween partys?

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stinko

:: 2005 12 October :: 12.49pm

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tonyp.

:: 2005 11 October :: 7.14pm

well tattoo convention is this weekend. im really excited, to be around so many artest is going to be really cool theres going to be 57! tattoo shops there tattooing.
after that im going to have to start my apprentiship in Grand rapids at grand rapids custom design. and at the end of this month im going to a tattoo party to do some piercings...i need to get more rings.
well i finilly got my whole band together were gona get together this week hopefully.
oh well. talk to you all later

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swimfan14

:: 2005 11 October :: 9.31pm

Aww..that seriously meant so much to me.

After what I did, and he still forgives me. How cute. Seriously!

Ahh I'm so happy.

End of Story.

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holiday

:: 2005 11 October :: 5.27pm

Hooray for... subway cookies. Yep. I am bored but I don't feel like leaving for class yet. I ran over this HUGE raccoon last night while my dad was trying to call me. It was sooo gross. I get to hang out w/ma girls tomorrow. Yippee!

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holiday

:: 2005 11 October :: 5.19pm

Ugh
It's so boring right now. And cold out. I have class in about 25 minutes. I was thinking about really having the wedding at Charlie's Grandma Caldwell's. It would be so pretty there and nice. At first I wanted it to be by water, but that's kind of hard... Anyway. I'm not feeling too great right now. I am so tired.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 11 October :: 5.06pm
:: Mood: Happy

Maybe it's time you looked at yourself & stopped blaming your life on everyone else.

<3 ashley

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 11 October :: 4.42pm

noo, god im just so fucking mad...... its just a multiple entry type of rage i guess....

what the hell is your problem?

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brokenmentality

:: 2005 11 October :: 4.39pm

im done with this.

i had a rotten day, and the one thing i was looking forward to taking comfort in cancelled on me.

i could very easily take comfort in something else.

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tails

:: 2005 11 October :: 4.14am

falling apart and hating being alone...i spent the night on liz's kitchen floor because my heart hurts and im really starting to scare myself on the inside...do i really need help?

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swimfan14

:: 2005 10 October :: 5.40pm

Here is a picture of just us girls before homecoming. I'll post more later.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 10 October :: 3.23pm

I definately will do it this time.

Only a week though.

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holiday

:: 2005 10 October :: 3.36am

GAHHH
Tonight has sucked. Well, after I left Charlie's that is. Parents are gone for awhile. So when Charlie had to go to work I went home and took care of the puppies. But I'm supposed to pull an all-nighter so when he comes here after work we can just sleep all day. He'll be here in about 5 1/2 hours. I need to sleep!
Guess what!? It's really crappy. I told my mom earlier that I really need a new bed. I'm sick of my futon. And I want a real mattress. But really I'm okay with my futon, it'll do. So I decided to clean my room today. Just totally rearrange everything and mess everything up. And I have this HUGE dresser that I had to move by myself, and I wanted to move my bed to the other wall. Long story short: I BROKE MY FUTON! BOO HOO. What luck. And the worst part was, it was about 1:30 am and I really wanted to just finish cleaning my room and sleep. But I had to move EVERYTHING around and then I didn't know what to do w/my bed frame so I put it in the yard. hahaha.
CRAPPY. So now we have to sleep on my big futon mattress on the floor. Eh. I'm tired it doesn't matter. I am so rambling right now. I'm exhausted. I went shopping today for a long time. GBAKHJANJAdahKDJ
G'night. Oh yeah, next saturday lissa, char and i are going for tattoos! mine shall be on my foot. awesome. it's going to hurt though. good thing i bought new shoes today!

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swimfan14

:: 2005 9 October :: 4.36pm
:: Mood: Happy
:: Music: Let Me Hold You-Bow Wow

Homecoming
This weekend was pretty fun. Friday I went and got my nails done and then I went to the game but Lisa, Brittney, and I left early because it was too cold.

Saturday I got my hair done for homecoming then like 17 people all went to Kourtney's for pictures, then we went to tgi fridays and then to the dance. It was really fun up until I seen someone who I wasn't expecting to be there and then I just ignored him and then I seen him walking over to me so I grabbed Emily Sorensen and Lisa and we ran out of there and he followed me and came up to me and started talking to me. It was akward and then Emily was just like "okay lets go" so it gave me an excuse to stop talking to him but I definately didn't know what to say or do at that moment. Lisa, Katy, Brittney, and I all went looking for little 9th grade guys and we would just go up to them and start like grinding on them..lol it was hilarious..some of them didn't even know what to do and some of them started dancing with us. It was definately fun. Afterwards a bunch of people went to Justins house. I hung out with everyone for a while and then I got really tired so I'm just like "yeah I'm going to go to sleep now" and some of us were inside and cohen was next to me on the couch so im like "okay im going to sleep on your lap" and I just fell asleep and then we left at like 2 and then Lisa came over and stayed the night. Today I went shopping and I bought two pairs of shoes that I didn't need but I also donated money to the hurricane katrina relief and then I went to Olive Garden (again for the second time this week) lol..so other than that, thats what I did and then tonight im hanging out with Andrea and Brie.

But I g2g get ready to leave. <3 ashley

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eddy

:: 2005 9 October :: 4.20pm
:: Music: Silence

Quiz! The Keys to Your Heart

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eddy

:: 2005 8 October :: 11.13am
:: Music: Ashley's Radio

\\/\//!!!!!!!!!!
O-M-G!!!! Weezer and Foo Fighters was sooo effin awesome!! I loved it!! Its the best day ive had in a really really long time! I almost got to touch Rivers, but there was some drunk guy all up in his face and he looked really frightened, so i thought i wouldnt try, didnt wanna give the poor guy a heart attack, lol. He looked so much different than how im used to seeing him, he had longer hair, it was lighter and he wasnt wearing his glasses. And i never realised how short he was heh. Foo fighters was great. David is one hilarious dude i gotta say. The lighting for their part was great too, it was all trippy and stuff :D And I thought the Kaiser Chiefs, who opened for them were pretty darn awesome too. NananananNAAAA!!! lol....oh man.....YES!!! Homecoming tonight!!! I can't wait!!!! And when I say that im mostly talking about the getting ready part. I mean the dancing is fun and all, but for some reason, getting ready is what i look forward to. : ) Gaww...I just ate some really gross waffles, they were pillsbury so i dont know why they tasted so icky, usually they taste good, but yeah....and im all sticky now too.....Hmmm.....Im gonna go take a shower soon....and when i say soon i mean in like and hour, hehehe.

BYE!!

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swimfan14

:: 2005 7 October :: 10.49pm
:: Music: Wake Me Up When September Ends

For some reason this song (Wake Me Up When September Ends) makes me really upset and sad. Yes I do know that the music video is sad but the actual song makes me sad and I don't even get what it's about but it just makes me think about someone and then it just makes me sad, like that.


I am so tired I don't think I can stay awake any longer. This morning I woke up at like 6:30 (which is early for me) and I got ready and then I went back to bed and I set my alarm for like 7:10 and I turned it off and then my dad came downstairs at like 7:20 and was like "Ashley!?! What are you doing?" and I woke up and I'm like "sleeepiing" but I wasn't late for school, I was just later than I normally am. I have to get up at 8:00 tomorrow but on Sunday I AM sleeping in whether anyone wants me to or not. I haven't been going to bed this past week until 12:00-1:30 and it sucks. Anyways, After school I went and got my nails done with Kourtney, Megan, Brittney, Emily, and Ashley.I spent $50 just on my nails today and then tuesday I went shopping and I spent $200 then Wednesday I spent $140 and last night I spent $100. I need to stop spending money thats not even mine!!! Ahhh...im so bad. I went out to eat again last night, so that would make it the third night in a row. I'm so excited for Homecoming tomorrow and I think afterwards were going midnight bowling, and everyone knows how I bowl lol, esp Brianna, Dan, and Kevin. They all laughed at me and I came in last place during our first game but then the second game I was came in second place, how I don't know!? But most of my friends suck at bowling so I guess it's okay lol. Sunday I'm hanging out with Andrea and Monday we don't have school so I don't know what I'm doing yet. I didn't find out that we didn't have school Monday until yesterday.

Kourtney and Brittney think I should have a party for my birthday which I think if I do I'm going to just invite my close friends and go stay at a hotel with them for a weekend since I did that before and it was fun and thats what we all decided we think I should do for my birthday. I remember for my 11th birthday I had a limo and my friends and I went to the mall lol and I remember I didn't invite Megan because we hated each other and she always thought Brittney and I were going to be better friends than they were. Which was dumb because we were 11!!! Anyways yeah so I think thats what I'm going to do. Sounds like a plan.

Anyways I will update about my weekend and homecoming in the next few days. Anyone who is going, have fun! I'm a moron and I haven't charged my phone in two days so obviously it's been turned off so now I have four voicemails to go listen to and text messages to read.

Much Love, Ash

P.S.-If anyone heard H's speach, it was really sad!! I started crying even though I've heard it over the years. When he was like "do you see that chair, LOOK AT THE CHAIR...that could be YOU" I was like "nooo..stop it, it's not going to be me!" I guess that speach was juat a reality check.

What does it tell you when you realize we've never been just friends?



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swimfan14

:: 2005 6 October :: 10.53pm

I hate how we don't talk for weeks but then all of the sudden you talk to me again and it's like as if nothing happened and I slowy start falling for you all over again.

~Ashley Megan~

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swimfan14

:: 2005 5 October :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Unwritten Law- Save Me

My days...
So things have been pretty good lately. I still think about it whether I should or not and I still wonder what happened with us. Anyways last night I went shopping with Lisa to get all our homecoming stuff (yeah I know it's late to go shopping for homecoming but we just decided we were going the other day) and then we went to Olive Garden and I seen Spike from my drama class (last years class) and she walked up to our table and I didn't even recognize her and she recognized me and she had to tell me who she was because she looks so differen't but she is coming to the play to watch me and everyone else that she knows from Cedar so I thought that that was pretty cool. On the way home we got lost. We always get lost because we had to go to my dads house to bring him food from Olive Garden and we got on the wrong highway/freeway I dont know the difference between the two. We are horriable with directions. Then today I went shopping again and I went out to eat at The Outback Steakhouse...it was pretty fun but I have to go do my homework. Ugh...

ashley

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