:: 2003 1 February :: 8.35 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: tatu

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:: 2003 31 January :: 10.05 pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: tatu

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:: 2003 28 January :: 8.10 pm
:: Mood: uncomfortable

i do feel uncomfortable..i dont know why though, i hate that kinda of feeling, discomfort for no specific reason...
well its tuesday, nothing is going on its eight o'clock and i already have my homework done..oh the joy
yea yesterday maidlow, my spanish teacher for those of you who dont know, told me i had an attitude. not really, only towards her, but anyway on with the story, she was walking around the room checking to see if people had brought their green tape manuals, i didnt bring mine but it was on my desk when i got to class so i had it i just didnt know how, but anyway, she comes over to my desk stand like a foot away and asks if i have my book. my book is sitting right in the middle of my desk in plane view...i was like yea...its right here, it was here when i got to class...granted i said this in a 'hello your retarded' kind of voice but still it was obvious, and she's like "what is with this attitude?! i am so sick and tired of this attitude im getting!" now i dont know if she was tlaking about just me but she was yelling at just me so ill take it as just me. i was like "there's no attitude i'm just saying its right here (again in the 'you're stupid voice') and she's like "well a simple yes or no could do!" and then she walked away..its like c'mon lady, i'm sorry you can't take two seconds to look down and look at my desk so you can plainly see my green book, and i will not apologze for your incompetence, i mean if you can't look in another direction you should really check that out because that sounds like a mental case to me...grr..stupid people piss me off
anyway today nothing special happened, it was kinfa boring, we had a sub in bio so we talked the whole time, that got boring, gym is actually fun, all we do is ladders and then we go to the weight room to get everything explained to us..like its hard..good Lord, but im excited to start lifting itll help me get ready for track..woo..i cant wait for track to start actually, fun times! i havent really been feeling well these past couple days, ive been really tired and i have been falling asleep when i get home, i dont know what my deal is, around this time last year i got really sick too, so maybe im getting sick, its my yearly sickness haha..there you go sara maybe i'm finally getting sick..hmm
well i guess thats all, my lifes not really exciting...

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:: 2003 25 January :: 1.14 pm
:: Mood: sleepy

yesterday
yesterday was sooo much fun! Granted it started off really badly but i had a good time at least. I'd do it again.

So yea, i wake up at 545 and i take a shower and wake sara up so she can get ready and while she's in the shower sid'smommy calls me and tells me i can take my car there and then norm would take sara and i to the school instead of me leaving my car there the whole time, that was nice because im running low on gas...but anyway we get to the school at 7, i turn in my bio hw and headley gives us a little speach..blah blah, 730 rolls around when we're supposed to be leaveing and only 1 bus shows up...turns out the other bus;s windshield caved in so we had to wait another hour to get another bus, so we leave an hor behind schedule. great!
well we get on the bus and the ride is pretty boring because everyone is alseep or just not really awake enough to keep me entertained, finally we reach cleveland and our bus gets lost..we passed Jacobs Field about 4 times before we got off at the right exit, we get to the middle school FINALLY and we have to change i hate dresses so this was hell for me, we get on stage and warm up and low and behold my reed dies and none of my others were really broken in enough to get out high notes so i was kinda stuck but it was all good, we get lunch but since we lost a lot of time we had to eat on the buses, it wasnt bad but it wasnt great, we got a new bus driver who knew where he was going his name was tom and then it was walter he was cool..he was funny.
we get to the convention center and stand around for about 20 minutes, nothing too exciting, we play, we did well, got a standing ovation blah blah blah...then we put our stuff on the buses and we are free to roam, that was fun, i saw pretty much everything! and i bought a shirt and a kazoo :)
we left for hard rock cafe! best time ever! we get there and sara jackie and i found a table, and we look to my right and up on a platform is a waitor, he jumps down and just kinda slides into out free seat and takes out orders, we didnt mind he was really cute, he actually made jackie turn into a giggly girl lol, we also got 3 refills each just to get him to come back to the table...we called me suger, love and doll, so i cant complain;) then a short guy got on top of the bar thingy and started dirty dancing to ald lasies and made everyone get on their seats and do the YMCA...and remember we are still in our dresses and tuxes lol then grease came on so we're all dancing to that it was fun...if only i had remembered to take my camera in...grr..
we go back to the convention to see the all state band, they were really good, the oboe player was hot, but he seemed egotistical but still, jackie b agrees with us and by this time i have to pee so badly, i mean remember...3 glasses of pop..and we're all hyper because remember...3 glasses of pop...
so we get on the buses and FINALLY PAJAMAS!!!! and so we crash to watching meet the parents, we are out, except when doug puts his feet near me without socks on then i freak out and start yelling and making threats...and then norm takes me back to sids house i get in my car and go home, joy to the world i am home

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:: 2003 21 January :: 10.30 am
:: Mood: thoughtful

im starting to turn into one of those dorks that updates every 2 hours...but i talked to him this morning, its awkward now..we talk like we used to but its just different, but did i really expect something different?

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:: 2003 21 January :: 8.41 am
:: Mood: restless

Im tired but i dont want to sleep. Im not sad, Im not happy, right now i feel nothing, i was feeling pretty down last night but i think i know why, last night i thought it was the end, i thought that since i told him and he didnt respond that that was the end, there was gonna be nothing more, but then a realized this is just the beginning he has the ball now. and right now hes called for a time out and i just have to wait until the next time i talk to him to resume the play...haha sara these sport analogies are working out well:)

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:: 2003 20 January :: 11.55 pm
:: Mood: apathetic

blah...
yup blah. i told him. it was an oh so lovely conversation, or not. it really wasnt. it was actually bad. he chose to pretend like it never happened, and change the subject. and then megs tried to help by talking to him but that didnt help at all, in fact he got off abruptly without saying anything...i can only imagine what he's thinking now..i dont even know what to think now, my head is all jumbled..man i can hardly wait for wednesday when i have to see him face to face...according to sara this is all good, then tell me why am i not feeling good? i feel like shit and i dont think anyone can help except him and hes not one to talk so idk...i just dont know

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:: 2003 20 January :: 5.10 pm
:: Mood: goo
:: Music: mixed

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:: 2003 20 January :: 11.12 am
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: broadway

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:: 2003 19 January :: 5.01 pm
:: Mood: i dont really have a mood, im just kinda here...

proposition
ok...so last night was girls night at jackie's. It was me, sara, megs, stevie and jackie. We're hanging out, nothing out of the ordinary. We of course, being girls get on the topic of boys. Well thats all fun and dandy, then 10:30 rolls around and i have to leave a whole hour before everyone else because stupid me i have a curfew. Anyway, while im driving home the other four decide to draw up a document that i have to sign. This document says that i have until May 1st to ask a certain someone out or i will live in eternal sadness...now i know that wont happen but it got my brain thinking, maybe if i didnt go for this maybe i will be in eternal sadness, so im actually gonna go through with it...i think...
I told my mom about all this, and my mom is all for it, way to go mom, nice for you to be on my side..lol, she thinks he and i would be cute together, she said, and i quote "You can be throwers together!" again thanx mom..
So yea may 1st...better not come soon because the heat is on, and i dont like it.

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:: 2003 18 January :: 10.01 pm
:: Mood: crazy

Ok…this all started with a dream…..

Once upon a time…there were two people we’ll call them Unknown. They fell in love and had four wonderful…err…wonderfully weird children. The children’s names were Megan, Britt, Stevie, and Herringshaw. One day Megan and Herringshaw were out in the sand box and one thing led to another and they fell in love. Soon after they had an illegitimate child named Jackie. Stevie fell in love and married a young man named Stram. They were happy with each other until Stram got bored and started an affair with Megan. Nothing really came out of that but it’s worth mentioning. Jackie fell in love with pizza boy #1 who in fact was REALLY h-o-t-t- hott (props to Ian)!! Back to the four children the second oldest of them, Britt, married Metcalf, an ex-pro wrestler who is now the town drunk because his child is crazy. The marriage is ok..but anyway they had a child. Sara. Sara is in love with Herringshaw, her uncle, who is Megan’s lover and also having an affair with Erin the Evil. Back to Stevie, she fell in love with pizza boy #2, pizza boy #1’s twin, their names are Fook Yu and Fook Me. That’s lovely. Sara became known as the town whore and dumped Herringshaw to date Dilbert the cat…yea you heard me cat…anyway that didn’t last long because she learned she was allergic to him so then she moved on to Ian’s ASS but that was short lived because first of all its an ASS, second of all. It belonged to IAN, and lastly because Dan already made claim to it. Stram fell in love with Fook Yu…but then it turned out to be Fook Me…damn identical twins…always mixing poor Stram up…Britt got sick of the town drunk and started seeing the town psycho Doug….but that was just wrong because he had a stalker named nomatter62….Britt quickly got sick of that because she thought that nomatter62 was a MAN dun dun dun!!!!! Doug is in fact in love with Sara, Britt’s child and the town whore..Megan thinks he is in love with her, but hello??? Not everything revolves around Megan…she’s such a drama queen. In the meantime a six-some is evolving between Fook Yu AND Me, Stram, Megan, Stevie and Jackie. Yea aren’t we a lovely family…I blame the damn pizza guys!!

~Britt

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:: 2003 12 January :: 12.01 am
:: Mood: amazing!

i havent updated in awhile...
ive had two amazing nights since last time...
First:
i went bowling with herringshaw and ian that was fun because i norally am the worst bowler ever and i beat them both twice, and then only lost to ian the third time. They started to get mad and yell perverted things at me to makes me screw up and of course i did...meanies! anyway then we got the bright idea to throw left hadned that was a bad idea because i totally missed the ally and the gutter...i hit the lits on the other side of the gutter then i ran and ian bowled my second roll and actualy hit like 8 pins down the one time he does good its for me :) we also made funny names to put on the score thingy, my two favorites for me were the wenchonator and ms. gizzeroni...it was cool, i love going out with those guys.
Second:
tonight was our benefits concert. i think we did really well, i havent watched the tape yet but i think it was cool. Afterwards we went to dairy queen (me megs sara jackie doug ian and dan) we had fun, mainly with ice cream and bottle caps, then dan figured out he forgot his licence, so doug was scared and drove with the girls then we left to take jackie home and dan followed me and when i dropped jackie off i jumped on his van because they always jump on my car and then ian mooned me and now im scarred for life...i mean this is ian's ASS we're talking about. so then i try to lose them which doesnt work so i give up and just take megan home which is when doug gets out to kick megans paw print sign thingy and then gets back in and lays down in the back seat and megan tries to shut the door and cant because doug is holding it open and then he lets go making megs go forward into the car and then onto the ground...funny...then i take doug home and he throwss snow at my car...nothing new, he goies to dans and i take sara home, and we realze we are now haunted by the image of ians ass because she saw it in her side mirror when we were trying to lose dan (ian is in dans van the rest are in my car) so anyway wer're haunted and we swear we saw the image of ians ass in the clouds! its like the angel and devil on our shoulders, the devil is ian's ass, and the angel is ians ass with pants haha anyway that was pretty much all
bye!
oh yea and when i saw ians ass i was only like 4 feet from it and the only thing between us was air and glass and i figured if i ever have to go into war against ians ass with only air and glass as my weapon im going to die and his ass is going to eat me and then shit me back out...lovely right? lol

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:: 2002 30 December :: 10.52 am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: The Donnas and seal!! haha megs

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:: 2002 22 December :: 9.24 pm
:: Mood: lethargic

haha i so just used an english vocab word!!!! i am superior and you know it! (haha doug)
I'm actually in a good mood. Today i spent most of the day in my room, not because i was being a hermit but b/c my parents bought me a new entertainment unit and desk for my room so i basically had to clear my whole room out and rearrange everything...it took me like 6 hours. But it was cool, i found a whole bunch of stuff from elementary and i FINALLY went through the bag that had all my stuff from my bday party in it. I check out all the presents and i found lip gloss i never knew i got..so thanks to whoever gave that to me! :) I also had a chance to read through all the cards...idc what people say you guys are the coolest! the cards were so cute...i felt loved! so THANX!!!!
Mikey came out today. I love my brother. He's the coolest to hang out with. I never fully understand why other siblings don't get along together since mike and i do so well. he's just a cool guy and fun to hang out with. I think anyone could spend like 5 minutes with him and have the greatest time. I was all happy when i heard he was coming out b/c we don't see each other as often as we used to, so it was cool.
Well this english project suxx....my group hasn't met or anything, and its starting to bother me. I need a good grade on this project and at the rate we're going its not gonna happen...so hopefully we get a rocket lit in our asses and we start working. I hate having to worry about these things over break
I also have to find a book to read by the 6th...i have to have it finished and have an idea quote list done...yet another thing to worry about...school suxx...i think i need to drop out...if only it were legal...
anyway..i guess that's all, i think i've written enough..bye!

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:: 2002 20 December :: 7.56 pm
:: Mood: i'm fine!

so yea...my parents found this..and read it all..let's just get one things straight...i'm fine! i'm not depressed i have great friends and a great family..i don't need anything more. Life has been going well lately, so all is good.
My parents just weren't too happy about what happened on thursday and they don't like the fact that i take so many people home. What happened thursday is no one's fault, except my own. I should learn to have better judgment. Just for the meantime i'm not going to be taking people home except for sid. Maybe when we get back from break or a few weeks after i'll start again. who knows. my parents are only looking out for my safety. but i'm going to be ok, just give me time to recooperate from school.

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:: 2002 19 December :: 7.31 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: all christmas! except for when sid changes it....

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:: 2002 17 December :: 5.42 pm
:: Mood: geeky

haha i'm not really in a geeky mood...i don't think i know how to be in a geeky mood....

anyway

today wasn't that bad of a day. We had a publicity shot taken today for band for the conference we're going to in january..we had to wear all black, and i quickly changed into jeans right after the picture....typical me. Second period was good...it english, we worked on our groups on the project we actually got work done and i think its gonna come out really well. Trig was nothing different than usual...i just like that class because of the people Spanish sucked ass but that's nothing new. Bio was the coolest i thought i was in kindergarten again!! we got to make cell models. Megs and i were partners, and lets just say that nerds, marshmallows, jelly beans, playdoh, puffy paint, s fish bown and hair gel can be a lot of fun and earn you 61 points out of a possible 37! Yea megs!! we rock!! Study hall was nothing out of the ordinary, just the basic in depth talks with joe schmo then history we watched a movie....well let's rephrase that i took a nap.
Then the ride hoe was awesome. I had silly string in my car because of the cell project and sid got ahold of it and who happened to be driving behind me...TARA!!! so sid sprays silly string at them, except for when i stopped the string went the opposite way...as in not hitting tara's car but hitting mine....fun fun..then when sid tried to get it off he ended up getting tangled in it...nothing is ever dull on the drive home with sid haha

well tonigh i have to put together a presentation for science plus study for a trig test which i'm doomed on, and redo my english paper and some other junk for other classes...don't be jealous of my life, its not worth it!

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:: 2002 14 December :: 8.28 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: christmasy

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:: 2002 12 December :: 7.48 pm
:: Mood: confused

I've never really done an online journal, but i'm thinking this will help me get out some of my confusion, i mean who's going to read this anyway?
Nothing really big happened today. Wrestlers have a meet so they had to wear sweaters with the emblem on it. They looked funny. One in particular but we won't go there. During the day i seemed to get frustrated a lot. I don't think people noticed though. I tend to keep things pretty hidden. I don't like to tell people what's going on with me. Why should i bother people with my problems? That's what this journal's for, i'll tell you all my problems, therefore no one will ever read this, so no one will be bothered. Perfect solution. After school a friend of mine drove my car. I must really like him, because i don't normally let people drive my car. He's the only one who isn't family. I trust him though, he's a good driver. He reminds me of my brother when he drives. It hombling. It almost makes me like him more, just because it makes the situation comfortable.
The drive home was bad. The person i drive with was annoying me. He was just doing things that annoyed the piss outta me and i don't know why. I'm normally very passive with this kid, but today i wanted to hit him, although i know if i did he could kick my ass.
I'm just glad to be home, even though i have three tests to study for and twenty some problems in math to do...FUN STUFF!! but it is must see thursday so its all good, i'll study during commercial breaks.

Well i guess that's all for this entry...maybe i'll keep this thing going, who knows.

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