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2018 12 July :: 7.35am
I know you won't ever admit it, but I know it's the booze.
seeing bill Burr this weekend with my bestie in Seattle as her day gift.
my cars timing cover is jacked, $700+ repair after the $1,000 I put into it since my bday. it's only a 2012 :( I should have done more research. apparently this cover issue could have caused all the other shit that broke so thankfully CarMax is doing these repairs for free!
also the lady who sold me my car did the warranty wrong so I got a bonus 25,000 miles on my warranty! hellaaaaaa
hopefully this is the last thing went with it for a while. I got this car to be more reliable than my last and now I've spent more money on this 2012 than my 1996 Nissan or my 1992 Mercury.
next car I get I want it to be an ultra smooth ride with no inside sound with as sun roof. it's going to have being inside and underneath. it'll be some time of El Camino or maybe just an Ute.
keep dreaming dreamers
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2018 9 July :: 10.58pm
my boss complimented my better attitude today
but said she wasn't sure if it was sincere and it's like what does it even matter I'm smiling I'm cracking jokes people are happy that's what you want so let's just don't worry about the deeper parts
everything that could have gone wrong cooking tonight did but it still turned into wonderful
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2018 2 July :: 1.57pm
my sleeve is FINALLY FINISHED
after 5 years and 48 hours of work this beautiful creation has all the pieces filled.
but he use two different blacks and half is in the new black and half is in the old (the old stuff looks kinda grew, like graphite). I kinda want him to go other all the lines again but fuuuuuck
this last appointment was definitely the most painful (possibly second after the elbow, but I don't quite remember if it was worse or not)
he also touched up my totoros and back stars so they look a lot more clean and vibrant!
I love all of them. I'm so happy it's finally done :)
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2018 29 June :: 10.47pm
why do I still try
don't try
it doesn't matter either way
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2018 27 June :: 1.51pm
I know how to cope with my depression, I know I can't dwell on my set backs, but I was really, really counting on at least getting an interview, and now you tell me they've hired everyone they want to for now.
but it's not ok to be upset about that.gotta just keep moving forward like a cold unfeeling robot arm.
I'm so fucking sick of all this. just leave me alone. I am shutting myself away so none of you have to feel compelled to give me any more advice I didn't ask for, or more negative words that I don't need, or telling me to do shit I'm not fucking going to do.
IM DRIVING MY OWN GOD DAMNED BUS AND I WILL BE AS FUCKING SAD AS I WANTO TO BE ABOUT WHATEVER I WANT TO BE SAD ABOUT.
I'm not asking for help. my experience is my responsibility. I'm not asking to be lifted up and told fluffy lies about myself.
just leave me be and let me rot alone in absurdity.
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