poisonedheart
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2007 3 May :: 8.41pm
If you wonder why I always post song lyrics, it's because I lack the poetic ability to describe my own feelings properly.
i spent a week drinking the sunlight of winnetka, california
where they understand the weight of human hearts
you see sorrow gets too heavy and joy it tends to hold you
with the fear that it eventually departs.
and the truth is i've been dreaming of some tired, tranquil place
where the weather won't get trapped inside my bones
and if all the years of searching find one sympathetic face
then its there i will plant these seeds and make my home
i spent a day dreaming of dying in mesa, arizona
where all the green of life had turned to ash
and i felt i was on fire, with the things i could have told you
i just assumed that you eventually would ask
and i wouldn't have to bring up my so badly broken heart
and all those months i just wanted to sleep
and though spring, it did come slowly, i guess it did its part
my heart has thawed and continues to beat
i visited my brother on the outskirts of olympia
where the forest and the water become one
and we talked about our childhood, like a dream we were convinced of, that
perfect peaceful street where we came from
and i know he heard me strumming all those sad and simple chords
as i sat inside my room so long ago
and it hurts that he's still shaking from those secrets that were told by a
car closed up too tight and a heart turned cold
and i went to san diego
the birthplace of the summer
and watched the ocean dance under the moon
and there was a girl i knew there, one more potential lover
i guess that something's got to happen soon
because i know i can't keep living in this dead or dying dream
and as i walked along the beach and drank with her
i thought about my true love, the one i really need
with eyes that burn so bright, they make me pure
they make me pure
they make me pure
i long to be with you
they make me pure
they make me pure
i long to be with you
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aerii
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2007 1 May :: 10.17am
my cheeks?
seriously?
AHAHAHA
<3
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aerii
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2007 28 April :: 5.48pm
:: Mood: i feel like an asshole
someone should give me an amazing book to read.
and a really good hug.
and idk.
some nat king cole
or dean martin
or frank sinatra
albums.
idk.
i want to mellow out.
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aerii
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2007 23 April :: 9.15am
"So I guess we are who we are for a lot of reasons. And maybe we'll never know most of them. But even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them."
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aerii
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2007 22 April :: 7.20pm
ahahahaha
strawberry milkshake oreos.
sldfjsldfkjlooksldkfjlskdjf
today was a good day.
:D
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poisonedheart
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2007 17 April :: 9.31pm
I'm Jen's Bitch.
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aerii
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2007 16 April :: 10.22am
:: Mood: silly
:: Music: dogs - page france
i really want to love him.
"and im not sure what happens
when everything here ends
but i hope its like they said
and i hope it never ends."
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poisonedheart
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2007 12 April :: 7.42pm
Take me out tonight
Where theres music and theres people
And theyre young and alive
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I havent got one
Anymore
Take me out tonight
Because I want to see people and i
Want to see life
Driving in your car
Oh, please dont drop me home
Because its not my home, its their
Home, and Im welcome no more
And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine
Take me out tonight
Take me anywhere, I dont care
I dont care, I dont care
And in the darkened underpass
I thought oh god, my chance has come at last
(but then a strange fear gripped me and i
Just couldnt ask)
Take me out tonight
Oh, take me anywhere, I dont care
I dont care, I dont care
Driving in your car
I never never want to go home
Because I havent got one, da ...
Oh, I havent got one
And if a double-decker bus
Crashes into us
To die by your side
Is such a heavenly way to die
And if a ten-ton truck
Kills the both of us
To die by your side
Well, the pleasure - the privilege is mine
Oh, there is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
There is a light and it never goes out
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poisonedheart
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2007 11 April :: 9.27pm
You are so self-centered, the entire fucking world revolves around you.
I mean, I love you, but you need to get the fuck over yourself.
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poisonedheart
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2007 11 April :: 7.53pm
"The City Has Sex"
the city has sex with itself i suppose
as the concrete collides, the scenery grows
and the lonely once bandaged lay fully exposed
having undressed their wounds for each other
and there is a boy in a basement with a four track machine
he's been strumming and screaming all night, down there
the tape hiss will cover the words that he sings
but then they say it's better to bury your sadness
in a graveyard or garden that waits for the spring to awake from its sleep
and burst into green
and i've cried and you would think i would be better for it
but the sadness just sleeps and it stays in your spine
for the rest of my life
and i've learned and you'd think i'd be something more now,
but it just goes to show it is not what you know
its what you were thinking at the time.
this feeling's familiar, i've been here before
in a kitchen this quiet i waited for a sign or just something
that might reassure me of anything close to meaning or motion
(with a reason to move)
i need something i want to be close to
and i scream, but i still don't know why i do it
because the sound never stays it just swells and decays
so what is the point?
why try to fight what is now so certain?
the truth is all that i am is a passing event that will be forgotten.
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aerii
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2007 11 April :: 9.19am
i've been waiting for this moment all of my life,
but it's not quite right.
5 were foolish.. |
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aerii
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2007 9 April :: 6.25am
:: Mood: sore
:: Music: anberlin
i dont want to go to school today
alkjblksjdjjosidu7u98s9
yuck
i better go do my homework.
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poisonedheart
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2007 8 April :: 8.50pm
we'll never have to listen to anyone
about anything
cause it's all been done
and it's all been said
we're the coolest kids and we take what we can get
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poisonedheart
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2007 6 April :: 9.46pm
i dreamt of a fever,
one that would cure me of this cold, winter set heart.
with heat to melt these frozen tears and burned with reasons
as to carry on.
into these twisted months i plunge without a light to follow
but i swear that i would follow anything
if it would just get me out of here.
and so you get six months to adapt
and then you get two more to leave town.
in the event that you do adapt we still might not want you around.
and i fell for the promise of a life with a purpose
but i know that that is impossible now.
and so i drink to stay warm
and to kill selected memories
because i just can't think anymore about that or about her tonight
i give myself three days to feel better
or i swear i'll drive right off a fucking cliff
because if i can't make myself feel better
then how can i expect anyone else to give a shit
and i scream for the sunlight or a car to take me anywhere
just get me past this dead and eternal snow
because i swear that i am dying, slowly but its happening
and if the perfect spring is waiting somewhere
just take me there and lie to me and say it's going to be alright
its going to be alright, yeah you worry too much kid,
its going to be alright.
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aerii
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2007 30 March :: 7.55am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: safe and sound - azure ray
ahaha
man, i don't even understand where my dreams come from.
seriously
they don't make any sense at all.
anywayyyyyyyyyyy
eli's show is tonight
and i'm hoping to go with nicole and morgan.
and i want to hang out with loren today
so he can come to.
umm....
springbreak much?
indeed.
about damn time.
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