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2003 5 September :: 10.44 pm
:: Mood: stressed
Holy crap I was at church today doin' my church dealy thing and somehow the topic came up of my future and now I'm totally freaked out because I have no idea what I'm gonna do.
My mom thinks I should be an accountant (barf)
My friends mom thinks I should teach driver's ed (I got denyed my pink permit for God's sake!)
April thinks I should do clothing design
Sara thinks I should be a veternary assistant
I think I should be free.
I want to be a musician. Or an artist. Or a philosopher. Or a carnie.
None of those make money. Not that I care that much, I just don't wanna live in a box under the overpass.
The real question at hand is freedom vs. security.
I hope I pick the right choice.........
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2003 1 September :: 6.57 pm
:: Music: superchicken
I am retarded!! And other things that need to be adressed
Well I figured out why my journal wouldn't let me in. I had the wrong password. I'm dumb, so very dumb.
Anyway, everyone needs to chill out. All this bullshit is starting to piss me off. There's few things in this world that pisses me off, but friends not acting like friends is one of them. With the exception of a few people (I won't say names cuz I'll forget someone, but I'm sure you know who you are), everyone's acting like the world is ending. Guess what: It's not. Everything will be fine if you just let it.
I always thought our group was one that got along well, and we didn't stab each other in the back or any of that shit. Please don't prove me wrong.
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2003 29 August :: 9.11 pm
:: Mood: weary of this human plight
:: Music: Dead Meadow-Heaven
Heaven Isn't Too Far, It's Far Enough....
Hmm....that's interesting.
I just got the new Dead Meadow CD yesterday. It ROCKS!! Well, not exactly rocks but, it's strangely beautiful. There's a couple love songs on it but they're not sappy and they're still really pshycedelic. I love Dead Meadow. I know you were all dreading this, but too bad. It's lyrics time.
The rushing whirling wind
over and over again.
As begining eats it's end
I guess I'll see you soon friend.
The rushing whirling wind
round and round we spin.
I'm with you without end.
I guess I'll see you soon, friend.
You stop the whirling wind that
spins in my head.
As begining eats its end I feel
like I'm
with you without end.
As beginning eats its end,
I'll be with you again.
Now can you guess who sings that? I'll give you a hint: It starts with a D, ends with a W, and in the middle theres "ead Meado". Happy guessing!!
Aside from that, I was lying in a field today worrying about some petty problem, and I looked up and saw a deer 20 feet away from me. The weird thing was, it didn't go dashing off right away. It hung around and stared at me for awhile. After it left, I couldn't remember what I was so worried about...
Well I think that's (finally) all I have to say.
I hope to see y'all soon. Bye!
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2003 27 August :: 9.49 pm
:: Mood: depression eating me alive
:: Music: St. Vitus-Born Too Late
Ignore this if you want....
soo much stuff to say but I can't get the words out. I should stop listening to doom, it makes me depressed but I like it anyway. Erg. I think that's it. Bye now.
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2003 27 August :: 4.29 pm
:: Mood: philisophical
:: Music: Pentagram-Buzzsaw
My pretentious musings on life
We had to write metaphors about life today in creative writing. How the hell do you do that? Life is like, well, life.
Life is nothing you could imagine.
nothing you could dream,
nothing you'd suspect,
It's just life.
You can't capture it in two sentences. The most accurate metaphor on life I've ever seen is this:
"Life is like a shooting star, doesn't matter who you are, if you only run for cover, it's just a waste of time."
That's by a band called Live.
Pentagram kicks ass. I think that's all I have to say.
Oh and who the hell is Switchfoot? I've never heard them. Are they good?
Ok that's really it. Bye now!
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2003 26 August :: 5.52 pm
well I didn't update yesterday so you get to hear about all my classes today! don't ya feel special?!
Algebra 2- no one to talk to, tho the teacher is amusing. I mean for a math teacher....
Creative Writing- Still no one to talk to but this hot dude sits rite next to me *drool* And I get credit just for writing poems! How cool is that?
Ceramics- CLAY!! HOORAY!
French 3- It's w/ Rachel. Yay!! But we have to take our exams from last year to see how much we remember and whether we'll do good in French 3. Erg...
crud whats my next class....oh yeah!
Hon. English 11- Amanda and Tracey are in it! And Mr. Connoly's cool! Holy crap I just said a teacher is cool...
US History- My teacher is annoyingly hyper and there's no one to talk to. Blah...
My mom's making me take the P-ACT. I'm pissed. I don't even know if I'm going to college.
That is all.
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2003 21 August :: 3.43 pm
:: Mood: regretful
Erg!
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I'm so tired.............
I walked alllllll the way home from Rockford today.....the dentist appointment took way longer than expected. I didn't get out until like 11:30...that's why I wasn't downtown when I said I would be, Jackie. I'm sorry.
So yeah.....um I think that was all I had to say. Besides goodbye cuz I'm off to chicago tomorow. I'll see y'all on monday. (barf)
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2003 20 August :: 4.15 pm
Take my quiz!!
Take my quiz. It's dumb. But kinda fun.
http://quizilla.com/users/PyschedelicGrasshopper/quizzes/what%20high%20school%20stereotype%20are%20you%3F
That is all.
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2003 19 August :: 12.41 pm
:: Music: Ribeye Bros-Mister Ray Charles
I've said it before but....
Hey I have a dentist appointment thurs. morning downtown and then I'm stuck there cuz my mom's working. So if anyone wants to come hang out w/ me, then that'd be cool. So yeah I just thought I'd let y'all kno for the millionth time cuz this is the last chance I'll get to see anyone before school starts. Oh and congrats on the gee-tar kyle!
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2003 18 August :: 10.19 pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd
I'll See You On the Dark Side of the Moon....
Hey guess what! This month is the 30th Anniversery of Pink Floyd's Dark Side of the Moon! 30 years of dark, beautiful, frightenly real pshycedelic escapism.....mmmmmm.......That's some good listenin'.......
I'm going to Illinois on Friday and coming back sunday. Then I get to go to school on Monday!! Lucky me.....
Well that's it. Bye now.
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2003 17 August :: 2.45 pm
:: Mood: optimistic
:: Music: Solace-Mother Godzilla
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.........
Fuck is such an ugly word.....
An ugly word for an ugly world.
My grandpa just died. I have no idea how. He was in his 80's but he wasn't really sick or anything. At least he's out of this wretched place and w/ my grandma.....
This means I'll be going to Illinois sometime soon. I was going to go next weekend but maybe I'll be going sooner now. I don't really know.
My dog and my brothers dog got in a fight yesterday. My dog had to get 3 stiches on her head. At least she doesn't have to wear one of those cone things....yet.
My goldfish is ill. He's been sitting at the bottom of his tank for 3 days. I hope he doesn't die....he probly will.
All this and school starts in a week. erg.
I'm still convinced that everything will turn out fine. Everything has to turn out fine because I can't handle another bad year.
I've always been told that God won't ever give you more than you can handle. I guess this is the test. Or one of them anyway.
Oh and the world doesn't suck as much as I once thought. If the world was really sucky there would be no Dead Meadow or 13th Floor Elevators, right? Right. At least that's what I'm telling myself.
Well, I think I've wasted enough of your time. Hope to see y'all soon! I love you all.
It's alright.....
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2003 12 August :: 5.17 pm
:: Music: Beatles-Here Comes the Sun
Some Much Needed Cheer....
Here comes the sun,
do do do do.
Here comes the sun!
And I said
It's alrite...
Little darling,
It's been a long cold lonely winter.
Little darling,
It feels like years since it's been here.
Here comes the sun,
do do do do
Here comes the sun.
And I say
It's alright...
Little darling,
I feel the ice is slowly melting
Little darling,
It seems like years since it's been here.
Here comes the sun,
do do do do,
Here comes the sun,
And I say
It's alright.
Little darling,
The smile's returning to their faces.
Little darling,
It seems like years since it's been here.
Here comes the sun,
do do do do.
Here comes the sun,
And I say
It's alright.
IT'S ALRIGHT!!!!
If anyone's still reading, what time are y'all planning on going to orientation? That is all.
It's alright.
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2003 11 August :: 2.56 pm
:: Music: Ben Gunn Soceity-Cosmic Wind
2 updates in one day! wow!
Everyone should check out this sites.
http://www.elanix.com/igor/bengunnsociety/index.html
The folk-rock treasure island-inspired band website to end all folk-rock treasure island-inspired band websites. It even has a coloring book! How cool is that!?
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2003 8 August :: 5.51 pm
:: Mood: distant
:: Music: Dead Meadow-Lets Jump In
Let your eyes lose foooooooooooocuuuuusssssss.....
It seems the trip to Illinois has been postponed until tomorow. I'm coming back sunday. Loo, I won't even be there for 48 hours.....
"I am American." That phrase seems weird and foreign to me when I say it. Even "I am an earthling" sounds weird to me. Probly cuz no one says "Hey guess what! I'm an earthling!" In a normal coversation :P
Beyond the fields we know sits one whose eyes regard the end.
He sits fast asleep, dreaming me, dreaming him.....
You think anyone could stay sane if they thought about the real world 24/7 and never daydreamed? Or maybe if you daydream and space out a lot that means your insane. If thats true then I'm nuts........(really)....
I have yet another dentist appointment 8:00 am next friday. The office is in downtown rockford. My mom is dropping me off and then going to work, so I'll be stuck there. So if anyone wants to meet me downtown or something, just let me know....
Well, thats enuf nonsense for one day. I'll see y'all soon I hope. Bye!
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2003 7 August :: 5.29 pm
:: Mood: I love phsyche! (or however you spell it)
:: Music: Electric Wizard-Chrononaut
Ouches! My teeth hurt. I just got my root canal filled today.
In other news, I'll probly be in Illinois this weekend visting my cousins and such. I think I'm leaving tomorow. Probly coming back sunday or monday. CRAP! I still have to pack. I just remembered that now.
I was going to use this space to talk about bands nobody has ever heard of, but I'm refraining.
Bye.
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