Dance 'til ya drop

:: 2007 17 January :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: scared

I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath where I am.

:: 2007 17 January :: 4.13pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: Wolf Like Me - TV On The Radio

I hate empty stomachs.
They make too much noise.
And they ruin my day and make me feel sick.

So I've decided I'm going to go into my kitchen and find some food.
yes yes.

Today was uneventful in an eventful way.
If that makes sense..

I made some new friends, and I did good on my logic quiz.
Eli broke a table.
I was sophisticated. Hells yes.
I talked to square head kid on the bus ahaha that was fun.

But I really am hungry.
So I'm going to go eat some stuffs.

:D

:: 2007 16 January :: 8.36pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Agenda Suicide - The Faint

i am so tired
and sore

and i dont know why

and im really pissed off.
lets go punch infants.

2 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 16 January :: 4.50pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Books Written For Girls - Camera Obscura

so i guess i'm grounded for another five weeks.
which is pure shit.

so what, i failed english but im doing it again. im not giving up.
jesus christ, this wont fuck up my future forever.
let me go.

to get ungrounded i have to have a B average.
so i have a B in math and a B in american studies
and i have proof of those grades.
but they want me to wait until winter quarter grades are posted to unground me.
winter quarter just started.

that seems unfair.
or am i just crazy?

maybe im just crazy.

ahahahahaha its not like i dont learn from my mistakes.

3 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 16 January :: 5.20am
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: Float On - Ben Lee

i have a quiz in logic today.
and i hope seeing beau wont be akward.
it wont be.
i just have to tell myself that.

i want to see nicole
and katie
and ksanka
and a whole bunch of other people.
and brookelynn :)

so last night, my dad had the "what are you going to do when you grow up" talk with me. im getting kind of sick of these.
so now i have to make a list of colleges i want to go to
and i have to find scholarships and i have to make a plan
and i dont want to.

its a scary feeling not knowing what you're going to be doing for the rest of your life..
and its just starting to sink in i think.

:: 2007 15 January :: 7.16pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: A Movie Script Ending - Death Cab For Cutie

sd uggh

sldjfslj
i want to get away from here
just drive away
get on that highway and never look back.
i want to see it all, i just want to soak everything in and admire the beauty thats around me. see all the things that everyone else is too busy to notice.

and i want to be listening to amazing music while i do.
like elliot smith.

and i know who i want to go with.

[edit]

you have to accept people for who they are
and they decisions they make
you cannot control them
if they have their heart set on doing something, they're gonna do it

its their life, let them live it.

3 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2007 15 January :: 1.37pm
:: Mood: refreshed
:: Music: let it rain - ok go

ukhkjhkj

mmm pot stickers

im so glad i dont have english this week.
ahahaha
and i should be ungrounded by tomorrow

yay

:: 2007 13 January :: 4.24pm
:: Music: Open Face Crab Sandwich - Seaweed Jack

ahhhhh.

too bad seaweed jack is playing on friday.
or else i would go.
that sucks.
stupid catarina.

i want to dance :S

:: 2007 13 January :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: mellow
:: Music: If You Want Blood (You Got It) - AC/DC

today is a lazy day.
its snowing
and i just want to take a nap.

but i have to finish cleaning my room
and write a freaking essay about fear in the media.
poop.

ah well.
i should be ungrounded soon.

crap, i have to remember to do that freaking math binder stuff.

im looking forward to friday :D
ahaha, im pretty pathetic. oh well.

THANK GOD FOR 3 DAY WEEKENDS!
seriously.

:: 2007 12 January :: 10.20pm
:: Mood: sick/calm
:: Music: fruit bats - lazy eye

life is one confusing mofo, but i'm glad i got it sorted out.
im grounded :S
which sucks.
my best friend moved across the state.
boyfriends are trouble :P
haha
bad habits get worse.
stomachs growl louder when you dont feed them.
you dont feed them when you cant find food.
crushes complicate a lot of things.
especially when you cannot stop thinking of them.
college is complicated
high school is complicated
but i cant choose which i like better or want more of.
i want spring.
i want food.
i want st. patricks day to come
i cleaned my room finally.
you re-meet people in the oddest places
ice cream is good, but dont get large. its just too much.
its not hard to make things right with someone.
parents are crazy in good ways :D

ah
well
i dont know
i just felt like i neglect this thing.
and it needed some love.

poisonedheart

:: 2007 6 January :: 11.22pm

I love this site.

It's hardly used by my fellow spokanites anymore, so I don't have to worry about posting how I'm feeling and shit.

That's what I hate about myspace blogs, too many people are on my friend list and some of the things I want to say I just don't want them reading.

poisonedheart

:: 2007 6 January :: 3.06pm

I got rid of all my old entries.

I looked back at them, thought about them, and the end result was a personal catharsis.

:: 2006 15 December :: 2.03pm

We have lingered in the chambers of the sea
By sea-girls wreathed with seaweed red and brown
Till human voices wake us, and we drown.

3 were foolish.. | You wanna play?

:: 2006 10 December :: 4.32pm

i love you skyler.
and i miss you <3

i wish you could come home.

:: 2006 8 December :: 6.56pm

dont take caffeine pills.

they make you sickkkkk..

gahhhhhhhh

can i vomit now?