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:: 2005 24 June :: 11.51pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Tonight and the rest of my life - Nina Gordon

I've figured a few things out this week..
1) My stepfather is an asshole.
2) I want to see Carl.
3) I want to see Sirus.
4) I want to see Leesh.
5) I love german chocolate and teddy bears.
6) I need to stay away from Hot Damn.

Well, Jim and my mom got into a massive fight.. which is not unusual. Although, I hate having to listen to it.
I've not gotten to see Carl yet since she got back.. I hope to tomorrow. I'm booking you Carl!
I just read Carl's Woohu, Sye is coming in 7 days! I can't believe it's that soon. :D
Leesh has drivers education for the next 2 weeks or so, and I won't be able to see her until around July.. 12th, is it? What ever the date, it's too long.

Eh, I'm finished.

fearthainn

:: 2005 19 June :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: U2 - Where the streets have no name

"I want to run,
I want to hide,
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside,
I want to reach out,
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name..
- -
I want to feel
Sunlight on my face,
I see the dust cloud disappear
Without a trace,
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name..
- -
Where the streets have no name..
Where the streets have no name..
We're still building,
Then burning down love
Burning down love..
And when I go there,
I go there with you
It's all I can do."

I don't care what your opinion is of U2, they have a very relaxing sound.
Which tonight, I have a reason for listening to them.. I thought my headaches were giving me a break, yeah, I was wrong. They were on and off the last couple weeks or so, but they've returned and they are as constant as before.
These headaches are full on tension. When I stand up, I feel faint and lightheaded.. I do have a very high tolerance for these, but tonight it's terrible.
I apologise for my complaining, I hate doing this. I know you guys (those of you who do read my journal) are probably sitting there wishing to throw objects at me for doing so, and I don't blame you.

-End of complaining

Today was a looong day, as expected. I went to a couple family get-together-things, for Father's Day.
I left home around noon, and got back only a few hours ago.. well, I was home for about 15 minutes in between that time, but I left to see my sister's new place.
Now I'm going to go lie down and watch a movie or something, but before I go I'd like to thank Leesh for keeping me sane while Carl and Sye are gone.. you know, letting me stay at your house for the majority of the week, taking me out for coffee and/or ice cream, going out to dinner, renting movies, EVERYTHING. Thank you.

fearthainn

:: 2005 14 June :: 3.59pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: It's my life - Bon Jovi

I stayed the night at Carl's last night, and I saw her off to Germany today at the airport.. I miss her already.
sigh.
She's going to be gone for 9 days, and Sye is also gone to London.
Leesh, you're going to have to keep me sane.
Once Carl returns I'll be living with her for most of the summer. ;)
Well, at least until someone kicks me out.
Carl and I made farewell letters last night. I must have left mine at her house.. I swore I put it in my bag.
She even colored a sun, and flowers with faces on it. I'll be sure to post it once it is back in my possession.
I suppose I'm off, I'm waiting for Leesh to call.

fearthainn

:: 2005 12 June :: 4.49pm
:: Music: Hanzel und Gretyl - Ich bin über alles

I am finally updating.

Thursday - Leesh came over as planned, she came and picked me up from school.

Friday- Leesh and I hung around my house, didn't do much.. took a few pictures.

Saturday- Carl picked Leesh and I up around 5:50, and we had to meet Pop-Tart and Brett by the Gravitron at 6:00.
We rode a few rides, one being the Zipper, which I had never gone on before.. it gave me a bit of a headache, fun though.
It started to rain, so we went over to the pavillion where a band was playing.. they had a song called "Spanish"
Carl: "He's either singing about meeting a girl, or buttoning up his shirt."
After that we walked around, took some pictures.. and waited for the fireworks to begin.
Pop-Tart and Leesh went on the Ferris Wheel, while Carl, Adam, and I went on the Gravitron. We got off of that, and sat on the curb watching the fireworks..we also were watching Pop-Tart and Leesh fight on the Ferris Wheel.. that was hilarious. Basically all you saw and heard was Leesh's arms flailing, and Pop-Tart yelling at her.
We all went home after that.
I have a few pictures, if you'd like to see them.

I'm going to Carl's tomorrow, and spending the night. Then I'll be dropping her off at the airport with her family on Tuesday, then she's off to Germany. I Hope you have an awesome time, Carl!
Oh yeah, I'll bring my chocolate money for you tomorrow.

I'd also like to say, I hope you feel better Sye!
You all better wish him well.

fearthainn

:: 2005 7 June :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Wumpscut - Kreig

Hm.
I've only got about.. 3 more days that I have to wake early in the morning. Technically, it is 1.5 days.. 'cause they're half days. Anyway, I'm glad.

I'm stressed out and tired, I've got exams tomorrow in English, which is all grammar.. I mean, that's what we did all year. Believe me, I've had my share of it, and if I get another teacher that doesn't focus more on literature, I will immediately switch out.
Next, I have math.. well, I suck at math in general. So, I don't know how well that is going to go over.
Luckily, it's all multiple choice.

Today after school my brown paper bag broke, but my stash was saved for Carl had her old book cover.. so she wrapped it up for me.
Carl was definitely the saviour of the day.

On Thursday Leesh is coming over, and she's coming to get me after school on Friday.
She's given up coon hunting with her grandpa, to come join Carl, Caleb, Brett, Pop-Tart, Cone, and myself at the start of summer celebration.
It's gonna' be awesome.