Staind - Take It
I feel like this won't go away
no matter how hard I try
to squeeze my eyes shut
so i can't see the pain
in you this pain in me - in me

But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it

I know that I am really not here
to represent what I am not clear
About in my head sometimes
I feel fucked up just like you do - like you do

But everything that I can say to you
Won't help you - everything you need is right in front of you
Just take it

Try to make it through the daily pain
That you feel - maybe tomorrow won't be so bad.
It know it
'cause I once felt that way
Nothing I could say
Made it go away
I lived through this
I still feel this
I just live for my tomorrow

Make it go away
Just make it go away
She'll make it go away



Black:
PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE
KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH
SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the
world. For reasons who knows, but you
definately hate life.
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I am making your CD Ellen....Finally.

Well, my parents have envaded my privacy one too many times, they found out something they didnt want to know.... Face it, Not everyone is fucking happy....

I wonder if they will treat me as if I am weak now.... They dont fucking know what happens in my life... I hate it when my parents find out something about me.... They treat me as if I am fragile and like I am unable to take care of my own problems.... YOU KNOW WHAT, FUCK YOU.... FUCK EVERYTHING

I hate standards... Why must they be required by all parents.... Fuck your standards as well.... Im not going to be who you want me to fucking be.. so dont even fucking try.

I am writing on rubber bands for entertainment.....amusing eh??

I love Mountain Dew....It is required for my everlasting life *thinks*...then why do I drink it.............because it is sooooo good. Its the best new alternative to drugs or alcohol.

I feel you by 3 Doors Down is a good song...

incompetency.......taking place around and inside me every day....
Me: "That clock blinked off when I walked by it"
Grandmother: "Amber, all of the lights blinked"
Me: "Oh, Ok"

My stupid moment of the day.......

Only Living To Die.......I would suppose that is a good description for some......If only the "dying" part were not so distant that would be a good definition of me as well.....Everything I do contradicts my future anyway so why not want to die before everything else falls a fucking part.

I hate Breathing.
I hate Smiling.
I hate Brightness.
I hate Stupidity.
I hate Eating.
I hate........everything, except......

Ellen, Amber K., Ashley, Going to breakfast with Ellen, Being Alone, Dripping Blood, Mrs. Hutton, Music, Drawing, Potentially Dangerous Objects, and Rain.......
Sometimes there are other things I dont hate like.........Angie, Toby, Activity, Driving, Playing Drums, and Punching things.......

I am done complaining now.......