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:: 2005 24 January :: 4.45 pm

DisorderRating
Paranoid:Moderate
Schizoid:Very High
Schizotypal:Very High
Antisocial:High
Borderline:Very High
Histrionic:Low
Narcissistic:Low
Avoidant:High
Dependent:High
Obsessive-Compulsive:High

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:: 2005 23 January :: 8.45 pm

hmm...
*yawn* I'm tired. I've managed to sleep approximately five hours in the last five days. I'm still going at the same rate as I normally do my brain is just not registering quite a fast.

Last Night Evan and I ventured to Springfield.. we met up with Chase and Terri. We wen't to Hobby Lobby and messed around for nearly two hours. I've loads of pictures. We also went to Wal*Mart and Terri and I purchased candy that Evan recommended. *shudder* I never want chocolate again. But, I had alot of fun.. more than previous weekends. It's always better when Evan goes with me because we talk about ourselves and it's good time for bonding.. Strawberry Limeades included. Good times...I fear they will end way to soon.

My father is talking about me getting a different vehicle. Things keep happening to it. It's a constant battle to keep it on the road. So, we'll see what comes out of this. Maybe a graduation present? That'd be pretty generous of them.. since they aren't going to help me through college.

Long week ahead, hopefully it wont be too long...

My list of random objects:
...powdered donuts, bite size things, the speed of turn signals, coasters, sewing maching manuals, chain link fence, mesh, kamaaina, logos, ponchos, quarantine, cracks, antiques, refillable containers, sidecars, spackle, Vietnam, Charles William Eliot, hylozoism...

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:: 2005 21 January :: 7.45 pm

..you make me cake, I make you cookies..

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:: 2005 19 January :: 8.20 pm

Today was.. something else.
This morning the first thing I was hit with when I woke up is my mother insisting I move out. It bothered me all day, I didn't know what to do - not knowing if I still had a home. But, I am now at my house.. only because my father demanded so. I'm not too enthused about being here with my mother present as well. We've yet to speak. Hopefully, -yes..hope- I will somehow be able to work this out so I can continue my stay here until I can finish high school. Not that they will have to worry about me being here any longer.

My parents are currently talking about me in the other room. A few moments ago I overheard my mother saying "she's worthless to have around anyway".. that didn't hit me too well. It's hard to hear those words out of the two people who should care the most about you. But, I suppose I've learned to live with them never being there. Just.. not so completely.. gone. They've always.. *shrug* nevermind.

It's pointless to continue on this topic, I can't help it.. I've already attempted to do so.

I can't wait until this weekend. My weekends are the best part of my week.. I spend them with the man I'm in absolute love with and the best friend I can't get enough of. What more could I ask for?

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:: 2005 10 January :: 8.45 pm

You know what? FUCK IT

..i'm tired of explaining my position, maybe someday you'll understand it for yourself..


If anything, I didn't need that from you.. you know I didn't mean it like that. If you seriously believe i'm like that, i'm sorry that i've ever tried to care. If you don't understand where i'm coming from, no one else will. You've sat with me while I was dealing with the shit I used to do.. I just don't want that back. I thought you would understand.

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