XxManifested.TearzxX

:: 2004 5 November :: 1.41pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: none.. im at school

tinkerbell
well i was on google and i found some wicked adorable pictures of tinkerbell.. this is my favorite

well i have practice soon and then the game

-Nik

:: 2004 4 November :: 2.09pm

. . . . . . ..::.:.::* wishing upon a star *::.:.::.. . . . . .
she doesnt mean to hurt him when she turns away. more than anything, she wants to hold his hand as she walks down the hall. when she looks past him its only for her friends. they think she doesnt pay enough attention towards them. they are the ones that were there before the boyfriend and they are the ones that will be there when he leaves. does it not make any more sense to give more attention to her friends than him? at night she calls him to talk and none of her friends. it balances itself out in the end, right? she doesnt want him to be hurt. it has only been a week. are they rushing things? expecting too much? so much goes unanswered.

:: 2004 3 November :: 9.03am
:: Music: coheed and cambria

the world is at ease...
maybe for a little. i am content enough. i still hide the scars from him. he knows of them but has never seen them. i am tired of iding them. i think i may stop. it is simply beautiful in the mornings. the clouds are out and simmer in the golden rays. quite entrancing. sometimes i wish i was as pretty. i noticed more and more that people are starting to leave me. is it really my fault? i try to be a pleasant enough person. i dont talk about people behind their backs. sure, i get a lil hyper sometiems and i talk a little too much, but does that really annoy them? it confuses my mind and im not quite sure how to deal with it. i have tried fixing myself but i cant seem to change. maybe i am not trying hard enough. im not quite sure. life is so confusing.

How do i change the entries so they go to the left or right???

cocopuff

:: 2004 3 November :: 9.10pm

See what Care Bear you are.

yea so i got thsi the other day from jess journal... i think it chose the right one.. seeing as how i love to wish things.. not liek they come true but hey i still do...

today sucked ass for one reason and one reason only... my Goncha is leaving tomorrow!!!!! :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(... she came to school today and we had a huge cry fest.. but the teachers are soo fuckin retarted and try and like they care but it was obv today that they dont... but w/e fuck them.... I LOVE U GONCHA AND IM GONNA MISS U SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKIGN MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :'(:'(:'(:'(:'(:'(

other then that nothign else is really important.. so im off to do something...

xoxchubbyxox

:: 2004 2 November :: 5.21pm
:: Music: nobodys home: avril lavigne

lala
ugh im tired i just did 2 hours of yard work lol... i dont feel as sick ne more so thats good. halloween was ok, i passed out candy to the little children..and ate some too ha. well im boring i know so i have nothing else to say...

why dont u leave a comment. :)

<3 darien

cocopuff

:: 2004 1 November :: 8.29pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: Tech N9ne-"Imma Tell"

FUCKIN AMAZING!!

LAST NIGHT WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!!!!!! THAT WAS THE BEST SHOW I HAVE EVEN SEEN, AND IM SURE I WILL EVER SEE!!!! FRIGHT FEST BABY!!!.. i had soo much fun last night haha... i love halloween.. i fetl bacd cuz i didn't carve my pumpkin this year... and i didnt get to go trick or treat..but the show made up for it...

yea well today was a shitty day... i felt liek shit after lunch cuz of the god damn nasty food at are school... then my mom made me go to work even tho i flet liek shit... sucked but i was doign work on the computer liek the whole time soo it wasent that bad.. tomorrow i have work again.. thursday too... sux but w/e...

well my tummy still hurst... lol i jsuted wanted to let all u ppl who didn go to the show that it was fucking amazing!!!

<3 Lizzy

:: 2004 1 November :: 2.25pm

they see it.

i cant hide

help me

:: 2004 1 November :: 1.29pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: none.. im at school

my weekend..
im in the computer lab with my love Traci!!!!!!!!!!!!

well friday night was the football game.. i went with virginia dj cait and bill.. then we took amanda to our house.. but cait went home.. we slept at my house, but bill drove amanda home at like midnight..

ya so anyways.. then on saturday we had to wake up at like 730 becasue Genes memorial service was in the morning.. we went there and amanda made me cry :( then we went out to breakfast with the whites.. and after that we all went to the mall and stuff.. then we went home and watched movies i think..

ok so then on sunday i went to amandas and then we made her shirt for competition.. then we went to Devin and went to MONSTER JAM!! it was fuccking AmAzInG!! there were so many amanzing acts.. and then 50 cent came as a guest! it was truly awesome! i ahd so much fun.. when G-unit was on yuong buck smoked a blunt on stage.. it was kinda weird becasue there were soooooooo amny cops lol! ya so anyways then juvinille came on during slow motion and was like for anyone who has passed away who you miss and love.. put up your cell phones and dont let the lights go out! it was so sad.. i was standing next to amanda and it was really sad becasue we both just looked at eachother like so sad :( but anyways..

then on the T going home we waited for sooooo long.. first a D didnt even come.. so at north staton they made us get on a B to government center.. then there we had to take another B to park st.. then from there the guy from another B changed it to a D so we all got on.. but then when we got halfway there we had to all get off and take a bus becasue the tracks were broken! the conert got over at 12 and we didnt get home till 2! the ride was hell! ohh well because i had so much freaking fun! this random drunk guy was dancing with me and amanda and he wasnt bed looking so i had no arguments.. other than the fact that he told us he had a girlfriend and didnt care lol! ohh well we had fun!

thats all for now !!

-Nik

:: 2004 30 October :: 11.20am
:: Mood: sad

happy Birthday Gene

:: 2004 29 October :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: happy.. yet something just feels out of place
:: Music: Mario ` Let me love you

The Notebook

"I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter any more, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you."

xoxchubbyxox

:: 2004 29 October :: 3.18pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: mosh: eminem

blahh
well i still feel like crap. oh jeez lol. ive been sick from like tuesday til today and i stayed home yesterday...lol i hate bein sick. well yay for the red sox lol too bad i was asleep when they won :( any way...school is bad..i think im going to the mvoies tomorrow so that should be fun perhaps..

write more when i feel ok...

:( Darien

:: 2004 29 October :: 10.58am
:: Mood: guyish

just lose it~
for halloween you are allowed to come dressed up for school. i came dressed up as my buddy chaz. hottness! including his boxers(!!) i borrowed his titans hat. it doenst really match though. meh. i thought about slightly cutting my hair, but idecided against it and i have about 20 bobby pins holding my ends in front of my forehead. when i walked in to school. i saw kellie so i walked over to her and she kept walking. i had to run into her. she then looked at my face and saw that it was me. so many people i called out to them or walked over to them and they told me they didnt reconized me. so many tell me they actually thought i was a guy or that i looked good like a guy. hmm. i think i may have to do this more often. its quite amusing on my part. the challenge is remembering to talk in a deeper voice. i walked into this class and sat on grants lap (cause all the guys thinks it so weird to be hugged by someone who is wearing baggy clothes) and so he pants me. im standin there in boxers. ha! then i had a few guys ask me if i was wearign anything under the boxers. {smirk} tee hee. wouldnt they like to know. this is hottness!

:: 2004 28 October :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: burnt out
:: Music: Mario ` Let me love you

Good song
Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

[Verse 2:]

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you, you are)

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Ooh Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me....

[Bridge:]

You deserve better girl (you know you deserve better)
We should be together girl (baby)
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

[Chorus:]

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Let me love you that's all you need baby..

4 Xx.Will.Be.My.xXxX | xX.Inspiration.Xx

:: 2004 28 October :: 9.12am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: none.. im at school

RED SOX (and things)
FUCK YEA!! the red sox are fucking AMAZING!!!! hell ya baby we won!!! okay so if the parade is tomorrow like it is supposed to be then im going. but if its saturday then probobly not becasue i have Gene's Memorial service :( tear its gunna be so sad..

i really hope that the parade is tomorrow!

Amanda, Gini, Bill, and probobly Chris and Kevin are sleeping over on friaday.. then we hafta get up SuPeR early for Gene's Service .. i think its gunna be really sad and depressing..

HaPpY eArLy 18tH bIrThDaY gEnE! i LoVe YoU sO mUcH!!!

thats all for now since im in the computer lab right now.. its 2nd period and im already ready to go home, but i have detention today :/

-Nik

:: 2004 27 October :: 10.19pm

I am head over heels in love with Robbie Walker.

good day.

cocopuff

:: 2004 27 October :: 8.05pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Melissa Manchester-"Don't Cry Out Loud"

randommmm...

I love to look into your big brown eyes
They talk to me and seem to hypnotize
They say the things nobody dares to say
And I'm not about to let you fly away

My lover with no jet lag
We're staying up all night in my sleeping bag
You got a heart beatin' rhythm from the subterranean
I really love you little girl
I don't need to explain

[Chorus]
I love you 'cause your deuces are wild, girl
Like a double shot of love is so fine
I been lovin' you since you was a child, girl
'Cause you and me is two of a kind

Ah, like deja vu I feel like I've been here
Or somewhere else but you've been always near
It's you that's in my dreams I'm begging for
But I woke up when someone slammed the door

So hard I fell outta bed
Screamin' mama's little baby loves shortnin' bread
And the moral of the story I can testify
I get stoned on you girl
That's the best reason why

yea well today wasent much of an evenful day.. did the usual.. sept my poor Johnny Mo mess up his knee downtown today.. speeking of which if the bum didn't lie too me he shoudl b at the hospital getting x-rays lol....

oh joy i have to work again tomorrow.. i worked one day and i already hate it... bahhhh

im off ot watch the sox win the world series!!!!!!!!

<3Lizzy

xoxchubbyxox

:: 2004 26 October :: 7.50pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: alicia keys: karma

ugh...
today i had three tests and like two lab activity thingers so i couldnt miss those cuz i hate making up work. so instead of sleeping i worked all day at school and gave myself a fever. so now im rying to sleep but i cant stop coughing,

i hate being sick :(

comment please.

:: 2004 26 October :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: undescribable
:: Music: none

Anyways.
today was decent.

I decided I need to start being myself around everyone.. I act different around certain people and I dont know why.. I hate it. yeah well that's my new goal for now

5 days until Halloween!!!! :-D

:: 2004 26 October :: 2.25pm

playing the guys. flirting with too many?
she flirts too much.
damnit.
she jus wants to be loved.